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It has been a while

If anyone sees this, hi all, I think it's been a few years since I've used Tumblr, think this also is my first ever post! Think I took a step back at the end of 2018, I am not sure why, I just stopped using this website. A lot has happened in the last 5 years of my life. It has been a rollercoaster. Growing up is terrifying, and sometimes I wish I could go back to the days when I was younger, sitting in my childhood home on my laptop with my childhood pets. I want to experience college again, I want to know what it's like to stroke my pets one last time, I want to be able to protect my younger self, and say to her everything will be okay, even though deep down I still know it is not. I was diagnosed with depression back in 2017, even though I did not get told until 2022, alongside being diagnosed with PCOS. I started therapy back in 2018, and went continuously until a year ago. I want to go back, but I am unable to afford it. I have gone through a lot of grief and heartbreak, and it broke me. I am glad I had the memories with the people not in my life anymore, I hope they are healthy and well, but I really hope they understand I never meant any harm, and I hope they wish I am doing well too. I used to be such an anxious person, but after all of the grief I have gone through in my life, I am continuously numb and I find it extremely hard to care. I do care about animals, and I want to protect them, but I am being very self-destructive to myself and I wish I wasn't like this. I haven't felt true joy in years, I want to, I can still laugh and smile and enjoy things, but I do not think I can ever experience true happiness for a very long time still. I know people care about me, but I still feel so alone and used. I hate people presuming I am weak, and I don't like asking for help, I feel like I need to deal with things on my own, to make myself stronger, although I am a hypocrite as I do know talking to peers and having the help of loved ones helps so much, however, I greatly struggle, even though I am almost 24 years old. I've forgotten a lot of my past, and I am scared I will forget things which genuinely made me smile, I do not want to turn into an adult younger Jordie does not recognise, I want to turn into someone she can feel safe and happy around, someone she knows can help save animals. I know I am talking into the void currently, but I hope life is a little bit easier in another 5 years, by then I will almost be 30. I hope I will be a bit happier by then too. Life may be hard, but I am sure I can manage. I was able to get through a lot already, I just hope I can have a break from it all soon.

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Sports Anime things part 2: MEGANE-KUN!!

The Tsundere-cutie pie squad

Midorima Shintaro (Kuroko no basket).

Tsukishima Kei (Haikyuu!!).

The intellectual -bratty- squad

Miyuki Kazuya (Diamond no ace)

Iwakura Yukihiko (Run with the wind).

Akaba Hayato (Eyeshield 21).

The Handsome guy squad

Tezuka Kinimitsu (The prince of tennis).

Fujiwara Takeru (Prince of stride alternative).

The cinnamon roll squad

Katsuki Yūri (Yūri on ice!!!).

Sakamichi Onoda (Yowamushi pedal).

Ryugazaki Rei (Free!).

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How is KyoAni gonna tell us Rei has an older brother after 3 seasons

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stylish man!

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my friends cat loves attacking xmas trees but hates plastic bags

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milk & mocha line stickers

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Milk & Mocha: Unstoppable Lovers Line sticker icons ↳ Feel free to use

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竜ヶ崎 怜 🦋 Ryūgazaki Rei (Dec.14) 💖

Happy Birthday Rei!

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Happy Birthday, Rei-chan!

So much love on your special day~

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||| ✮ Happy Birthday Rei Ryugazaki ✮ 12.14 |||

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Dec 14th → Happy Birthday Rei!

“That’s right, the butterfly ghost has possessed me… seriously though, just commend me on my efforts, you guys!”

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When you load the game and the neighbor you love is in boxes ready to leave you

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Rowlet with a Turtwig?

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Watering a friend. 

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is that a pikmin

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Turtwig commissions ~

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people who think they’re too cool for pokemon baffle me. you think you’re cooler than turtwig? huh? you think you’re fucking better than turtwig? look at me in the eye . you think you are better than turtwig? that you’re too cool for them??? you’re a coward and know nothing .