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12.09.19 Part II

But all hope is not lost.

The sun will rise again, hyung.

The sun will rise again, and we will be great again.

Acknowledge your woes and misery, and move on.

Affirm your goals, and ambitions:

I can lose weight.

I will lose weight.

And I have the power to do so.

I will count my calories.

I will have a calorie deficit.

I will drink more water.

I will cut down the proportion of my meals in half.

I will work harder in practice.

I will push myself in practice.

I will change my attitude in practice.

I will value slow progress and action.

I will be patient with myself.

I will be kind to myself.

I will love myself.

And I will take care of myself.

I will keep my room clean.

I will fold and organize my clothes.

I will change my mentality and work ethics to a more fitting one.

I will change my attitude toward progress and myself.

I will avoid social media, and only use it if necessary.

I will treat others with kindness, and I will protect others with what I can do.

I will reach 126 ibs before the season ends.

I will continue reading, and read.

I will forgive him.

I will forgive him.

I will forgive him.

I will let go.

I will let go.

I will let go.

I will wish him the best, and be happy for him.

I will try to understand his actions, and hope for the best for him.

I will let go.

I will focus on three things: My well-being, wrestling, and my grades.

I can do this.

I can do this.

I will do this.

Because I can.

Affirm your words, now, hyung.

And don’t go back.

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12.9.19

This is my lowest point of the second half of 2019.

I am currently 138 ibs.

I am not wrestling as well as I hoped to.

I am not conditioned and in good health as I wanted to.

The person that I love very much has turned away from me without saying anything.

I have not been sleeping well.

I have not been feeling well at all.

And i frankly

don’t know 

what to do. 

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I’m coming back.

12.8

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9/15 3:31 lmao

Siiiiis what is you doing lol

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6/10 :)

Meat - 350 cal - 7 AM

Apple - 150 cal - 10 AM

Pancit - 400 cal - 2 PM

Chocolate - 700 cal 4 PM

Shrimp + Rice - 500 cal 7 PM

:)

Let’s go for 1800 cal tomorrow? Yes :)

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Sweety starting tomorrow, please begin recording and actually keeping track of everything! Please, for your own good :)

Love you always!

6/8

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6/9

-Skincare routine, honey. Yes.

-Cut nailsssss

-Clean and organize roooommm 

-Rest, go on phone, or play The Last of Us idk

-Study Spanish for an hour

-Go to the movies with Tita Cristy :)

-Adam Eve 1000 words :)

-Laptopppp

-Diary journal, etc

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6/10 - 6/16 Schedule :)

6/10 Mon - First day of summer school, art class! :) Make sure to arrive extra early, and pick your outfit for the day before! Make sure your school supplies are ready. There will be XC practice right after or shortly after summer class, so do that! Then, go home and rest for an hour or two. Finalize the three-four books you want to buy yourself! :) Try to get an idea of what you want to buy for your birthday, from mom. Learn and study Spanish for about an hour. Rest, and then Eve in which you write a minimum of 1000 words. Diary and daily journal, and then read 4 chapters of Me Before You before going to bed.

Note: Start focusing and fixing your diet. Literally, please :) 1600 calories only!

6/11 Tue - Same thing with practice right after summer school. Rest first! Fold and organize anything remaining in your room! Plan your first summer project!! Also photography planning, and projects! Projects! Learn and study Spanish for about an hour. Rest, and then Eve in which you write a minimum of 1000 words. Diary and daily journal, and then finish reading Me Before You before going to bed!

Note: Be consistent about your cleaning habits! Maintain cleanliness in your room at all times! :)

**6/12 Wed - Rest, and then study Spanish for an hour! Project Adam! :) Rest, Project Eve. Diary daily journal, and then start reading another book! Hmmm, read You.

Note: Try to make it a habit to journal and read every night before going to bed! :) It’s time to make good habits now for the future!

**6/13 Thur - Rest, study Spanish for an hour! Project Adam! Rest, daily journal, and then continue reading You before going to bed.

Note: Don’t waste your summer! :)

Charge camera please! n phone :) Get ready for tomorrow’s trip to the beach

6/14 Fri - Beachhhhh w friendssss. When you get home, study Spanish. Um, yes lol. Project Eve, daily journal, and then continue reading You before going to bed.

**6/15 Sat - Not sure yet lol. But during weekends, no studying language :)

6/16 Sun - Family. timeeeeee

** Means you need to add more stuff :)

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Plans for this week 6/2 - 6/9

6/5 Wed - Help Julian film for Ms. Angulo! :) Have fun! <3

6/6 Thur - Ya’ll are potentially gonna go to the movies to watch Aladdin with Andy and Rita, so hopefully the plan goes through! :) 

6/7 Fri - Beach with the Asian friends, but it’s iffy on this one. If it doesn’t go through, and most likely won’t - hmm just finish cleaning room. Start a journal, and rewrite your goals on it. What do you want to do for the summer? What are your expectations? What do you hope to accomplish and get done by the end of summer? Finish cleaning room :) Make it a habit! Hmm, also prepare and get ready for summer school on Monday! :) Also today is like the day to actually start sleeping right and on time lmao

6/8 Sat - Speedway!!! :) <33333333333333333333 ps drink water this time! 3 PM in front of the school, but in the morning before you go to Speedway - I want you to go to the Baldwin Park library, next to Morgan Park! Read a book, and ask about borrowing books!

6/9 Sun - Go for a jog in the morning, before you shower! Run a lap around the school as a warm up, and then run Frazier Merced! Church with the fam, and THEN go to the movies with Tita Cristy! Prepare your outfit for the first day of summer school tomorrow!

P.S. Remember, always drink plenty of fluids! Stay hydrated! Sleep on time, with at least 8 hours of sleep! Try to sleep at 10 P.M. ! :)

Try to journal and write/type on a diary each day for feedback and of course, the occasional motivation <3

I love you Carla, and you can do this!

I can do this!

Believe it!

6.4

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Slowly and gradually cut down sugary snacks please :) <3

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6.4

Second day!!!! :)

So for food journal of the day:

1. Shrimp - 300 cal - 7AM

2. Hotdogs - 300 cal - 9 AM

3. Steam Buns - 400 cal - 2 PM

4. Mango - 600 cal - 2 PM & 6 PM

5. Candy - 300 cal - 6 PM

So in total, that was hmmmm 1900 calories?? AMAZING improvement from the previous day! Now, let’s go for 1600 calories okay?

I know you can do this! :)

Believe it!

I know i can do this! <3

I believe in myself.

I can do this!

No, I WILL do this! :)

I love you Carla, and always stay strong!

Believe it!

6.4

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6.3

First day! :)

It was an okay start so far :), but be forgiving Carla.

Today, we ate:

eggs: 300 cal 7:30 AM

hash-browns: 400 cal 7:30 AM

Hamburger: 300 cal 10:00 AM

Hot-dog & fries: 500 cal 12:30 PM

Cereal: 400 cal 5:30 PM

Noodles: 400 cal 6:30 PM

So, today you ate 2300 cal out of 1400 cal.

Hey, that’s perfectly okay, as long as you’re striving for progress, okay? Tomorrow, let’s try again :) Tomorrow, let’s work harder and make some more improvement! :)

I love you Carla.

I know it’s tough, but hey, you got this! I know you do! You got this! It’s going to tough, but I believe in you! You’ll get there someday!

So for tomorrow, try to eat hmmmm 1800 cal, okay? 

Always smile :)

I know you can do it! 

You did it before, so you can do it again! 

And even better!

Believe in yourself!

6.3

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okay CaRLA

if you can cut out chips and soda from your diet ?? then lmao?? what are you doing?? YOU CAN CUT OUT ANYTHING FROM YOUR DIETTT

L I s ten i know it’s impossible to completely cut out sugary snacks from your diet, but keep it to a limit!! Weekend only!! _._

Thank youuu ^^ :) <333333333

6.3

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No sugary snacks, hyung,

Only fruits. Fruits.

Fruits.

Maybe snacks during weekend, but definitely not weekdays 

Listen, I know it’s going to be hard and difficult. I know you’re going to be craving for them, and I know your body feels like it’s going to die in temptation if it doesn’t eat what it wants to eat.

But you can get over it.

You can get through it, that obstacle. 

Just please, for a week. Do not eat anything processed.

Nothing processed.

Thank you.

I know you can do it. :)

I can do it! 

Believe it! 

6.3

6.3

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Let’s try again today, okay hyung? We will rise again.

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Believe it!

I will keep trying, hyung. Believe it! 

6.3

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Path to self-improvement and growth, hellooooo :)))

You are currently 134 ibs

Okay, so two things:

Food journals, and intermittent fasting.

1500 calories, or less each day.

Drink water 4-5 minutes before a meal.

Be consistent.

Keep track of everything you eat.

Follow the 18/6 rule.

Eat small servings.

No, it’s not a chore. It’s a lifestyle.

It’s growth.

It’s self-improvement.

No, it’s not work.

It’s growth.

It’s self-improvement.

Your goal is: 121 by the end of summer, August 8.

You can do it, and remember: I will always be with you.

I love you :)

Do it for you.

For you.

For me.

I love you.

I know you can do it.

No.

You WILL do it.

6.3