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Happy OCD awareness week to my turn signal and all the times I looped the block to make sure I didn’t run over a small child!

Happy OCD awareness week to all the food I threw out because I thought it would give me listeria!

Happy OCD awareness week to the candles I never lit but had to leave parties to make sure hadn’t burned down the house!

Happy OCD awareness week to all the people I thought I killed for not smiling back at them on the street!

Happy OCD awareness week to all the knives I had to get rid of because I was afraid I’d stab someone with them!

Happy OCD awareness week to all the emails I undelivered because I was afraid I’d sent porn!

Happy OCD awareness week to God’s voice in my head!

Happy OCD awareness week to multiples of three!

And absolutely NOT a happy OCD awareness week to needing my sock draw to look neat because that’s literally not what it’s about and the media sucks for making this into something quirky and cute.

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fuck OCD.

fuck obsessions. fuck compulsions. fuck intrusive thoughts. fuck uncertainty. fuck constant shame. fuck constant guilt. fuck constant anticipation. fuck the sense of impending doom. fuck ruminating. fuck reassurance seeking. fuck checking. fuck the exhaustion. fuck mental torment. fuck being stuck on everything. fuck not being able to let things go. fuck stigma. fuck fear. fuck isolation. fuck desperation. fuck misery. fuck feeling like the most vile creature on this planet. fuck not being able to control your mind. fuck the temptation of humoring the obsession. fuck "what ifs". fuck the belittling. fuck the countless days and nights spent trying to figure something out for sure. fuck mental reviewing. fuck mental anguish. fuck not being able to ever fully let your guard down.

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found this picture and thought i would share :3

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Daniel Sharman 🇬🇧 being a puppy

Source: Roster Con

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Said this to a dear and much-loved friend today, but I think maybe we all might need to see it:

Long-fic is not the rent you pay to be a part of fandom.

Fic, full-stop, is not the rent you pay to be a part of fandom.

Art is not the rent you pay to be a part of fandom.

Constantly creating is not the rent you pay to be a part of fandom.

Fandom is a community, not a corporation, your productivity is not a payment you have to make to be here.

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bro ocd is such an ancestral curse wdym she gives me the endurance to have 7 hour long panic attacks

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LNC: MATTHEW MICHAEL MURDOCK EDITION

(insp by)

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“No I don’t think I have any ocd thoughts, I just have to do something very specifically that’s all.”

Also my brain:

“Once you turn that light off there is someone in there and you have to lock the door to keep them in there”

“Dont touch anything, don’t touch anything- FUCK. Well, you touched the counter while you were setting out your food, your hands are contaminated now. Go wash them again before you get infected and die.”

“Oh, you’re in the shower and about to wash your face? Well wash your hands first while you’re IN THE SHOWER because you touched something since the last time you washed your hands IN THE SHOWER”

“Make your bed or you can’t do anything else this morning I swear to God”

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i hope this comes back to haunt you // neck deep

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Don’t know if I have any followers who are daredevil fans but this made me giggle

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good morning i’m thinking about that man. good afternoon i’m thinking about that man. good evening i’m thinking about that man. good night sleep tight i’m thinking about that man!!

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i take this show seriously

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