davesmind12

[davesmind12]

Leader

I know I didn't stand and do the stereotypical lead speech but I still wanna take this moment to get to all of you as I can, a lot of us wake up each day and don't realize the opportunity given to us. Some of us do and some of us don't that's just the way life is. With that said I want every one of you to know that with this opportunity may come failure but what is the greatness in success without ever knowing failure? We as a unit can do things that I've never seen or experienced here at union, or in a career of baseball. We have the chance at real greatness. Real success. Real pride and I don't want anyone of you to take that for granted because before you know it time passes by and you're on the outside looking in, wishing, praying, that you could go back and live these moments again. I may come off to most of you a comedic or clown but at the end of the day I would fight through hell for you guys. You guys are my best friends and my reason for trying. Boys know that there are big days coming and each of us will shine at different times and different occasions, some bigger than others but know that each of you matter in the art of our team, without us understanding our roles or parts we will not succeed, without the grind and hustle we will not succeed, without the heart and passion we will not succeed. but if we can bring the heat each and every single day we will not only succeed but we will come out on top... a victor

Each day I will give each of you everything I have in me so that when my days are done playing I can say I laid it all on the line for my brothers.

I challenge you to not only do the same

But blow me out of the water. Don't make me be the guy when each one of us can be the guy. Relying on each other is what makes a brotherhood strong and each day I'm gonna rely on y'all to do your part and carry the load.

A ring will look mighty fine on all of our fat fingers

Dontcha say?

Now tomorrow when we get the opportunity to be great, let's not fail, let's make the most of it. Let's change how union college baseball is viewed around here

Let's change the way of us and make ourselves champions.

I love the fuck out you guys.

Let's kick ass tomorrow and every single day after until we dogpile the mound not only in Kingsport but at the NAIA World Series.

Get some rest boys. Day one of many.

[davesmind12]

Words

Talk the talk Walk the walk

Ever since I can remember I’ve been working my way out of sticky situations with the help of a good friend.

Words…

In and out of principal offices, fights with moms n pops, out of trouble with the homies, it never failed. I knew that with a little thought that I’d be out of any trouble id come across in life.

You see, I like to think I have a complex mind. I read a lot of books growing up and picked up on the need to know of a larger vocabulary to manipulate the who, what, and where of any given situation. I thought that if I can use these words to make myself believe it, then I know for a fact that I can make you believe it.

This is where I introduce you to my best friend brother for the first time. He’ll come back later on but for now I share the details of this “language” as we say, something that me and him feel we just mastered together on our journey in which, I’m telling you if we sat down and just talked, just using our language, we can work our way into and out of anything given, you name it. Trouble, Girls, Life.. Etc.. Etc.. Doing as we please with no remorse, and man was it fun.

And so it went, the beautiful ride of my life carried on ever so easy, over time I picked up a few traits with words that would help me win all the battles I needed. My ma always said “pick your battles and you’ll never lose” and that’s how she lived, but I was always looking for the next win, there was something about me that said what can I do to get put in this situation and then work my way ass backwards allllll the way out? And I did. Lemme tell you, I had been backed up into some dark deep corners with both hands tied behind my back but by the grace of God and the use of my brain I always fought out just enough to get one foot back over the line I fell across… And I loved it…

Manipulation. That’s the right word you’re looking for. I found that evil in myself because if I wanted it, I got it. And all because of Words, before I knew it, the good friend of mine who’s actions could save me on command became a lurking devil on my shoulder begging for its next victim.

And the victims came and fell

And I felt myself losing things, things I actually cared about because as time went on I started using Words to get things I didn’t need.

Greed I felt this now, no more did I feel the relationship between me and Words was something I needed, instead I used Words to myself just wanting to say less and think more, Because before I was on this “act first, think later” memo but now, now times had changed, people around me became smarter, I was no longer the leader of the mental pack. And before I knew it I lost loved ones friendships, burned bridges with close people and manipulated myself in a lonely pack of just a few individuals who at this point I questioned if they trusted me at all.

I knew I had to change something, something had to give.

So I did, for the longest time I went by myself, attempting to be a better man, outgrow my childish ways and prove back to the people I did wrong that the kid they bestowed love in before is back and better.

Not only did I want to show them I wanted to show myself. Because relating back to what I said before… If I can make myself believe it, then I know for a fact that I can make you believe. And in my attempts to make myself believe it I became it…

Renewed I’d say Or lessons learned

Me and Words, we don’t do as much anymore. Sometimes Words gets the best of me still, and I go back to my lonesome just to retrace my steps and question why i said this, or why I said that, but as before I’d just result back to here use more words to get back out of the factor you put yourself into, now through lessons I know Actions speak so much louder than Words… as of late, more so than anything me and Words have been making better use of ourselves, giving advice when asked, comforting and caring for the people who trust in me to give to them, and sharing wisdom I’ve found along the way in my lessons learned.

Now I’ve noticed that my life is much better than before.

I’m still just out here looking for a conversation that can hold up with our own though.

Back to work…

[davesmind12]

One body = One career The health side pt.1

Jonathan Cozad 3-27-2017 Dr. John Stratman One Body = One Career Take Care of Yourself Work, work, work, with fatigued muscles the body feels to tighten with every movement, but the working man knows that there is another working in that space of fighting breathes just for a shot at an opportunity. Although the striving thrive there still stands a fine line between the under enough, grinding at the right amount, and into crossing the line. In often times an individual can give up on the beauty between the gains, and every so often the lack of time off gets the best of everyone, but in reality of it all what is the value of resting and restoring the body of the essentials it needs to thrive? What is the purpose and power of mental preparation as well as in physical preparation, and how can one keep the body in fine tune to maintain all abilities? A clean build… ​​The strongest buildings all started with a firm foundation. From the bottom you build, work your way in reverse and along the way one might miss a step, not all because they couldn’t manage it mentally but physically they lacked in the needed area to manage. So from the bottom you firmly standby a good, full complete diet which will pack the nutrients needed to support healthy organisms which are essentially your body’s ability to react. “In biology, an organism is any contiguous living system, such as an animal, plant or bacterium. All known types of organisms are capable of some degree of response to stimuli, reproduction, growth and development and homeostasis.” (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Organism). With a lack in ability to react or respond under the pressure, on top of possibly being out of the shape needed to react, the ligaments and joint would to be exposed to serious amounts of stress and could cause anything under a stress not exerted before without foundation to abruptly snap. ​ The layers build when the nutrients are planted firmly, but you need energy to grow. In everyday an individual athlete is assumed to produce energy to facilitate for their activities. “Calories are a measure of the energy within food. In technical terms, a calorie is the amount of energy needed to raise a single gram of water 1 degree Celsius. Energy is needed by the cells to sustain repeated muscle contractions and to facilitate athletic performance” (http://www.livestrong.com/article/311097-how-many-calories-should-an-athlete-have-a-day/). “After you work out, your body repairs or replaces damaged muscle fibers through a cellular process where it fuses muscle fibers together to form new muscle protein strands or myofibrils. These repaired myofibrils increase in thickness and number to create muscle hypertrophy (growth).1 Muscle growth occurs whenever the rate of muscle protein synthesis is greater than the rate of muscle protein breakdown. This adaption, however, does not happen while you actually lift the weights. Instead, it occurs while you rest” (http://www.builtlean.com/2013/09/17/muscles-grow/). Coming back to speak on rest further in the paper, right now looking to understand that an athlete is looking to need to healthily consume enough calories to match what they have thus burned through various workouts and practices, and if one is looking to have a strong growth then they have to consume even more than that just to compensate. With a strong healthy diet for an athlete containing roughly 3,000 even potentially 4,000 plus calories it goes beyond the calories counter. In this diet an athlete can never forget that fats aren’t all bad but you cannot love them. Healthy caloric intake that is high density is the route one should ensure, incorporating in plenty of red meats, peanut butter, nuts of all kinds, avocadoes, potatoes, yams, and whole grain style pastas/ rice. As for maintaining sufficient energy on command to last, an Athlete should also make sure they get “about 70% of its calories from carbohydrates, including breads, cereals, pasta, fruit, and vegetables, to achieve maximum carbohydrate storage.” (http://www.webmd.com/fitness-exercise/features/nutrition-tips-athletes#1). In that carbohydrate storage you maximize the availability of glycogen which is what your muscles run their energy to contract of off, glucose, and running out of glycogen means you’re now turning to your fats to fuel you… slowing those reaction times of the motor neurons seeking to stimulate the muscles needed. So carb loading a few days before an event or the night before a major workout is a major plus to the bodies’ ability to perform. During so one cannot give doubt to the matter of being hydrated, with roughly 65% of the human body being water weight, why wouldn’t you keep what makes up more than half of what you are? “Hydration is important because the body is comprised mostly of water, and the proper balance between water and electrolytes in our bodies really determines how most of our systems function, including nerves and muscles," says Larry Kenney, PhD, a professor of physiology and kinesiology at Penn State” (http://www.webmd.com/food-recipes/features/quest-for-hydration#1). Which on top of water hydration, staying up with electrolytes can only help you that much more. Electrolytes being a factor in muscle fibers, a lack there of can throw of the homeostasis of an organism which is needed to grow. Electrolytes can be replenished mightily through various health waters and performance/ rehab drinks, as well as in grains, bananas, and almonds. What is growth without protein though? All crazed over protein power one can get lost in the over consumption of the wrong proteins. Look towards eggs, beans, meats, fish, and poultry in order to maximize the roughly 100-150 grams of protein needed to sustain muscle fiber recovery and growth. ​Gains. ​​ The power of power, once it becomes routine growth becomes dynamic.. All workouts very in their own separate and specials way, each having an individual technique in place in order to maximize the potential of the workout. Also to add in that no human being is alike another you cannot set a standard for how one should perform you can just compare verse the average, with that said there are few outside factors before the act of performance that can keep the body at its finest tune to perform on command. Since the build started strong one can though assume that the body is healthy from the bottom up, one works, works, works and accomplishes athletic feats that they’ve strived to desire but they seek more and to separate from the pack. ​ Through various and plentiful stretching before, after and often in free time. “Stretching increases range of motion and flexibility by lengthening soft tissues such as muscles and ligaments. It promotes fluid movement during athletic performance, decreases soreness, and minimizes injury. Stretching or flexibility training should be based on the individual needs and physical demands of the athlete’s activities” (https://www.hss.edu/conditions_stretching-tips-athletes-dynamic-static.asp). ​As well as stretching, performing, and dieting, an athlete must remember the value of rest. ​​Best said as so that the real workout doesn’t happen in the weight room, its after that in the down time that the body builds, recoups, and restores with the proper building the resting period becomes as valuable as gold. One can go and push limits to work on growth and productive structure strength but without the time in between a body can break down and deteriorate at a rate in which the body is unable to keep up with to be able to maintain healthy, quick, productive response. “The Principle of Adaptation states that when we undergo the stress of physical exercise, our body adapts and becomes more efficient. It’s just like learning any new skill; at first, it’s difficult, but over time it becomes second-nature. Once you adapt to a given stress, you require additional stress to continue to make progress.” (https://www.verywell.com/the-benefits-of-rest-and-recovery-after-exercise-3120575). For every action, there is a consequence, may it be positive or negative that’s the product of so. With the growth, tear, and then rebuild the time needed to recover with an individual is solely based off that individual alone, a person must such become almost a scientist of their own body being able to listen to it and understanding that resting a certain muscle group is the most beneficial to breaking barriers and getting into another level of fitness and ability to react, stay healthy and perform at maximum levels. As to the part of a mental edge, relaxation in a matter with an activity as sport or athletic function is prime to peak performance. When a person feels relaxation the body can work fluidly and in sync to perfectly coexist. How does one come to face of relaxation in a matter of feats that must call on our smallest fibers to perform? With confidence in preparation, knowing that you’ve done everything you can to make the most of the body given lets you thrive physically and mentally. When you lose that edge is when you get the sensation of discomfort or the negative impact of the “what ifs”. (“What if I can’t make this play, what if I cannot lift this weight, etc..”), through meditation and putting one’s self mentally in situations that may call upon you in time can keep the bodies ability to produce such function in time as they should be. As well as training as you would perform then the body will have already done said action and it will be second to none to an athlete rather than a shock to the body which it may not be able to correspond with. Understanding that performance comes from preparation, on top of preparation comes confidence. When one feels prepared, they feel confidence and with confidence and great preparedness comes great performance. How does one get to that point though? ..Dedication. ​​ Bibliography "Organism." Wikipedia. Wikimedia Foundation, 26 Mar. 2017. Web. 27 Mar. 2017. JacobS. "How Many Calories Should an Athlete Have a Day?" LIVESTRONG.COM. Leaf Group, 28 Jan. 2015. Web. 27 Mar. 2017. "How Do Muscles Grow? The Science of Muscle Growth." BuiltLean. N.p., 04 Nov. 2016. Web. 27 Mar. 2017. Jaret, Peter. "5 Nutrition Tips for Athletes." WebMD. WebMD, n.d. Web. 27 Mar. 2017. Hatfield, Heather. "The Quest for Hydration." WebMD. WebMD, n.d. Web. 27 Mar. 2017. Elizabeth Quinn - Reviewed by a Board-certified Physician. "Why Athletes Need Rest and Recovery After Exercise." Verywell. N.p., n.d. Web. 27 Mar. 2017. ​"Stretching Tips for Athletes: Dynamic and Static Stretching." Hospital for Special Surgery. N.p., n.d. Web. 27 Mar. 2017. ​

[davesmind12]

my brothers heading into conference @ Point. lord be with them in their travels and bring them back safely with some brooms, we owe them some L's. #RollDawgs #ScrewPoint #WWW #SweepCity #WinTheDay #WinThePitch oh how I wanna be on the ride...

[davesmind12]

Poetic

some people live each day simply by faith and hope

well I have hope in you ‪and faith in god.‬

vice versa, see it how you see it the truth of the matter is follow the path laid down before thee trusting the process enjoying the process

come a long way from a simple conversation I remember kicking back acting like a tough guy “play the cool card jd” Yeah I’m a cool guy…

far from it and sometimes the truth doesn’t hurt being a man among boys guess cool doesn’t come with it simple texts saying wyd watch the … pop up assuming conclusions I see the light in the eyes like at the end of the tunnel people saying turn around boy …"You 2"

Don’t slip or stumble

drop the ball I fumble

Pick up where I left off lost 3 steps but here comes 4 hopefully by 5 you’ll have seen the strides taken to open up the eyes

who knows people say I talk a lot maybe I should talk less or maybe even talk some more cause actually Their opinion is irrelevant to the life of yours

and nobody can predict the future. this I know but if I know anything I work for what’s worn wearing my pride like a sleeve, emotions on the other striding for perfection Like it’s an exception to disrespect the intentions of my brethren looking out for my 6 back to can’t predict can’t see the snake in the grass To late it already bit..

lucky 7 maybe the dice change turn my life around make a life change Switch into the correct lane swerve Lane change

staying up late Counting each day blessings on blessings on blessing as a good fella Chance would say and chance would say that this didn’t happen by chance look at the world around us couple steps back Quick glance Take a stance You might surprised as to where you stand And loud and clear as you can see …I’m for you and you’re for me

oh you can’t see here let me make it 3D Some people talk about that love at first sight shit To keep it real I don’t know whether I believe it’s true But if it is than tell me if I’m wrong or right If I fell in love with you before I ever even knew I catch your eye then look away as if it never happened At times I feel as though I’m caught up in a strange dream If eyes could talk then mines would tell ya that I’m feeling you Sometimes I swear your eyes be telling me the same thing

faith and hope back to work.

she f*** with small town dudes I got bigger dreams 👑

[davesmind12]

going home for the holidays but got this on my mind #ComingSoon🎥 #Coming2aFieldNearYou

[davesmind12]

thoughts said best as Lyrics

I grew up, a fuckin' screw up Tie my shoe up, wish they was newer Damn, need somethin' newer In love with the baddest girl in the city, I wish I knew her I wish I won't so shy, I wish I was a bit more fly I wish that I, could tell her how I really feel inside That I'm the perfect nigga for her, but then maybe that's a lie She like a certain type of nigga, and it's clear I'm not that guy Ball player, star player, I'm just watchin' from the side On the bench, cause my lack of confidence won't let me fly I ain't grow up with my father, I ain't thinkin' bout that now Fast forward four years or so from now I'll probably cry When I realize what I missed, but as of now my eyes are dry Cause I'm tryna stay alive, In the city where too many niggas die Dreamin' quiet tryna dodge a suit and tie Who am I? Aye who am I?

[davesmind12]

All I've known

You wanna talk about a passion? Get me going.

You wanna talk about pride? Let me work

You wanna see a fight? Let me rumble

You don’t see kids work for something like I’ve worked for this. You don’t see people give up what they have to be where I’m at You don’t

I will not let this be stripped away from me. The hours The blood The sweat And the tears Are everything in me And I’ve given all of that to this

This is one stop in me that I’ve been tested with but I promise the stronger The better I promise the work Because if not then everything before this was worth nothing And I’ll never settle for that.

Watch out I’m coming I love this game.

Back to work…

[davesmind12]

Brotherly Love

"Moooom, will you tell him to quit following me!" "Jd, he's your little brother.. He just wants to be around you." Back being little I sighed, went about my day with a shadow behind me, running the streets, riding our bikes all over town, skipping out on school just to go play ball anywhere in the neighborhood. Little did I know all my moves were being stamped elsewhere, instead of one, there was two. Where ever there was One, the other was right there. Specific memories run through the mind of jumping on the trampoline at my grandmothers reenacting the latest WWE we watched in the past week, I was always Shawn Michael, my brother always resulting to the Undertaker. It's just funny how time flies, one day you're rolling a 50cc dirt bike through town with a sled attached to the back the next you're a grown man striding to make money and support yourself.. God how I miss those days Thinking back I'd fight him just to give me some space, and fight him over clothes, friends, and food. It's what brother do, right? Right. As I always told my mother, begging us to quit fighting everywhere we went, claiming "she couldn't take us in public anywhere".. That still cracks me up... Big bad Zach Ain't nobody wanna mess with Zach Brotha that's not the fight you wanna pick cause that boy will mess you up ...they ain't lying It was like one day this little kid grew outta nowhere surpassing me in all aspects. Next thing I knew he was the tall one, the good looking one, shit he even looked older than me. I couldn't believe it. In a blink of an eye a grown ass kid stood before me and I started questioning well damn I don't know if I can take him anymore. It's gonna be tough now.. But as big as he stood you could always see the soft in him, I don't say that in the wrong way but in the way that he went about life with heart, and passion, a fiery one that was fueled by people's negativity. He just wanted to show everyone his greatness and would fight tooth and nail just to be the winner. Although he was the sorest of losers, I'd win. We fight, shed some tears and next thing you know within 10 minutes it was an "I'm sorry" "what do you wanna do now" even to this day when we fight, before you know it we realize, hey this is all we got Me and you man. We gotta stick together. It'll always be that way We've come a long way as the days have passed, growing from young reckless boys with not a care in the world to responsible grown men... It's crazy to say that because that shadow of myself grew to be something not even of words, he took all the things I could teach him in life and mastered it, took me to a whole other world, showed me things about life that I myself had not yet found. ...I swear if you gave him 12 minutes with Jessica Alba he could have her convinced to marry him. I just don't get it... And before I knew it the baby brother I once pushed around and asked to leave me alone became the one person I could rely on through the ups and downs, and before I knew it I saw time slipping away from me like I had made a mistake in my young age by not soaking up every moment I got with him. Oh but I've got the memories And I live off them, and I live off showing you that I got you. You've thought the world was out to get you since day one And I've always told you that I'll never be the one to let you fall Never. <- period Watching you grow, oh how it's been a thing of adventure. You hated that I was tough on you but I knew you could be better than me, you always had it. Everything in this world came naturally to you, and it still does when you put your heart and mind to it and I love watching you put the work in cause you run the game when you take it over. I'm waiting for your comeback, whatever it may be, whatever you choose to do, I know it'll be epic And I think about you everyday And I pray for your safety everyday I could write all day about you, me, and our great adventures, but I'll save those for the book. You went from punk little brother To my best friend And I thank god for you everyday Don't y'all sleep on those Cozads They ma always told them to go out with a bang Love you bruh. Back to work...

[davesmind12]

Here 2 Help

Why did you start doing this? Easy answer... I like to plan ahead and think out things so I cannot be surprised At the same time I remanence of the great stories that have occurred in my life and the lessons that can be shared for the better cause. If I can say something, write something, or share something that will help another get through the tough time, or make way for a yellow brick road that'll be easier than the path of difficulty then good, that's my goal. If I can help another then I've made good of my day. Back to work...

[davesmind12]

The Rights and Wrongs and the Confused

Think about it. Not just stop and hover on the idea momentarily Actually stop yourself and think I dare you

Look deeper than an outer layer of natural lust that you pursue on the weekends and think about your future.

Take time and question yourself

I don’t say that negatively per say But you can ponder the wrongs .. More so I say think about the rights you should be striding to do

I push myself past most, looking further into people than they see in themselves, doing my best to be around people who have natural desire to show the passions of their life, because that’s what you’re suppose to look for in a person right? Their pure joy is what you latch onto? Yeah you can fall for the materialistic, I understand that desire and there’s the factor of sinful things as lust, envy, and greed but those the first steps that bring you to a person, then you crack a code and find the next layer of depth in a person, you see the passions, the fire in a soul, and the quest for a greater adventure…

Every weekend I see the endless posts about going out and enjoying the night life which believe me I do not say is wrong, I enjoy the life of being very social as well, I find happiness in other people, the laughs, the smiles, and the conversations appeal to me stronger than anything in the world, it’s in the next days I start to see the layers develop in those others as their personal quests for deeper satisfaction is attempted to be personally justified.

We all claim we just want something real, and we all claim we just wanna be right for somebody

Yet we strike so unsuccessful

I proceed to ask why?

Why is this.. In me I know I’m looking for that feeling of trust, something I can grab my hands into and rely on when all things go wrong, I look for somebody down for one and one only. Not afraid to speak their heart and mind freely as if they knew they could believe in me as a diary. What I’ve realized is, I’m not gonna find that just lurking around the back corners of the party thinking I’m gonna make conversation with every woman in here playing my cards right just looking for somebody who can speak back to me with interest the way I speak to them.

Buddy you’re not gonna find it there. Maybe temporarily you’ll find something to fill that first layer, that certain lust you naturally seek but believe me in time it fades every time.

Let me first contradict myself before moving forward because I wanna state the beauty in being young and pursuing every opportunity you come across. You only get to live once so don’t have any regrets in your actions. Ever.

But there’s a right way and a wrong way Let’s discuss.. Finding that feeling you’re actually seeking is something you actually cannot explain, every time you go to put your finger on it you lose the words you thought you had in your head. Your desire for their conversation and their thoughts become endless and you have an actual need for their opinion.

In the wrongs is where I confuse myself, because how does one know what’s actually right and what’s wrong? How does one know if the moves he made is the correct move? A giant game of chess, one mistake can kill you, correct? Wrong.. You see you make mistakes as a person, sometimes your judgement is skewed and becoming irrational can become something that overwhelms you and before you know it you’ve made a decision you “regret” But how can you grow without first failing? And how can you learn without first being wrong?

There’s never any wrong in giving your all to somebody, the right is to commit, but I will state you have no obligation to be loyal to somebody who cannot offer the same. You should always choose happiness, in young age we do have time to look for the better and never settle for the lesser, knowing that if somebody can’t love you the way you love them then pursue what you need most. The right in it all though is to love with all your might, because in most cases you don’t choose who you fall for it just happens and before you know it they become your every thought and desire. You never know when the last moment may actually be the last. Next understand that we all have our own mind in which even ourselves cannot understand so how do we expect 1.) somebody else to understand our own? 2.) us to understand their complex mind? You never know, you might be the only thing they could actually hold onto. And by the grace of God don’t go about yourself and do things to another you yourself couldn’t handle if somebody pulled a you on you.

Now and then it’s good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy.

And be patient because the best things take time.

Back to work…

[davesmind12]

Words

Talk the talk Walk the walk Ever since I can remember I've been working my way out of sticky situations with the help of a good friend. Words... In and out of principal offices, fights with moms n pops, out of trouble with the homies, it never failed. I knew that with a little thought that I'd be out of any trouble id come across in life. You see, I like to think I have a complex mind. I read a lot of books growing up and picked up on the need to know of a larger vocabulary to manipulate the who, what, and where of any given situation. I thought that if I can use these words to make myself believe it, then I know for a fact that I can make you believe it. This is where I introduce you to my best friend brother for the first time. He'll come back later on but for now I share the details of this "language" as we say, something that me and him feel we just mastered together on our journey in which, I'm telling you if we sat down and just talked, just using our language, we can work our way into and out of anything given, you name it. Trouble, Girls, Life.. Etc.. Etc.. Doing as we please with no remorse, and man was it fun. And so it went, the beautiful ride of my life carried on ever so easy, over time I picked up a few traits with words that would help me win all the battles I needed. My ma always said "pick your battles and you'll never lose" and that's how she lived, but I was always looking for the next win, there was something about me that said what can I do to get put in this situation and then work my way ass backwards allllll the way out? And I did. Lemme tell you, I had been backed up into some dark deep corners with both hands tied behind my back but by the grace of God and the use of my brain I always fought out just enough to get one foot back over the line I fell across... And I loved it... Manipulation. That's the right word you're looking for. I found that evil in myself because if I wanted it, I got it. And all because of Words, before I knew it, the good friend of mine who's actions could save me on command became a lurking devil on my shoulder begging for its next victim. And the victims came and fell And I felt myself losing things, things I actually cared about because as time went on I started using Words to get things I didn't need. Greed I felt this now, no more did I feel the relationship between me and Words was something I needed, instead I used Words to myself just wanting to say less and think more, Because before I was on this "act first, think later" memo but now, now times had changed, people around me became smarter, I was no longer the leader of the mental pack. And before I knew it I lost loved ones friendships, burned bridges with close people and manipulated myself in a lonely pack of just a few individuals who at this point I questioned if they trusted me at all. I knew I had to change something, something had to give. So I did, for the longest time I went by myself, attempting to be a better man, outgrow my childish ways and prove back to the people I did wrong that the kid they bestowed love in before is back and better. Not only did I want to show them I wanted to show myself. Because relating back to what I said before... If I can make myself believe it, then I know for a fact that I can make you believe. And in my attempts to make myself believe it I became it... Renewed I'd say Or lessons learned Me and Words, we don't do as much anymore. Sometimes Words gets the best of me still, and I go back to my lonesome just to retrace my steps and question why i said this, or why I said that, but as before I'd just result back to here use more words to get back out of the factor you put yourself into, now through lessons I know Actions speak so much louder than Words... as of late, more so than anything me and Words have been making better use of ourselves, giving advice when asked, comforting and caring for the people who trust in me to give to them, and sharing wisdom I've found along the way in my lessons learned. Now I've noticed that my life is much better than before. I'm still just out here looking for a conversation that can hold up with our own though. Back to work...

[davesmind12]

Working For The Money

Ma never had it, Pops could never really help 3 kids crammed into a two bedroom house with the strongest woman I know working 120 hours every two weeks just to make sure we all could get by better than she did. If you've had it like that and you get up and grind everyday then I salute you! Neither of my parents went and got their degrees and they suffered for it, me.. I'll be the first in my family to receive a college degree. All this work, not only in school but in the great game of baseball just so I could have my education paid for because without it I'd be back in dainty small town Ohio working a 9-5 praying that I'd have enough to to give some to the fam and still be able to suffice for myself. But look at me, this is where I get to be proud! I think back to high school and hearing people say "you're too small to play at the next level", "there's no way you can make it through college playing a sport", "you're not smart enough to graduate college" look at all you people I get to come back to and shake your hand and say "thank you".. Because of you my fire was fueled for the better. Not only do I complete highly at the collegiate level, I also have thrived in college and am gonna graduate with a bachelors degree in exactly 4 years. Not many get to say that to another. It's all gonna be so good when life hands me my bowl of lemons and I get to make lemonade with it, better yet make that money and actually give my family, friends, and loved ones the things that they've deserved for longer than I've been able to give it to them. A final salute on that matter to those that have stuck with me through all this fight, you all are my world and I do it for y'all everyday. Don't ever sleep on the kid Back to work...

[davesmind12]

7:32

Indians pushing out into a 2-0 series lead, who woulda thought Boston would get ran like this? Although the game has my outer attention my mind wanders on to other thoughts, thinking into the future more so than anything.. Looking at less than 8 months before I'm suppose to be a college graduate and I'm still sitting here questioning what's next. Does anybody have a clue about their plans, am I the only one nervous about the next chapter in life? I push that aside... all I can worry about right now is me, working on me. Lately seeing flaws in myself that I know are okay because nobody is perfect but at the same time you can always be better right? Until next time.. Back to work

[davesmind12]

For the love of the game

Without you where would I be One game Simple as it is, it has changed and pushed my life to places and scenes where nobody could even imagine. I have seen and done things that many would kill for, yet I am unsatisfied.

For i know I’m better than I am and I fight to show the world my greatness as I run out of time and per say am running out of bullets, many of times I’ve shot myself in the foot in moments where I could get to live the dream, and then there’s times where I’ve shined as the brightest…yet all my failures outweigh my successes

Back to work...