dearmysan

[dearmysan]

Happy 3 Months.

Can you believe it? It’s only been 3 months since I’ve been able to call you mine. For some reason, it has felt like a lot longer. I feel like you play such a big part in my life now that it just seems as if you’ve always been in my life. Have I ever shared how you changed me as a person? I feel like I’ve never been able to express much of it so I believe this will be a perfect time for me to tell you just how wonderful you’ve made these past few months. Just before I met you, I was in such a dark spot. I came out of a heckin long and toxic relationship. There was so many toxic shit happening around me. Most scarily of all I had no clear path or vision of my future and what I want to do about it. I felt so alone and lost a lot of the time, so much as I still find it hard to talk about. But love, you came to me and you were my friend. You made me smile and laugh unconsciously, you kept me happy and you only kept me more and more curious as time went on. I wanted to spend all my time talking to you, getting to know you. Though I seemed confused at the time about my own feelings, thinking back, I believe I knew all along how I felt about you. I was already gravitating to you with no explanation and then I just fell in love. Everything about you made me fall in love. Because you kept me so happy, I eventually begun to see my life in such a brighter life. I feel like you allowed me the strength and courage to face my fears. I feel stronger as you showed me that I didn’t deserve all the wrongs that had happened to me. And though there are still times where I’m lost with no clear path, I see that you’re always there beside me, accompanying me on this journey and I couldn’t be more thankful.  I hope you always remember how beautiful of a person you are. Because of you, I believe that people really can be beautiful inside and out. Such a bright person like you was even able to lift my spirits. I hope you’ll always love yourself, as much as you love me and as much as I love you. When I call you beautiful, I mean it in all the good ways possible. If I had one wish, I’d wish that I could have met you sooner! To me, you really are the most beautiful person and I’m lucky to have you by my side. I really hope you’d stick by with me as long as forever takes us. Thank you for everything so far, I love you so much.  P.S I have a special gift waiting for you. After all the fun you have today, let’s make time to go somewhere together and I’ll give it to you then!

[dearmysan]

9:21PM | 7:21PM

I am reading through what I have so far and the quote from Nicholas Sparks especially speaks to me, it reminds me of your importance in my life. If I hadn’t met you, I would have known and I’d spend my whole life searching for you. Thank you for being with me as always. I really appreciate you and the person you are. I miss you more now.

[dearmysan]

Love Emojis.

I originally took this inspiration from the idea of love coupons, and twisted it into something a little bit different. I couldn’t figure out how to do this coupon thingy online so instead of coupons, you can exchange emojis with me and I’ll grant your wish! I won’t be using these stickers. for the same purpose as they are just for you! I just thought it would be cute so I hope you enjoy and make use of it! 😔 Feeling upset? Exchange this emoji for a nice and long hug. I’ll listen to you and support you. Let’s solve this together! 🤕 Having a bad day? Exchange this emoji when space is needed. I’ll be here to comfort you when you decide to come back. 👀 Feeling something suggestive? Exchange this emoji for a steamy session.  🤪 Up for a stream together? Whether it’s a movie, show or just random videos, exchange this emoji for more fun times together! 🍻 Wanna get buzzed? Don’t do it alone! Exchange this emoji for a fun night of drinking and endless talks together.  🥞 Too tired to get up in the morning? Exchange this emoji for breakfast in bed. I’m not the best cook but I’ll do my very best for you, prince. 🎮 Bored? Exchange this sticker for fun game sessions! We can play whatever you’d like, from pool all the way to Overwatch. 🎤 Want some nice music? Exchange this sticker for a song I’d like to share with you! 😍 Having a lazy day? Exchange this sticker for a cuddle session with many occasional kisses right in the comfort of our home. 😎 Tired of staying home all day? Exchange this sticker for a date hosted by your one and only. I’ll take you on an adventure! 🧐 Curious about something? Exchange this sticker for a random fact. Anything that you want to know about me, I’d happily share with you! 😡 Mad at your one and only? Exchange this sticker to end an argument, I hope you never have to use this but if you do, let’s always exchange a few things we love about each other so we don’t forget those important things.  ❤️ Free Wish.  I’ll add more coupons/stickers whenever they come to mind!

[dearmysan]

[dearmysan]

If we'd never met, I think I would have known my life wasn't complete. And I would have wandered the world in search of you, even if I didn't know who I was looking for.

Nicholas Sparks

[dearmysan]

Get to know Me.

Copied from my one and only. I’m finally doing it so I hope you also enjoy learning these littlest things about me if you haven’t known already!  Favorites : ↷ Color : Black, purple, green & blue. ↷ Movie : Monster Inc. ↷ Hero : Spider-Man & Doctor Strange. ↷ Villain : Joker & Maleficent.  ↷ Fruit : Cherry & Strawberries. ↷ Vegetable : Cabbage. ↷ Ice cream : Pistachio & Red Bean ↷ Movie Character : Groot, Forrest Gump, Loki. & Aragon. ↷ Candy : Haribo Gummy Bears / Starbursts. ↷ Heavy Metal Band : Black Sabbath. ↷ Classic Rock Band : The Beatles. ↷ Game : Overwatch & Monster Hunter.  ↷ Board Game: Monopoly & Clue. ↷ Food : Sushi & Pasta. ↷ TV Show : 13 Reasons Why. ↷  Sport : Volleyball. ↷ School Subject : English & Art.  ↷ Drink : Water. ↷ Holiday : Halloween & Christmas. ↷ Time of Year : October - January. ↷ Season : Winter. ↷ Type of Dog : Shiba Inu & Pugs. ↷ Type of Cat : Siamese. ↷ Animal : Whales & Lions. All animals. ↷ Snack : Crackers. ↷ Disney Character : Peter Pan. ↷ Disney Movie : Finding Nemo. ↷ Disney Song : Go the Distance & Reflection. This or That : ► Computer games or video games : Video Games. ► Pop music or Rock music : Pop Music. ► Stuff animals or dolls : Stuffed animals. ► Pancakes or waffles : Pancakes. ► Hot chocolate or coffee : Hot Chocolate. ► Morning or evening : Evening. ► Day or night : Night. ► Text message or call : Text message. ► Library or museums : Museums. ► French or Spanish : French. ► Summer or winter : Winter. ► Theater or cinema : Cinema. ► Love or money : Love. ► Book or movie : Movie. ► Tea or coffee : Tea. ► Chocolate or vanilla : Chocolate. ► Coca-Cola or Pepsi : Pepsi. ► Rain or snow : Snow. ► Car or motorcycle : Car. ► Comedy or horror : Horror. ► Hamburgers or hot dogs : Hamburgers.

[dearmysan]

7:32PM | 5:32PM

You’re out having fun at the moment and here I am preparing this gift.  All I can think about while doing so is how much I want to kiss you right now.  Happy Anniversary, my love!

[dearmysan]

One step closer to forever.

Unknown

[dearmysan]

♫♩ Happy Birthday to You Happy Birthday to You Happy Birthday Happy Birthday Happy Birthday to You. ♪♬♩

Greetings to you, love. Well, for our two very special occasions, I couldn’t help but to write you another letter. Though it’s quite a small gift, I hope you enjoy it anyways, especially because exchanging letters is our sort of thing. Getting back into it though, there’s so much things I want to say. I don’t know even know where to start. Not going to lie, I feel a bit emotional starting this off already so I apologize ahead if I don’t make any sense. Sometimes, when I pour my feelings, I can be a bit hard to understand.

Today marks the day you were born so I definitely must start off by congratulating you on hitting the big 20! I just wanted to say, thank you for existing in this world, a world that you’re obviously too good for, and thank you for allowing me to stay by your side as your greatest friend and soulmate. I’m absolutely ecstatic to spend such a special occasion with you, two special occasions while we’re at that. It’s been a whole month since I’ve been able to call you mine, can you believe it? We’ve talked about how it had seemed much longer than that, but in reality it’s only been recently that we’ve walked into each other’s lives. My very first impression of you have been correct since the first time we met. I thought you were such a bright person, you literally brought a smile to my face with all of the little conversations we’ve had. We actually started our whole entire relationship by talking about our favorite games, and it makes me laugh every time I think back. We just clicked super well and even then, I kept going on and on about protecting you, since you were just that precious. Even now, you are still your bright self and the most precious to me. One of my most memorable times with you from then, was that one sleepover we had. It was the night where I was beginning to question what I felt for you. You told me you wanted to kiss me, and I did too. You told me you wanted to flirt with me, and again, I did too. You were honest with me, and I was too, but only about the situation I was in. I wasn’t completely honest with my feelings and then shit happened and I almost lost you. You snatched my heart without me even knowing and apparently I needed a kick and a push from here to there until I noticed just how important you were to me. I remember thinking that I have realized my feelings too late. As I’ve told you before, when I came back, I came back as your friend and I was ready to like you and admire you in silence, I came back in search of nothing. I wanted you to move on but some selfish part of me wanted to keep you. With our feelings lingering here and there, you opened up to me again and again about how you felt when it came to me. I followed you and now look at where we are. I’m the happiest man on earth when I’m with you! I honestly think, everything worked out for us because you allowed it too. A million different things could have happened, but you still liked me and accepted me, so thank you so much baby for giving us a chance. All the time I have spent with you so far, has been priceless. You’re such a beautiful person inside and out. I see the amount of love and care you pour to those important to you and it makes me so extremely happy when I see the endless amount of love given back to you. You really deserve everything nice and sweet in this world, you deserve so much love just for being the wonderful person you are. The amount of joy you give me is indescribable and honestly, I can no longer imagine a day without you. You’re someone I need in my life. There’s nothing I would change about you, wait....yOUR SLEEPING SCHEDULE. kidding, kidding. jokes aside, I just wanted to say, thank you for everything so far. You’re my home and you’re my everything. I can’t wait to spend more days and sleepless nights with you!

Lastly, I just want to congratulate you once more for turning 20. You won’t get a chance to be 20 forever so I hope you spend this year doing things you won’t forget. I hope all your dreams come true and that wherever you go, you will be reminded of the love that surrounds you. Thank you for bringing so much meaning into my life, because of you, i have come to see things in such a beautiful light. Although I didn’t have much prepared for you, I hope this brought a smile to your face. I love you. PS. I have another gift for you so, come and see me!

[dearmysan]

wtf. no one allowed you to be this breathtaking. 

[dearmysan]

Things to do with You.

Just a little list of things I’d love to do with you. There is no specific order and more will be added along the way! Every time one is completed, I’ll make sure to note it here. Note, all of these things can be done more than once so come at me! ↷ Play Overwatch together.  ✔ ↷ Dance and kiss in the rain. ↷ Star-gazing. ↷ Go to Disneyland together.  ↷ Universal studios, let’s go. ↷ Rabbit sessions where I can cuddle you.   ✔ ↷ As cheesy as it is, I want to buy a couple set of things together. Whether it be pajamas or even cups, I think it’d be real cute. ↷ Dress up on Halloween and decorate our little apartment with all the spookiest things that we love.  ↷  Watch horror moves the whole Halloween night and snack on candies. ↷ Decorate a Christmas tree and exchange presents.  ↷ Compete with Gingerbread houses! May the best one win. ↷ Build a snowman. ↷ Exchange chocolate on Valentine’s Day.  ↷ Take you to an arcade. I can play the claw machine to win cute plushes for you. Or maybe you can win them for me because we all know you’re the best at all types of games. ↷ Cook with you so I can get an excuse to give you a back hug while you’re busy working.  ↷ Raise a pet together. In which case, we decided on a hamster. ↷ Bungee, skydive and parachuting with you. ↷ Hot air balloon ride. ↷ Possibly a Lord of the Ring marathon, even if it’ll take ages.  ✔ ↷ Take photos with you so we can hang them around our apartment.  ↷ Eat at a super fancy, high scaled and over priced restaurant.  ↷ Listen to all your favorite songs.  ↷ CENSOREDPUBLICCENSOREDSEXCENSOREDAHAHAH.  ✔ ↷ Watch you play that one scary game. I can do it.  ✔ ↷ Watch Fireworks! ↷ Marry you, when we’re ready of course. 

[dearmysan]

[dearmysan]

I love you, forever and always.

[dearmysan]

[dearmysan]

If I had a flower for every time I thought of you...I could walk through my garden forever.

Alfred Tennyson

[dearmysan]

1:52AM | 11:52PM

I realized you sent me your very cute yet teary eye emoji around an hour ago. But here I was stuck trying to finish this for you. I really hope you enjoy it.

[dearmysan]

Wooyoung’s Notes.

Here’s only the smallest collection of all the things I have noted along our journey so far. Enjoy reading them, I’m sure there was some I have missed out on, but there definitely will be more to add along the way!  ↷ San often gets shy when it comes to me. He says it’s because what he’s had with me was unlike anything he’s had with anyone before. I get what he means by that, as I also can’t help but to feel shy when I’m around him. What we have is really different and special to me.  ↷ He’s into Overwatch as much as I am, probably even more! Recently he has found out how much of a god he was at Hanzo. He says his favorite player is Jjonak and he often goes to a lot of games. I hope to go with him one day.  ↷ We played Overwatch together with a few of his close friends. I had a lot of fun! But there was one time where we met, I kind of panicked and killed him. It made him sad but not as sad as I was. It’s okay though because in return, he shot me right in the head. hM.  ↷ I asked San if I could kiss him, and he said he wouldn’t ever push me away, He probably doesn’t know this but he is the most precious person to me, hence it took me awhile. I did it though, I kissed him and he kissed me back, now I’m afraid I may have an addiction.  ↷ I always tell San how much I like him, so instead, I tried something different and I told him I loved him. He told me he loved me and though our intellectual sides were screaming, it’s really a day I don’t think I’d ever forget.  ↷ I was busy one week, and in the end, I couldn’t spend as much time as I wanted to with him. I really miss him.  ↷ IF SAN’S DIMPLES AREN’T THE CUTEST SHIT EVER WTFF. And can I just say, nice, nice jawline. What a pretty neck he has too. He’s just pretty in general, we may have a problem, I love him too much. ↷ Warning! San has found ways to tease me and make me jealous in return. Maybe I should cool down my teasing, maybe he’ll have some mercy on me.  ↷ He had a dream about Yunho and Hongjoong, I sure hope that we meet in our dreams instead. But then again, he called me his dream come true and that just made me the softest shit ever.  ↷ After our first time, I was surprised to learn about one of his risky kinks, I’m definitely putting it on my list of things to try with him though, how exciting! ↷ He’s so cute when he’s drunk. He literally sent me a whole spam of gifs that were all like, “I love you” & “I miss you.” It was the most precious thing ever.  ↷ Since I first met San, there hasn’t been a day without spams of himself. I love seeing his cute face everywhere so I never mind though. It really reminds me that I need to get my lazy ass off to give him a spam as well.  ↷ He’s so competitive and I can tell he get’s sad when people stop playing games with him. I hope everyone continues to play games with him even if he is always victorious!  ↷ I took him on our first date. We had pizza and a ton of beer, we even played 20 questions and though we’re not currently done, I hope to continue soon as I still have many things to learn about him. ↷ We’re going on our first Vacation together, just me and him, alone. We’re travelling to the Maldive Islands. Though I’m sure it’d be beautiful, I don’t think it’d beat his beauty.  ↷ San’s so honest. He’s probably the most down to earth person that I’d ever come across. He’s too sweet for his own good. I’ll protect him, no matter what it takes! I hope the greatest people come his way, always. A good person deserves good things, I hope only the best things come his way from now on. ↷ San gets easily stressed when things aren’t organized. Sadly, I hate how I can’t do much, I can only be here for him at the end of the day when he is done. San should take his medications with him always though, I want him to be safe and I want him to always feel content. He’s a really strong person and I admire him for that. ↷ He really has endless love for the people around him. ↷ He says he’s not a fighter, yet when it came to me, he couldn’t let go. I still find that so cute.  ↷ San asked me to be officially his, he even blushed and boom, there went my heart again. The answer was too obvious though, of course I’d say yes. ↷ Our vacation was short lived, but extremely fun! We had a nice dinner and he even threw himself into the water. I hope we get to go again, this time, I’d like to take him somewhere nice. Also, we forgot Shiber, poor baby. ↷ So like, San asked me if it’d be alright for him to temporary cc to a girl. He’s so goofy, of course I’d be more than alright with that. Whoever he may be in the world, he’ll always be my one and only. As long as it’s him and no one else, I’d be absolutely content.  ↷ I had one of my firsts rabbit sessions with San a week or two ago. I don’t remember how far back it was because at this point, we’ve had so much sessions! We watch scary videos, scary mazes and even disney things! I felt like I was there right beside him. It made me so happy to see him so excited over the things he likes. ↷ So, San put on a scary game play in the middle of the night when I was preparing to go to sleep. I couldn’t do it...and I left. I’m still sorry about it. Also, he couldn’t exit out of the video after I left and we started talking about how we’re cursed. ICB. ↷ Noted. San loves heavy metal. He’s also calls himself a nerd because he loves Star Wars and Lord of The Rings. So precious, I want to share his love for all the things he likes so, it’s definitely on my list to do so. ↷ Perhaps, does San love Winnie The Pooh more than me? I’m shaking.  ↷ I’m shaking again because my little boy is growing so fast. Don’t tell me he’s going to get taller and taller and taller.  ↷ We finally got a place to ourselves! It’s on the outskirt of town and it’s quite a beautiful little home. We still need to incorporate a lot of Mickey Mouse decorations in our home though, we specifically talked about the kitchen! I hope to get to that soon.  ↷ I’ve been desperate to get tall so, I did it, I am currently Yunho. I think San likes it though. Now he can curl up in my chest all he’d like! May I also add that I am a fan of my blue hair. ↷ I’m starting to think he doesn’t realize how beautiful of a person he is. I’m dyiiiiiiing.  ↷ Okay so, he had a dream about Han and I got mad. Then he had a dream about Han again but this time I was there to pull him away. He said it made him laugh, and it honestly made me super happy yet embarrassed! ↷ It’s his birthday today! I’m celebrating it with him for the first time. I couldn’t prepare much but I hope he enjoys his time today anyways. He deserves so much. Also, I shall add that we also reached our first month together as companions!  ↷ Though my baby is a daredevil, he isn’t good with drop rides. I definitely have to protect him when it comes to those! ↷ San brought home a kitty! We decided to keep the baby and call the kitty Simba, our very own baby! ↷ Over the time span that we’ve been together, San has gone from Soojin to Solar to Yeeun and back to himself multiple times. I have even more fond memories of these people now. May I also say that he was beautiful every single time.  ↷ So like, we went to the mall together. I bought a few suits and San/Yeeun wore the prettiest skirt. What happened after that was quite exciting. We even had a session in the car afterwards. I hope we have many more opportunity to share those exciting and rebellious times together,  ↷ I finally got to watch San play some horror games. It honestly wasn’t as scary as I initially thought it was going to be so I’m quite glad. Not going to lie though, I closed my eyes a few time and sat pretty far from the screen. He’s so brave compared to me.  ↷  We finished Pokemon XY & Z. I still remember when we first started. Man have I grown so attached to all the characters. I am real excited to fall in love all over again with the new cast of the Sun & Moon series we are watching. My baby even got us a netflix to try out so we could finish Lord of The Rings as well, especially after rabbit died off and made me real sad.  ↷ A car trip came to mind with San. It sounds absolutely perfect and I can’t wait to set out on that adventure. It’s like we share the same idea of many dates and I find it absolutely adorable. I have somewhere I want to take him. ↷ San had started talking about Jeno ever since that Boom comeback. Something about an attractive undercut and headband. I’m kind of real jealous but it’s okay, I’m learning how to live with it. Pft.  ↷ We played so much dating doors, it’s so fun to see how our choices differ and how they are yet so similar. I really didn’t want to play the NCT because of you know who but it’s alright, I had a great time anyways.  ↷ My baby called me dramatic...a lot of things started making sense after that. I am indeed a over dramatic person.  ↷ San has started work again. I really hope he learns how to take better care of himself. I don’t like seeing him in pain. Before when we were just friends, I know he had a lot of stress and it brought upon chest pains. Now San’s back is often sore as well. I just hope my baby is okay after an exhausting day. I believe that he’ll always do his very best. I just hope he doesn’t push himself to hard.  ↷ I have started school. Not going to lie, I’m very upset about the fact that my time with him has been cut off shorter, like I’m super upset. I hope he knows how important he is to me and I hope to keep him by my side, always.  ↷ I miss him, all the time.  ↷ San is really my source of strength. He keeps me motivated and really pushes me to make good decisions. He says he doesn’t know how to offer words of encouragement but little does he understand that just his mere presence is enough to keep my spirits up.  ↷ We betrayed each other in a game and I was really sad. Reminded me of that old overwatch days where we killed each other. I never want to go against him again, it’ll break my poor baby’s heart and my own. ↷  San seemed to really enjoy his Loki self. I got Nick Wilde, oh yeah! ↷ I believe we are exchanging gifts this year and I’m real excited for it. I’ll work hard so I can buy him meaningful gifts.  ↷ There’s something I want to do, but I’ll keep it to myself until we have time.