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it seems like everyone can be loved despite their problems except me

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people when trauma victims act traumatized especially in a way that is unpalatable to them because it involves lashing out and unpredictable moods and having boundary issues rather than just being demure, sad, and consumable

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sh looks like ..

cutting

burning

hitting yourself

but it also looks like ..

unsafe sex

drug abuse

alcohol abuse

unsafe driving

starting arguments

accepting abuse

purposely isolating

self deprecation

and more.

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Franz Kafka, The Diaries of Franz Kafka / Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

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Lionness Headed Usekh, So Called "Aegis"

Egyptian, 1290-664 BCE (Late New Kingdom-Third Intermediate Period)

Silver was not easily obtainable in Egypt and was probably more costly for ancient Egyptians to acquire than gold.

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Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

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the day i forget to take my adhd meds im like yeah this is fine i've been just as productive as usual but the day after that the hours literally just slip away lmao

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time for another round of is the tension i'm feeling with someone i haven't talked to in months real intuition or am i delusional and having attachment issues?

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every memory // 1.23.2017

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It’s a cycle really

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I think this world would be better without me in it

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oh my god i'm so fucking old and broke and useless

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i just got an ad for razor blades on pinterest 💀

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