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I talked to a spirit last night

Ouija boards are no joke. $25 for ages 8+ to talk to an unknown entity seems like the biggest joke and greatest waste of money, I know. I can promise i’d never try to fake that stuff. I take this seriously and went in skeptical, but with the right energy, and I think that’s why it worked out in my favor as it doesn’t always work for others. And while I have no proof, and nothing to offer other than my words, it’s anyone’s choice to choose to believe me. I wouldn’t even believe myself. I experienced it and still question it. It’s other worldly and makes absolutely no logical sense, but I’d be stupid to not believe what happened. The letters, numbers, and pictures the planchet directed us to have no obvious meaning. It never spelled an actual word, but went to several letters and sometimes followed a chain of letters with a number. ANANAN1 was one of the meaningless “phrases” it spelled. And we got an age “14” and possible last name initial of “C”. This spirit also loved moving between the 2 left hands corner pictures: a sun, and a picture someone playing the board. The sun represents happiness or “appreciation” and the lower pictures seem to mean something worse. This spirit did not go to all four corners, and it never went to “No”. In fact the entire right side of the board was unused. The highest number was 4, right before 5 which is the middle of the board, and the closest letter was E (also the left side). The spirit went to Q a few times but never to a U. No words were spelled.

There were times when both me and my friend were looking at each other, and the planchet moved swiftly and straight to wherever it wanted. After certain “phrases” I would repeat each letter or number and the spirit would respond “Yes”. It seemed to have some importance to the letters and numbers and pictures, but makes no logical sense to us. The planchet would also move without being asked a question. It felt eager to tell us. We played outside, by ourselves at a park. We sat for around 5-10 minutes without an answer but there were 2 men loading a truck close by. After the men left, the planchet started to move. It was very slow at first, and I 100% thought it was by friend. As we kept going, the movements were so precise and quick I knew no one could replicate that on their own. It really does feels like a magnet almost, or like someone else had their fingers on it. Both of us were hardly applying pressure. A couple times when the spirit would answer “yes” the planchet would lose a corner and fall off the board, so I used my thumbs without removing my fingers to put it back. Apprenently losing contact with the board can be dangerous.

We asked the spirit of we could say goodbye to which it responded “yes”, and immediately after it started to spell out more random phrases. We asked a second time and both pushed it to goodbye on our own.

We want to play one more time, but I don’t think I will after this next time. I’ll update again once we go through with it. Please be careful with these.

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Aquarius

Give me night owl eyes and time gone to thought, mad hair in eccentricity, my clothes ripped, metaphorically or literally. Let me step in front of everyone else, new ground to claim.

Compassion seems simple for concepts, for groups. Eye contact however, is another thing entirely.

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“Nothing. Leave me alone. It is December.”

— Francis Jammes, tr by Jethro Bithell, from “It Is Going to Snow,” wr. c. 1910

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Omg I’m laaaaaugh

I went out with that girl again for a FOURTH time and we still have yet to make a move on each other🤦🏻‍♀️ immmmmm saaaaaaaad. It was fun tho! I was literally alone with her at her house and we were sitting so far apart😂and I WANTED to make a move on her when she walked me out but she hugged me and fucking SKURT outa there like byeeeee so I couldn’t ughhh I shouldnt been like “wait” and just fucking did it but iiiiiiiiiii couldn’t. :( we’re making plans again to see each other I think she still likes me sooooo ughhhh it needs to happen time number 5. I’m desperate af! Lmao we’re just both so reserved in person even tho we’re both like air,and fire signs lmao we’re not ballsy enough! I was a lil drunk but she wasn’t so I couldn’t like get the courage too. And she was tired. But ya I’ll update when I see her again! :) I’ve been having dreams about her every damn night...but she texted me like 5 minutes after I left and I don’t think she would😂 I was gonna wait till I got home to text her and she said she had fun and put a :) and then I told her I had to pull over into someone’s driveway cause I was too cold and she told me to lock my doors and said “I’m just saying cause I’m gonna need you to not get stolen😅” and this is right after I left sooooi I think she’s saying she wants to see me again ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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I just went on a long drive. Cleared my head a lot!

You know I’m gonna give chances. Maybe more than 2 or 3, maybe I’ll give 15. Eventually, when a time is right, I’ll know when to stop giving them. I also don’t want to be selfish. I know there’s a time for that, but right now it’s not really about me I feel like. It’s just unfortunate it’s affecting me. I was wondering if I was being tested. By her, the universe, something? But it’s just coincidence it kind of fell onto me. Maybe I’m bad luck.

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Lmao this really be life tho. I’m just experiencing this shit for the first time! And wow it’s a rollercoaster! I knoooow that if I stay along for the ride I might actually have fun :)

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I def am getting sad tho. I’m a lil baby. Lowkey want to cry🙃 buuuuut ya so wow like when I look at it logically i shouldn’t be making a big deal, but I’m emotional bitch cancer moon and shit, and let me tell you, my moon, she is not having it! But can’t admit that. I’ll try to keep it cool with her like lol no I understand shit happens, but on the inside I’m highkey crying

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I’m being so patient. Lmao it’s dumb stuff but my ass overthinking EVERYTHING so I feel like I deserve the title of patience! Love is patient right? So I’ll try this thing out and I hope she knows that. That I could have easily said “thank u, next” but I’m gonna stay and fight a little longer. I would feel like a pussy for forfeiting. Does she even deserve this tho? Well idk! We will see I guess and I’m also trying very hard not to get angry. I’m not someone to be that way, it would take a lot to piss me off but when others are telling me to be pissed, it’s hard not to. So I hope she knows that. Maybe I’ll tell her?

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I feel like updating this! Well not my blog just my life lmaooo

Ok so...a lot has happened since I used to update a lot. To save the reading, I no longer (really) have a crush on the OG girl and we’re actually really really good friends right now! She actually called me her best friend the other week! Like right now we’ve never been closer and everything is good! :)

We’ve also made out like 3 times since I last updated about that, including yesterday and took a bunch of cute videos of us kissing. There’s like 7 I posted one of them lol. So idk ya we kiss sometimes but really I don’t have any feelings for her anymore. Like we literally made out yesterday and I was up texting that other girl, which I’ll get into, for hourssss and went to bed thinking about her and took a nap today and had a dream about her. Like basically my mind is all about this other girl right now.

So getting into THAT, we met on Tinder (I know haha) and we’ve gone on 3 dates! We have yet to kiss or anything, but we text everyday and I showed some of our convos like we send hearts and everything and we FLIRT a LOT. But we’re literally both too shy to make a move🤦🏻‍♀️ so I could go on about her but that’s way too much. Basically I really like her, she’s hot af, and we also have really deep and serious convos! Also she’s a Sag sun and Pisces moon I believe whichhhhh that’s perfect for me!! Lmao but ya we’re just “talking” but we both admitted to each other that each other are the only people we’re talking talking to! So it’s like we’re talking but it’s kinda more, like it’s exclusive talking. I’ll stop saying talking. Umm and also I kinda started smoking. Like tobacco...hmmm not good I know but I figure I’m young and healthy enough and it’s honestly really fun and I’m pretty happy right now? So ya sue me. My parents don’t know. They would kill me. But that’s my current life sit, well mainly social life sit.

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Doin gay shiit

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Ow my hearu issssssss ow

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I’m kinda talking to this girl and omg!!!!!

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Wow I hope date 2 goes well cuz I liiiiikeeee herrrrrr😩💓💓

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Omg🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈 I can’t even focus on my reading we’ve been texting each other non stop everyday and our conversations just keep getting risquér and risquér....my cheeks hurt from smiling.

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In case this makes no sense, this is not the same girl I was talking about for like the past fucking year (wow can’t believe I crushed on her for a year). Um I’m kinda slowly getting over her, we’re really good friends right now our friendship is the best it has been, and I’m happy😊 I’ve said this before but crushes never really go away completely..unless she like murdered my family I’ll prob always look at her in that same way which rly sucks. And ummm I kinda kissed her the other night. I didn’t freak out on here cause I’m getting over her, but it was like a 1 second kiss and we meant to longer but got interrupted🤦🏻‍♀️ I was at a party and like, Other ppl were making out in front of us and I was like okkkk that’s not ok so I asked her and she said yes and we kept trying to go in but kept laughing (were always like this omg) and when we finally did kiss I honestly kinda felt something like a spark I remember thinking at that second “woah” cause I don’t usually feel that??? And she pulled away I don’t know why something was happening I think it was the guy walking in and she noticed but I was paying no attention to anything else around me haha and that whole night I was hoping we would get another chance to do it again, but never did. So she drove us home and she passed out as soon as we got home, and I stayed up another 3 hours texting the OTHER girl cause she was at a party too up late.. kinda ironic lmao but ya I can’t stop thinking about the little spark and wonder if she felt it too, maybe that’s why she pulled away idk.. but also now I’m talking to someone new so...expect updates

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Lit so excited to see her again. I can’t stop thinking about herrrrr and can’t sleep haha. Honestly can’t WAIT to kiss her....we flirt so hard over snap but in person we’re so shy and it’s cute cause we’re both like respectful of giving distance but, I don’t wanna keep my distance😂 she invited me to her house on Halloween cause I’m going to parties and she didn’t wanna come cause guess she doesn’t like them, but she’s like my house is open if you get bored at the parties so I’ll just be bored on purpose 🤷🏻‍♀️😂 Haha and yesterday I got new panties and told her and she’s like ooooh panties huh? And then she said she was going to VS for cute bras and I’m like why? And she said cause I got new panties so she wanted cute bras😂😂😂 like really over here dying but trying to keep my cool. Sry I’m soooo giddy and guys omg she has the cuuuutest fucking expression when she laughs like I was just staring in awe just enjoying watching her laugh lmao do I sound creepy? Major UWUs over here