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[darlingstarts]

— " emoji asks 💫 " — ♡

🐰 what is one secret that you’ve never told anyone?

not that i can think of--i am an open book after all.

💗 if you could hug anyone, who would it be?

youngjae? maybe even doug or tom? honestly can’t think of anyone particularly that i can’t go and hug right now anyway lmao.

🐹 what are some of your favourite Pokémon and why?

pikachu, squirtle, charmander, roselia, gyrados off the top of my head. and just for the aesthetic tbh lol. 

🌠 if you were in charge of the world, what would the world look like?

probably a lot more equal since i’m such a strong believer in equality. i am a feminist after all.

👀 what was the most recent vivid dream that you had?

i don’t remember. i think i was working in an airport or a school or something like that? there was lots of people. 

☀️ what do you like the most about your best friend?

she makes me laugh. all the freaking time.

💁 if someone was rude to you, would you be rude back?

probably lmao.

🌟 what do you like about yourself? (must choose at least 3 things!)

my personality, my determination, my initiative!

🐾 what are you scared of most? how will you overcome it?

oblivion. never achieving anything in my life. i don’t know--i’m still working on it. 

🎁 what never fails to make you happy?

talking to my friends, watching bap videos, singing and dancing by myself in my underwear.

💙 what annoys you about some people?

arrogance, mostly. 

😤 do you get angry easily?

eh, not really. i think i’m rather patient and understanding.

🐇 what do you always daydream about?

my future family lol. my husband, our kids, what our lives will look like.

🌻 if you could change 3 things about the world what would you change?

the education system, the gender gap, racism. 

✈️ what is your dream city and why?

paris. for all the reasons that everyone loves paris. 

☕️ talk about your ideal day

going outdoors with people that i love. a beach, a hike, anything that lets me feel the sun on my skin and happy in their presence. there would be lots of laughs, lots of memories made and so, so, so many snapchats.

🌸 are you an introvert, ambivert or extrovert?

extrovert, mostly. 

💧 when was the last time you cried?

i cry all the time sooooooooooooo yeah.

🎵 name 5 songs you love at the moment

passionfruit by drake, digital love by hailee steinfield, no more sad songs by little mix, what i like by bruno mars, oh nana by kard.

⚡️ if you had any superpower, what would it be and why?

teleportation--the ability to be anywhere at any moment at the click of my fingers is everything and more.

💛 if you could talk to your younger self, what would you say?

everything will work out in the end and it all happens for a reason. stay strong and keep your head up, you are exactly where you are meant to be. and, you know, DO MORE EXTRACURRICULAR ACTIVITES LMAO FUCK UR PARENTS.

💚 who are you jealous of and why?

no one in particular. i’m more so jealous of an idea of people. people who have their lives together and are happy and content with where they are. thats who i’m jealous of.

💎 which one would you rather have more of: intelligence, beauty, kindness, wealth or bravery? why?

intelligence and kindness. everything else will fade.

🙊 what are you ashamed of?

the thoughts and ideas i once held so close as a younger, less mature person. 

🌺 which languages do you know? which do you want to learn?

i know english and a filipino dialect. i would love to learn french, korean and mandarin/cantonese.

🍀 if you could be any fictional character’s best friend/lover, which fictional character would you be?

MR. BINGLEY LOL.

☁️ talk about your dream universe.

equality. no hate. no sadness. happiness and contentment. honestly. no one bothered with worrying about regrets -- people were just upfront about what they wanted in life. that’s ideal. 

💜 which acts of kindness are you going to do today?

not chop anyone’s head off when i could more than definitely do lol.

🐬 if you could transform into any animal/magical creature, what would you be and why?

MERMAID OFC.

🍄 talk about someone/something you really dislike

obnoxious and arrogant and thinks they are the king of everything with no real backing to it.

😣 talk about some things that have been making you depressed/angry/anxious lately

my job and the boy that i think i’m starting to really like but i’m not even sure, hey.

🍪 what did you want to be as a kid, and what do you want to be now?

i wanted to be a doctor and then a dance and now i’m a project manager, so.

🍰 what are some of your favourite sugary foods?

cupcakes and croissants and bagels!!!!!!

🍑 what are you obsessed with?

myself, hehe. i’m kidding. right now? socks. definitely, socks. 

💘 what happens to you when you’re stressed?

i get quiet and try to work through whatever is making me stress -- my job normally. 

😪 what are you sick of?

my job lol.

🙀 are you an adrenaline seeker?

yes and no? depends, really.

💥 what are some unpopular opinions that you have?

not too sure. equality though it really isn't an unpopular opinion. probably the idea that you can stereotype people? i guess you can funnel them all into a particular idea but everyone is different. there isn’t one rule -- everyone, everywhere, is an exception. 

☔️ would you consider yourself a good person?

yes.

😊 what do you like to do as hobbies?

lol. watch movies and tv shows basically.

🎤 what’s the last song you hummed or sang by yourself?

red summer - red velvet

🐝 what’s your worst trait? how are you planning to improve it?

i have this idea of how people should act based on how i want them to act and get really angry when they don't follow. trying to teach myself to be better at accepting peoples actions.

🎨 what do you always doodle when you’re bored?

stars and hearts.

🐻 what’s stopping you from chasing your dreams?

money, disappointing my parents, fear of rejection and failure. normal stuff. 

🌷 what’s your mbti personality and why do you think it suits you?

i was esfj which i thought suited me but lately i’ve moved into enfp which i think is still debatable. i’m both - i don't really like being put into one idea anyway.

👑 who are your favourite celebrities and why?

douglas booth bc he is my baby and cares and he's beautiful. youngjae bc i love him. lots of people but those are the two i can think of now.

🍋 do you consider yourself an emotional person?

oh hell yeah. 

😔 what do you always do when you feel sad? does it help?

i sleep lol. it does but at the same time it doesn't. i cry a lot too which doesn't help so.

😌 what thoughts keep you going when you’re sad?

this isn't the end - things will always get better

🌍 which country do you live in?

australia!

🐧 describe yourself in 3 words

small, lively, loud

🐵 which quotes changed you?

your current fears do not compare to the glory that is to come.

💭 do you keep a diary?

i wish i had the perseverance to keep one, hey.

💫 who inspires you?

people who have their lives together and keep going even when things are hard.

👻 do you believe in ghosts and why?

i do bc its cool lol.

🎀 what’s your fashion sense like?

somewhere between varsity, comfortable, preppy and idk what else. i dress whatever i feel like wearing. 

🎬 what are some of your favourite films?

clueless, hercules, the dark knight, uhhhh and others that i can't remember. 

🐼 if you could meet anyone, who would it be and why?

the pope, definitely.

[darlingstarts]

— " fairytale inspired " — ♡

Snow White: Do you consider yourself pretty?

is it bad to say yes? at least most of the time, yes. 

Sleeping Beauty: How many hours do you sleep each night?

i try to get a solid 7 to 9 in.

Cinderella: Do you have a curfew?

not really. i set myself a bedtime of 10pm every week night though.

Rapunzel: Do you like being outside?

absolutely. i love being lazy in the sunshine. 

Little Red Riding Hood: Do you trust strangers easily?

yes and no? really depends on the stranger themselves. 

The Wolf and the seven little Goats: Are you easily fooled?

entirely so, yes. i am very gullible. 

The seven Ravens: Do you have any siblings? How is your relationship to them?

one. its strong enough--he is the actual oldest though often times i act as if it is me. he has my back though and i try my best to have his.

Beauty and the Beast: What makes a person beautiful in your eyes?

an honesty and acceptance that life isn’t perfect and that you need to continue to work on yourself to achieve true happiness. and, of course, that happiness is and always will be achievable. 

The Little Mermaid: What sacrifice would you bring for love?

not too sure, really. haven't given it much thought.

The Frog prince: What do you find disgusting?

arrogance.

Jack and the Beanstalk: What plants are in your room?

none lmao.

Puss in Boots: Do you have a pet? Do you want one?

no and no.

Rumpelstiltskin: What is the meaning of your url?

my actual tumblr is just my name in pig latin. my survey blog is just a random mix of two pretty words lmao.

Bluebeard: Name one character flaw!

indecision! anxiety! fear of the unknown!

Pinocchio: What is your greatest wish?

happiness in myself.

Peter Pan: What is your (mental) age?

sometimes i’m 50, sometimes i’m 5 but most of the time i’m 23.

Golden Mary and Pitch Mary: Are you more of a lazy person or do you work hard?

i’m a lazy hard worker.

The Snow Queen: Who is your best friend and what would you do for them?

selina, and i don't really know. a lot, really.

Godfather Death: What qualities do you think make a good parent?

understanding and patience.

The Twelve Dancing Princesses: Do you like to go on parties?

definitely.

The Emperor’s New Clothes: Do you care much about your clothes?

yeah, i do lmao.

The Valiant Little Tailor: Do you think of yourself as brave?

not as brave as others but brave enough for me.

The Princess and the Pea: Are you a squeamish person?

not really?

[darlingstarts]

— " greek myth asks " — ♡

zeus: if you could have one power, what would it be?

teleportation, no argument. it would cut so much out of my travel budget plus i would never, ever, ever be late for anything lmao. i would more than happily give up the option of reading minds or super strength if i could just teleport wherever i wanted, whenever i wanted. 

poseidon: do you prefer the ocean or land?

the ocean. i love the ocean. there’s a sense of peace that can only really be found in the depths of water.

apollo: what are your favorite pieces of poetry?

that’s hard. as cliche’d as it sounds, i have always loved the balcony scene of romeo and juliet. 

I take thee at thy word. Call me but love, and I’ll be new baptised. Henceforth I never will be Romeo.

aphrodite: do you believe in true love?

of course.

athena: what are your favorite classic novels?

the picture of dorian grey, to kill a mocking bird, emma. 

ares: are you a confrontational person?

sort of, not really. i don’t seek it but i will stand my ground should the moment present itself necessary. 

artemis: do you prefer night or day?

both, i think?

hestia: where do you live or want to live?

paris, definitely comes to mind. london would be cool; new york as well. i think i just want to live in a busy, populated metropolitan area. 

demeter: do you enjoy nature?

definitely.

persephone: what’s your favorite season?

summer, most definitely.

hades: do you believe in an afterlife?

i do.

hephaestus: what do you enjoy making?

other people happy.

hermes: where do you want to travel that you’ve never been before?

new york. portugal, turkey. machu picchu. the mediterranean. 

odysseus: what’s your favorite place to travel?

somewhere between greece and france. anywhere with sunshine and a coast/beach.

echo: what’s something you can’t stop talking about?

lmao, bap???? iron fist???? BEAUTY AND THE BEAST??????

narcissus: what’s your best trait?

i’m a good listener that doesn’t start shit.

icarus: what’s your fatal flaw?

i’m lazy as shit.

orpheus: what’s your favorite song or type of music?

that’s hard. i like anything you can sing along or dance to tbh.

eurydice: what’s something you regret?

not doing more with my younger self. 

[darlingstarts]

— " asks " — ♡

Moth ❧ What do you find attractive in a person?

the acceptance of life, i think. a sort of accepted honesty that sometimes things just don’t work out and that’s okay. things always get better and you just have to work towards being a better you; a better future.

Doll ❧ do you collect anything?

make up, lipstick, shoes, clothes??????

Gravestone ❧ Have you lost anyone important to you?

almost all my grandparents and two of my uncles.

Roses ❧ Are you in love?

not yet.

Paper ❧ What are you currently reading?

room by emma donoghue

Locket ❧ Take a selfie.

okay.

Milk ❧ describe your family.

very close knit and very, very traditional. 

Dust ❧ Talk about your past.

i’ve grown up a lot from the person i once was. she was much happier, i think, with far less responsibilities and general fears of the world. she genuinely seemed excited for things to come. i still am, i think, but sometimes i’m more scared than not.

Bible ❧ What are your moral views?

i’m a catholic, devoutly so, but i will not and refuse to ever impose my beliefs on anyone else. they are views that i use to live my own life and no one else’s. i think as long as you aren’t hurting yourself and you aren’t hurting anyone else, you’re doing fine.

Lace ❧ What kind of clothing do you wear?

whatever i’m comfortable in, really.

Angel ❧ What are your religious views?

see above.

Dagger ❧ Tell one secret you have.

i don’t know what i’m doing.

Statue ❧ Who is your favorite artist?

van gogh, definitely. leonardo as well.

Candle ❧ what is your favorite scent?

fresh laundry, green tea, the ocean.

Absinthe ❧ do you drink?

i probably should cut down soon.

Casket ❧ do you believe in an afterlife?

definitely.

[darlingstarts]

— " ocean asks " — ♡

pearl: if you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?

okinawa, japan/santorini, greece/seoul, south korea/oahu, hawaii because they’re my favourite places in the world.

sails: describe your perfect partner.

someone who is understanding, someone who makes the effort, someone who can take a joke and throw one back, someone who knows their priorities, someone kind, someone loving, someone grateful, someone humble. 

lighthouse: how much makeup do you wear?

lmao, a lot tbh.

shells: would you prefer to be a vampire or a werewolf?

vampire.

mermaid: most embarrassing moment?

too fucking many to even think about, hey.

turquoise: weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

again, too many to think about lol.

waves: favourite season and why?

summer. i love sunshine and fresh air and the breeze and that generally freeing feeling that comes with knowing it is summer.

breakers: would you ever consider getting married?

100%

seafoam: describe your ideal summer vacation.

me and people i love hanging out on a beach, chilling.

rain: if it were possible, what exotic animal would you keep as a pet?

ROSELIA!!!!!!!

sunlight: least favourite song?

i dont really know tbh?

marine: would you ever consider plastic surgery?

definitely. i’m actually seriously considering a nose job now. 

sea glass: what do you consider to be your best physical feature?

smile and boobs lmao.

storm: do you like piercings and tattoos? Why or why not?

personally, i do. i like the art and meaning that comes with tattoos and the artistic vision of piercings. 

boardwalk: who is your favourite fictional couple?

clintasha!!!!!!, patrochilles, merther, frary

coral: if you had to describe your personality as a food, what would you be and why?

gyros lmao jk. like.... a cake probably?

nymph: old-fashioned or modern decor?

minimalism.

seawater: scariest movie you’ve ever watched?

dead silence

siren: in a fantasy setting, would you be a warrior, rogue or mage?

mage, probably.

tempest: your favourite Pokemon?

charizard, eevee, roselia, pikachu!!!!

tropic: what is your least favourite thing about your appearance?

weight

aquamarine: describe your dream date.

an amusement park date or just hanging out watching a movie and getting to know each other

brine: gold or silver?

gold

tidal: what is a colour that best describes your personality?

pastels

azure: what is something that you do that makes you happy?

reading

fog: describe where you think you’ll be in five years.

married, with a child on the way, comfortable in my job and career, well travelled, content but also yearning to do more (to always be doing more)

coastline: what is your favourite flower?

roses

shallows: what is your typical Starbucks order?

venti caramel macchiato with an extra espresso shot, grande iced chai latte, tall iced passed lemon tea

voyage: what are your favourite names?

raphael, melanie, eloise, olivier, james, jessica

shipwreck: do you have an OC? If so, describe them.

i have a lot. camila comes to mind because she is everything that i aspire to be. strong willed, thick headed with such a strong belief in the humanity of people that she fights for those that cannot. she is a feminist, a fighter, a make up guru and so much more. she has flaws, many of them, but she learns to better herself through the people and love around her. by far one of my favourites. 

cerulean: do you believe in true love?

definitely.

shoreline: if you could become fluent in another language, which would you pick and why?

french, for international work purposes, and korean, because i’ve always wanted to know how to speak korean, mandarin/cantonese, because that would be so bomb 

tsunami: describe a dream outfit of yours.

this.

riptide: are you introverted or extroverted? Are you happy with this?

extroverted, most of the time. i’m happy with this i just wish i had a better grasp of going between the versions.

hurricane: describe a strange habit of yours.

i make faces a lot, especially when i’m alone/think no one is watching.

[darlingstarts]

— " cute botanical asks!! " — ♡

baby’s breath: 5 things you associate yourself with:

activism, bap, strong female characters, popcorn, my family.

bleeding heart: what makes you heart go mushy?

kindness. respect. gentleness. a good sense of humour.

bell flower: what’s the title of the song that makes you want to jump around out of joy?

crash - bap. also take you there - bap. basically anything by bap.

evening primrose: what’s your sleeping playlist (give me 5 songs)?

december - ariana grande, hello mello - btob, i wont say i’m in love - hercules ost, nobody love - tori kelly, love yourself - justin bieber.

daffodil: what is one plant that you want to have but can never get?

tulips.

calla lily: are you more of a sunny day or a rainy evening?

sunny day, definitely.

foxglove: what is your favorite color and in what shade?

pale sky blue. blush pink is a definite second.

lavender: what is something that you’ve always wanted to be/have/get but can never have?

happy. and its not so much that i cant ever have it; i’m still working towards it. its what i’ll always want to be regardless of everything else.

love in a mist: what is the latest dream that you remember?

lmao, a dream with douglas booth. bye.

daisy: what is your favorite flavor of cotton candy, ice cream, and juice?

pink, vanilla, sweet orange.

painter’s palette: are you more of a singer, dancer, painter, or instrumentalist?

dancer, without question.

tulip: what is your most favorite make-up product? do you like it more natural, dark, or etc?

lipstick. either, depending on the mood and event. i just love make up in general.

waxflower: are you a bee or a butterfly person? a dog or a cat person?

butterfly; dog.

sugarbush: do you have sweet tooth? if yes, what’s your favorite sweets? if no, why?

quite a bit. i love ice cream, cheesecake, red velvet cake, coffee cake, banana muffins, scones, crossaints. baked goods in general.

sunflower: would you like to be a fairy or a mermaid?

mermaid--though, is there not a world where i cant be both?

sweet pea: what would you like to call your significant other?

mine. oh, that is lame. i would probably just be saying babe a lot. or a short version of his name.

sea lavender: can you swim? which strokes can you do?

well enough.

golden rod: are you more of a baker or a cook?

both, when the occasion calls for it.

bloom: what is something that you would like to tell your children?

never, ever feel like you are not loved and cared for. you are a priority; always will be. don’t feel like you are alone in this world. don’t feel like you have to face hardship without help. always know that you are loved.

peony: what is something that you wish your parents could’ve told you?

things will always get better (they did start telling me this eventually).

prairie gentian: do you have a significant other?

does yjay count? (no.)

september flower: are you more of a sunshine or sunset person?

both. sunshine, however, seems to be a better answer.

bird of paradise: do you wake up early? do you sleep early?

neither.

marigold: what’s your favorite tea?

earl grey and peppermint.

lilac: would you rather sleep and be cozy or hang out with your friends?

can’t i sleep and be cozy with my friends?

poppy: do you like to dip your fries or do you like it as is?

as is.

dandelion: any special talent that you have?

an undeniable talent of fucking up everything good in my life--better known as foot in mouth syndrome.

[darlingstarts]

— " aesthetic " — ♡

1: what color do you talk in?

on one spectrum, pastels. soft pinks and blues. on the other end bright and vibrant red. scorching, blinding.

2: what songs do you think people remember you by?

ridiculously pop songs. songs you can sing to; dance to.

3:if you could take claim for any invention, which would it be?

candles, i think.

4:radio or mp3?

mp3.

5:what movie character would you choose to be your parent and why?

clint barton and natasha romanoff.

6:if people floated instead of walking, how far off the ground would you be?

in the air. i mean, i’ve always had my head in the clouds, it would only make sense that my body would physically be the same.

7:choose a song to live off of.

love myself - hailee steinfield. 

8:would you rather have clouds for feet or suns for hands?

sun for hands. i want to smile so bright; live so bright; be such a shine in life that the sun radiates from my hands.

9:is your phone charged enough?

almost!

10:if you could choose one person to protect with your life, who would it be?

my parents; brother; cousins; friends. too many people. 

11:if you had to choose one person to be protected by, who would they be?

my brother.

12:what book do you need to read?

pride and prejudice and zombies.

13:who saved your life?

youngjae, lmao. i’m kidding. heechul, maybe. 

14:CDs or vinyl?

neither, in my opinion.

15:if you could only repeat words said by one person, who would you want to be echoing?

nora roberts. “If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.”

16:do you like feeling tall?

i wouldnt know. i’m too used to be small; i have become far too accustomed to expect much else. 

17:do you like wearing other people's shirts?

not really. it feels weird for some reason. 

18:if you could breathe music, which artist would you choose to inhale and which would you choose to exhale?

i would inhale bap and exhale bap. 

19:would you rather have hair that changes color with emotion or get injured each time you're touched by the person you love?

hair colour, definitely.

20:what are the promises you've made to yourself?

be better; do bettter. always be blindingly happy. you will belong to someone one day, you just have to wait. it will all make sense in the end.

21:if your family died, whose house would you go to for safety and reassurance?

my aunts.

22:what wouldn't you do to help a friend?

i’m unsure, really.

23:if you had to choose one music artist, actor, or author to become your mentor, who would it be?

mentor? yongguk. his grasp on life is refreshing and he is exactly who i want to aspire to be.

24:who do you admire most in the world? why?

my parents. their strength and determination will never stop being amazing to me.

25:what are songs that make you want to become the sky?

when you’re in one of those good moods and you listen to this one song and you feel like nothing could possibly go wrong in that moment. those are the kind of songs that make me want to become part of the sky. right now, my sky song is starving - hailee steinfield. 

26:would you rather be the night sky or the day sky?

dusk. that moment just before the sun goes down where the sky is painted a gorgeous purple and orange. that time of day is my favourite. 

26:would you rather be the sky or the earth?

sky.

27:would you rather be the earth or the moon?

moon.

28:would you rather be the moon or the sun?

sun.

29:if you had to change your name to something else, what would you change it to? why?

it is unlikely that i ever would but i’ve always taken a liking to the name cindy (perhaps, because, it would be short for cinderella).

30:are your hands cold?

they were.

31:if you had to choose three articles of clothing to keep for the next three years of your life, what would they be?

black skinny jeans, white top, green bomber jacket.

32:monet or da vinci?

da vinci.

33:van gogh or michelangelo?

michelangelo.

34:if you were a teacher, what would you assign to your class as their first project?

a presentation on why your favourite disney movie is the best disney movie (there is no right answer, i would just want to see the passion that would be there). 

35:how do you pronounce 'crayon'?

cray-on.

36:have you ever wanted to be invisible?

it would be a very cool super power.

37:have you ever wanted to be everywhere?

constantly.

38:if you could change any one thing about your current surroundings, what would it be?

my husband would be with me. 

39:do you hear things in layers or all at once?

it depends on the thing itself. sometimes in layers, sometimes not. 

40:neon light or natural light?

natural.

41:if you could choose one instrument to master overnight, which would it be?

definitely piano.

[darlingstarts]

— " tag ten people " — ♡

Zodiac Sign → Capricorn

Which of the 7 Deadly Sins fits you best? → Sloth/Envy

When picking a brownie, do you pick the middle, side, or corner piece?→ corner piece!!!! 

Ocean or Space? → more educationally interested in space, more comfortable being in the ocean

List your OTP’s here, as many as you can think of! → too many to count!!! 

Hogwarts House → Self placed SlytherClaw, Pottermore placed Slytherin, everything else placed (and self hating) Gryffindor

What is your aesthetic? → ladies supporting other ladies

What’s something that can always make you laugh? → dumb bap videos and the damn daniel meme

Aliens or ghosts? → ghosts

If you could live in any past era, what one would it be? → ancient greece i think

Would you ever swim with sharks? →  nope

What’s your favorite word?  → tulips

Favorite band? → bap and mamamoo

Have you ever wondered, even for a moment, what another human tastes like? → god no

Fire or ice? → fire

What’s your favorite romantic trope? → childhood bestfriends to lovers / “you are my every exception”

What’s your favorite quote of all time? → “If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.” / “i do believe in fate and destiny, but i also believe we are only fated to do the things that we’d choose anyway.and i’d choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, i’d find you and i’d choose you”

What’s your favorite holiday? → christmas!

How far would you go to keep the person or thing you love the most? → honestly, who knows, but i would go as far as they would want to go. i’m not going to force anyone to love me.

Who or what are you most loyal to? → myself / my parents

What’s your favorite flower? → roses

Favorite amusement park ride? → hm, not sure. i love horror houses

Favorite board game? → monopoly and cards against humanity!

What’s your favorite meme? → damn daniel / basically anything from simpsons

Favorite ice cream flavor? → french vanilla!!!!!

Disney character you are going to FIGHT: → lady tremaine!!!!

Last book you read/book you are currently reading → last book i read was dracula, currently reading lolita

What characters are your “children,” so to speak? → none????

Favorite comic series? → house of m 

Favorite Tim Burton movie? → corpse bride / big fish / edward scissorhands?????

What character, and it can only be one character, do you ship yourself with? → LOKI LMAO

[darlingstarts]

— " talk about rather than ask me " — ♡

1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie.

I don’t really remember. There was never a point where I was watching it and suddenly though to myself, ‘oh. this is my favourite movie!’ It was more along the lines of my trying to list my faves and realising that these few movies are ones that I’ve seen over and over and over again. Movies that I can quote from the top of my head. Hercules, being one. Clueless, is another. I also loved Dark Knight a lot. 

2:Talk about your first kiss.

I don’t remember it either and honestly, there are times, where I’m not sure when my first kiss truly was. I think I kissed a boy before I was 10 but I don’t know if that was my mind making up memories. My first kiss that I can remember was when I was 13 and it was aggressive and really not that great.

3:Talk about the person you've had the most intense romantic feelings for.

I’m the kind of person where each and every love is different. I’ve never felt this way before, is relevant to every new person that I allow myself to feel something towards. And, in a way, that’s probably the answer to this. I haven’t had intense romantic feelings for someone. At least, not in a crazy way. I think about the future a lot. I guess that counts. 

4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far.

Getting attached when I shouldn’t be. Oh, and, basically all the times I’ve gotten black out drunk and became an idiot :--------)

5:Talk about the best birthday you've had.

I don’t necessarily have a best birthday since they’re all very great to me.

6:Talk about the worst birthday you've had

The year my brother and grandma forgot it was my birthday lol.

7:Talk about your biggest insecurity.

My personality. I can change my physical appearance (with the right motivation, of course) but I can’t change my personality. I’m incredibly sarcastic and mean, even, when I want to be. 

8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of.

Just how far I’ve come from the person I used to be. I never thought I would be this person and though I still have a lot to go, I’m glad to be able to be given the opportunity.

9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.

I like my curves, mostly. I’m naturally hourglassed shaped, thankfully, with proportionate breasts and hips. People have said they like my boobs, but I don’t. I like my smile a lot, as well. 

10:Talk about the biggest fight you've ever had.

In, like, year 10 or something when my entire freaking life came crashing down on me. YOLO.

11:Talk about the best dream you've ever had.

Two, both involving Youngjae. The first was us at an award show and we were walking the red carpet. We both looked amazing and the crowds loved us. Later on, when I won an award for something, I bought him up on stage and he was just the cutest thing in the entire world.

Second, we were babysitting his nieces and took them for a walk to the park. A cute old lady stopped us to tell us that we had a beautiful family. I was about to correct her, to tell her that they weren’t ours, they were his nieces when he suddenly says “Thank you. My wife and I are proud of our daughters” 

12:Talk about the worst dream you've ever had.

I don’t remember nightmares. I remember, maybe, not being able to breathe during but not the dream itself. 

13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time.

So this is sort of like my first kiss where I don’t know if I lost my virginity at a younger age because I don’t remember. The first time in my head, probably, was a week or so after I turned 18. Same old story; meet a guy in the clubs, get pissed drunk, get a hotel room, probably have sex, go back. He almost had a fight with my cousins because apparently we went missing for an hour and we forgot to tell anyone. lol. My bad. BUT YEAH. I was completely drunk so I don’t remember if anything actually happened that night. I’m pretty sure something did. IDK. 

First real time? Probably a few months ago. It was the first time I had had sex sober, which is probably why I would sort of count it. Because I know FOR SURE it happened. Same boring thing, I guess. Sex bores me, I realised. I like making out but sex itself is just... ceebs. Lol. But yeah, netflix and chill and yeah. YEAH. Don’t really know what else to say except that, like, the making out part was probably the best bit and like, getting naked, was pretty bomb as well but the actual... like... sex part of it was really boring and could not have taken longer (though I realised that that was like... less than ten minutes so it was over pretty quickly. YEAH.)

14:Talk about a vacation.

Hawaii has my heart, and so does Korea, and just. I love to travel. I LOVE ALL MY VACATIONS.

15:Talk about the time you were most content in life.

Like, that one weekend where I just felt really skinny, and really happy, and really complete. I was just hanging out with my family but it was the best time I’ve had in a really long time. 

16:Talk about the best party you've ever been to.

All the debuts I went to during my last year of high school.

17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with.

Don’t really know, hey. I just want to be friends with more people. I just want to widen my network.

18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school.

Shit my pants once. It was fucked up.

19:Talk about something that happened in middle school.

Uh, made out with a guy in a store change room, got caught, got kicked out, continued to make out with him in the car park. Fuck. I’m a terrible person HAHAHAH.

20:Talk about something that happened in high school.

Told a dude that I wanted to give our relationship a try, he told like seven billion people we were dating when we were just seeing each other, broke up with him like a day later because of it. 

21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down.

THIS IS A FUCKED UP STORY BUT I GOTTA TELL IT. Anyway, we were bestfriends for basically like 2/3 of high school and it was pretty obvious he had feelings for me. Every time that I got the feeling that he was starting to get interested in dating me again, I would always find a guy to talk about to him so that he thinks that he didn’t have a chance. First time happened in year 11, after Brian, and I was a little bit heartbroken and he was just... really clingy for that period. He sort of confessed to me but I had to turn him down because, like I said, I was a little heart broken. So I ‘best friend’ broke up with him. Told him I needed my space.

Fast forward a year to camp and one night, fuck if I know why, I took him aside and we went to go hang out away from everyone else for a while and I told him that I had feelings for him (FUCKING HELL?????? IDK???? WHY???? I SAID THAT?????) and so we were sort of dating for, like, a day. Apparently he went back to his dorm all happy, lmao. The next day he came over to our room and we just hung out for a bit, cuddled and shit. But then that night I realized that I couldn’t do it anymore, lmao. I don’t remember how or what but I broke up with him. Like, properly broke up with him. Apparently he cried in his dorm. Then cried the next day on the bus when I fell asleep on Christian’s shoulder. (I told him I couldn’t date him because I still had feelings for Christian HAHAHAHAHA I’M A STONE COLD BITCH I KNOW, I KNOW). AND YEAH.

There’s that. 

22:Talk about your worst fear.

Not... amounting to anything that I have for myself. Like achieving my goals or becoming the person I want to be. That’s my greatest fear.

23:Talk about a time someone turned you down.

Gave a dude my number and he flat out asked me why he would need it. I FUCKING DIED. OH MY GOD. 

24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

When people tell me how much they love me. I’m not being, like, narcissistic or anything but I just like to hear it. That I mean something to someone. That means a lot to me. 

25:Talk about an ex-best friend.

I don’t do well with best friends. When someone calls me their best friend and, like, I’m not ready to call them my best friend, I ‘break up’ with them. I end the relationship. So, I don’t know. Almira was my primary school best friend, or at least she called me her best friend. Same thing for Michelle. Andrew, I guess.

26:Talk about things you do when you're sick.

Lie and whinge about my inability to breathe, lol.

27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else's body.

I really like #thanksderrick’s butt. 

28:Talk about your fetishes.

I don’t think I have a fetish. Getting caught, maybe? I always liked the idea of doing it when there’s someone in the room over (not someone important to me, of course) or in public. 

29:Talk about what turns you on.

A really good personality. That shit is like, instant. Intelligence, always. Gentle, forgettable touches. Just like, having a hand on my knee or just leaning against me. Little things like that. Butts (see above) and shoulders, clavicles, SMALL WAISTS IDK I LIKE THE DORITO. Someone polite, as well! Like, he cares about me while we’re doing it. That shit turns me on, yas. 

30:Talk about what turns you off.

Being rude/an asshole.

31:Talk about what you think death is like.

Falling asleep and just never waking up.

32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.

I’ve basically forgotten most of my childhood memories, just because I’m getting older. I’ll always remember my Woodcroft suburb though. It was where I grew up for five or so years. It was a good place. A nice place. 

33:Talk about what you do when you are sad.

I normally sleep. I don’t want to deal with the sadness, so I sleep.

34:Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.

I was less than 8 and shaved my skin off. Yeah.

35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.

A lot. Overthinking. Randomly remembering embarrassing things. Apologising for no reason. Being weird as shit; putting my foot in my mouth sort of thing. I don’t know. The list could go on.

36:Talk about your guilty pleasures.

I don’t really think I have one. Probably listening to Youngjae’s birthday message. I like his talking voice. Probably watching any movie with Doug in it, haha. 

37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with.

Basically every person I have ever said I was in love with. I don’t know, I guess it’s always the same thing. I think they’re different, they’ll make a difference. An exception sort of thing. But, you know, it doesn’t work out. Shit happens and life goes on. Whatever. 

38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people.

U Smile will always remind me of K, which I hate because I love that song. Any song by CCR plus Puff The Magic Dragon reminds me of my dad. I’m Not The Only One always reminds me of my mum. The list goes on and on.

39:Talk about things you wish you'd known earlier.

There is always a tomorrow.

40:Talk about the end of something in your life

My relationship with my high school group. I guess time just drifts people apart and there’s not much you can do about it.

[darlingstarts]

— " distract me pls " — ♡

Is there a boy/girl in your life?

No, but I would like for a particular boy to be part of my life.

Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?

Yeah? Mostly because I don’t remember who the last person that hurt me was.

What do you think of when you hear the word "meow”?

Cats? wtf HAHA.

What's something you really want right now?

Korean BBQ and a burger and, omg, could totally go for some milktea.

Are you afraid of falling in love?

Simply, yes. But it’s not so much falling in love that I’m afraid of but accepting love.

Do you like the beach?

Love is a better word.

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?

Yeah, my cousins.

What’s the background on your cell?

Lock screen is a magazine scan of Sulli, home screen is Youngjae.

Name the last four beds you were sat on?

Mine (Philippines), Ate Ash, #thanksderrick, Mine (home)

Do you like your phone?

Yeah, I actually do.

Honestly, are things going the way you planned?

Sort of? I don’t tend to make plans because they raise expectations and bring disappointments.

Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?

Work related people.

Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler?

Neither. I’m not a dog person lmao.

Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?

Definitely emotional.

Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?

Art museum.

Are you tired?

Sort of? I’m not physically tired but I’m a little emotionally tired.

How long have you known your 1st phone contact?

Aunty Zeena

Are they a relative?

My aunt.

Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?

Nope. No ex is worth going back to. Plus, you know, I don’t really have a proper ex, so. 

When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?

Like the night that I last kissed them?

If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?

Definitely. At least in a civil wedding, I would need more time to plan my actual wedding.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Yeah, probably. JOKES YEAH I TOTALLY WOULD OMG.

How many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?

None. I’m not really a bracelet fan.

Is there a certain quote you live by?

For your current sufferings do not compare to the glory that is to come -- Romans 8:18 

What's on your mind?

A lot of things. I’m trying to turn my thoughts off right now, actually.

Do you have any tattoos?

1, right now. I’m planning to get a few more over the next year.

What is your favorite color?

Pastel blue and pink and purple.

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?

No idea actually.

Who are you texting?

No one right now.

Think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?

OKAY Y’ALL NEED TO CHILL, but, yes. 

Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?

Yeah, haha. I had a bad feeling and then like a few hours later I was dumped. Haha. 

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?

Yeah.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?

I REALLY HOPE SO.

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?

My bestfriend has.

Say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?

I would actually be a little sad but like why? It’s not like we’re anything. BUT STILL.

Were you single on Valentines Day?

Yup.

Are you friends with the last person you kissed?

Sort-of-not-really?

What do your friends call you?

Nads, gonads, etc

Has anyone upset you in the last week?

Uh, no. Not in the last week, no.

Have you ever cried over a text?

Not that I can think of.

Where's your last bruise located?

On my leg.

What is it from?

No idea.

Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?

Right here, right now.

Who was the last person you were on the phone with?

My dad.

Do you have a favourite pair of shoes?

I have multiple.

Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?

Yup.

Would you ever go bald if it was the style?

God, no.

Do you make supper for your family?

Sometimes.

Does your bedroom have a door?

Yup.

Top 3 web-pages?

Probably twitter, tumblr, youtube.

Do you know anyone who hates shopping?

My brothers and like all the guys in my family.

Does anything on your body hurt?

My upper back and my neck, right now.

Are goodbyes hard for you?

Yup. I find them awkward.

What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?

Split a bit of water on myself earlier today.

How is your hair?

Short and blonde.

What do you usually do first in the morning?

Shower.

Do you think two people can last forever?

If they both put in the effort and try, definitely.

Think back to January 2007, were you single?

Yes? I think.

Green or purple grapes?

I don’t really like grapes.

When's the next time you will give someone a BIG hug?

Probably next Tuesday when I get back to Sydney.

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?

I wish I was home. Sydney.

When will be the next time you text someone?

Probably tomorrow morning.

Where will you be 5 hours from now?

Sleeping, haha.

What were you doing at 8 this morning?

Working.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?

Honestly? No. Youngjae, probably.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?

My family and bestfriends.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today?

Nope.

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

How tired I was.

Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

Yup.

How many windows are open on your computer?

Four: Chrome, iTunes, iMessage, uTorrent

How many fingers do you have?

10

What is your ringtone?

Generic ring.

How old will you be in 5 months?

22 and five months.

Where is your Mum right now?

Probably in bed back in Sydney.

Why aren't you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?

Honestly, I don’t think I have a first love. I haven’t truly loved someone. My first kiss, I definitely did not love. My first almost boyfriend, didn’t love either. The guy I was stuck over like all of high school? God no. I feel like my husband will be my first love.

Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?

No.

Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?

Most of them, yes.

Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?

Honestly, no.

Is there anyone you know with the name Mike?

A few older family friends.

Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?

Almost but not quite.

How many people have you liked in the past three months?

Just one? I don’t even know if I really like him as well lol.

Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?

I don’t think so?

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

Nope.

You're drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, youre with?

Probably Santi.

If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care?

Within reason. As long as they’re not killing themselves, it wouldn’t matter a lot to me.

What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?

I don’t remember. Probably me crying?

Who was your last received call from?

My dad.

If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?

Yeah, probably.

What is something you wish you had more of?

Money and height hahahahah.

Have you ever trusted someone too much?

Basically my entire high school life.

Do you sleep with your window open?

Nope.

Do you get along with girls?

Yeah. I love girls.

Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?

Nope.

Does sex mean love?

It could but it doesn’t have to.

You're locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?

Nope. It would be really great actually hahahahahahahahahahahha bye.

Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?

Nope. Not really... into... that stuff...

Did you sleep alone this week?

Nope. I share a room with my cousin.

Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?

Lot’s of people.

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Definitely.

Who was the last person that you pinky promise?

Probably a baby cousin, idk. 

[darlingstarts]

— " send me a number " — ♡

Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

Probably not. I guess it depends on their personality and level of maturity. I’m not really looking for anything fun. I want to settle down--what kind of 18 year old would be thinking the same thing, right? Plus, you know, I would be like 5 or 6 years older and that just... creeps me out. 

Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

Both? It’s more about personality.

Would you ever smile at a stranger?

All the time.

Can you commit to one person?

I would like to think so, yes. But, I mean, I’ve never really been in a proper enough relationship to truly know. Not that I’m saying I’m polygamous or that I’m a cheater, I just don’t know if I believe in monogamy just yet. I do like the idea of it, though. 

How do you look right now?

Flawless, as always. HAHAHAHHAHHAAHA. 

What exactly are you wearing right now?

UNIQLO button up, Mango black satin shorts. 

How often do you listen to music?

Basically always. I can’t do anything without music in the background.

Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Jeans. Or, both? I’m transitioning to both right now.

Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2016?

There’s only 26 days left to 2015 and, honestly, I really hope so. REALLY, REALLY, HOPE SO.

Are you a social or an antisocial person?

Depends on my mood and who I’m with. If I’m comfortable enough, I can be a social butterfly. If not, then I’d prefer to just sit and not do anything. 

If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

Nothing? I can’t control anyones feelings. I would probably just be sad about it for a long time. 

Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Yeah? It’s not so much hiding as it is just not saying anything. It depends. 

Can you drive a stick shift?

Nope. No intentions to learn, either.

Do you care if people talk badly about you?

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA OH GOD YES I HAVE A TERRIBLE INSECURITY ABOUT THAT STUFF MY BAD

Are you going out of town soon?

I’m leaving for Sydney in ten days.

When was the last time you cried?

Last week I think? When I was overwhelmed with stress.

Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

Oh, god, yes. What the fuck man, it was crazy.

If you could change your eye color, would you?

I’m not like really keen to change but I mean if I had the option, I would love grey eyes. 

Name something you have to do tomorrow?

Christmas shop.

Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.

It’s moving really slow and I’m being really lazy.

Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?

It’s actually the reason why I don’t have a guy bestfriend anymore. 2 MANY FEELZ.

Are you nice to everyone?

As much as I can be. Being nice is so rare and I know how much it sucks when someone isn’t nice to you, so I try. 

What are you sitting on right now?

A chair?

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Yes. I’m not a cheater, I would never cheating and I have no respect for anyone that does.

Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

RIGHT NOW MAYBE SORT OF?????? HAHAHAKSHDAKJHFGD.

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

Idk hey. My cousin, I think?

Do you get a lot of colds?

Not full blown ones. My immune system hates me and I’m sort of always a little sick, hey.

Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

OH GOD NO, I WOULD DIE.

Does anyone hate you?

Not that I know of? I hope not, either.

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

Nope.

Do you like watching scary movies?

I don’t love them because I don’t find them scary? Like, most movies are pretty lame.

Are you a jealous person?

Terribly so.

If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Probably 2012-2013 l o l. 

Did you have a dream last night?

Yeah, a fucked up swamp/haunted house dream featuring Big Time Rush. IDEFK.

Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

Selina, probably. 

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

I hope so.

Do you think someone has feelings for you?

I HOPE SO OH MY GOD.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

My mum heheheheheheh.

Did you have a good day yesterday?

Yeah, good enough, I guess.

Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?

Nope.

Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

Not really. It was a lot more chaotic two years ago and I think I’m in a better place now.

If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

PROBABLY HAVING SEX HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Jokes. Idk. Cuddle? I like cuddles. (That felt fucking gay oh my god). 

What’s the best part about school?

Mates. And, well, I always liked learning.

Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?

A lot.

Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?

LAME.

Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

ALL THE FUCKING TIME ITS A TERRIBLE HABIT I HAVE.

Were you single over the last summer?

Yup.

What are you supposed to be doing right now?

Work. Hah aH kjah akjshdfad ha,

[darlingstarts]

— " instead of ask me, tell me a story " — ♡

Why you’re single

I mean, I could definitely be cliche’d and say that my first boyfriend or whatever hurt me and I’ve just been guarded ever since. But, you know, that wouldn’t necessarily be true. So, the honest truth is I’m a little bit of a commitment-phobe. It’s scary. Don’t you think? To commit your entire life to one single person. To introduce them to your parents, your friends, your family, to everything that is you. All your secrets are theirs, all your favourites, dislikes, fears, dreams, they’re officially shared with another person. Isn’t that the scariest thing in the world? This person wants you--everyday--no matter what. And you have to be so honest about it. I mean, what is a relationship if it isn’t truthful. And, that scares me. I have to explain so much of my life and who I am and hope they stay? I have to be honest about so many things and they have to be honest too. And just. I don’t know. I was never the type of ‘dating without a future’ sort of person so to me, anyway, being in a relationship is kind of like scouting your future husband? I mean, I don’t want to date someone I can’t see myself marrying. That’s just a complete waste of time, right? And that scares me even more. This is the guy that I am going to take all of my vacations with, have children with, take to events, buy a house with, be comfortable enough to fart and whatever else????? It’s scary. I think that’s why I’m single. I’m scared. Yeah. Bye. 

How’s your relationship going?

Refer to above as to why there is no relationship.

What do you dream about at night?

A lot of things, really. I tend to dream about dates a lot and I feel like it’s my subconscious filling in the want that my reality cannot provide. Which I don’t mind.

What are you afraid of?

Disappointing people. I am so deathly afraid of disappointing people. Or at least, people that matter to me. I’m also scared of dogs, but that’s not really important.

What’s your favorite song?

I have a lot. My most played song on itunes is Crash by BAP but that’s mostly because I adore the beat. I have a lot of favourite songs, I guess. 

Tell me about the book you’re reading

I’m re-reading The Song of Achilles just because I adore it. It’s a romance between two males that doesn’t really take it’s homo-erotic subtext seriously. Really, there is none. It’s a love story and a genuine one at that. 

A poem or song lyric that won’t leave your head

On a scale of one to ten I'm at a hundred Never get enough, I can't stay away The Way - Ariana Grande

Lame, I know, but it’s one of my favourite lyrics of all time. 

Tell me about your secret crush

I don’t really want to talk about him because then I’ll have to come to terms with that fact that I have a secret crush and I’m just not ready for that.

Where would you go if money wasn’t an issue

I would just travel the world. See everything. All of Asia, all of Europe, The Pyramids, Stonehenge. All of it.

What’s your deepest wish

The reassurance that the choices I make in life are the right ones.

Do you believe in magic?

Maybe.

Tell me a ghost story

So, during year 7 camp we had heard a story about a boy having been lost in the woods that we were staying at. Looking back, I doubt it was true. The park would have closed down or there would have at least been news, right? Regardless of all that--on our second night we played a game where we would be let into the woods, at night, without lights, to try and steal ‘hostages’ back from the teachers. They called it comando. Anyway, my friends and I were feeling really inspired to win so we went a way that we knew no one else would be because there was a mean teacher patrolling that particular area. So we were walking and, I swear, everything went quiet and dark. Students weren’t allowed lights but teachers were so the forest wasn’t necessarily pitch black. But it did, all of a sudden, and we didn’t really realise. Then the static started and we thought we heard footsteps so naturally we ducked in order to hide. There was a split second where we were all silent, then my friend who has a third eye pulled us up and made us run, so... naturally we did.

It wasn’t until afterwards when we were talking did we realise that we all had the same experience. Of sudden silence, darkness and then static. I pulled my friend aside later that night and told her that I, too, saw something beyond us. To this day we haven’t figured out what happened and, honestly, I don’t really want to.

What’s the weirdest thing that has happened to you?

My entire life is a weird thing.

What do you need to get off your chest?

I kind of like a guy who is absolutely perfect for me in every way but I don’t know if I should keep hoping for something because what if this is it but also there are seven billion people in this world this can’t possible it???????? And like yeah I mean I hope this is it??????????? I mean I would really like for him to be it but who knows right???????????????????

What are you mad about?

Not a lot. Not really, anyway. Nothing worth mentioning.

What are you excited about?

Just, life. Everything that is to come.

Are you afraid for the future?

A little bit. Equally scared and excited. 

[darlingstarts]

— " be nosy please " — ♡

1.Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend?

Not necessarily a relationship, but a specific person.

2.When did your last hug take place?

Genuine hug? When I left Sydney. Just a passing hug? Yesterday when I ran into some cousins.

3.Are you a jealous person?

And, god, terribly so.

4.Are you tired right now?

Not really. Bored is a better term for it.

5.Do you chew on your straws?

Sometimes.

6.Have you ever been called a tease?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH no comment.

7.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?

I can barely handle less than 24 hours, let alone 48 straight.

8.Do you cry easily?

Terribly so.

9.What should you be doing right now?

Work. Anything, really, other than this survey.

10.Are you a heavy sleeper?

It truly depends. If I’m exhausted, I could probably sleep through a lot of things. Most times, I’ll wake up at the quietest sounds.

11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?

I think that depends more on the other person?

12.Are you mad at someone right now?

Nope.

13.Do you believe in love?

Who doesn’t?

14.What makes you laugh no matter what?

My friends and family? 

15.Who was the last person you talked to?

My dad.

16.Do you get butterflies around the person you like?

Terribly so.

17.Will you get married?

Definitely. I would like to be married in the next few years, actually.

18.When was the last time you smiled?

Like a second ago? While writing this answer? I have resting smiling face.

19.Does anyone like you?

OH GOD, I HOPE SO.

20.Do you secretly like someone?

Fuck me in the ass, yes.

21.Who was the first person you talked to today?

My cousin.

22.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

No one? Not really, anyway. I mean there are specific people I like to go to for specific situations but no one, not really, that I can go to about anything. Probably my mum or my bestfriend.

23.What are you NOT looking forward to?

A lot of things. Going home, probably.

24.What ARE you looking forward to?

Going home.

25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA FUCK ME IN THE ASS I AM A TERRIBLE PERSON but yes multiple. 

26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?

Be happy for them?

27.Do you plan on moving out within the next year?

If all things go as planned.

28.Are you a forgiving person?

Depending on what exactly happened.

29.How many TRUE friends do you have?

A surprisingly decent amount.

30.Do you fall for people easily?

TERRIBLY SO.

31.Have you ever fallen for your ex’s best friend?

Gross, no.

32.What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?

This cupcake I’m eating right now.

33.Who was the last person you drove with?

My uncle yesterday?

34.How late did you stay up last night and why?

I slept at 9:30 because I was exhausted.

35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?

Definitely. Japan or Korea or London are all on the list.

36.Who was the last person you took a picture of?

Myself?

37.Can you live a day without TV?

All the time.

38.When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?

OH WOW I DONT KNOW ACTUALLY?????????

39.Three names you go by...

Nadine, Nads, Gonads.

40.Are you currently in a relationship?

Nope.

41.What is your all-time favorite romance movie?

Clueless? Does that count?

42.Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?

Of course.

43.What’s your current problem?

Whether or not this particular person is a waste of time.

44.Have you ever had your heart broken?

Unfortunately.

45.Your thoughts of long distance relationships?

People who are in them are incredibly strong and I have so much respect for them but LDR’s are just not for me. 

46.How many kids do you want to have?

3 or 4.

47.Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?

I ALWAYS FIND IT HARD TO TELL SOMEONE I LIKE THEM FML.

[darlingstarts]

— " personality test " — ♡

Zodiac Sign: Aries | Taurus | Gemini | Cancer | Leo | Virgo | Libra | Scorpio | Sagittarius | Capricorn | Aquarius | Pisces |

Myers-Briggs: ESFP | ISFP | ESTP | ISTP | ESTJ | ISTJ | ESFJ | ISFJ | ENFJ |INFJ | ENFP | INFP | ENTP | INTP | ENTJ | INTJ |

Four Temperaments: Sanguine | Melancholic | Choleric | Phlegmatic

Enneagram: The Reformer (Type 1) | The Helper (Type 2) | The Achiever (Type 3) | The Individualist (Type 4) | The Thinker (Type 5) | The Loyalist (Type 6) | The Enthusiast (Type 7) | The Leader (Type 8) | The Peacemaker (Type 9) |

Celtic Zodiac: Birch (The Achiever) | Rowan (The Thinker) | Ash (The Enchanter) | Alder (The Trailblazer) | Willow (The Observer) | Hawthrone (The Illusionist) | Oak (The Stabilizer) | Holly (The Ruler) | Hazel (The Knower) | Vine (The Equalizer) | Ivy (The Survivor) | Reed (The Inquisitor) | Elder (The Seeker) |

Celtic Animal Sign: Stag/Deer | Cat | Cow/Bull | Horse | Butterfly | Adder/Snake | Seahorse | Fish/Salmon | Wolf/Hound | Fox | Wren | Swan | Falcon/Hawk |

Soul Type (one test): Hunter | Caregiver | Creator | Thinker | Helper |Educator | Performer | Leader | Spiritualist |

Soul Type (another test): Server | Priest | Artisan | Sage | Warrior | King | Scholar |

Hogwarts House: Gryffindor | Hufflepuff | Ravenclaw | Slytherin |

Alignment: Lawful Good | Neutral Good | Chaotic Good | Lawful Neutral | True Neutral | Chaotic Neutral | Lawful Evil | Neutral Evil | Chaotic Evil

MOTIV: Materialist | Spartan | Offbeat | Conventional | Thinking | Erratic | Intimate| Withholding | Vital | Depressed |

Global 5: Social | Reserved | Limbic | Calm | Organized | Unstructured | Accommodating | Egocentric | Non-Curious | Inquisitive |

Holland Code: Investigative | Artistic | Conventional | Enterprising | Social | Realistic

R-Drive: Narcissism | Unconventionality | Empiricism | Identity | Othercentricism | Independence | Integrity | Intellect | Stoicism | Orderliness | Dynamism | Activity | Romanticism | Hedonism |

Dark Triad: Psychopathy | Machiavellianism | Narcissism |

Narcissism Scale: 1-3 | 4-7 | 8-11 | 12-15 | 16-19 | 20-23 | 24-27 | 28-31 | 32-35 | 36-39 | 40-43 |

The Animal in You: Lion | Tiger | Dolphin | Bear | Wild Cat | Fox | Weasel | Badger | Dog | Otter | Wolf | Sea Lion | Wild Dog | Walrus | Gorilla | Deer | Rhinoceros | Hippo | Sable | Horse | Sheep | Mountain Goat | Warthog | Zebra | Baboon | Elephant | Bison | Giraffe | Cottontail | Mole | Bat | Porcupine | Beaver | Prairie Dog | Shrew | Mouse | Eagle | Rooster | Owl | Swan | Peacock | Vulture | Penguin | Crocodile | Snake |

Life Path Number: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 11 | 22 |

Archetypes: Creative | Athlete | Rebel | Caregiver | Visionary | Royal | Performer | Spiritual | Tastemaker | Explorer | Advocate | Intellectual |

Rosenberg Self Esteem Scale: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15| 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 |20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 |

Brain Lateralization Test: Left | Right |

Cerebral Personality Test: 1-10% | 11-20% | 21-30% | 31-40% | 41-50% | 51-60%| 61-70% | 71-80% | 81-90% | 91-100% |

Multiple Intelligences Test: Kinaesthetic | Linguistic | Logical |Interpersonal| Intrapersonal | Musical | Visual/Spatial | Naturalistic |

[darlingstarts]

— " about me " — ♡

Your stereotypically masculine side

You love hoodies.  You love jeans.  Dogs are better than cats.  It’s hilarious when people get hurt. Shopping is torture. Sad movies suck. You own a car racing game. You played with hot wheels cars as a kid. At some point in time you wanted to be a fire fighter. You owned a ds, ps2, n64, or sega. You used to be obsessed with power rangers. You have watched sports on tv. Gory movies are cool. You go to your dad for advice. You own like a trillion baseball caps. You used to collect hockey or baseball cards. Baggy sweats are cool to wear. It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favourite colours. You love to go crazy and not care what people think. Sports are fun. You talk with food in your mouth. You sleep with your socks on at night. You have fished at least once.

Your stereotypically feminine side

You love to shop. You wear eyeliner. You wear the colour pink. You go to your mom to talk. You consider cheerleading a sport. You hate wearing the color black. You like going to the mall. You like getting manicures and/or pedicures. You like wearing jewelry. You cried watching The Notebook. Dresses are a big part of your wardrobe.  Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies. You don’t like the movie Star Wars. You are/were in gymnastics. It takes you around one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up. You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. You care about what you look like. You like wearing dresses when you can. You like wearing high heel shoes. You used to play with dolls as little kid. You like putting make-up on others. You like being the star of everything.

Appearance

I am shorter than 5’5”. I have many scars. I tan easily. I wish my hair was a different colour. I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour. I have a tattoo. I am self-conscious about my appearance. I’ve had/have braces. I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. I have more than two piercings. I have/had piercings in places besides my ears.

Experiences

I’ve gotten lost in my city. I’ve seen a shooting star. I’ve wished on a shooting star. I’ve seen a meteor shower. I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas. I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator. I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts. I’ve been to a casino. I’ve been skydiving. I’ve gone skinny-dipping. I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. I’ve crashed a car. I’ve been skiing. I’ve been in a musical. I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue. I’ve seen the northern lights. I’ve sat on a rooftop at night. I’ve played a prank on someone. I’ve ridden in a taxi. I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. I’ve eaten sushi. I’ve been snowboarding.

Honesty/Crime

I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t. I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t. I’ve snuck out. I’ve lied to my parents about where I am. I’ve cheated while playing a game. I’ve ran a red light. I’ve witnessed a crime. I’ve been in a fist fight. I’ve been arrested.

Death and suicide

I’m afraid of dying. I hate funerals. I’ve seen someone/something dying. Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.  I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

Random

I can sing well. Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. I open up to others easily. I watch the news. I don’t kill bugs. I sing in the shower. I am a morning person. I paid for a cell phone ring tone. I am a sports fanatic. I twirl my hair. I care about grammar. I have “?”’s in my username. I’ve copied more than 30 CDs in a day. I bake well. My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange. I would wear pajamas to school. I like Martha Stewart. I know how to shoot a gun. I laugh at my own jokes. I eat fast food weekly. I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. I can’t sleep if there is a spider/cockroach in the room. I am ticklish. I love white chocolate. I bite my nails. I’m good at remembering faces. I’m good at remembering names. I’m good at remembering dates. I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[darlingstarts]

— " fill me in: kpop " — ♡

FIRST KPOP SONG YOU EVER HEARD: Miracle - Super Junior

FIRST KPOP GROUP YOU LIKED: Super Junior

FIRST EVER BIAS: Heechul, technically, but my first real bias was Yoochun

CURRENT BIAS: Youngjae/BAP

SONG YOU KNOW ALL THE WORDS TO: Basically all BAP songs, all promoted AOA/MAMAMOO songs, a lot of Jay Park songs, a lot of DBSK songs, a lot of Beast songs, a decent amount of random girl groups too (4minute, Girls Day, etc)

FAVOURITE GIRL GROUP: Mamamoo

FAVOURITE BOY GROUP: BAP

FAVOURITE SOLO ARTIST: G.Na or NS Yoonji

FAVOURITE DANCE: Just One Day

FIRST KDRAMA: Attack On The Pin Up Boy (does that even count?)

FAVOURITE KDRAMA: --

LEAST FAVOURITE KDRAMA: --

HOW LONG YOU’VE BEEN A KPOP FAN: Like literally just before Don’t Don came out so like 2007? Late 2007? I don’t even know anymore. 

[darlingstarts]

— " tender asks " — ♡

Fresh milk - What is your age?

21.

Teeth - What is your gender identity?

Cis-female

Honey - Do you have a nickname?

A lot. Within family, Batin. High school friends, Gonads/Goony/Goons. Others, Nadz, Nae, Neigh, etc.

Breast - Do you get along with your mother?

I do. Really well, actually. It took a lot of work, though, push and pull, on both sides, but we got there eventually. What kind of teenager would I have been if I didn’t spend most of my growing up fighting with her, right?

Angelhood - What is one of your favorite memories?

Too many to think of. Just sitting around and having a really good time with my friends and family. 

Tranquil - Who do you laugh the most with?

My parents, cousins and bestfriend.

Adieu - Who do you dread saying goodbye to the most?

Both my parents, respectively.

Wax - Can you keep a secret?

Depends on the secret and who I am keeping it for/from. Generally I’m pretty terrible with white lies but life changing secrets I will take to the grave.

Tinderbox - What do you cherish most?

Family. My individuality. Shoes, book and lipstick collection (jk)

Paper - What is your favorite novel?

Looking for Alaska by John Green and Saving Francesca by Melina Marchetta

Box office - What is your favorite film?

Clueless, Hercules, The Dark Knight, Grease.

Stage - Do you have a talent?

I’m brilliant. Absolutely brilliant.

Tiger - What is your bravest moment?

Telling my traditional parents that I didn’t want to pursue medicine anymore.

Treasure - What is your brightest characteristic?

My smile (Refer to stage question for more appropriate answer).

Morale - Is your castle made of glass or stone?

Glass. Only because I like the look of glass.

Wolf - Do you have an inner monster?

Sometimes. I can’t ever pinpoint where it lies anymore, especially, since I graduated high school. It exists, it just doesn’t matter as much to me. 

Seven - Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy, or Pride?

Not sure what this is asking--I’ll assume which I suffer from the most. Perhaps sloth is my greatest sin. Following, Pride? Greed? Maybe Lust. Gluttony, Envy and Wrath are generally equally last.

Trick - White lie or deceit?

Neither, actually.

Illusion - Do you have a secret?

Who doesn’t, right?

Heart - Are you in love?

Does 영재 count?

Mary - Are you a virgin?

No.

Bedroom - How would you define your sexual orientation?

Straight but I don’t really think sexuality is important. You like whoever you like, you know, does anything else truly matter?

Pink - Panties, bloomers, or lingerie?

Panties. I’ve never really been a fan of lingerie. 

Rope - Do you have a fetish?

Not right now. I’m very vanilla, as far as I know.

Tobacco - Do you smoke? 

Only to sober up when I’m drunk off my face.

Wine - Do you drink? 

Like a sailor.

Whisky - Do you drink alone or socially?

Socially. I’ll have a glass of wine by myself every once in a while.

Poison - Do you have an addiction?

Shopping. It’s a real problem.

Taboo - Do you have any tattoos?

Not at the moment.

Metal - Do you have any piercings?

Two generic ear piercings. Used to have a couple of cartilage piercings but I grew tired of them.

Stitches - What kind of clothing do you wear?

My cousins say I dress very American but I tend to be a mix of Korean/Australia/American. It changes day to day.

Eau de toilette - What is you favorite scent?

I like to smell of clean sheets, freshly shampood hair and earl grey tea. 

Murmur - How do you deal with drama?

Walk the fuck away. I’m too old to deal with drama. If you make me feel anything less than happy or require me to fight for a position in your life, I’m gone.

Hiccup - What makes you nervous?

Lots of things. My anxiety is a bit of a butt sometimes.

Gazelle - Do you participate in the arts?

Used to dance but not anymore. I settle on writing, mostly.

Anomaly - What do you find unique about yourself?

Me? I’m unique, regardless of the rest of the world.

Cedar - What is your favorite season?

Summer!

Balm - Who was the last person you kissed?

I don’t remember his name, honestly...