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dearkaelani-blog · 9 years ago

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Dear Kaelani,

Wow 24 weeks already?! Mommy and Daddy are getting more and more excited as you grow and progress. Thanks to the Ovia App I downloaded I get to know how you grow and what happens while you’re in my belly. I’ve decided to make a blog because well first of all I find it super cool that a little human is growing inside of me and that basically at the end of pregnancy rips me to shreds. (kidding) I just think it would be cool to share our journey with you. Plus I’m super stoked for you to be here and can’t wait for you to see the world outside of my belly. Let’s see since we’re that far ahead already I’ll just sum up the previous months. You know what? Lets just start from the beginning. I actually had no idea I was pregnant with you up until late October. Reason being was that before hand in August I had something wrong with my kidneys and ovaries. I was on my period for almost a whole month! I was not so happy about bleeding almost every day so they put me on a bunch of hormonal meds and stopped me from taking birth control. The hormonal meds were to stop the bleeding completely and get me back on birth control after to help regulate the bleeding. Later they did an ultra sound to check up on my kidneys and ovaries... Turned out I had about 4 cysts. Which explained the long term period I had and I actually didn’t need to go through that treatment at all. Anyways my cycle got all mumbo jumbo so I was just spotting after they put me back on birth control and I was told it takes a few weeks for my body to regulate itself. They also had me pee in a cup several times to see if I was pregnant at that time and it was negative. In September on my birth control I got to the placebos and still no period. It was like omg I went from bleeding non stop to not bleeding at all. You would think I would be so happy but frankly I was worried. I kept thinking oh goodness now I’m pregnant? But because I was turning 21 on the 14th I decided to schedule my annual with the doctors and do my first pap and also have them do a blood test to see if I was pregnant. To me reading my hcg levels would be more accurate. (you would think) I believe this appointment was 4 four days before my birthday. They checked and told me the results were negative and cont to do my first pap. At this point I was relieved that I wasn’t pregnant and that maybe it was just my body still trying to regulate. Plus my 21st was coming up and I was so pumped to get totally wasted and just get messed up! Two weeks later I wasn’t feeling right.. I actually woke up and had to run to the bathroom to throw up. I also had the worst headache. I thought maybe it was just a migraine. Moved on and around late October I still didn’t have my period. I thought you know what, lets just take a pregnancy test for the heck of it. It didn’t wait for the full 2 mins or however long to show its results. There it was. The +. I was so shocked, I texted your dad so fast. Like I took my birth control every day. Except this one time.. I just took it at a different time. Shows how fertile I am. I started to freak out a little bit. So I took another one just to see if it was still going to be the +. And this one also didn’t wait either. Gee thanks for reminding me that YES I AM INDEED 100% PREGNANT. My thought process was omg how am I going to tell our families? How is Ciane feeling? What are we going to do financially? Where are we going to live? All these things and I couldn’t help but cry. At the time we had no idea how far along we were with you. Thanks to my unregulated cycle and also because of the blood test they had me do at the doctors that came up negative. I just assumed we probably conceived late September so your dad and I just said we were 9 weeks. Let me tell you the first two months after we knew was so hormonal crazy. Your poor dad had to deal with my crazy mood swings and crying and also I wanted to eat almost everything. Not only that the telling our families part went a lot better than we thought. We at first didn’t know if we should’ve kept you, only because of where we were at in life. But your dad is so supportive and incredibly loving and was making sure that for my mental health it would be okay. There was a time were I had to have an abortion before and it took a really big toll on my mental health. Your dad was worried about me going through it again. In my heart I knew keeping you would bring so much joy to us. I knew you would help us grow and better ourselves. Your dad is literally the man of my dreams. I love him so much and after we agreed to keep you, I couldn’t help but get overjoyed. He and I are starting a family together with you. What more could I want? After all that settled. We went in for our first appointment with you. Which was an ultrasound to see how officially far along we were.. which this is where your dad and I and even your doctor was shocked. Turned out we were further along with you than we thought. It also meant we conceived you in late August. And in our minds we were so confused on how that was even possible. Oh my god your due date was set to be in July and now all of a sudden it got changed to MAY? The drastic change. They had us go see the specialist aka the people who get to paid to due ultra sounds as a living. Your doctor just wanted to make sure that what she saw that day was 100% accurate. And it turned out she was right. We were about 4 months pregnant with you. How it was possible we had no idea. But hearing your heartbeat and seeing you move around was such an incredible experience. Our hearts were so happy. And also we got to know your gender sooner. And when I found out we were having a girl I got even more happier. These past few months have been incredible so far. Your dad sings to you almost every other day. And you move so much. I also crave and eat so much spicy food. Your dad doesn’t always agrees with our cravings and wants us to stick to eating healthy. But if I want a cheeseburger then I’m going to eat a cheeseburger damn it. Of course I eat healthy too. You seem to really like avocados and carrots and hummus and celery and pineapples. The amazing thing about this is that I have eaten so much yet only gained 1lb. I hope you’re enjoying all these yummy foods and having to make me pee every 30 mins. Your dad and I already love you so much and can’t wait for you to be here. I already said so much so I’m going to save the rest for later.

Love always, Mommy P.S. omg 3 more months to GOOOO!!!

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