darkthoughtss

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you can’t expect me to be as vulnerable as I was when it happened

you weren’t the first person I talked to

I won’t open up about my real feelings because it doesn’t feel worth it anymore

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“When someone is going through a storm, your silent presence is more powerful than a million, empty words.”

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hmm..

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I know your darkest secrets.

You’re just as flawed as me.

But how do you hide it so well?

I want to learn your ways.

How do you make everyone think you’re better than ever when you told me you’re not?

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you made me question myself.

am I not good enough?

what am I missing?

and that’s on you.

you were supposed to help me feel whole.

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i’m sorry for making it weird

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“you must’ve felt lonely.. all this time”

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sometimes I wonder if I’m still here because I want myself to suffer

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“Don’t ever feel bad for making a decision that upsets other people. You are not responsible for their happiness. You are responsible for your happiness.”

— Isaiah Henkel 

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i really need someone to pick my side.

someone who will be with me through thick and thin and always have my back.

why does no one ever choose me

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“Let me tell you why you aren’t good enough! I left some pretty good friends back there. And I will forever compare you and everyone else with them. So if you aren’t good enough that means you don’t stand a chance compared to them! I’m looking for someone worth my time, who enjoys my company and appreciates who I am.”

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it feels hopeless

born in a country full of people that does not look like you.. raised in the same environment and by the same norms in that country so you will never fit into the norms of the country where your ethnicities belong..

no one will ever be able to like me for my differences.. right?