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#leavingsoon

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and then no one takes my pictures right ts dumb

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I be getting mad as fuck when some dumb shit happen and ion take my meds bra then I get stupid pissed cause the meds make ts worse when I don’t take ‘em

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I h8 hoes.

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Wasn’t as much as I thought so now idek what to do fr

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I understand that these meds take spans off of my life. I don’t understand life anyway and was born for a stupid reason. Made to feel feelings. At such a deep level sucks.

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No one understands that I had no one growing up as a friend. No one wanted to be my friend people hated me because I was annoying so growing up and in school I never had friends. I always played alone when I grew up, even going through school. The only “friends” I would make were from sports and that doesn’t count that’s a team effort. As I went thru Highschool I gained cool people by doing stupid things to make people laugh. By 12th grade I was all alone and finally realized everything I thought i experienced was false.

Hence the reason I’m able to self isolate to a max level. I didn’t have anyone to talk to but myself. I talk to myself In my head even tho he can be mean sometimes that’s the only person I trust aside from my siblings.

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Sometimes I feel like I’m at my last days. It feels slow. and calm. and almost as if things are coming to and end.

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A great mother in the sky sounds like the last soundtrack as your memories flip by as you fall into the arms of death.

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I wonder……if I died, would things go quiet?

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Hi u make me feel good :)

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When you align yourself with your thoughts and remove outside energy. You think clearer. Though I should know that, I’m experiencing it. I’ve centered myslef off of mushrooms, and I’m also medicated and things are a bit clearer now.