dear-v

[dear-v]

you shouldn’t talk to me at all. you lost that right when you threatened me with trauma you knew I had

[dear-v]

i’d say the best thing i have learned this year is to just let people be who they naturally are. no psychoanalyzing them, no overthinking my actions, no asking what i could possibly do to keep their presence in my life. i just bring my best self to the table and always move from a place of love and respect. how that person responds is ultimately up to them. if that causes them to exit my life, i just let it happen. i will never be in the business of changing people. people are only ever ready to change when they’ve made the conscious decision to. all i can do is check myself and be kind always.

[dear-v]

it’s either i’m a horrible person or you’re crazy, and i don’t want to know which one it is

[dear-v]

when I noticed new details you’d give me about yourself, I treated it as a puzzle piece to a more complete version of you.

you looked at me and you didn’t like what you saw. you never loved me for who I really was

[dear-v]

you and I are fundamentally different. I held you to the same standards as I have for myself, that I’d never see my friends as enemies. that I would love them for who they are

[dear-v]

if i can overcome you, i can overcome anything. nobody had a chance of persuading me except for you, and now you’re gone. nothing can stop me now.

[dear-v]

hey v, how are you doing? you’ve probably moved on. i know we have history, but i’ve seen you discard your friends before, and you never speak of them again. it sucks knowing that you won’t consider me more than a few pixels on the internet

[dear-v]

I can’t imagine a world where someone would love me for who I am, not anymore

[dear-v]

I remember a time when you loved me, but what you loved wasn’t me. It was what you imagined me as. It was never me

[dear-v]

Something is wrong with me. I think about you even when I don’t want to. Why am I like this