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tbh idk what i expected lol like if my rships don’t end w me realizing they’re bullies or they don’t fizzle out like smoke it’s me realizing that they don’t put in energy to b my friend at all. like okay man thanks lol. glad to know im only a friend for u to take my spoons but not for you to give me any. lol. lmao

it’s funny how he asks me to vent to him instead of posting it like why the fuck would i wanna talk about wanting to die only to get left on read lmao fuck off. at least when i vent post i don’t expect any reply other than a random like but u want me to vent to my ‘friend’ and get ignored for what. and the gag is if i return the energy he gets all pissy as if i’m not equally busy as if i gaf about you repeatedly running back to an abusive rship bc u don’t like urself enough to be alone without him. why is it fine when u ignore my distress but it’s a problem when i ignore urs?

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it’s funny how he asks me to vent to him instead of posting it like why the fuck would i wanna talk about wanting to die only to get left on read lmao fuck off. at least when i vent post i don’t expect any reply other than a random like but u want me to vent to my ‘friend’ and get ignored for what. and the gag is if i return the energy he gets all pissy as if i’m not equally busy as if i gaf about you repeatedly running back to an abusive rship bc u don’t like urself enough to be alone without him. why is it fine when u ignore my distress but it’s a problem when i ignore urs?

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She ended up stealing something from me lmao like I can't even expect anything good from anyone im relayed to because they're all evil psychopaths. U deserve the husband u have tbh since u don't even wanna leave him. U in a prison of ur own making Nd u wanna drag me into it bc idgaf bout the stupid god you kill yourself to follow. Hope u die down there

got back from the worst road trip of my life and my bed was perfectly made and now i’m crying even more than i was crying in the car it feels like everyone in my family hates me but at least my aunt isn’t fully evil

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Parents always say this:

"You're smart. Therefore, it's okay for me to expect more of you."

"You're smart. Therefore, I don't have to care how I explain things to you."

"You're smart. Therefore, it's okay for me to assume that any mistakes you make are intentional."

"You're smart. Therefore, if you say that you struggle with something, it's okay for me to assume that you're just lazy, afraid, lacking confidence, lacking motivation, or any other excuse to dismiss your struggles as fake.

but never this:

"You're smart. Therefore, I will put my authority aside and consider the possibility that you are right and I am wrong.

Like any abusive authority figure, they want you to be smart enough to uphold their authority but not smart enough to challenge their authority.

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girly don’t fucking play bc i will fuck you up like u think im gnna live in a place like this and not learn to win these mind games? don’t test me bc i don’t have to hit you to fuck you up babes imma call your husband on you

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yesterday this girl in my academic writing class sits down next to me and puts 3 bananas on the desk (which was jarring by itself) and i had two bananas in my backpack so i wanted to see if she would notice if i added those to her banana pile when she wasn’t looking and when she finally looked back at the bananas she sighed and said really quietly to herself “oh my god…i have so many…” and put all five of them in her backpack

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kinda crazy how doing my bed- not the bare minimum but a pretty minimal act- is enough to get me from feeling like i should kill myself rn to maybe i can kill my self next week or something

got back from the worst road trip of my life and my bed was perfectly made and now i’m crying even more than i was crying in the car it feels like everyone in my family hates me but at least my aunt isn’t fully evil

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got back from the worst road trip of my life and my bed was perfectly made and now i’m crying even more than i was crying in the car it feels like everyone in my family hates me but at least my aunt isn’t fully evil

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i could show them the depths of myself every nook and cranny every broken ugly piece that that put there and they wouldn’t care. they never will

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tarot reader: you got the death card

me: OMG FINALLY

tarot reader:… reversed

me: nvm

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if i ever killed myself it would be so easy to guess why

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will graham

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Tryna call my mom abusive at least she liked me enough to stay like even ur own grandpa abandoned u the fuck? Wanna speak on my family when u don't even got a single person willing to b in ur life like bitch please. Using my trauma against me like the pathetic bitch u are bc yk im right but your stuoid ass would rather stay a weird bitch than change. Ok bpd princess. Im giving u solid advice and ur immature ass moves to insults instead of a fucking apology. Man yall niggas are fucking weird

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i’m horribly antisocial but i’m so horny it might not even matter anymore

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my aunt is apologizing to her husband for him beating her while my mom watches *eye twitch*

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Me as a young teen furiously wanking hoping god strikes me down at my next nut

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growing up my only example of anger was expressed through violence and abuse so i’d always train myself to run away from my anger but im learning that you can express it in healthy ways and im beginning to love anger. probably my new favourite emotion rn.