deathdoesntkillyou

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Roses pt.1

Rio: Whenever you can, I need to talk to you

Moses: Talk about what?

Rio: It’s Easter, everyone has been here

Rio: it was so bad

Moses: I did hear you had a face on like the weather

Rio: What, from who?

Moses: Little miss London, who else

Moses: you weren’t gonna say, was you

Rio: Oh my God, she’s so stupid

Rio: I’m sorry for whatever nonsense she was saying

Moses: I can handle her

Rio: She kept getting lost in the parade, it was so embarrassing

Moses: Kept trying to wind me up, was funny

Rio: 🤦🏽‍♀️ It’s not though

Rio: She doesn’t know when to stop

Moses: Neither do I, that’s the fun of it

Rio: I can’t trust her not to say anything

Moses: For a day or 2 you can, the state of her

Moses: she’ll be sleeping it off

Rio: I’m lying to everyone

Moses: I’m not stopping you telling everyone what we did all over that house

Rio: I don’t want you to get killed, that’s what’s stopping me

Moses: And I’ve told you how we’d put a stop to that, whenever you’re ready to go, you know where I am

Rio: We can’t

Rio: We’re needed here, Edie needs her dad, they all need me

Moses: You might be, I’m not

Rio: The more they push against it, the more you are

Rio: when she’s let this grief in and it breaks her, she’ll need you to pick up the pieces 

Moses: If that’s true, she can come with us

Rio: She won’t want me there

Moses: She’ll calm down and come round, it’s what I want

Rio: She’ll always be your priority, and that’s okay, she should be

Moses: Nah, don’t use her as an excuse now you’ve changed your mind

Rio: I’m not making excuses, I’m trying to be realistic 

Moses: Here’s the hysterics ‘cause you’ve had a family Easter

Rio: Don’t do that

Rio: they are my family, but so are you

Rio: no one is ever going to come round to it

Moses: I see what you’re doing, girl

Rio: What am I doing?

Moses: What you have before

Moses: you get like this every time you’re under their roof and they’re all in your ear

Rio: Because I can’t ignore the truth

Rio: however much I want to, they’re all right there

Moses: The answer isn’t to ignore me, understand?

Moses: we’ve not spoke all day, ‘course you’re upset

Rio: You’ve been talking to Nancy, apparently

Rio: it’s hell being here now, I feel so guilty

Moses: I’ll come get you, that’s all you had to say

Rio: No, you can’t

Moses: What do you mean no

Rio: I’m not in a fit state

Rio: and people are still here, you don’t want to have to make small talk or explain why you’re here

Moses: Meet us [wherever he made her before which is giving right by the gaff but not turning up at the gaff]

Rio: I have to stay here

Rio: and we have to do the right thing, I’m scared what will happen to you if we don’t

Moses: Quit worrying yourself about me, I’m a grown man

Rio: How can I?

Rio: It’ll be all my fault and I can’t bear that, you haven’t done what they’ll say you have

Moses: You’re getting the bad kind of worked up over nothing, I knew what I was letting myself in for

Moses: and like I told your nosy cousin, I’ve done nothing I wouldn’t do again

Rio: You’re not worried about her but what about the adults?

Moses: Have I not bent over backwards to prove you’re worth any of the trouble you bring to me?

Rio: Yes

Rio: but the trouble I’m bringing isn’t fair, to you or to them

Moses: This ain’t fair to me, you pushing me away

Rio: Please let me protect you

Rio: this is my fault, I need to make it right

Moses: I don’t need protecting

Rio: You do

Rio: Please, I would die if you got hurt

Moses: If I did, I’d do it myself

Moses: you’re the only one hurting me, you know

Rio: I know, this is impossible

Rio: but I can’t trust her, I’m sure she’s told someone, if not everyone she can

Moses: Talk don’t matter and from the mouth of the sort of girl she is, even less, like

Rio: If she’s told her brother, they’ll listen to him

Moses: They’d ask him where he heard it, still from her

Rio: I’m still not sure Edie won’t say something

Moses: Well I am, she’s my daughter

Rio: Okay

Moses: Be there in [however long], don’t make me wait for you

Rio: Don’t, I’m not going to be there

Rio: I need to get away, think

Moses: If you know what’s good for you, you’ll be stood where you’re told when I say you’re to be

Moses: thinking’s not doing you no favours

Rio: I can’t act like I’ve no brain in my head

Rio: it was so selfish of me to start this with you, I shouldn’t have crossed the line

Moses: I can make you act like that easy enough

Rio: Moses

Moses: Don’t you go trying to pick a fight with me, the blame isn’t mine for the day you’ve had

Rio: I’m not picking a fight, I’ve told you, I’m trying to take care of you

Rio: it’s all my fault

Moses: What are you at fault for? You’re not

Rio: I’ve put you in harm’s way

Rio: and everyone else is going to think I need to go to a mental hospital or something or just think I’m disgusting

Moses: I’ve told you, there’s no harm coming my way

Moses: nor yours, no one’s taking you from me

Rio: I don’t want to lose you forever

Moses: You’re mine forever

Moses: I’d die for you but that don’t mean I’m going to

Rio: We just need to let it die down

Moses: How long for

Rio: I don’t know

Rio: We’ll go back to seeing each other when I’m on shift only

Moses: When I’ve seen you now, we might

Rio: I’m drunk and puffy and I just need to go to bed

Moses: And don’t I rock you to sleep the best

Rio: Yeah but

Moses: But what

Moses: you can’t even convince yourself you don’t want it, you won’t me

Rio: It’s not about not wanting it, you know I do

Rio: but I can’t

Moses: I’m who tells you what you can and can’t do

Rio: Would you still want to be in my life if all you could be was a father figure?

Moses: You don’t reckon you’re being blatant asking the question, no?

Rio: I’m being serious, like

Rio: would you

Moses: I’d never only be that, it’s too late

Rio: We could try

Rio: if you took me and Edie out and we were totally normal, that could help change her mind, and anyone else’s who might be questioning it

Moses: How you are round me isn’t subtle and she’s not thick

Rio: So you reckon I’m blatant

Rio: that I can’t do it

Moses: I don’t reckon wes a need

Moses: we’ve every right to keep on as we are

Rio: Do you think there’s something wrong with me

Moses: You’re set on there being something wrong with me and you together

Rio: You raised me, and that turns me on, that can’t be good

Moses: We’ve been over this, it wouldn’t feel good if it weren’t

Rio: I love you so much, I just want to see you happy

Moses: See me and make me happy then

Rio: I have to tell you something

Moses: Jesus, what now

Rio: I saw the boy from before in town today

Moses: Yeah, and?

Moses: get to your point

Rio: We kissed

Moses: He kissed you or you kissed him?

Rio: I seriously don’t remember which way ‘round it was, I was wasted

Moses: Alright, best you tell me who he is so’s I can ask him

Rio: It doesn’t matter, it’s my fault it happened, that’s the answer

Moses: Stop with your non answers and give me the one I want

Rio: I can’t tell you what I don’t know, but I’m not going to hide it from you

Moses: You can tell me his fucking name now, I’ll do the rest

Rio: I can’t, it’s not worth your time

Moses: You’re wasting my time, I’ll get it out of you

Rio: You can hit me instead

Moses: I don’t need to hit you to make you speak up

Moses: and I know you’d be too proud of yourself thinking you managed to protect that boy to bother

Rio: It’s about you, if you go near him he’ll get the law involved

Moses: Your mood finally makes sense at least, distance between us to leave room for him

Moses: like mother like daughter

Rio: My mood makes sense, I’ve been in this house all day with all my family having to not think about what we did all over it

Moses: Nah, you weren’t complaining when it was turning you on to think of it

Rio: Because you were here, and it was just us

Moses: Second you’re not under my eye you can’t be trusted not to bat yours at the dope boy who broke your heart

Moses: you’re just the same as her, you don’t listen and you don’t learn

Rio: I know I’m stupid

Moses: What am I, falling for it again

Rio: I didn’t lie to you, it was all real

Moses: I don’t know that you didn’t let him inside you, you’re a liar already

Rio: How am I a liar? I’ve told you everything

Moses: You don’t love me, there’s the first one

Rio: Yes I do

Rio: I’m losing my mind trying to keep you safe because I couldn’t bear it if something happened to you 

Moses: You kissed someone else, I might as well go and [it’s giving drive his car into a tree or a wall but he’s being specific about the where of to make her picture it because clearly somewhere they’re driven past]

Rio: Don’t say that

Rio: I’ll stand in front of it so you have to kill me first

Moses: You can’t leave your mammy’s house, little girl

Rio: Watch me

Moses: I’d sooner pluck out my eyes than look at you

Rio: Then hate me

Rio: but don’t you dare do anything to hurt yourself

Moses: If you wanna play games, I dare

Moses: don’t wait up, it’s past your bedtime

Rio: I know what you’re going to do now, stop it

Moses: Why should I

Moses: you didn’t stop and think of us before throwing yourself at him

Rio: Because I’ll go crazy

Rio: you want to leave me worrying about you, where you are and what you’re doing

Moses: Sure you would

Moses: but you’ve got your new boyfriend to comfort you

Rio: I don’t want him, I need you

Moses: And your family, let’s not forget them

Rio: You’re the one that’s scaring me

Moses: What you deserve isn’t protection, you did this

Rio: I know I hurt you

Rio: so take it out on me, not yourself

Moses: After all I’ve done for you

Moses: every risk I’ve took, my baby girl not speaking to me cos of you

Rio: You don’t deserve it

Moses: You’re worse than your mammy, at least she gave me [however long mali were together], a family of my own

Rio: I hate myself

Moses: Lucky you, loving you means I can’t

Rio: I’ll make you so you can be free

Moses: I’ll free myself

Moses: and you

Rio: No

Rio: no, I’ll do anything, I’ll tell Edie it was all my idea and my fault, make her talk to you again

Moses: Don’t trouble yourself, if she hates me too she’ll miss me less

Rio: How could you say that

Moses: I wouldn’t piss on my cousin’s grave if it was on fire, he died tomorrow

Moses: and he won’t mine, I go to it tonight

Rio: I won’t let you leave me

Moses: You left me and I’m sorting it that you’ve no obstacles to what you really want, you’re welcome

Rio: No, you’re the grown-up and you’re meant to be there for me, no matter what I do wrong

Rio: you say I’m like my mammy well, you’re just like my dad

Moses: We’re only alike in you not needing either of us, being better off without

Rio: You don’t believe that

Moses: You do though

Rio: No I fucking don’t

Rio: I don’t know where I’d be without you, where any of us would

Moses: I know where you’re gonna be, my local, only seeing me as you can’t avoid it, serving us pints you hope I choke on

Rio: I can quit, if you want me to

Rio: I want to make you happy, make this right

Moses: Do what you want, I won’t be here to pull up a stool

Moses: I’m not living like that, not again

Rio: I know, I know you still love her

Moses: What I feel don’t matter, you’ve that in common, making it so

Rio: It matters, please let me fix this, prove how important you are

Moses: How

Rio: What do you want, more than anything else?

Moses: You knew everything I was after

Rio: I do

Rio: so have a baby with me and even if you still can’t stand me, you’ll have a family, I can do that for you

Moses: You’re not old enough, it wouldn’t be mine

Rio: That’s not what my body says

Moses: I’m not having another kid I don’t get to be with, that gets taken off me when you decide you’re done

Rio: I won’t do that

Rio: I’ll give you my car back and you can buy another caravan for me to stay in, if you don’t want me

Moses: You could, when you fancy playing happy families with someone else, I’d have less claim than your mammy gave me, this baby wouldn’t have my name even

Rio: I’ll give it your first name

Moses: Unfair to a girl

Rio: I’m serious, though, you know I am

Rio: I think you’re an incredible father

Moses: Seriously trying to butter me up

Moses: the only word you’re good for is the ones you said about wishing you’d never crossed a line

Rio: Seriously sorry for being so useless

Rio: I’m sorry I let them get in my head but it’s unfair to put you in the middle of my back and forth with my brain

Rio: I wish I was better, older for you

Moses: Yeah right

Rio: You’ll never trust me again, will you

Moses: Myself, more like

Moses: I should’ve worked out ages ago you couldn’t handle this

Moses: I’ll find somewhere else to put my love if I survive through to the morning

Rio: I’m not like my mama, I can’t watch that

Moses: I’ll away myself to London, your cousin seemed fairly up for it

Rio: She’s even more immature than me

Moses: Grand, she’d let me baby her if not put one in her

Rio: You want to know something

Rio: to prove that I’m as in this as you, I’ll take as big of a risk

Moses: You’ve proved you’re not in this

Moses: you’re after getting out

Rio: If I tell you what I’m willing to, then I won’t be able to

Rio: not as long as you still want to be in this, which, maybe it’s too late for, by the sounds of it

Moses: Maybe you’re still too wasted to remember but you already tried playing that game

Rio: Do you want to know who he is or not

Moses: You’d both love me being sent to prison, problem solved with loads less guilt for yous

Rio: Please, I’m trying to choose you here, and you won’t let me

Rio: How much more pathetic do I have to make myself? 

Rio: Okay, we’ll go to London and I’ll really watch you, how about that, ‘cos I’ll do anything

Moses: I don’t want to go to London, she’d shop me for the fun of it

Rio: Pick anyone else then

Rio: just love me enough to punish me

Moses: If there was anyone else I wanted I’d be with ‘em

Rio: Please, just say you’ll talk to me again, even if you take a whole month being so pissed off with me

Moses: I’ve no reason to talk to you, you’re chatting utter shite

Rio: I’m finding more drink and I’m going to drink myself to death 

Moses: Take 1 sip and I’ll tell your mammy of you

Rio: Good

Rio: I want you to be my daddy

Moses: You dunno what you want

Rio: I’ve never not wanted that, in 14 years

Rio: that’ll never change, like it or not

Moses: Only the rest

Rio: It’s the most important thing, no one can replace you, you were there before I was born, when I was and to raise me, you

Moses: I don’t need telling where I was when or what I did

Rio: Remember it before you treat me like I’m nothing

Moses: Flash before my eyes, what they say

Rio: You can’t leave me

Moses: I’m not waving you off to meet boys how your real daddy would if he cared where you were or what you was doing

Rio: I would rather he died, if it meant saving you, I would do it

Rio: having you back in my life properly has made me terrified of you leaving

Moses: Shifting that lad a test, is it

Rio: The more I think about it

Rio: like you said, nothing I could do to make him care, never has and he never will

Moses: I care too much, that’s my trouble

Moses: and I’m the eejit hurt, not him or you

Rio: You’re most hurt, my heart still feels like it’s ripping itself apart

Rio: it was only my cousin, that’s what I was going to tell you, no real boy

Moses: What cousin

Rio: The boy one from London

Moses: He’s got money, give you that

Rio: It was a dumb dare that got out of hand

Moses: Was it now?

Rio: Yeah, pathetic, I know

Moses: Go on, tell us acting your age is another test, like

Rio: Don’t, I literally ruined my life in a drunken game, for what

Rio: it’d be totally humiliating if it wasn’t more heartbreaking 

Moses: Both can be true

Rio: They are but I’ve priorities 

Moses: [naming a drink] or [another, for the shade because they are such girlie drinks dragging her to filth lol, like yeah those are your priorities today]

Rio: 🥴

Rio: How else was I meant to deal with what was flashing before my eyes?

Moses: Should’ve put your glass down and picked your phone up

Rio: I know that now 

Rio: though you’d have probably replied to Nance by mistake 

Moses: I might now, to keep you jealous of her

Rio: 😡

Moses: When you’ve sobered yourself up enough to drive, I’ll worry about my kitchen being trashed, I’ve none before then

Rio: What if I’m waiting for you there to pick a fight after 

Moses: What if you are, you’ve all but begged me to smack you, no one would blame us when you’re asking for it that much

Rio: If you’d not started taking the mick, I’d have started begging 

Moses: If I was, I’d have told you what happened when I punished your mammy for having his name on her, first I saw it

Moses: you reckon you’re jealous of your posh cousin

Rio: I’m more jealous of her but then I’m not, it’s complicated 

Rio: Was it before I was born then?

Moses: Yeah, we’d not long got together

Rio: I was tiny, even inside her, then

Rio: What did you do?

Moses: Ask her, I’m not telling you

Rio: She won’t either, I’ll have to imagine 

Moses: [give her a ‘clue’ by mentioning the jali gaff and whatever part of it y’all did something similar to in, which is probably by the door if memory serves but I won’t be specific in case I’m wrong]

Rio: Oh

Moses: I was rougher with her than I’ve been with you, before today

Rio: She’s tough, I’m not 

Moses: She started out thinking she’d be, sure

Rio: Fuck

Rio: I love the way you tell me stories, I wish you would properly now

Moses: She couldn’t sit proper for [genuinely tell her how long because we don’t know how long those bruises lasted but you do with your years of hindsight on us]

Rio: Did you do that with just your hands?

Moses: Don’t you reckon I could

Rio: I know you could

Moses: There you go then

Rio: You can write your name on me

Moses: Nowhere she’d see it, what’s the point if not that

Rio: Do you want her to know?

Moses: I’d have everyone in the know, I’m not ashamed of you

Moses: or weren’t

Rio: Ouch

Rio: I deserve that

Moses: You deserve worse, but I’m not as cruel as you

Rio: You aren’t in the mood, you won’t be thinking about me in front of you if you have me how you had her

Rio: and that’s so so cruel 

Moses: You’re a drunken mess, by the sounds of

Moses: I’ve had plenty of them

Rio: I sobered up ages ago

Moses: Sober people don’t need to let on to everyone how sober they are, little tip for you

Rio: Suppose not

Rio: remember when I wrote on myself for you?

Moses: [write out whatever she wrote, because I’m not gonna go back and find it and in this heat can I remember, absolutely not]

Rio: Exactly 

Rio: I’ll cover myself til I’m the mess you already think I am 

Moses: Do it

Rio: [sending him recent pictures of you with different lip colours like which one do you like best but also look at me thank you]

Moses: [pick one, by just telling her the number or colour and nothing else, as if you don’t care when you clearly do]

Rio: Okay, hold on

Rio: [send him a short vid of you really making a moment out of gliding this lipstick over your skin on your thigh and giving yourself goosebumps]

Moses: Your hand shakes any more, it’ll not be readable

Rio: Practice makes perfect, even at my size, plenty of room left 

Moses: Talk less and you’ll soon fill it

Moses: but there’s no promises none of this can the hole in you, you’ll have to do better

Rio: [writing every insulting slut type word you can think of all over you and taking pictures]

Moses: [add other ones as suggestions if there’s any she’s forgotten, even if you have to resort to the lingo because she’s been that thorough about it]

Rio: [show that you’ve added them and it’s very much giving they’d be on display if anyone did try to talk to her now]

Moses: Go over [whichever ones are the worst and already most visible] and press harder

Rio: [me letting you crush this lipstick doing this and writing his name somewhere really visible ‘cos lord knows you’ve got others so I can lol]

Moses: Your mammy turned his into a scar

Moses: you gonna hurt yourself for me or just speak of how badly you are?

Rio: He would’ve had to do it

Rio: I can’t reach back there and have it be readable 

Moses: She said he did, I’ve never forgotten her telling of it

Rio: And the one on her chest, I’ve seen both

Moses: She tried to stop me getting a look at that one, but only so long she could

Rio: No hiding it unless she was going to go be a nun, yeah

Rio: they probably don’t let you if you’re pregnant

Moses: Hypocritical when Jesus’ mammy gets applauded for being, but that’s the church for you

Rio: Nice of you to say I’m the second coming

Moses: You know what you are

Rio: I’m going to make you like me as well as love me again

Rio: just wait

Moses: By morning, you’d forget we had this chat, you didn’t have every word to read back

Moses: I’ll be kept waiting, true enough

Rio: You don’t want to see me now, you said so yourself

Moses: You were crying off that you can’t yourself, is the truth

Rio: Now I’m just crying, not still in the party

Rio: haven’t been in this party all day for the thought of you

Moses: Don’t cry

Rio: I wish you were here, your jumper is starting to not smell like you and my arms aren’t even a little bit strong enough to pretend they’re yours around me

Moses: I told you I’d come for you, you told me no

Rio: I know

Rio: I’m a mess, just not because of drink, not really

Moses: You had your cousin’s tongue in your mouth, be why

Rio: Haven't you ever, when you were younger, I mean

Moses: I had my pick when I was younger, same as now

Rio: You weren’t meant to your cousins though, surely

Moses: And I’m saying I didn’t them

Rio: Not interested?

Moses: I’ve only ever shown an interest in girls from your community, not ours

Rio: Interesting

Moses: Ours are raised for one thing and it weren’t the one thing I was looking for

Rio: It makes sense, you’re not going to have much in common

Rio: and no one is more glad than me, like

Moses: What’ve you in common with that stuck up prick?

Rio: Just our blood, probably

Moses: Blood I’m still waiting for you to spill

Rio: How bad will it hurt?

Rio: I’ve never done anything like this before

Moses: How bad do you want it to

Rio: Bad, how bad it didn’t when you first put yourself inside me

Rio: I already owe you blood

Moses: Press down as hard as when you wrote [whichever one of those words is giving the correct energy], no more, no less

Rio: Okay, thank you

Moses: You’ll feel better, there’s a high in it

Rio: I trust you

Moses: You can

Moses: [show her where you’ve done it before because all self harmers have a favourite place and yours is giving somewhere nobody would ever clock unless you pointed it out like you are now because it isn’t for anyone to be like omg at it’s for your undiagnosed adhd and many issues]

Rio: I never noticed

Rio: and I thought I’d memorised you entirely 

Rio: when’d you last do it?

Moses: No one does

Moses: [tell her when by saying the day or date to seem casual but it’s hardcore giving after he took her home when phonegate]

Rio: I’m going to do it on both sides for you

Moses: I don’t know, you should probably wait and let me do it

Moses: you’ll go too far

Rio: But

Rio: I promise to be careful

Moses: It’s your first time, you won’t be

Moses: I nearly had to get my [nan] to give me a stitch

Rio: Was you scared?

Moses: I like adrenaline, unlike [whichever drugs are his fave], it’s free

Rio: But you don’t want just anyone knowing, I get that

Rio: I like things that I wouldn’t want the general public to know but I like sharing them with you

Moses: They’d turn it into something it’s not

Rio: Exactly, a cry for help, make you a victim when it’s what you want

Moses: Right, even your mammy would’ve if I’d shown her

Rio: I don’t see how

Rio: what’s the difference of letting him do it and doing it yourself?

Moses: Foreplay, in their case

Rio: Well, if it gives me that kind of rush too, I’ll sit still and behave

Moses: Believe that when I’ve got you in front of me, trouble

Rio: 😋

Rio: I’ll close my eyes, looking at you makes behaving impossible

Moses: I don’t want you to close them ever again, even when you sleep I need you to look at me

Rio: As I need something new to do now, I’ll see how I train myself to do that

Rio: you better not be freaked out when I actually manage it for you

Moses: I don’t scare easy, do I

Rio: You’re still here, just 

Moses: That wasn’t fear I felt

Rio: It was for me

Rio: I was pushing you away with one hand and pulling you back with the other

Moses: You’re a woman, none of yous can help yourselves

Moses: ‘specially round me

Rio: ‘specially women of my blood

Rio: I don’t want to treat you like that, make you think I don’t care when you’re the most important person to me now

Moses: Yeah, your blood runs pretty hot and cold

Rio: I’m going to figure out how to make Edie and mammy be nicer to you, that’ll make you happy

Rio: then I won’t just be bringing you problems

Moses: They’re both at the mercy of their separate hormones

Rio: True

Rio: Maybe I am too young, you’ll have no peace for 9 whole months and after, I’ll still be crazy

Moses: I’ll have no peace while you’re saying things you don’t mean

Rio: You’re in no mind to believe in me today

Rio: I’ll wait this time

Moses: You aren’t in your right one to be promising anything

Rio: You’re being so sensible

Rio: I’ll 🤐 but that only leaves one hole if you don’t wanna impregnate me so

Moses: You asked for daughter of mine treatment, not [wife in gypsy lingo]

Rio: If I have to pick

Rio: I’ll just think about you when I’m alone, angel behaviour in front of you

Moses: You don’t, you put that into your own head

Rio: They did

Moses: You let ‘em

Rio: Yeah

Rio: at least Nancy sees it, though she only sees the superficial and not the deep stuff

Moses: She’s attractive enough herself, for a white girl

Rio: Are you going to show me what stupid things she said to you?

Rio: as I can’t let on I know she spoke to you 

Moses: [do because that convo was amusing]

Rio: She’s absolutely no sense, guess rich girls don’t need it

Rio: I can’t believe you just said it how it is, didn’t even need to lie 😍

Moses: You heard me, I’ve no shame

Rio: People always say that but you’re for real

Moses: What daft cunts only spend their boring lives talking about, I do, exactly

Rio: Exactly

Rio: I wanna do, not wait

Moses: And you know what you’re making me wanna do

Rio: Tell me

Moses: I have

Moses: remember being in their bed

Rio: That was perfect

Rio: can every day be like that when we live together, I’ll look after all the 👶🏻👶🏻👶🏻👶🏻👶🏻s that come, promise

Moses: I’ll be sure you’re serious when you stop taking whatever you’re on and they do start coming

Rio: I’ll give them to you, and then you can decide if you want to give me a tablet that day or not, how’s that?

Moses: Good answer

Moses: I’ll play God, be in control

Rio: Feels right

Rio: [tell him what time you’re meant to take them, even though people aren’t usually that thorough ‘cos you forget but that’s the energy]

Rio: you’ll have to see me every day

Moses: From tomorrow when you hand ‘em to me

Rio: I feel so much better

Rio: you taking the decision out of my hands

Moses: You wouldn’t listen to leaving it in your heavenly daddy’s, I get that, he’s let you down more times than I’ve done

Rio: I can’t help feeling like you get me better than he does

Moses: I’ll wrap my arms around you tighter than he ever could

Moses: ‘til you can’t breathe without me making the decision for you

Rio: Please

Rio: My babies are going to grow up with the same arms wrapped around them that I remember

Rio: feeling as safe as you make me feel, just by seeing your face

Moses: Beg for them, all 100 babies

Rio: [do that on a voice note because you’re being EXTRA and we can only imagine the type of unhinged shit you are saying to convince him to give you 100 babies starting now]

Moses: They’re as desperate to be born, look

Moses: [showing her that his 🍆 is equally wilding out in response even though he isn’t touching it]

Rio: You do remember some of your Sunday School, I knew it

Rio: [screenshot you saving that shamelessly so he’s fully aware you plan to look at that forever]

Rio: Don’t give anyone else babies, just us

Moses: Just you, raising each baby of mine like you always have

Rio: Did I ever tell you you were [one of her baby dolls] daddy or not?

Moses: I remember their names, but not if their daddies indentities got told to us

Rio: The blonde one that looked like Edie

Rio: and in my defence, I thought it was normal for every baby to have a different one, I didn’t know they could all be yours

Moses: [it’s me being happy he’s saying this doll’s name and getting it right, the bar is truly that low haha, because they have talked about her dolls and he’s remembered]

Moses: will we name the real baby after her?

Rio: You remembered

Rio: my own baby heart is exploding right now

Rio: yes, we have to

Moses: We could have 100 little girls, I don’t mind

Rio: I’d say 99 and 1 perfect son but the poor boy wouldn’t have a hope 

Moses: He’d have me to guide him, what else has he need of

Rio: An ally against all those women, which you’d be too, sure enough

Rio: do you think having a boy would be different?

Moses: I’d have to let go of him sooner or he’d be soft

Rio: Like Django and Jasper

Moses: Girls I can hold to my chest ‘til it stops moving 

Rio: You’re perfect

Rio: I’ll give you girls to keep and spoil forever

Moses: Sit yourself in front of a mirror and look at how perfect they’d be

Rio: We’re a deadly combination, Jesus

Moses: Combining our names is a girl’s one

Rio: 🌹

Rio: It’s exactly right, and you know I could easily give her your last name without anyone realising until I’m older the real reason

Moses: They can all have it as their middle, so’s I love them equal, my sisters all have [whatever your mother’s name is because certain bitches love to do that, @ Ro with her future child but also the repetition of it like Louise with her mum’s name etc]

Rio: You can’t play favourites, unless it’s me, then you have to

Moses: I’d have called you [whatever you would, popping off, it’s giving unexpectedly feelsy from him actually, something like Destiny because she was life changing, or Hope cos she gave him it, that kinda vibe]

Rio: I’m saying it out loud to see if it feels right

Rio: it’s so sad mama let my dad name me, when he clearly wasn’t interested by that point already

Moses: How does it feel

Rio: I feel connected to you, more connected

Rio: and a bit like I could cry happy tears

Moses: If you cry, I’ll cry

Rio: We can

Rio: but we can wait until we’re together, if you want, so I can hold you

Moses: When

Rio: Whenever you’re ready to come get me

Moses: Now

Rio: Good

Rio: I need to see you now

Rio: and I’ve got [however long is left of the easter hols because it’s 3 weeks total I think, or 2, either way]

Moses: I’ve got as long as I want you

Moses: you don’t have any need of school

Rio: I won’t need to go home the whole time, what I mean, I can be on holiday as far as everyone is concerned 

Moses: Your home’s wherever I am

Rio: Yeah, it is

Rio: I need to get used to saying that too

Moses: And if you’re after going on holiday, pick somewhere

Rio: Somewhere you’re going to wear as little clothes as possible

Moses: I’ll put suncream on your [wherever her tattoo is], keep your tattoo as cute as the day you had it done

Rio: And let me get another?

Moses: Many as you want

Rio: Not 100

Rio: but I’ll start working on one for you

Moses: When my daughter’s born yous both can have my whole back

Rio: I’ll help her hold the pen or paintbrush soon as she can

Moses: My whole body then, except where your 3 are

Rio: I love you

Rio: I’m giving you my whole body too

Moses: You have

Moses: I’ll undo the kiss how I undid your mouth touching that other boy

Rio: You can do anything

Rio: Your mouth is one of the first mouths I knew, I know how every part of you feels held against me and I want to know it forever

Moses: You’ll forget the feel of his, any part of anyone else

Rio: I’m for you

Moses: Untouched except for by me

Rio: That makes me melt, I don’t even need to touch myself when I think about it

Rio: Are you proud that I kept myself pure for you?

Moses: [telling her how proud he is in gypsy lingo, really laying it on thick so she has to translate him going on and on when he could’ve kept it simple for her]

Rio: You should tell me a story like that

Rio: so I can die happy

Moses: Let me listen to you melting

Rio: [recording obscenely close to down there so he can hear how juicy juicy you are and miss it lol]

Moses: Fuck

Moses: I miss you

Rio: You should be inside me, we can find somewhere here before we leave, I don’t care, we won’t get caught

Moses: You’re mine

Moses: I’ll take you anywhere I haven’t yet, til there isn’t a step you can without remembering me inside you

Rio: You’re just giving me what I’ve wanted since I could walk and talk, I’ll tell them

Moses: Your first word should’ve been my name, because it wasn’t, I’m gonna make sure it’s all you can say

Rio: I’m daddy’s girl, fuck me ‘til I forget my name, I want the one you gave me

Moses: You’re my [and the name he was gonna give her]

Rio: I don’t want a trace of him anywhere near me

Rio: just you, your names, your love

Moses: We can go for our holiday, I’ll fuck you where he was born, steal whatever places he cares about to be ours

Rio: Send it to him for all I care

Rio: you’re all I could ever need in a man and more

Moses: Don’t dare me, you know I would

Rio: He deserves worse

Rio: looking in my eyes until my real daddy makes them roll into the back of my head

Moses: You deserve to feel that good

Rio: So do you, nobody else can get you there like me

Moses: [‘You’re special, I’ve told you’ also in gypsy lingo]

Rio: Don’t forget, I’ll be better and not throw tantrums from now on, I swear I’ll try

Moses: You scratch at me deeper and harder than anything or anyone has before

Rio: Almost like a knife?

Moses: Better than whatever sharp point I’ve had touch me ‘til now

Moses: I didn’t know there was satisfaction like it

Rio: It’s been waiting for you inside me

Rio: I didn’t know that you’d turn me into this

Moses: You’re cleaner than a razor blade, the way you cut

Rio: I still want you to show me, use a razor blade and let me draw on you with my blood

Moses: It’ll definitely hurt, but just for a second

Rio: I’ve loved you hurting me, every new way makes me more devoted to you

Moses: I’d bleed out for you if it meant you never felt pain again except at my hands

Rio: Be why I can worship you now not Jesus

Rio: you’re just doing it for me, our family, not the world

Moses: And he was an ugly baby, not like you

Rio: I’ll have to be introduced to your mammy just so I can swoon over how cute you were

Moses: Ah, I’ll be embarrassed of her, but there’s another sacrifice I’d make for your happiness 

Rio: Aren’t you her favourite too?

Moses: Ha, no

Rio: How can you not be, you’re the best, I’ll tell her

Moses: Hers is whoever is youngest, be why she has another by the time they’re old enough to answer her back

Rio: 🥺 but you’re her first

Moses: Boy

Moses: she likes the girls more

Rio: I don’t like it

Rio: [copying his ‘you’re special’ from before]

Moses: I love you

Rio: I love you

Moses: S’all I care about, your love

Rio: You’ll have it always, I promise

Moses: And you’ll get mine

Moses: just tell me why you kissed your cousin

Rio: I did, a dumb dare

Moses: I can read

Rio: Don’t you believe me?

Moses: Who played, did Nancy?

Rio: No, she was somewhere under the nearest float by that point, or her own daddy was carrying her off

Moses: I’m to believe you planted one on him at the parade, am I?

Rio: Yeah, that’s where it happened, there was a big crowd

Moses: Talk me through it

Moses: Who dared you?

Rio: My mate [throw someone under the bus rn lmao] from school, a group of them had met up in [insert name of pub here] beforehand 

Moses: And why would [he/she/they depending] choose that, of all dares, hmm?

Rio: ‘Cos they think they’re funny, to take the piss out of the English lad, I don’t know

Moses: Come on, you do know

Moses: and you can tell me, whatever it is

Rio: Alright, when I was [whatever age the OG actual dare kiss happened] this kid dared us to then and we did and I told this friend, like an idiot

Moses: Was he your 1st, at [this age]

Rio: Yeah

Rio: how embarrassing

Moses: Relax, you didn’t wanna be the kid who pussied out

Rio: Exactly

Rio: or let her win and make me feel stupid today

Moses: And I wasn’t there to carry you off on either day

Rio: No

Moses: I’m sad

Rio: Don’t be, it’s so stupid, I shouldn’t have even brought it up

Moses: I should’ve been with you every day

Moses: not let you out my sight at [dare kiss age] or earlier on

Rio: We’ve got forever to make up for that lost time

Moses: [give her your ETA because you’re meant to be collecting her, I’ve not forgotten sir, chaotic as you are]

Moses: we’ll make up

Rio: Usual place?

Moses: Unless you’re honestly of the mind to be fucked somewhere else, how you said

Rio: I’m of the mind, it’s whether I need to calm down and wait until everyone is gone to go through with it

Moses: I don’t want you to calm down

Moses: anything that pops into your head, don’t matter where we are or who with, s’what I’d have you do

Rio: Okay, I’ll meet you and show you where 

Moses: I’ll carry you to where

Rio: You don’t mind if you get what you’re wearing a little dirty, do you?

Moses: Let’s go shopping, buy new, I owe you a trip to [the shops they never made it to]

Rio: You’re the best, [gypsy lingo word for daddy]

Rio: you’re gonna look so handsome in what I get you, everyone will be so jealous I’m with you 

Moses: You wanna dress us like I’m one of your dolls

Rio: Little bit 🤏

Rio: Has anyone told you you look just like an action man before?

Moses: I loved dressing you as a baby

Moses: Do I?

Rio: Did you?

Rio: Or classic superman, if you’re struggling for a costume at Halloween 

Moses: I bought you more little dresses than your mammy had the knowing what to do with for the winter, but you looked so cute in ‘em, how could I not

Rio: If you get me pregnant now, we’ll have another winter baby

Moses: Well done, you’ve convinced me

Rio: 😁😁😁

Moses: I’ll have to busy myself topping your firstborn daughter in the birthday present I find you but 

Rio: That’s all you ever need to get me 

Moses: I need her and I need you

Rio: I need her and I need you

Rio: us together forever 

Moses: We’re your family, don’t you forget that, no matter what the others say

Rio: I promise, I can’t forget, no matter what they try

Moses: You’re gonna show me, prove yourself again

Rio: I have to

Moses: And I’ll have to believe you, won’t I

Rio: That’s what relationships are all about 

Moses: I’ll give you what you need, that’s what I do

Rio: Always 

Rio: God I missed you 

Moses: I want for nothing neither when you’re behaving yourself, you’re a natural at it

Rio: Promise?

Moses: I wouldn’t be giving you another chance if I didn’t reckon you were worth one

Rio: You’re not going to regret it 

Moses: I’d regret letting that body go to waste, it’s built to carry babies, perfectly

Rio: Your babies, I would never do it with anyone else 

Moses: And you flaunted it in that [whatever she wore the first day he saw her working at the pub], knew what you were doing

Rio: Yeah, I remember the way you looked at me 

Moses: My mind went where you was after it going

Rio: I like your mind, a lot

Moses: You would say that, you’re never off it

Rio: Please be on me all the time 

Rio: I’m obsessed with you 

Moses: You know I can’t stop, didn’t want to from that first look at you [whenever he saw her at the pub, giving the day or date]

Rio: I love how you look at me, you know what you do to me, what you did to me [on this day of your first meet]

Moses: You’re gonna bleed for me and I’m gonna drink it

Rio: Please, go too far

Moses: I did with your mammy, day I met back up with her

Moses: she nearly lost a nipple to me, was only for your sake I let her keep it

Rio: Tell me everything you did

Rio: or do it to me

Moses: [tell her a voice note story of everything mali did, but all in gypsy lingo so that you’ll also have to do it because she won’t understand loads of it]

Rio: Come here, I’m going to lose my mind 

Moses: Lose it, I did when I thought I lost you

Rio: [show him the lipstick mess you are waiting for him to turn up in this spot already like I am]

Moses: [show her that you’ve pushed this car to its limit and couldn’t literally be driving any faster along these country roads to meet her even though it’s Easter and anyone could be out and about even at whatever o clock this is, no fucks given, showing her how hard his arm with her cherub baby tat is GRIPPING the wheel while his mouth is on her tattooed mouth, all as a lil vid]

Rio: Fuck me

Rio: I will never be over my tattoos, they look so good and they make me feel more than her needle could do if I covered my whole body

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Ruster

Rio: [So we are picking up from baze fam leaving the Easter party because utter drama, this isn’t immediate but the same night when you feel brave enough to say this]

Rio: I’m sorry for that

Rio: should have never have happened, I never meant to make you feel like that

Buster: [like in the OG, leave her on read for a while and do the thing where you’re typing but not sending anything until you feel brave enough to lol and ofc when you do, steal her words from earlier how pt 2 started because you love to]

Buster: It doesn’t matter now

Rio: It does, it’s not okay

Buster: You’ve already proved how okay I do or don’t feel doesn’t matter to you either, unless it’s the former and you’re getting something out of it

Rio: It does matter, that’s what I’m saying, I don’t want to act otherwise anymore

Buster: It isn’t about what you say, it’s about what you do

Buster: and what you did was the opposite of what I told you I needed you to

Rio: I didn’t know what to do

Rio: you needed someone else, your parents, not me

Buster: How convenient

Buster: but I’m the one who lives by one rule for me and another for everyone else, I’m the one who thinks with my dick, yeah?

Buster: when I have a single moment of hesitation, you vilify me to within an inch of my life, but you, no, of course, you go ahead

Rio: You were crying 

Rio: It was my fault, how can I fix it?

Buster: You didn’t even try

Rio: I’d just make it worse

Rio: and it was bad enough 

Buster: You guaranteed as much, but given that uncertainty is the enemy, I have no idea why I’m surprised

Rio: Come on 

Rio: If I’d have stayed, it’d only be so you could push me away 

Buster: We’ll never know, because you didn’t

Rio: I’m just trying to apologise, we both did what we did with no changing that

Buster: I don’t accept, do what you want with that

Rio: That’s your call, I can’t make you

Rio: just feel better now

Buster: I tried to make you feel better, with a sensible plan for our future, a way to move forward

Buster: you refuse to compromise on anything, even when it would improve both of our lives

Rio: Because I don’t care about the future

Rio: now is intolerable 

Buster: Fine, let’s discuss the present

Buster: When did you last fuck him?

Rio: What a mature way to push your agenda 

Rio: it doesn’t matter 

Buster: What a mature way to conduct yourself

Buster: it does to me, and it should to you

Rio: You know it was after I said I’d stop, that’s all that’s relevant 

Buster: No, what’s relevant is that you also refuse to address being nowhere near as grown up or okay as you’re pretending to be, whereas I’m not going to entertain the charade

Buster: and I’m definitely not going to continue using any of this to my advantage like your boyfriend has

Rio: Fucking hell, your attempt to victimise me remains ridiculous and insulting 

Rio: you didn’t take advantage 

Buster: I’m sorry that it’s apparently only a turn-on when he victimises you

Rio: Ha, he doesn’t 

Buster: You’re being preyed upon by a fucking monster, Rio

Rio: It’s over

Rio: I believe you’ll follow through with your threat, you’ve backed me into that corner 

Buster: That doesn’t mean it didn’t happen

Buster: you expect me to react like there’s a rug in that same corner to sweep everything under, and I can’t

Buster: I won’t

Rio: How do you think I feel

Buster: How do you think I do that you didn’t finish things with him until I threatened you, meanwhile you couldn’t get away from me fast enough?

Rio: It’s not the same, as you are keen to remind me every time I get close to any comparison of situation or behaviour

Buster: No shit, I’m not a parental figure by proxy

Buster: if you’re eager to make a comparison, try your mum, she’s his ex

Rio: Obviously not what I meant, but good one

Rio: The reasons are different

Buster: Yeah, I feel great about it

Rio: You aren’t going to

Rio: we make each other feel like shit

Buster: Not always, obviously

Buster: we wouldn’t be here otherwise

Rio: Enough of the time

Rio: almost all of it now

Buster: Never enough of the time that I’m going to condone you being molested as a viable alternative

Rio: I’m not

Buster: Today

Buster: Tomorrow, who knows? I’d be the last to

Rio: I don’t want you to tell everyone and ruin their lives, that’s the terms

Buster: You’ve broken them before

Rio: You don’t know how hard it is, to take it all back

Buster: Don’t make laugh

Buster: I know exactly, I fucking did it

Rio: Yeah, and trust me, I could be a lot fucking worse about it

Rio: you don’t have to see me around town, every day

Buster: You don’t have to see him, you didn’t for years before he wanted to take your virginity

Rio: I can’t avoid him if he wants to see me, I work in the pub he drinks in

Buster: You can get another job

Rio: Oh can I, is there anything else you’d like to change about my life to make you feel better

Buster: Of course, you’d rather not tell your mum or Johnny the perverts are harassing you, it’s far too close to the truth

Rio: I’m not as helpless as you think

Rio: I know how to deal with drunks and perverts

Buster: I don’t think you’re helpless, I think he’s soulless, I told you that

Rio: You do though

Rio: we’ve been raised in pubs, you should know that I don’t need help to navigate one

Buster: Well, you should know better than to go near him, but clearly you fucking don’t

Rio: I’m not going to try to make you understand what you don’t want to

Buster: I understand perfectly

Rio: You don’t, he was an important part of my life

Buster: I do, you wish I didn’t because you aren’t fond of my opinion about the part he should play in your life, and the frankly insane distance he’s deviated from what would be acceptable

Rio: He knows me too, you aren’t fond of that

Buster: How he’s exploited your shared past and childhood trauma, no, I’m not

Rio: It’s trauma now is it

Buster: Call it what you want, I don’t need to call your mum or real dad out personally, everyone else has on plenty of prior occasions 

Rio: It’s your favourite punchline when you’re in a better mood

Rio: so you’re either a cunt laughing at my ‘trauma’ or it’s just not that deep

Buster: Take your pick, babe

Buster: I know who I am without being validated by fucking a grown adult

Rio: You haven’t got a clue

Rio: you’re a pastiche of what you think your mother wants you to be, at best

Buster: Nice vocabulary word of the day, did you read it off a beermat while being eyefucked by the regulars?

Rio: Why would I do that when I can bask in all the attention from stand-in father figures

Buster: You tell me

Buster: what I haven’t got a clue about is why you do any of the things I’ve been forced to hear about you doing lately

Rio: Yeah, you do, you only wish you didn’t

Buster: Touché

Rio: Tah

Buster: You’re welcome, I’m the one who overstayed theirs

Rio: You came, did your bit

Rio: You’ll be home and able to carry on forgetting about me and everyone else here before long

Buster: [do a countdown as if it’s that easy and you will because you wish you could]

Rio: 🥳 all round

Buster: Use the pub as your venue, by all means

Rio: What have I got to celebrate?

Buster: Everything you’re able to get away with once I’m in a different country again, no doubt

Rio: There’s no thrill in it

Rio: I’d need to hate you and I don’t yet

Buster: You hate yourself, that’s a start

Rio: Motivational, thanks

Buster: What currently motivates you I want no part in

Rio: No shit

Buster: You could encourage our families to throw us the party you kept insisting they would

Rio: Not for no reason

Rio: it’s you who can brag about your iron willpower, I won’t call you out in front of them

Buster: Hate’s the reason, it’s you who wants it

Rio: No I don’t

Buster: Hilarious way of showing you love me, babe

Rio: Backatcha

Buster: That’ll be because all I care about is pushing my agenda, obviously

Rio: You care about yourself and your future, it’s fine

Buster: It doesn’t completely and utterly cancel out how important you are to me

Rio: You have to have priorities 

Buster: Yours have been spelled out

Rio: They’ve not

Rio: but you’ve got no interest in listening to me so don’t worry

Buster: They have, you left me alone in the rain

Rio: And you threw me out of your house, we’d be even if score was being kept

Buster: I heard you, I’m my parents’ problem now, the mess I am

Rio: You’re not allowed to be mine, you’d be the first to say it, we aren’t friends

Buster: Like you said, we’re even, we don’t need to be anything else

Rio: Well, your secret is safe with me

Buster: My safety isn’t in question

Rio: Promise?

Buster: I don’t owe you that, the definition of a clean slate

Rio: You owe it to plenty other people, yourself included

Buster: I’m painfully aware of the responsibilities I have and who they are to, I couldn’t forget if I wanted to, the number of times I’ve had to remind you they exist

Rio: We’re fundamentally different people

Buster: When it suits you, naturally

Rio: You said it first and it’s true

Buster: When you want to fuck me it’s not

Buster: the truth is twisted to fit whatever bullshit narrative is required

Rio: Every word but twisted is filler there

Buster: Because you don’t want to hear words unless they feed into how sick you think you are, in order to carry on seeing him and me, perpetuating the disgusting cycle

Rio: We aren’t seeing each other

Rio: and we never fucked

Buster: Irrelevant, if you’d genuinely like to discuss filler

Rio: You’re not going to discuss with anyone what did or didn’t happen out there so

Buster: And we’ve got absolutely nothing else to, so do what you do best and walk away

Rio: Colour me shocked you can’t hack it this way round

Buster: Go and colour in with your new daddy

Rio: The nerve to act like you didn’t break my heart first

Rio: fuck the apology and fuck you

Buster: Fuck you right back

Buster: your heart mended fast enough to give straight to him, if you had succeeded in killing me, my body wouldn’t be cold yet

Rio: All I’ve gots broken pieces

Rio: but hey, that was true long before it was your fault so who cares

Buster: What about me, what I was supposed to have?

Buster: I got scared, you were meant to know that, let me be

Buster: but you didn’t even count to 5

Rio: You’ve got your future, everything you wanted

Rio: without this skeleton in your closet 

Buster: So have you, allegedly

Buster: without inviting me to the wedding and baby showers

Rio: No, not according to you, because you’ll tell everyone just so I can’t

Buster: According to you, it’s an empty threat, or you’d have already stopped

Buster: instead you’re probably talking to him as we speak

Rio: Of course I’m not

Rio: Jesus, I’m contemplating how quickly he might move on if I hide from him long enough

Buster: He won’t, assuming grooming another child takes longer than the sick days you’ve accrued by this point

Rio: He’s not a groomer

Buster: Spare me your paedophile apologist speech

Rio: Why is it so hard for you to believe that he could love me, for me?

Buster: Love isn’t a defence, it’s their first excuse

Rio: If it was about my age, he’d not want me to stick around once I aged out

Rio: but that’s not how it is

Buster: If he loved you like a daughter he wouldn’t want to fuck you 

Buster: wanting to fuck you makes him a nonce, you’re 14 and he’s [however old he is], that’s how it is

Rio: He loves me in every way, not just one

Buster: Shut up before I throw up in every room

Rio: 🙄

Buster: I’m not doing this with you on a loop

Rio: You aren’t, we’re over

Buster: Block me then

Rio: No, I don’t trust you

Buster: Makes two of us

Rio: You can go

Rio: I know that there’s no salvaging this now, you’ll never get over it

Buster: Get a grip

Buster: this isn’t about my bruised ego, it isn’t even about my broken heart

Rio: That’s all this is about, our broken hearts

Buster: Bullshit

Buster: that’s why you started this, but it’s become about a lot more and affects more people than just us

Rio: Yeah, yeah

Rio: I don’t want to talk about other people

Buster: I don’t want to talk to you

Rio: Okay then

Buster: No, it isn’t

Buster: I’m fucking terrified of what you’ll do if we aren’t

Rio: Don’t guilt trip me

Buster: Don’t go running to him

Rio: I can’t

Rio: I’d promise but what’s that mean at this point

Buster: Swear on the unborn baby’s life, that’s your new brother or sister

Rio: I swear that I’m going to use the key you left and take a break

Buster: Good

Rio: I can take as long as I like?

Buster: Within reason, don’t take years

Rio: I mean no one is coming back any time soon

Buster: [give her your schedule tea, so she knows what the fam is doing when re this dublin house]

Rio: Cool, I won’t trash the place

Buster: A second time

Rio: That was implied

Buster: I don’t care, as you implicitly stated the last time

Rio: You care about me getting you in trouble

Buster: House damages are the least of mine

Rio: All you’re getting off me

Buster: I’ve already asked you to do the only thing I’m going to, rest assured

Rio: I’m not concerned for anyone but myself, naturally 

Buster: I know, selfishness is your other new mantra, eventually it’s bound to stick

Buster: your loyalty to him has

Rio: Again, so shocked you don’t like being on the receiving end 

Rio: all you’ve ever told me is to be more selfish and to put myself first, like you claim you do, congrats, you got it 

Buster: Because this is what I meant

Buster: you aren’t putting yourself first, you’re prioritising him and his depraved needs

Rio: How do you know they’re not mine? 

Rio: I started it, just like I pursued you 

Buster: What are you getting out of it? The sex is mindblowing? Congrats, by his age, it should be

Buster: especially if he seduces virgins with barely any prior experience

Rio: He knows me, understands me

Rio: We may as well be strangers these days 

Buster: You didn’t pursue me, it was mutual

Rio: Sure about that?

Buster: Yes

Rio: That sureness is all you’ve ever offered, it’s not enough 

Buster: You can falsely pretend we’re strangers all you like, I know myself

Rio: They’re your words and sentiments 

Rio: perhaps if you hadn’t been so full of shit we’d not be here, but we’ll never know now

Buster: And perhaps if you weren’t so full of him, I’d have better words and sentiments to offer you 

Rio: You didn’t 

Rio: because just being me was enough for you to accuse me of looking and acting a certain way for your attention

Buster: An accusation in your opinion, when you’d rather alter the facts

Rio: You’re as bad as every old man in the bar

Rio: you don’t like me, you just want to fuck me

Buster: You’d be pursuing me harder if I were

Rio: He likes me, how I am

Rio: He doesn’t think it’s my fault

Buster: You’ve admitted dressing for me, and vice versa

Buster: I liked it, I more than liked you

Buster: but that doesn’t suit your narrative

Rio: I don’t suit your life plan 

Buster: Because you’re a member of my extended family, not because you wear short skirts and tight dresses

Rio: It’s still the same answer in the end

Rio: We may as well both accept the truth 

Buster: You’re wrong

Buster: and you’re being stupid, again

Buster: work on your acceptance of that

Rio: Does it matter when the outcome is the same?

Rio: You don’t want this

Buster: Your changed view of me is completely skewed by the company you’re keeping now

Rio: He doesn’t know you exist, practically 

Buster: It isn’t about him, it’s about you

Buster: what he’s doing to you, not just your body but your brain

Rio: This is my choice 

Buster: A choice you made while being emotionally manipulated

Rio: Having emotions

Rio: which is nothing but an inconvenience to you 

Buster: I’m sorry that I don’t get my kicks weaponising mine against you

Rio: Just hiding them 

Buster: I cried in front of you

Buster: I haven’t cried in front of anyone since I was [clearly really little is what it’s giving]

Rio: You broke

Rio: do you think I want to break you?

Buster: Do you think I want him to break you?

Rio: You can’t protect me from myself 

Buster: I could protect you from anything, you won’t let me

Rio: You’ll waste years

Buster: You aren’t a waste of time, you never have been

Rio: Sh

Buster: I felt more in [the time was timing on his watch during self defence] than I have in years, you know that

Rio: Me too 

Buster: Let me help you

Rio: How?

Buster: However you need, whatever it takes

Rio: I walked away from you, I could’ve just hugged you 

Rio: I would’ve anyone else 

Buster: I’m not anyone else

Rio: No, you’re not 

Buster: We’re different, a blessing and a curse

Rio: I can’t bear this

Buster: You don’t have a choice, I’m not going to emotionally manipulate you into making one that means you fuck me in secret

Rio: You wouldn’t need to 

Rio: but that’s not the point, you can’t be feeling that bad 

Buster: I’ll be fine, the alternative isn’t an option either

Rio: Will you

Rio: not if nothing changes 

Buster: Of course I will

Rio: Not very convincing but 

Buster: But I don’t need to convince you, I’m not your concern

Rio: Don’t be stupid.

Buster: You said it, in both words and actions

Buster: louder than your bullshit apology after the fact

Rio: You don’t even think they’re my words or actions, he’s put them all in my head

Buster: He wishes he had that much power over you

Buster: I can break his hold, I did

Rio: That’s the truth, is it

Buster: You weren’t thinking about him at all when you touched me

Rio: That would be fucked up

Buster: But I don’t want the reason I touch you to be deprogramming you, for either of us to feel like that’s why

Rio: I’d sooner die

Rio: Or cut your hands off, both

Buster: Exactly

Buster: it can’t be about him so you need to stop, on your own

Rio: I know

Buster: Okay

Rio: We should leave it there, even score, blank slate, whatever

Buster: Yeah, we should

Rio: So block me

Buster: No

Rio: Good

Buster: I meant what I said, you are

Rio: Not

Rio: but you don’t mind, not enough to hate me

Buster: Never

Rio: I will always care about you

Rio: even when I’m trying not to, maybe especially then

Buster: I’ll always love you, especially then

Rio: I don’t want that to feel like a gift and a curse too

Rio: but I know it does

Buster: Maybe that’s unavoidable

Buster: and it’s impossible for love to only be a blessing, when it’s real

Buster: rough with the smooth and we have to take it, all or nothing

Rio: Don’t try to seduce me

Rio: but you’re right, this once

Buster: I’m rarely wrong, firstly

Buster: secondly, I don’t have to try

Rio: In your own (flawed) opinion, sure

Rio: don’t be lazy

Buster: You’re the one who wants instant gratification

Buster: please wait for me

Rio: It’s not about that, don’t simplify it into that

Buster: What’s so bad about looking to the future?

Buster: we can be together there

Rio: And when we get there

Rio: how do you know you won’t go back on it then?

Buster: Why would I?

Rio: When everything doesn’t go perfectly

Rio: because it never will, we’ll always have to hide it some of the time, even if we lived in America, there’ll still be phone calls that remind you you have a family

Buster: They’ll be scheduled, I’ll be ready for them, it’s not the same as being blindsided by nan and grandad arriving out of the blue when we were in the middle of 

Buster: what we were in the middle of

Rio: It fucks you up because they care

Rio: obviously it’s not the same and yeah, that was a special kind of terrible, but it’s still the same problem at the heart of it

Buster: We won’t be kids anymore, that’s the difference

Rio: You still want to make them proud, it’s not a bad thing

Rio: but if it matters more than us then

Buster: I still can, will

Buster: I’m not going to America purely to be with you

Rio: You want to give your parents grandkids, I know you

Buster: Ava will when she’s old enough

Rio: You want the opportunity, to be a parent

Buster: I’ll have other opportunities that I want to take as much

Rio: You need to be sure

Buster: Life isn’t perfect, you said it

Buster: Plan B’s exist, I’m not too proud to compromise when I’ve exhausted every other possible avenue

Rio: I wish I could pretend that wasn’t hurtful, swallow my pride

Buster: It isn’t your fault

Rio: It’s not yours, plan B is what it is, you’re just being honest

Buster: Perfect can feel like a prison, so I’ve been told

Rio: I wouldn’t know the first thing about it but

Rio: I can see that, literally, I have eyes

Buster: And things get put into perspective one way or another

Buster: I can’t lose you, not to him, not to anyone

Rio: You can’t lose me

Rio: I feel the tie between us, however close to breaking point it’s stretched

Buster: I feel like I am, I will

Buster: you’re falling to pieces in front of me, in front of my eyes

Rio: So are you

Rio: childish as that just sounded

Buster: I’m trying not to, however it looked, whatever you saw

Rio: I’m not judging you, Christ

Rio: what sort of bitch do you think I am

Buster: I’m not judging you, what I say in anger is just that, an outburst

Rio: Buster, how long have I known you

Rio: I know, and you’ve every right to be angry about this

Buster: All your life, longer than you’ve known him, because I never left, I couldn’t

Buster: I still can’t, no amount of anger would force me

Rio: Stay with me

Buster: Stay with me, you’re not his

Buster: he doesn’t deserve to have ever touched you

Rio: Don’t think about it

Rio: I’m going to have to do everything to get it out of my head

Buster: I don’t deserve you either, but with this clean slate, one day I’m going to

Rio: You deserve more, better

Rio: but I still need you for myself, sorry

Buster: So do you

Buster: I’ve been such a prick

Rio: Yeah, but I know you, babe

Rio: I can handle it

Buster: I’ll do better, handle this better

Rio: I should start first

Rio: I mean, fuck, what am I doing

Buster: You should talk to him while I’m still in the country, in case he won’t take no for an answer

Rio: He won’t

Rio: he’s every right to be as pissed off as he’s going to be though, it’s like I’ve lied to him

Buster: And I’ve got every right to knock him out if he doesn’t back off

Rio: I will handle it, don’t worry

Rio: more than you already have, I’m sorting it

Buster: You’ve got the key for more uses than an escape route, should you need it, I wasn’t just flirting

Rio: It’ll be so weird being back there

Rio: has it been?

Buster: Yeah, even with avoiding my bedroom the entire time

Rio: Sorry

Rio: if anything, we spent more time by the door, and in the hall but that’s just semantics 

Buster: I’ve been accused of enough teenage angst recently without using a window as my constant exit

Rio: Not your style of heartthrob 

Buster: Or heartbreak

Rio: You’re allowed to break my heart by saying that, it’s fair

Buster: Am I? Is it?

Rio: It feels appropriate

Rio: I deserve worse but I’m not going to make you give it to me

Buster: We’re starting again, aren’t we?

Buster: Hardly a new beginning if I’m bringing up the past to throw back at you whenever I feel the urge

Rio: Depends

Rio: are you still crying?

Buster: [do a little countdown thingy as of when you stopped because we all know you were out there sobbing your soul out for a minute ™ in the rain before you came in and hence your mum could tell, as if it makes it casual and bants like excuse you no not for x number of hours now]

Rio: You’re going to haunt my dreams whenever I next manage to sleep

Buster: I always do, I have since we were [dare kiss age]

Rio: I used to think we were actually together in my dreams when we were kids, like you’d come into my head to talk to me and you’d remember it too, it happened

Buster: Who’s to say it didn’t?

Rio: Do you remember?

Buster: Everything

Rio: I never dreamt about the others, just you and me

Buster: I’ll meet you there, tell me when

Rio: I will, I miss you

Buster: I miss you too, come back to me

Rio: I want to, so bad

Buster: No one else can give you what you want

Buster: the compromise would be bigger than any we have to make

Rio: No one else is you

Buster: I’m still me and you’re still you, no matter what

Rio: It’ll always be you, you’re my hero and I’m your biggest fan

Buster: I’ll save you in all the ways I can

Rio: You don’t need to try

Buster: But I want to, you’re worth the effort

Rio: I want to make you happy again

Buster: Likewise

Rio: You’re important, I love you

Buster: That’s what made me throw up hardest, how unhappy you were, that you said you’d die

Rio: I shouldn’t have said it

Rio: it just came out

Rio: I wasn’t trying to scare you

Buster: I could tell you meant it, that’s what scares me

Rio: I’m scared, of how I keep hurting everyone

Buster: We both hurt you first, me and him

Buster: it’s retaliation

Rio: It’s still not who I want to be

Rio: I feel sick and I have since you left, I left you, it won’t come out, however hard I try, the room keeps spinning and tying my stomach in knots

Buster: I wasn’t aspiring to be someone who hurts or threatens you, I’m an equally fucked up person

Buster: [sending her a voice note saying ‘breathe’ because she needs to calm down, they both do]

Rio: It’s only fun when we get to be together, not this

Rio: even if your voice makes my body react like no one else’s ever will

Buster: [another voice note saying ‘do as you’re told’ because she’s gotta do some deep breaths and be serious ™  about it, hence this boy is being with his daddy voice]

Rio: [send the evidence that you are trying to calm your breathing, even though you are in a state, you can hear the attempt to]

Buster: Keep trying, that’s all I ask

Buster: all I ever will

Rio: I am

Rio: I will

Buster: We can’t give up

Rio: On us

Buster: That’s letting him win and I’d fucking die first

Rio: No one is dying

Buster: We’re soulmates, he can’t touch yours

Rio: It’s always been yours, I will always be yours

Buster: He’s not having yours because he doesn’t have one

Rio: It’s nothing to do with him, it’s about you and me

Buster: He’s nothing, you’re everything

Rio: I’m yours

Buster: We’re each other’s, in 5 years or 55

Rio: Even when we’re dead

Buster: No one is dying

Rio: Not ‘til we’re ready, never before

Buster: No, I’ll never be ready to leave you

Rio: We’ll be together in Heaven, I told you, I’ll get you in

Buster: Bold to assume you’re still getting in

Buster: but I’d join you in hell just as willingly

Rio: 😔

Buster: I’m joking, babe

Buster: I told you, you’re not a bad person

Rio: It won’t be a joke if I burn in hell for all eternity 

Buster: Hell’s an actual empty threat

Rio: You’ve not studied your bible, just [the law book]

Buster: I don’t have time to read fiction unless it’s assigned by my English teacher

Rio: 😒

Rio: Hush 

Buster: If there’s a God, he loves you as much as I do, which automatically makes me hate him

Rio: You cannot be jealous of God

Buster: I remember saying he should be jealous of me

Rio: It’s hot when you’re blasphemous, don’t tell on me

Buster: Snitching to your nan’s boyfriend would be a new low

Rio: She’d forgive you

Buster: Yeah, but I’d really have to work to earn yours

Rio: You don’t like easy

Buster: I don’t like upsetting you

Rio: We’re talking

Rio: nothing makes me happier than that

Buster: Has the room stopped spinning yet?

Rio: Yeah

Rio: I feel a bit better

Rio: you?

Buster: Same, and not just because I don’t know how I’d feel worse than the rock bottom of earlier

Rio: I’ll take it

Buster: I’ll be jealous of God if you reached out to him before me

Rio: I’m hiding from him too

Rio: however useless, I don’t want him to know about the state I was in

Buster: Maybe he’s covering his eyes to do the right thing too, following my lead

Rio: I always want you to see me

Buster: There’s no chance of blinking you away, even if I wanted to

Rio: You have to watch me, even today, nothing had changed, just the way you were looking at me

Rio: but I can win you back

Buster: Especially today

Rio: I was jealous of your sister today

Buster: She probably has some of her chocolate winnings left, I’ll steal them for you

Rio: Will you hold my hand though?

Buster: Are you going to wander off like Nance if I don’t?

Rio: No, I’m not that dumb

Rio: I’ll follow you around like a 🐤

Buster: I’m almost jealous of how wasted she manages to get

Rio: It must be nice, to escape your head that well

Buster: Must be nice how empty hers is sober as well

Rio: I haven’t been jealous of her since she got to share a womb with you, honestly

Buster: We don’t need to be more closely blood related, but I appreciate the sentiment

Rio: You’re right

Rio: but if we were, you’d be happier with me than her

Buster: At the risk of you accusing me of objectifying you again, if we were, you wouldn’t look like that 

Rio: I’d never get anything done if I looked like you

Rio: have some objectifying back

Buster: You wouldn’t if you looked like Nance either, she’s obsessed with the idea she’s hideous

Rio: I don’t know why, she’s not 

Buster: I’m glad for my dad’s sake neither she or Ava look like his dead twin but Nancy hasn’t fared exceptionally better with her lookalike being on death’s door, we’d all have some hang ups under those circumstances, I’m sure

Rio: She looked like your dad when we were little 

Buster: Perhaps that’s why she’s so offended by what she sees in the mirror, her only use for dad is being carried blackout from the family function

Rio: I won’t comment on your father’s appearance, as you think I have a fetish 

Buster: You do but he isn’t your type

Rio: I do not have a type 

Buster: If you’d prefer a qualified therapist to talk that through with, the idea’s been floated, I’ll tell them I’ve changed my mind and they can foot your bill believing it’s mine

Rio: You want to go to therapy?

Rio: wanted

Buster: Rio, how long have you known me?

Buster: Nancy did, to hopefully fuck hers, I said no thanks

Rio: Well, that’s alright then 

Rio: I thought I’d really broken you 

Buster: Don’t you start, it’s bad enough my mum thinking I’m a pussy who can’t handle the slightest thing

Rio: You’re not a pussy

Rio: and your mum won’t think that, you’re projecting, I don’t need to go to therapy for that one 

Buster: I know that, she doesn’t

Rio: Yes she does, she raised you 

Buster: To be strong and then you made me weak

Rio: No I didn’t 

Rio: stronger for all my bullshit

Buster: Don’t

Buster: I was a wreck, I am

Rio: No you’re not, and you’re only going to get better the further away from this moment we get 

Buster: Promise? 

Rio: I know you, don’t I?

Buster: Yeah

Buster: and I know dwelling and moping isn’t going to fix anything

Rio: You gotta do what you gotta do

Rio: if you need time and space for it, take it 

Buster: That’s protect you, not myself

Rio: No

Rio: I’ll not put myself in harm’s way, okay

Buster: He’s the harm and you’ve told me multiple times how difficult avoiding him is going to be

Rio: Yeah but that’s my own fault and something I’m just going to have to deal with

Buster: He’s got you completely where he wants you, that’s not your fault

Rio: I told him that’s where I wanted to be

Buster: Because he backed you into a corner too, it wasn’t just me

Buster: my trap is easier to identify, not being wrapped in bullshit, that’s all

Rio: I’ve not said anything yet, we don’t know

Rio: might be I’m pissing him off and he’s had it with me anyway

Buster: Considering his awful track record with sticking around for your sister speaks for itself, hopefully

Buster: but I’m not holding my breath

Rio: It’s egotistical of me to be thinking the way I have, honestly

Rio: he isn’t short of prospects

Buster: The size of your ego is in direct proportion to all the incredible qualities you possess though, if we’re being honest

Rio: You think that

Buster: I know it

Buster: so should he, regardless of whether or not the thought makes me retch again

Rio: Don’t

Rio: it’s handled, he’s handled

Rio: we don’t need to speak about it now

Buster: Promise you’ll tell me the truth about how it goes when you have talked to him, I’m worried

Rio: I’ll tell you

Rio: and I’ll do it over the phone

Buster: FaceTime, you need to make eye contact with me

Rio: I meant with him, so you’re less worried

Rio: but I’ll let you look in my eyes

Buster: Keep the phone I got you within reach

Rio: He threw my old one out the car

Buster: When was this?

Rio: We had an argument, he got me the car and a new phone then

Buster: He felt guilty and brought you off with a car and replacement phone 

Buster: What else happened during your argument?

Rio: I don’t even remember what it was about, honestly, he drove me home though when we were going to go somewhere

Buster: If he hit you, I swear to God, I’ll kill him, I don’t care what the consequences for me are

Rio: Jesus, no, he didn’t

Buster: What did he do? I know there’s something you’re not telling me

Rio: Nothing serious, I got out of the car like an idiot, as if the phone was gonna be intact, and he drove off

Rio: but he came back immediately, he was just turning to take me home

Buster: No, he abandoned you by the side of the road

Buster: Where? Was it dark outside?

Rio: No because he came back, literally immediately

Rio: and no, it was fine

Buster: Jesus, Rio, that’s not fine

Buster: What if he hadn’t? Your phone was fucking broken

Rio: Which is probably why he didn’t, even though I’d pissed him off

Buster: Don’t make it sound like he did you a favour, he put you in that position in the first place

Rio: No, I know

Rio: I’m just saying it sounds more dramatic than it was

Buster: You’re downplaying it to calm me down so I don’t break his neck

Rio: I promise

Rio: and he didn’t make me talk to him then when I thought it was over, so it’s a good sign

Buster: I’ll take that

Rio: How do I start this?

Buster: There’s no point sugarcoating it

Rio: No

Rio: and only one real way to do it, I’m just scared to

Buster: Don’t hold back for once

Buster: picture yourself back in my kitchen

Rio: That might work

Buster: And if all else fails, he’ll respond to hearing that you cheated on him

Rio: Oh God

Buster: Making someone else cum when it should’ve only been you is a fairly standard universal turn off

Rio: I’m aware of that one, yeah

Buster: It hasn’t always worked for us, but we’ve established he isn’t me

Rio: You make other people cum all the time

Buster: Not intentionally

Buster: and that’s my point, you still love me

Rio: It’s hardly on accident but yeah

Buster: I’m focused on myself, and you

Rio: You’ll think of me now, next time you touch yourself

Buster: I think of you every time

Rio: You’ll be remembering not just fantasizing 

Buster: Maybe I’ll do it now, no holding back either

Rio: You should

Rio: just like I did it

Buster: To motivate you

Buster: remember why you’re speaking to him

Rio: I do need encouragement 

Rio: and you’ll feel so much better too

Buster: Your hands are so soft, I don’t know how I’m recreating that

Rio: [send him a link to whatever body lotion you use like there you go lol]

Rio: If you miss me

Buster: [show her that you literally just bought a case of it or however much they’ll allow because you miss her that much and you also plan to use that much]

Rio: 😁

Rio: You’ll smell like me

Buster: Like [whatever she smells like to you which isn’t just listing these body lotion scents because it’s shamelessly not just that]

Rio: You smelled like [and tell him his own back because you were all up in his chest and neck breathing him in uncasually so you know lol]

Buster: What perfume do you wear?

Rio: [send him that too, I imagine you have a day and a night one, giving demure (as much as you do lmao) and then a sexier one]

Buster: Put it on, both your pulse points

Buster: where I touched

Rio: [send him a lil vid of you doing that]

Buster: [again show her that you bought both of them, hopefully not in insane amounts because a little goes a long way lol, a bottle of each will suffice]

Rio: 😍

Rio: Tell me what you use, I want to buy it

Buster: You can have it, I’ll drop it off at your house

Rio: And your jumper?

Buster: Yeah, but you’re still not getting your necklace back

Rio: I want you to keep it

Buster: I do, with me all the time

Rio: That makes me happy

Buster: It’s in my mouth right now because you used both hands

Buster: [send her a pic of said necklace in your mouth, simply must]

Rio: Fuck

Buster: Yours are much smaller too, what am I supposed to do about that? Perhaps I should only be using one after all

Rio: Are they too small, was it no good?

Buster: What on earth did I do to make you think it wasn’t the best experience of my life?

Rio: Okay, you caught me

Rio: I just wanted you to say that to me

Buster: I’ve never felt that good before, I don’t now, I never will again if that’s the last time you touch me

Rio: It won’t be

Rio: don’t punish yourself just to punish me

Buster: I don’t want to

Rio: Want me more

Buster: I told you, I do more than anything, America included

Rio: I can’t stop thinking about you

Buster: Don’t stop

Rio: Don’t you stop

Buster: I won’t

Rio: Good boy

Buster: Say that again

Rio: [say it, because ofc that’s what he wants]

Buster: I will be, anything you want

Buster: I just need you

Rio: You are, so good

Rio: you have me, I’m yours and you’re mine

Buster: From the moment they introduced us as babies

Rio: It’s always going to be us, when everything else is taken out of the picture, you’re the only one that matters, my constant

Buster: If my future doesn’t involve you I might as well not have one

Rio: then it involves me

Rio: Why should we explain? If we just live together, do everything together, what’s wrong with that

Buster: Nothing

Buster: and no one could stop me even if it was

Rio: We’re supposed to love each other

Rio: and we do, you’re my favourite person to spend time with

Buster: I’m meant to take care of you and I will

Rio: I’m so proud to be related to you, you know

Buster: You’ll always be safe with me

Buster: no one’s going to hurt you any more, ever again, myself included

Rio: I want to be safe in your lap right now

Rio: I think I could sleep if you held me

Buster: You must be exhausted

Rio: Back at you

Rio: just because you’re big and brave, don’t think I don’t know

Buster: Let’s sleep for the next 5 years

Rio: Please

Rio: I wanna blink and miss it

Buster: We’ll wake up and fly to America

Rio: I can’t wait to see your face, how excited you are

Buster: I’ll hold you on the flight, I already know 5 years isn’t going to be long enough

Rio: One seats cheaper and I don’t need the space

Buster: I’d tell them you’re my baby, get you the special lap strap

Rio: I am

Rio: carrying me around everywhere you go will be a really good workout, you’re welcome

Buster: Maybe I can finally give you your necklace back then, replace the chain so it’s wearable again

Rio: A close second to your hands around my neck, very close

Buster: And I’ll put a ring on it, close second to your finger

Rio: Promise

Buster: For better and worse

Buster: however sick you are and when you’ve healed from this

Rio: If I don’t?

Buster: I love you anyway

Rio: I love you, whatever I do and whatever you do

Buster: ‘Til death, those are the vows, heaven or hell

Rio: I’ll say them to you, every night

Buster: We’ll both say them to God, if he’s always watching and listening, we don’t need to be in a church for them to count

Rio: You’re gonna make me happy cry

Buster: As far as possible compromises are concerned, at least I quite like that one

Buster: cry happy tears for me

Rio: [when you have, send him a video of that, because he cried in front of you and was #vulnerable so you can do it back, we know you’re looking and feeling like a mess doing so but you must]

Buster: [me knowing that watching this #content will kill him harder than trying to recreate how she touched him ever would, because he clearly can’t recreate the sheer perfection that was, and she’ll know too from the iconic pause ™ she’s getting from him even though he isn’t implicitly stating what happened]

Rio: Was that weird, you hated it

Buster: You’re doing it again, yeah?

Buster: The small hands fake out to get me to tell you how much I loved it

Rio: I was less sure

Rio: I do look the mess I feel

Buster: You should see the mess I made

Rio: Yes, I should

Buster: [do show her because it’s giving this boy jizzed all over something that’ll now be a bitch to clean up because where even are you sir, what room when you’re avoiding parts of your house like the plague lol]

Rio: Jesus 🤤

Rio: Do you even remember where you did it earlier?

Buster: How could I forget a second from earlier?

Rio: I’ve never seen you lose control like that, ever

Buster: I don’t, it was a first for you

Buster: a better one than my crying

Rio: You can cry, I just can’t be the one making you

Rio: unless they’re happy tears, obviously

Buster: I wouldn’t for anyone else

Buster: you’re the only one who could ever break me, make me that happy or sad

Rio: I’ll start acting like I know that

Rio: be careful

Buster: And I’ll stop acting like you’re cracked

Buster: because you aren’t damaged goods to me, never

Rio: I’m sorry I didn’t wait for you

Buster: I fucked that up first, I’m sorry

Rio: I know it doesn’t technically matter and it’s all made up but so’s everything

Buster: We’re allowed to romanticise everything that isn’t your trauma, there aren’t any rules against it

Rio: You’ve checked, have you?

Buster: As I make my own, it’s very simple to

Rio: It can be, we do this right from now

Buster: You know that’s the person I want to be, not who I have been since [whenever mcvickers gate occurred]

Rio: I feel like I don’t know who I am since then 

Buster: For the first time in my life, I felt like I didn’t know who you were either

Buster: and I realised how much of my identity is tied up in yours

Rio: I know 

Rio: trying to work out who I have to be if there’s no us was driving me insane 

Buster: I shouldn’t have said there’s no us

Buster: it was already a lie as soon as I did

Rio: You say lots of things 

Buster: So do you

Buster: childish as that just sounded

Rio: True enough 

Buster: You get under my skin, whether I like it or not

Buster: I usually do

Rio: There’s no choice in it

Buster: If my parents’ example has taught me anything, the more of my buttons you push, the more perfect for me you are

Rio: I don’t know if we’re like your parents 

Buster: Neither of them would hesitate to go after something they wanted this badly, I’m obviously not following in their footsteps that well

Rio: Arguably they did the same thing, just at a different time

Buster: Pointing that out would cause an argument, yeah

Rio: It’s true though

Buster: You don’t need to call me a shit imitation of her twice in the same conversation, the blow landed the first time

Rio: Deffo said that

Buster: I’ll find and screenshot it if you want to have an argument with me

Rio: Why would I want that

Buster: To put off having one with him

Rio: I’ll leave right now

Buster: If you were serious about the right now you wouldn’t have warned me

Rio: It’s rude to just leave without saying bye

Buster: Arguably, you’ve got something more important to do

Buster: priorities, babe

Rio: Don’t babe me

Buster: Don’t take your imminent breakup out on me

Rio: You’re being patronising, again

Rio: I’ll talk to you later

Buster: You started it

Rio: I’m ending it

Rio: excuse the double entendre 

Buster: Your loss

[deathdoesntkillyou]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Slaggie & Jalia

Maggie: What’s this I hear about your new pets? 🐀🐀

Sylvie: Good thing I weren’t trying to sneak them under the radar

Sylvie: I didn’t know how loud or not the squeaking might be, be cruel to send my parents up the wall thinking it’s an infestation in the walls or something

Sylvie: [send her a picture of these rats and I’ve decided that one will be dark and one will be light because, of course, you were that cliche about getting a Jake and a you one lol]

Maggie: True enough

Maggie: mightn’t only be the walls of [the cinema] that have 👂s

Maggie: but sure, they’re cute wee 🐀🐀 and won’t send your mammy or daddy up on a 🪑 screaming their heads off, can’t be said for THEIR 🎁 daddy though 💘

Sylvie: Ah, Jesus, who’s blabbed? Was it [a friend you’re calling that bitch lol]?

Sylvie: Or [Jake’s friend who caught them at the party], very strange if he’s going about telling you of all people, but

Maggie: By God, woman, everyone

Maggie: you’re the talk of the town, my phone’s not stopped

Sylvie: The film was really crap, like

Maggie: Be why I didn’t go

Maggie: you really took my saying of meeting him in a dark corner to heart, fair play to yous

Sylvie: Are you shocked or disappointed? Or both, suppose

Maggie: Try neither, I don’t have to be all seeing to clock where you and your boy were headed, fine line it is and walked many a time before

Sylvie: I had no intentions of liking him, I thought he was a twat

Maggie: You’ve none you’ve got to justify to me

Sylvie: You’re allowed to judge, I know he’s still got a girlfriend

Maggie: A girlfriend he’s no business still being with but that’s no more mine than who the lad shifts

Maggie: until now and the who being you, of course, and me being ready to land a 🥊 on him instead of a 💋 if he puts a foot wrong there, like

Sylvie: He’s not going to, before now wasn’t the craic how inoffensive a lad he is? 

Maggie: The craic’s he played [whatever role] to be talked of as if he’s the real JC to the 🎭🩰 kids and who can trust an actor?

Sylvie: You’re practically a 🎭🩰 kid yourself, come on

Sylvie: What’s the worst that could happen, like

Maggie: I do their sewing, for the love of, you aren’t about to catch me sharing a spotlight with China O’Neill

Sylvie: I don’t think she shares it

Sylvie: Ironic statement for me to make, but I reckon she’d still fight harder for the spotlight, come down to it

Maggie: You’ve a point

Maggie: I don’t know how Jacob has held on for the months he’s, to my (admittedly not all) knowing of her

Sylvie: She wants a boyfriend for everyone to be jealous of, that’s about as deep as it ever was, but if that’s all anyone was after from you, I suppose you’d rationalise it into being more, wouldn’t you?

Maggie: And he wants a 🏆 for putting up with her carry on, but he’s one now in you (I’ll take it upon myself to hype you up how your sweet 👑 daddy would as you’re no keeping him in the loop)

Sylvie: He’d be doing no such thing if he was in the loop

Sylvie: for his own good

Maggie: He’d be doing no such thing that mine would

Maggie: but maybe you’ve a worse fate ahead of you in the other JC being invited round for his tea, yeah

Sylvie: You don’t know that

Sylvie: can blame your mammy for his hang ups in that department 

Maggie: Ah come on, her days of traumatising the family are long gone, she’s settled in her [however old Alison is, 30s? I’m not sure]

Sylvie: Yeah, and how old was she when she was traumatising my father

Sylvie: that’s what counts

Maggie: You’re hardly raising hell, he’s a nice Jewish lad from our year

Sylvie: Is that what the walls said?

Maggie: They don’t begrudge you your heaven, wherever you find it

Maggie: your daddy doesn’t need to hear how public your worship is, and he isn’t going to, the walls have lips too, that are sealed

Sylvie: Yours mightn’t, I don’t think mine believes in it

Sylvie: Don’t trouble yourself, I’m not

Maggie: They want you to be happy, s’not miles off the same belief

Maggie: so don’t trouble yourself is right

Sylvie: I don’t care what they want, is the fact of the matter

Sylvie: it’s my life, not theirs

Maggie: It’s grand you’re living life to the fullest with Jakey, dark horse he turned out to be

Sylvie: God, I know 

Sylvie: It’s unreal, Mags

Maggie: Least he can do is live up to the gossip himself, the people are scandalised

Sylvie: Rightly so, not that they know the half of it

Sylvie: what are the odds of China wanting to batter me tomorrow? 

Maggie: Well, am I to know the half of it?

Maggie: Oh she’d never dare, Sammy’s fresh outing of you aside, it’s nowhere near a ‘cool girl’ approach to take

Sylvie: Do you want to?

Sylvie: True, for all her bullying, no one who threatened her with a proper smack was bothered much again…

Maggie: If you’re wanting to discuss what went on while he’s busying himself with his breakup

Maggie: Remember when [giving a baby you and baby China story where she tried to be a cunt because you’ve always been a quirky girl who doesn’t give a fuck and you would’ve sassed her so hard if not fully fought her like those gifs of baby Dakota lol]

Sylvie: If he dumps her, it’s awkward, I don’t know how they have a proper conversation about anything

Sylvie: be my next move, she decides to get aggy about it, ‘course

Maggie: Seems they’re keeping the deep and meaningfuls to a minimum as he’s not told her he’s sick and she hasn’t said a word that isn’t a lie since the day they had their first hang

Sylvie: Christ, does she even know herself, what a mess

Maggie: School tomorrow’ll be a fun one, I’ll bet you aren’t bothering yourself in

Sylvie: I’ve mothering to do, what’s maths to me now

Maggie: ‘Course

Maggie: and the trend you’ve started getting girls to dress as 🐕‍🦺’ll never get past [whichever teacher or teachers are obsessed with uniform because there’s always some] 👀🚨

Sylvie: 🤔 chances of saying it’s my medical ID and getting away with it?

Maggie: Solid, I reckon, what little fucks they give for anything medical

Sylvie: Unlucky ladies, get a horrific disease and get back to me 

Maggie: Hopefully they’ll find some style choices of their own along the way, copycat clashes with the whole 🐶 thing, and clashing is MY thing, as they ought to know by now 

Sylvie: 🤡 only looks good on you, anyway

Maggie: 🎪🎠🪄🔮

Maggie: been a minute since I last rocked a red lip, thanks for the reminder

Sylvie: Inspiring all the basic bitches in town, eh

Maggie: That you are 

Sylvie: Away with ye

Sylvie: How’s [her bf, may as well ref you floptina]?

Maggie: His usual self

Sylvie: Tell him you’ll never put his name around your neck ‘til he catches himself on a bit

Maggie: He’d reply he’d just as soon not do me the honour of tatting mine on the side of his

Maggie: on account of looking like a tribute to his dead nan

Sylvie: And he’d have to remember how to spell it

Maggie: And handle the pain, which given he cried at [something hilariously unlike this boy’s macho image] and called the tears hayfever, slim chance

Sylvie: Best he doesn’t get himself a prison tat, already selling a dream as it is, even if we can’t quite accuse him of China level deception

Maggie: Conversational skill level, maybe

Maggie: I could do worse than matchmaking the pair, but they wouldn’t be a success story, big softie he is

Sylvie: Big softie you are, more like

Sylvie: bless ya

Maggie: Everyone has some good if you care to look, and what else have I these big eyes for?

Sylvie: He’s your choice, if we agreed on it, things would be awkward

Maggie: I’d lose the competition to you, more like

Maggie: Jacob Cohen isn’t the only dark horse round here

Sylvie: Please

Sylvie: I wasn’t hiding it, no shift with no lad before did much of anything to or for me, simple as that

Maggie: I hear [Sylvie’s bf because why not ref you too sir] goes at it like a washing machine, if true, his technique wouldn’t, no

Sylvie: Oh, fuck

Sylvie: I’m going to have to talk to him, I forgot

Maggie: He exists? Must’ve been a good night

Sylvie: 🤏

Sylvie: I can ghost him, can’t I?

Sylvie: We were hardly official

Maggie: I’ll park my jealousy with my 🚲

Maggie: [a lad] did [a girl] and they’d been official, by her word, from [giving a teenage long time or circumstances whereby he should not have]

Maggie: [and giving examples of even more horrific teen dumpings at school or via peeps you know to make her feel better that at least she isn’t doing any of these]

Sylvie: You can be jealous, my ego is bound to take a bashing somewhat from all the slag allegations coming

Sylvie: I shouldn’t have said yes to seeing him but we don’t need to pretend it was more than that, fuck it, he’ll be grand

Maggie: [a girl you know]’s after him, she’ll catch him on his rebound and they’ll both be

Sylvie: 🙌 I’ll chuck ‘em in a chat and then leave, job done

Maggie: Chuck him and she’ll put in the rest of the work, she’s desperate to, bless her

Sylvie: Power to her

Sylvie: I will miss having someone to make Jake jealous with but sure, he’s more than a puppet on a string 

Maggie: There’s no shortage of prospects next time you’re in the market, walk a step [where y’all like to go out] and you trip over someone willing

Sylvie: 🎯

Sylvie: I might not be out for the next 42 years but yeah, when I’m over it enough to bother

Maggie: Understandable, don’t rush your honeymoon 💖

Sylvie: We’ve not done it, who can call it rushing

Maggie: [the film’s long ass runtime for the bants like absolutely you lasted that long without jumping his bones]’s practically a nun by anyone’s standards

Sylvie: Habit’d go great with the collar, why should priests have all the fun

Maggie: Full costume? Now you’re speaking my language

Sylvie: Any excuse

Sylvie: though obviously, next actual costume party, I’ve got to commit 🐶

Maggie: [check your calendar and drop when the next costume party is like lol because you’re that bitch]

Sylvie: I’ll be roasting in fur

Maggie: If you’re committing to capital W H O R E you’ll be in leather and latex, but that’s nothing on judgy bitch hell fire, so, best you’re prepared

Sylvie: I see no alternative

Maggie: I’ll see what I can do

Maggie: I’m already making [what costumes you are for what friends because you just would]

Sylvie: Potentially not quite right for you to have a hand in dressing me like a capital W H O R E 

Maggie: Why? How I dress most days to listen to those same judgy bitches go on 👯‍♀️ as if I’ve a whip I’m cracking down [a named] street for bothering myself to do more than 👖👕

Sylvie: Sure, it’s about fashion and artistry for you, but it’s clearly about getting railed for me

Maggie: All of the above, I’d be lying else

Sylvie: Are we too familial to talk about it?

Sylvie: At what point am I just verbally masturbating and need to keep it to myself

Maggie: I’m of the mind there’s nothing we can’t

Sylvie: Everyone and everything warns you as a girl that you might not be able to cum, ever but especially with a partner 

Sylvie: but he had me feeling like I was going to die in the best way, I swear I full on did for just a moment

Maggie: I couldn’t be happier for you, seriously

Maggie: fuck the witch hunt and everything else 

Sylvie: Was it like that with [her ex, who you know she liked much more than her current rebound]?

Maggie: More or less

Sylvie: I’m sorry

Maggie: Don’t be, I’m not any of it happened, minus the ending

Maggie: and if it’s meant to be I’ll be okay with that too, eventually, like

Sylvie: I said I’d be okay with sharing him but now if he thought of someone else I’d have to kill him, her and myself

Maggie: I doubt he’s taken that as gospel

Sylvie: It was only when I thought he’d never leave her

Maggie: And he’s thought to be obvious he wants no one else but you since then, with countless gestures

Sylvie: Have I lost the plot?

Maggie: You’re allowed to, over him and when you’re under him

Sylvie: I was 🤏 close to telling him I loved him

Maggie: Jesus, it’s like we are sisters

Maggie: [tell her about how you said it to your ex as fast because you’re your mother’s daughter hardcore]

Sylvie: I’m fine with blaming your terrible influence for it, like

Sylvie: but Jesus, I still feel it, even now he’s not inside me

Maggie: I know, I haven’t seen [her ex] for [however long] but I still say I love him every night before I go to bed hoping he’ll feel me and wake up with his mind changed

Sylvie: Oh, Mags

Sylvie: you’ll break my heart

Maggie: We can’t have 💔 when yours is full to bursting 

Sylvie: He’s a complete dope

Sylvie: even if you love him, it has to be said

Maggie: He’s completely over me and onto [another girl], enough said

Sylvie: She’s nothing on you

Maggie: She’s not to blame, he is and I am

Sylvie: Just pointing out how much of a dope he is

Maggie: I’ll take my consolation at walking so’s you could run

Maggie: off into the sunset with Jake, who better be no dope, eejit or gobshite

Sylvie: He’s a nerd

Sylvie: in the best way, he knows how to do everything like it’s a song he’s memorised

Maggie: I like his song, [the title, which is defs one of the ones about his dad he told her to listen to because those are his best shamelessly, soz not soz China]

Maggie: not saying I’ve every lyric or note memorised though, don’t worry, my earlier jealousy weren’t a groupie shade of green

Sylvie: Ha, plot twist, very soapy

Sylvie: I take nothing back about having to murder you just ‘cos it’s you, FYI

Maggie: I’d have to kill myself, no offence to either of you, but the cliche of still loving my ex is bad enough

Maggie: we’d belong in [her nan’s home] for more than our names, amount of swapping done between the oldies

Sylvie: I mean, they’ve got to kill the time but yeesh 😬

Sylvie: Thank God that’ll never be me

Maggie: You’ve made your thoughts on sharing clear

Sylvie: Thoughts on a slow, painful and boring life before death too, no thanks

Maggie: Whose goal would that be? Except [some teacher we’re slagging off]

Sylvie: Everyone’s, when they reckon there’s a cure in it

Maggie: Good luck to them but you’ve no cure

Sylvie: Don’t stop all the hoping of the masses

Maggie: Shame Lourdes is [however long] from where we’re being sent for our school trip

Sylvie: Though it’d be great craic to try and make it all about me like that

Sylvie: if we went to a Catholic school, they’d be obliged to get me there hell or high water

Maggie: Don’t start me on [the local Catholic school], I’m only ever a [whatever drink gets to her the hardest because we all have one we shouldn’t drink lol] from playing the powerpoint I made when we were [whatever age she did this being like hey jali this is why I should go to catholic school please and thanks]

Sylvie: When Catholic school in your head was akin to Hogwarts or something, yeah

Sylvie: every other school in this country is one, like, be no different, still full of gobshites

Maggie: [something about the uniform of said local catholic school because you’re that girlie always clothes focused, whether you’re saying it’s better than y’alls or horrific and you’d really have your work cut out making it slay because as we saw when I did my school ootd she LOVES to flout the dress code lol]

Sylvie: When the dress code is not above the ankles, never mind not above the knee, I’m out

Maggie: Ah but the dress code’s purely optional, like you said, be no different

Sylvie: But of course

Sylvie: but Catholics love a dress code, they’d not stand for your alterations 

Maggie: Good thing my mammy and daddy didn’t sit through my presentation and end up swayed by my delightful notions

Sylvie: You’ve had nuttier 

Maggie: To be sure, in this last week alone probably

Sylvie: I’ve got you beat this week though  

Maggie: Give you that one

Sylvie: I’ll take a bow

Maggie: Front of the cinema’d be the place for it

Sylvie: My radar key needed its first outing

Maggie: Worthy christening, sounds of

Sylvie: God yes

Sylvie: I simply can’t use it for its actual intended use ever, it would sully it

Maggie: You should attach it to your collar like the holy relic it is

Sylvie: 💡 

Sylvie: Shame it's so giant, I mean, maybe for good reason, but Jesus

Maggie: You’ll be feeling none when he’s dragging you along by said 🔑

Sylvie: 😫 Stop, I miss him

Sylvie: fuck’s sake

Maggie: When are you seeing him again?

Sylvie: If I can convince him, tonight

Sylvie: probably tomorrow though

Maggie: Tell him it’s a medical emergency, if I had that card to play I would

Sylvie: Very Jane Austen

Sylvie: [the local park] isn’t really giving running over the heaths and moors to you but sure

Maggie: The park isn’t giving much at all but dog walkers, you’ll fit right in

Sylvie: Ha ha

Sylvie: not a terrible idea, as my house isn’t a castle 

Maggie: I’ve been known to have my share of not terrible ideas

Sylvie: When should I message him?

Maggie: Why wait?

Sylvie: He’s the potential of three angry women chewing his ear off right now, not stiff competition but an unwelcome comparison 

Maggie: Poor boy’s bound to welcome the distraction then

Sylvie: Tell your mammy she’s a grass

Sylvie: but not the only one in town so I’ll forget about it this time

Maggie: Tell your lad she also passed along the info male mice sing, he’s stiff competition to proper trouble him, never mind those woes at home

Sylvie: 🥺 They never do

Sylvie: the nerd in the shop was so keen to get us out he didn’t tell me nothing

Maggie: [send her an article or whatever about it cos I’ve definitely read somewhere that they do] 🎤🎶🪩

Sylvie: And they laugh when you tickle and play with them

Sylvie: I’m hormonal about this, the state of me

Maggie: I could honestly cry for the cats having the heads off loads of ‘em 🪦🙏

Sylvie: They’ll not be being introduced

Sylvie: I’ve not had the boys in yet but neither of them has caught any wildlife a day in their life so it’s more promising

Maggie: [her big dog]’s a bigger softie than [flop bf] and [the little one]’s only got short legs

Sylvie: I’ll disown them if they play up

Maggie: They’ve been brought up better than [flop bf] too, yous’ll all get on fine

Sylvie: 🤞🍀

Maggie: Trust me and your instinct to message him

Sylvie: Instinct is talking up the urge but

Sylvie: I will, thanks, like

Maggie: Be round to meet your 🐀🐀 [whenever she’s inviting herself lol], there’s your warning (and his) to calm your urges down for [however long she’s staying lol]

Sylvie: Right you are

Sylvie: knock first, loudly 

Maggie: 🫡 13 should give yous both plenty of time to put your clothes back on

Sylvie: Get the ties and bindings off

Maggie: Depending if he was in Cubs 🪢

Sylvie: Being Jewish probably excludes you from that sort of thing too, shocking lack of representation 

Maggie: Once he leaves an awkward silence between us, I’ll ask him

Sylvie: but she’s no interest, like

Maggie: In knowing things, no secret I do

Sylvie: You start asking him about knots and I’d not blame him for getting the wrong idea

Maggie: His misspent youth?

Sylvie: You know how his youth was spent, we all saw it 

Maggie: We can save the ballet questions for your mammy and daddy, rude not to

Sylvie: They aren’t meeting him, God willing

Maggie: Ever?

Sylvie: I don’t know

Maggie: He’d have you introduced to his family sooner rather than later, close as they are

Sylvie: They’ll not like me though

Maggie: It’s going to be far easier for his mammy and sister to find a kind word for you than her

Sylvie: Even if they don’t hear about recent events, I dunno

Sylvie: I’m a bad influence 

Maggie: Alright, be a decent one around them, you’ve that and plenty more besides in you

Sylvie: I don’t think he cares, so I don’t have to either

Sylvie: things have changed, haven’t they

Maggie: I suppose, with his mystery illness

Sylvie: It puts it all into perspective

Maggie: I wonder if he’s swallowed down an ‘I love you’ tonight

Sylvie: I can’t think about it

Maggie: ‘Cause you reckon he did or didn’t?

Sylvie: Either way

Sylvie: It wasn’t said, by either of us, so we’ll call it even and be happy with that

Maggie: And tomorrow’s a brand new day to keep score

Sylvie: You can try and sense it out, if you want

Maggie: I’ve no need to try 

Sylvie: Brag

Maggie: Fact

Maggie: question is do you want me to?

Sylvie: If it’s not the answer I want, don’t tell me

Maggie: When it’s the answer you’re after, I can’t wait to tell you

Sylvie: If infatuation is all this is, I’m fine with that

Maggie: Intense but shortlived sounds familiar 

Maggie: you can always double date with me and [flop bf]

Sylvie: ‘Course, when we’re after being better company

Sylvie: more awkward walking out if there’s only us four there and not a whole group

Maggie: [invite them to something you’re doing with this man, giving soonish because shortlived but not so soon it’s like the day after tomorrow lol]

Sylvie: I’ll ask, let you know 

Maggie: I’ve a feeling yous are already a no, common being the only sense required

Sylvie: Good thing you’re never short of company or I’d have to feel bad

Maggie: Good luck with that when the opposite’s got such a strong grip at the minute 🫧☁️

Sylvie: May as well have given me a countdown

Maggie: As I said, I’m happy for you

Maggie: no sour 🍇 til we’re on a sesh

Sylvie: Sentences starting with ‘as I said’ always sound so sincere

Sylvie: but you’re grand

Maggie: Say yourself and I’ll facetime you to show how sincere I am 😁 can’t be misread

Sylvie: I believe yous

Sylvie: and I know you’ve got your own shit to work out too

Maggie: Has he replied yet?

Sylvie: Yeah

Sylvie: but his mammy is actually there so he’s talking to her before her shift

Maggie: Get my 🛼s on, only ever a matter of borrowed time before I hit the deck 🤕 maybe she’ll be rushed in to start early

Sylvie: You should require a license for them, one that gets taken off you immediately 

Maggie: Charming when my clumsiness is doing you a favour

Sylvie: If you let ‘em know it’s inherited, you might be able to join the sick kids club

Maggie: Nicer to decline than speculate on what disability [flop bf] might have or leave him out in the cold

Sylvie: It’s just his personality, doesn’t count

Maggie: Sure, there’s no denying he’s an acquired taste but he’s helping me get [her ex]’s out of my mouth

Sylvie: I’m only messing, he is what he is, no need to explain

Maggie: Away with you, messer

Sylvie: 👋 See you at the playdate

Maggie: Later 

Maggie: my love to your new 🎸🎤🎶🪩 husband and 🐀🐀 babies

Sylvie: Eejit 💗

Talia: How was [the film], Jacob?

Jake: [Her bf] wouldn’t enjoy it, you’d be better off going [somewhere else that’s more this boy’s vibe]

Talia: We’re seeing [the more pretentious film that we said the group voted against lol]

Talia: Is that why you walked out midway through?

Jake: Cool

Jake: Where did you hear I walked out midway through?

Talia: Your friends, they’re concerned too

Jake: I’m sorry I asked

Jake: if this happens again, I’ll start a group chat and inform them I’m bored ahead of time

Talia: You’re not bored though, are you

Talia: but your misfortune isn’t an excuse to treat your friends so poorly

Jake: No, but it’s an excuse for you to try and keep me under house arrest

Talia: That’s not fair

Talia: I just want you to consider your own safety, as well as your family’s concerns about 

Jake: I hardly go out anymore, it isn’t fair of you to use my friends to spy on me when I do

Talia: Excuse me, I didn’t ask anyone to spy on you, I’m just not going to specify who came to me when they only have your best interest at heart and you’re so unreceptive to love and support right now

Jake: I’m unreceptive to your unnecessary mothering, we have one and she’s a nurse, I’m well aware of every safety risk, hypothetical and actual, that I’m facing right now

Talia: What about the risk of this destructive behaviour going unchallenged?

Talia: Because that’s obviously what you want but where does that lead you?

Jake: What destructive behaviour? I take my meds as prescribed and follow the rest of my doctor’s advice, he’s the so-called expert

Talia: I just don’t think you’d be so defensive if you didn’t know that what you’re doing is wrong

Talia: because you do know, you’ve been raised better than that

Jake: I’m not being defensive, I’m defending myself from your unwarranted criticism, there’s a difference

Talia: Is a break-up and a new reputation as a love rat what your health needs right now?

Talia: Because I distinctly remember the doctor saying to avoid unnecessary stressors 

Jake: No one is stressing me out except you

Talia: That can’t be even slightly true

Talia: Or, wait, have you seriously not spoken to China, at all?

Jake: She’s working

Talia: Please, you are better than that lame excuse

Jake: I appreciate you taking a proactive stance, but it’s my relationship, not yours

Talia: Exactly, your relationship, that you’re going to throw away because you’re in shock

Talia: You aren’t thinking straight, Jake

Jake: Our relationship that can’t be salvaged because China isn’t who I thought she was or she falsely represented herself to be for months, you’re right about me being misled, but it isn’t a side effect of my diagnosis

Talia: Why do you suddenly think that?

Talia: Or perhaps a better question would be who told you that

Jake: Who told you I left the cinema?

Talia: That’s hardly what matters here, is it

Talia: but it was [the boy], if you must know, but he was entirely concerned with your wellbeing, there was nothing malicious in it at all

Jake: His agenda matters, believe it or not

Jake: Nothing malicious? He called Sylvie [the names this boy did that offended Jake so deeply]

Talia: Well, that’s not on, of course

Talia: but these are the sort of comments that type of behaviour welcomes, I was telling you, not signing off on it

Talia: I’m sure he was angry on China’s behalf and expressed it ungracefully 

Jake: How can you say that?

Jake: he doesn’t even like China, none of my friends do, she told me herself

Talia: I just said it was wrong, don’t put words into my mouth, please

Talia: When? And how does she know that as fact? China has very low self-esteem, it doesn’t mean her emotions are gospel and in line with reality, necessarily 

Jake: She admitted that she doesn’t care about making an effort with them, and I witnessed her first-hand at [the girl]’s birthday

Talia: This is deflection, this is about you not making an effort with your friends

Jake: Thanks for your support

Talia: I am trying to help you, you won’t let me

Jake: What you’re trying to do is control me because you can’t my epilepsy

Jake: Don’t you think I’d happily let you help me if there was something, anything, you could do?

Talia: Aren’t your meds working properly?

Talia: You don’t tell me or [their mum by her name okay girl] anything, it’s not just hurtful, it’s dangerous

Jake: There’s no further discussion to be had about my meds ‘til [whenever they’re getting reviewed because appaz epilepsy ones take a minute to work so they’re not gonna be doing anything for a sec], that’s why

Talia: Have you had any seizures you’ve not told us about?

Jake: They’re not exactly low profile and easy to keep secret, Talia

Talia: Is that why you’re acting out, to distract attention?

Jake: I resent the idea that falling out of love with my girlfriend, if love is even the term for falling for a construct instead of a real person, means I’m acting out

Talia: It isn’t that, it’s how you’ve handled it

Jake: In an ideal world, I’d have handled things differently, we don’t live in one though

Talia: You have control over this, showing her respect and care, you chose not to and I’m just trying to figure out why

Jake: I know, but when I talked to her at lunch, she wouldn’t listen

Talia: Well, I fail to see how the next move was doing what you did tonight with that girl

Jake: Of course you do, you weren’t handed a possible death sentence

Jake: and don’t call her that girl

Talia: I don’t know her, I wasn’t passing judgment 

Talia: you’re not the only one your diagnosis affects, you know, that’s not how it works

Jake: That’s like saying our father’s death affected him and me the same, it obviously didn’t

Jake: yeah my being sick sucks for you too, but at the end of the day, I’m the one who is

Talia: I think that’s taking my words and their meaning out of context

Talia: you’re my brother, your safety and health are directly and inextricably linked to my happiness 

Jake: You should care about my happiness

Talia: I do

Jake: You’re more concerned about my reputation, that’s messed up

Jake: not to mention outdated

Talia: Not your reputation for reputation’s sake, how you’re behaving and treating others, which matters

Jake: You’ve pretty much slut-shamed both of us

Talia: That’s a ridiculous accusation, where?

Jake: When you said our behaviour welcomes negative comments, or called it destructive and acting out

Talia: Because you’re knowingly cheating, and she’s facilitating that, that’s not slut shaming, that’s accountability 

Jake: I don’t need you to hold me accountable, everyone else will

Talia: You don’t want me to, it’s not the same

Jake: I want you to see things from my POV, you can’t or won’t

Talia: Talk to me, you haven’t explained

Jake: I have, you’re dismissing them

Talia: What do you mean China is a construct, help me understand

Jake: She doesn’t want me to really know her, she created a version of herself I’d fall in love with, and it worked

Talia: Like she made herself seem like the best version of herself?

Talia: Don’t we all do that, at the start of things

Jake: No, like she turned herself into a different person

Jake: which is why when we talk she never says anything, just agrees with what I do, because I think the facade is that thin, and still, I couldn’t see through it before

Jake: I didn’t want to, I wanted the reason to be us having such a strong connection

Talia: You’re sure, that this is the truth?

Talia: I mean, why would she do that?

Jake: I guess she figured I wouldn’t find her attractive otherwise

Talia: I resent the notion that women will change their whole personality for a man

Jake: Well, I take bigger issue with being constantly lied to for [however long they’ve dated] and tricked in the first place

Talia: That’s a really heavy allegation

Talia: I’m not saying I don’t believe that you feel like that’s what happened, but I doubt that’s what she set out to do

Jake: I didn’t set out to cheat on her, nothing changes the fact I did

Talia: But what were her intentions? Yours are certainly more cut and dry, I feel

Jake: I don’t know how to put it without sounding egotistical, to date me

Talia: And maybe she wanted to improve herself, that’s not strictly a bad thing, she must’ve admired you

Jake: Maybe

Talia: You don’t want to be hasty and end up sounding egotistical, or worse

Jake: I wasn’t planning to call her out, our relationship isn’t working for a lot of reasons, those are the things I already focused on expressing to her earlier

Talia: Okay

Talia: it’s just the timing makes this look like a reaction to your news, that’s all I was pointing out, from my POV

Jake: I wouldn’t have messaged Sylvie without it, that part is totally true

Talia: She’s got [whatever we officially went for, Ulcerative Collitis or Crohn’s Disease, slightly different but same vibe, we’re being medical about it anyway], I heard about that

Jake: Yeah, Sam made sure the whole school heard

Talia: She has a mean streak

Jake: I didn’t realise who she was either, until it was too late

Talia: You try to see the good in everyone, which is the right thing to do, as a rule

Jake: China said I’m the glue holding everyone together, that’s so much pressure, you know

Talia: She would’ve meant it as a compliment, not a decree

Jake: I can’t be that person

Talia: You can though, you have been, for her to think that

Jake: I can’t now

Talia: That’s okay, you’ll have to make changes, I’ve been telling you that

Jake: You didn’t tell [his shady friend who snitched] about the seizures, did you?

Talia: I know you don’t want people to know yet, although quite what you think your friends are going to say that is so egregious 

Talia: I said we’ve been having familial issues

Jake: We don’t have 2 parents to be going through a fake divorce

Talia: He didn’t pry, everyone’s families have issues, not just divorce

Jake: Okay, but what are ours supposed to mean?

Talia: He’s not going to ask, and frankly, your behaviour makes it clear you’re going through something

Jake: You, he might ask me

Talia: He’s your best friend, you should talk to him

Jake: He used to be

Jake: lately he sucks

Talia: Or your news sucks, just perhaps?

Jake: The stuff he said has nothing directly to do with my broken brain, I didn’t misunderstand him

Talia: I don’t mean that you misunderstood him, I mean that you’re rightfully in a bad mood

Jake: I’m rightfully angry he went behind my back to snitch to my sister when he wouldn’t shut up at the party about covering for me with my girlfriend, yeah, because that doesn’t make any sense

Talia: That is incongruous…

Talia: Maybe he realised how gross his first offer was?

Jake: Between [now o clock] and [whatever o clock he was sending still gross messages at school that Jake was ignoring]?

Talia: Hmm

Talia: and what did you say, did you take him up on it?

Jake: [show her the messages he sent and that you have ignored him all day because 2 can be a snitch sir and you won’t like the girl you weirdly fancy seeing how grim you are]

Talia: Oh, well, that’s totally gross for sure

Talia: but he’s reaching out to you and you’re ignoring him, maybe he’s trying to appeal to you 

Jake: Stop making everything my fault

Jake: this is why I don’t want to talk to you

Talia: I’m not, I’m trying to balance your perspective

Jake: How am I meant to reply to [something especially gross this boy said]?

Jake: You’re suggesting I engage with him, how would you?

Talia: I would tell him that that’s not acceptable to think or say

Talia: and see if he wanted to engage on a real level

Jake: I told him last night, face to face 

Talia: Good

Talia: I think you would feel better if you told him about what you’re going through

Jake: No, Talia, I wouldn’t, he’s shown he can’t be trusted

Jake: at that point, I might as well tell Sam or her mother and get the complete broadcast over with

Talia: They’re your friends, you should be able to trust them

Jake: When you get an embarrassing condition which makes you publicly incontinent, you can announce it however you like, to whoever

Talia: You could die

Jake: I could die in front of them even if I reveal every symptom and side effect

Jake: I could die in front of you, our mother, Sylvie

Jake: I could die alone this minute

Talia: Exactly, that’s nothing to be ashamed of

Jake: Neither is living and that’s all I’m doing

Talia: It’s terrifying, you should have as many people around you as possible

Jake: You’d put me in a helmet day and night

Jake: she isn’t scared of me, this, whatever happens

Talia: I’m scared for you, [mum] is scared for you, because we love you and don’t want anything to happen to you

Jake: C’est la vie

Jake: you can’t protect me, my diagnosis isn’t going away

Talia: No, but we can help you make choices that improve your quality of life as well as your outlook

Jake: I’d have no quality of life letting you two micromanage everything

Talia: That isn’t what either of us wants to do, as if she would even have the time

Jake: She’d force you to and then you’ve got no life either

Talia: I don’t need forcing to care about you

Talia: and that’s what it is, care

Talia: You’re painting her out to be some sort of crazy woman

Jake: The burden of care comes when you’re treating me like an invalid and yourself like an unpaid and unqualified nurse

Jake: she went crazy looking after [their dad’s name like she first named their mum earlier], she’s the first to admit how badly it sucked

Talia: Anyone would, seeing their loved one like that, it changes you

Jake: You remember, you saw more than me

Talia: Yes

Jake: I don’t want you to see me like that, go through it again

Talia: He was sick and not getting better, you can still live a perfectly healthy and long life

Jake: I don’t have the same thing, doesn’t guarantee I’ll live a long or healthy life

Jake: I’m sick and not going to get better

Talia: But there’s so much you can do for yourself, a positive mindset, for a start

Jake: I’m trying, she makes me feel optimistic for the future

Talia: She does?

Jake: Yeah

Talia: That’s good

Jake: Give her a chance and you’ll genuinely like her, she’s good for me

Talia: I don’t know her to dislike her, I never claimed to, I called out your behaviour with her

Jake: Do you agree to meet her [whatever day their next family dinner is]?

Talia: I’m not going to stage a protest

Talia: but you need to talk to China, properly

Jake: Okay

Talia: It’s not fair for you to be seeing other people, you’ve not discussed that

Jake: Tomorrow I’m staying home but I promise I’ll talk to China soon, ASAP

Talia: Why are you staying home?

Talia: You’ve been fine to be out all evening

Jake: Because I’m tired from being out

Talia: Please, that is so not a good enough reason

Jake: It’s a trigger, [their mum’s name] said I can

Talia: Seriously?

Jake: And hearing everyone call her [these horrible names] would trigger me even worse

Talia: You’re taking liberties

Jake: I’m going to do all my homework, get notes from my friends in each of my missed classes and apply for a job

Talia: What job? You’re not old enough for a job, are you?

Jake: [this job he wants, whatever it may be], [someone she knows aka someone her age] worked there for [however long], starting when they were my age

Talia: Do you think you can handle that, on top of your school work?

Jake: It’s only [however many hours/shifts because they aren’t allowed to work you very long yet unless they’re being illegal about it like where China works lol]

Talia: I know but work can bring a lot of stressors

Jake: You don’t think I can handle it, do you?

Talia: No, I don’t know if it’s necessary

Jake: The positive mindset stuff wasn’t real then, cool

Talia: Why do you want a job? They aren’t fun, you know

Jake: Maybe yours isn’t, I’d have fun working in [this job]

Talia: Okay, you would have to tell them about your condition though

Jake: I haven’t even got the job yet, and you’re already trying to put conditions on it as if my medical one won’t do that enough

Talia: I’m being realistic, they would need to know

Jake: I know that

Talia: And you still want to do it?

Jake: Healthy and long aren’t guaranteed but normal could be, a piece of normality, at least

Talia: Okay then

Jake: And free [whatevers]

Jake: promise you won’t say a word to our mother yet

Talia: You need time to work on your sales pitch

Jake: Stress isn’t just a terrible thing for me

Talia: She thrives on it

Jake: I hate adding to it

Talia: Yeah, I know

Talia: You can’t help having epilepsy

Jake: Sylvie offered to go on a first aid course

Talia: For you?

Jake: For me

Jake: I told you you’d like her

Talia: That’s a very thoughtful thing for her to offer

Talia: she must like you

Jake: She’s a very thoughtful person

Talia: I look forward to getting to know her, outside of the context of things I have heard

Jake: She’s excited to cook something for you and [her bf] one of the times she comes over for dinner too

Talia: Does she know about our dietary requirements?

Jake: Of course, her own are even more restrictive

Jake: I think I’m going to serve [something this gal can eat on the day he said about her coming over because like I said in the previous convo he’s researched] but swap out the [ingredient or ingredients] for [something], that’d be edible, right?

Talia: It would be, [but make some suggestions because you are that girl clearly lol]

Jake: Thanks

Talia: You must like her, too

Jake: I didn’t know it was possible to feel this deeply about someone I haven’t known very long

Talia: You’ve got something to bond over, assuming you’ve told her

Jake: Everything

Jake: we’re bonded over everything we want and feel, and I’ve told her everything

Talia: It’s good you’re talking to someone, that you have that outlet

Jake: She pushed me to confront what I wasn’t

Talia: You’ve certainly changed these past [however long it has been since his diagnosis]

Jake: She only deserves credit for as far back as [when Sam outed her which is like a week lol I can’t remember but we said in the brackets that started with me talking about my ideas when I was pooping lol and it wasn’t long cos that’s the point]

Talia: Noted

Jake: How long did it take to realise you and [her bf] belonged together?

Talia: Gosh, that’s quite the question

Talia: I’m not sure, we’ve always been compatible, which either continues to be reaffirmed as time goes on or you find out you’re less so than previously thought, I suppose

Jake: I feel like she reaffirms how compatible we are every passing second

Jake: whereas, I guess with China I was fighting for recognition from her, so I could prove to everyone we were

Talia: It only matters how you and the other person feel, not public opinion

Jake: Public opinion used to matter way more pre-diagnosis

Talia: You’ve always been well-liked

Jake: I always considered it an asset but it can equally be a flaw, if you care too much what people think and about embodying that

Talia: Very true, you won’t be to yourself and your values if you’re trying to please a crowd

Jake: Performing to crowds is another trigger, they’ll have to please themselves 

Talia: Shows are an unpredictable environment already

Jake: They’re off the table until I’m busking in Paris

Talia: I think that’s sensible for now

Jake: I still can be, whatever you’ve heard from [this friend]

Talia: I’ve made it quite clear he wasn’t bad-mouthing you at all

Talia: But I understand you’re mad at him right now, for what he said

Jake: I don’t understand why he reached out to you

Talia: You barely spoke to anyone else, sat alone

Jake: I spoke to him at the party, he knows why

Talia: This whole thing with Sylvie seems really out of character to your friends

Jake: If they’re imagining it’s a cry for help now, wait ‘til they find out my news Talia: You were very vocal about China being the love of your life, you can’t blame them for the confusion or concern

Jake: I believed she was, things change, people change

Talia: It’s a very quick turnaround

Jake: It was for me too

Talia: So give them a bit of grace, they don’t have all the information you do

Jake: He’s had all day to apologise, he chose not to

Talia: And you’ve been keeping your secret for [however long it is]

Jake: Because it’s life-altering, who I date isn’t to [this friend]

Talia: Okay, okay

Jake: And it isn’t out of character for me to prioritise my friends who are going through a hard time

Talia: I don’t think that’s how what you were doing came across, like, at all

Jake: [French] Things get lost in translation

Talia: You know I didn’t take French

Jake: I don’t care how they interpret my actions

Talia: I can tell

Jake: None of their opinions are important when I’m on borrowed time and they’re not

Talia: Don’t say that, you aren’t on borrowed time

Jake: You don’t know that

Talia: Neither do you

Jake: I’m a realist

Jake: I listen at every appointment and I’ve done my research

Talia: You don’t know that you’re going to be the worst case scenario

Jake: I get that best case doesn’t give me my old life back

Jake: that the side effects of my meds fucking suck and they aren’t even a cure

Talia: Some people never have them again, after a spell of them, or have them so rarely it’s not something they have to think about day to day

Jake: And some people have to resort to brain surgery

Talia: Why am I the bad guy for having a positive attitude?

Jake: You’re not

Jake: but neither am I for taking control of the aspects of my life and happiness I still can, while I still can

Talia: I don’t think the way you talk about this, your attitude, is healthy

Talia: you sound depressed

Jake: I could say the same thing about yours

Jake: How is it healthy to pretend all I need is a positive outlook?

Talia: I’m not saying that but you’re really underestimating the impact it can have

Jake: I can’t just smile through this, I hate that it’s happening

Talia: I know you do right now but you will learn how to live life with this

Jake: No, either the seizures will be limited or they’ll take over my life limiting everything I do

Talia: There’s nothing I can say, you don’t want to hear anything except what you want to feel and believe right now

Jake: You don’t have to keep saying this stuff, next time I have a fit, I’ll say your favourite morning affirmations and report back where it gets me

Talia: Wow

Jake: I’m sorry but you need to let me deal with this my own way

Talia: I don’t need you to speak to me like that, you’re being aggressive and hurtful

Jake: I think we should stop speaking

Talia: This conversation isn’t productive, no

Talia: get some sleep, you should really go to school tomorrow

Jake: I’ll go Monday, school isn’t going anywhere

Talia: You aren’t listening to reason right now, so fine, whatever you say, Jacob

Jake: You haven’t given me a single valid reason for anything you’re asking me to do

Talia: Right now, I give up, you’re not willing to hear me, until you are

Jake: You’re too willing to be the injured party when I haven’t done anything to you

Talia: That’s a great apology

Jake: I’m not sorry I lashed out in response to how frustrating you’re being

Talia: I refuse to engage with this further right now, we can talk later when you’re feeling more sensible

Jake: Fine, whatever

[deathdoesntkillyou]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Sylke pt.4

Sylvie: [her own mind is in overdrive too, all the things you literally can’t say right now because you’re in a cinema so you’ve got time to THINK about if that was good, if you did it right, because you’ve never touched a boy before and you’re only human so there’s going to be that shred of doubt, however well it seemed to go, will be kind and let you get up to take a minute in the toilets to collect yourself and get it together]

Jake: [the temptation to immediately follow her is so real because we all remember your discussion of disabled toilet antics and him wanting to cum in her fringe haha but he’s too dead to consider that rn (but don’t worry divas you’ve got time before this film ends to visit it together to do lipstick removal before your friends see you and no doubt get up to some antics, there’s no rush) and knows she is too so therefore why she’s realistically going, give her a minute to get calm and collected, you take a minute to spy on your friends and see what they’re up to, the boy who has been unsuccessfully trying to spy on y’all especially]

Sylvie: [do the lord’s work boy, I know that that boy in particular has seen too much, even if we’re being kind and saying he didn’t see anything graphic, he’s not that dumb lmao, he knows what’s occurring, which is undoubtedly also on her mind even if we have no regrets]

Jake: [mhmm and I’m sure he’s not the only one of the friend group, his and hers respectively who knows what’s up now even if they can’t technically prove it, y’all weren’t being subtle remotely and he likewise has no regrets but I’m sure some of his mates will have something to say when they next get a chance to corner him alone, especially because he doesn’t have her sick kid excuse yet so it’s like um wtf, a good reason for y’all to bin off school tomorrow not that you need one because you already mentioned doing that before any of this]

Sylvie: [mhmm, and it is one thing to want a new identity as a hoe over being the sick girl but the reality of that is an adjustment for sure because precisely no one was accusing you of being a slag before this, it was not your vibe, hence you’re allowed a little bathroom come to Jesus, as a treat]

Sylvie: Swear I’m not hiding

Jake: Not from me, just everyone else

Jake: but you haven’t gone missing, technically, so I can’t blackmail you with a health scare this time

Sylvie: We did our best

Sylvie: being completely undetected might’ve been ambitious though

Jake: Flying totally under the radar would’ve been less fun, look at it that way

Sylvie: I am

Sylvie: What are you looking at?

Jake: Nothing that beats the view you’ve got

Sylvie: [send him a screenshot of your background of him like exactly]

Jake: [French] I meant in the mirror

Sylvie: [take a mirror selfie because the mess will have only got more shocking and you were shook when you walked in here lol]

Jake: [give her your best quiet but !! french swearing as voice note purely because you haven’t learned your lesson at all and it’s more genuine that way]

Jake: I miss you

Sylvie: Jake

Jake: I know

Sylvie: Yeah?

Jake: Yeah

Jake: everything you’re thinking about

Sylvie: Should I be concerned

Sylvie: or do you promise not to use your powers for evil?

Jake: [French] I promise

Sylvie: You’ll show me, won’t you

Sylvie: if you need to

Jake: Anything

Jake: I’m never hiding again, especially not from you

Sylvie: [French] I miss you too

Jake: Do you want me to come to you or are you coming back?

Sylvie: If you come here, we’re not going to leave until everyone else has the cinema

Sylvie: which is tempting but

Sylvie: I’ll be good

Jake: [French] An angel like your t-shirt says

Sylvie: Knew you’d appreciate that

Jake: I appreciate all the details

Sylvie: It’s how much I think about you

Jake: It’s reciprocated, you know

Sylvie: I know you’re wearing a cardigan

Jake: I went home and got it just for you

Sylvie: Honestly?

Jake: Cross my heart

Sylvie: I’m meant to be leaving this bathroom, not having another five to think about how good you look

Jake: You’ve already done what you were meant to

Sylvie: What’s that?

Jake: I’d have to give you a recap from when you showed up til now

Sylvie: You’re right, I’d much rather make you do that in front of me, when we’re alone

Jake: Deal, I need every second to stay as vivid as you are

Jake: in front of all our friends, alone, even in the dark

Sylvie: I wanted to talk about it

Sylvie: that’s another reason to be in here, it felt wrong to just not acknowledge what just happened 

Jake: [French] Keep talking to me, that always feels right

Sylvie: [French] You inside me felt right, I still feel you

Jake: I should’ve touched you at school today

Jake: if I’d realised it’d be like that

Sylvie: Perhaps it’s best you didn’t 

Sylvie: we probably wouldn’t have been here now when your girlfriend overheard 

Jake: She isn’t going to be happy I unfollowed her 

Jake: but I meant what I said, no regrets

Sylvie: I didn’t know it was possible to have less

Sylvie: but now, it isn’t just a lack of regret, it’s knowing how right this is

Jake: Anything else would feel too wrong

Sylvie: Anyone

Jake: [Repeat it back in french because you hard agree, soz not soz China, type it though you’ve talked quite enough during the film lol]

Sylvie: I need to make you mine, only mine

Jake: You already have

Jake: I still feel your teeth biting into my pulse

Sylvie: I’ve never wanted to kiss anyone as badly

Jake: [French] Then kiss me

Sylvie: [obviously come back so it’s very much giving DO YOU DARE ME TO? once again having everyone watch you as you come back in, feeling the drama]

Jake: [giving her a LOOK every step of the way because he very much does dare her to, they’ve done far worse at this point and the friends who are gonna get an inkling what’s up already have it if any of them aren’t engrossed in this film so]

Sylvie: [almost tripping over someone, which is fine because everyone does that in the cinema, but it’s absolutely not because you just didn’t see someone’s foot or bag and is entirely because of the way he just LOOKED at you, no notes, me like leave it a beat before you kiss him when you sit down perhaps but the point is you can’t and my boo is correct in saying the bitches who know know now, there’s not much point employing any subtlety, hence this is as you’re bending down to sit in your seat, because leaning over the armrest is uncomfortable and you need to really KISS him without anything standing in your way, saying ‘I missed you’ in French against his lips]

Jake: [Maggie found fuming when she hears the goss from a random friend haha but they have no chill and even if they found some now it’s too late, hence really going for it kissing her back, effortlessly better than whatever screen kiss happened without even trying, the way I nearly wrote ILY is no joke, but instead say ‘I want you’ in French because marginally better but still gets the !! meaning across cos he could’ve said this meaning only the kiss but he didn’t]

Sylvie: [lmao, we will take that rage over the painful convo this boy is gonna have to have with China, yikes but Edward Bear will be living for it, like he is the filmstar moment, letting yourself be pulled into him so you’re sharing a seat for this kiss, though it is briefer than you want, you had to do it, to try and explain through how intense and passionately you’re going about this some of your feelings about him and what just happened ‘have me, keep me’ still in French as you, finally, put your arse in your own seat, still with your hand cupping his jaw very uncasually]

Jake: [god that’s gonna be uncomfortable as hell, unlike how far too comfortable this boy is rn having this girl on his lap, couldn’t be happier and he also couldn’t be pressing into last night’s bruises harder while they kiss, however briefly, as if they’ve faded while she had her moment alone in the toilets ‘stay with me’ also still in french, which could be about her finally sitting in her seat but we all know it’s more than that, when she’s cupping his jaw, as uncasually pressing into her neck lovebite too ofc with one hand while the other touches every indent her chain has left on her neck cos can’t leave those out]

Sylvie: [LOOKING at him longingly like he’s now thousands of miles away and not just in the next seat, leaning as much as is humanly possible towards him, undoubtedly making yourself uncomfortable in the process but that’s the point we’re making with the gesture, shuddering at his touch as much as his words, gone from resting your head on his shoulder (far more casual) to being properly in the crook of his neck with it like you are hiding from the world because you are, but also, you need to kiss him more and that includes kissing along his jawline because obsessed, doing little bites, not hard enough to mark but simply because]

Jake: [likewise reaching for her hands so dramatically as if she’s so far away and he’s gonna drag her closer like she dragged him over the line they drew in the garden, playing with each of her fingers not at all casually, remembering how they touched him not long ago and twisting her rings to remind her how his touched her not long ago, whispering her nickname just for her ears only as she bites him to express at least some of his big emotions with the tone of it and how he’s clearly urging her to keep going even though they shouldn’t]

Sylvie: [a face to say I have not even begun to forget a single second of that, boy, shaking your head as you whisper ‘I won’t ever get over it’ like it’s just the truth and also a promise all in one there, SQUEEZING his hands about it because can’t cope]

Jake: [a face like you better not even 42 years from now because he won’t and he sincerely means that ‘you aren’t meant to’ because we’ll take that iconic line and adapt it for this moment, reaching and SQUEEZING her thigh even harder than she has his hands]

Sylvie: [the heart eyes because such a possessive and couply move and you shamelessly love it when he is, forcing yourself to look away and at the screen for basically the first time (definitely since you got back) but you’re still smiling about it]

Jake: [mhmm such a possessive boy and they’re such a couple rn, a power couple winnie says, hitting her full force with his insanely loved up stare when she’s returned her gaze to the screen, as if that makes it any less obvious or casual, the hand that was on her thigh reaching up to play with her belt and belt loops, not undoing it again but toying with it anyway, his other hand tucking her hair behind her ear like she can’t see to watch this film if he doesn’t, letting out a little contented sound about her being back]

Sylvie: [you can feel his eyes on you and it makes your smile into a GRIN, also obsessed with the fact he can’t leave you alone because hard same, turning at him like you are shocked and appalled at his belt antics, and what they imply, pulling back like excuse me but of course you are teasing and would as happily start up again]

Jake: [smiling back at her, not turning it into a grin as if he’s shy suddenly despite so much evidence to the contrary lol, taking her hand again and pulling on it to ask if she wants to go even though she literally just got back, the where unspecified because it truly doesn’t matter to this boy in this moment]

Sylvie: [no hesitation in running with this offer and running away because there’s no point y’all being in here right now, again, so hilariously fucking blatant of you both though]

Jake: [speaking of hilariously blatant, kissing her the literal second that they’re through the screen doors, barely making it tbh before he just HAS TO launch himself at her and kiss her like it’s their first ever, he has too many feelings he can only express via an intense makeout yet again, idk if you reapplied your lipstick in the bathroom but soz (not soz) if you did hun]

Sylvie: [I assume you cleaned yourself up, not to be crass but sure in that way too lol, so that would’ve involved reapplying and couldn’t be more thrilled to be making yet another mess of your and his faces, wrapping yourself around him so dramatically to make up for your inability to in the cinema screen, running her hands through his hair like she’s checking it’s really him]

Jake: [not this boy basically immediately fucking her up again when she’s only just cleaned up and he hasn’t even yet from the previous, god bless and as per he has no regrets at all at his face being more smudged lipstick than skin at this point, hence when he eventually stops kissing her for long enough (which would feel like hours later instead of the minutes it really is) getting his phone out and taking artsy pics of both their faces because it’s giving album cover, shamelessly then also taking pics of them kissing as well for the same reason and a million others, including that his next stop is gonna be the bathroom to clean up and it needs to be documented first because he doesn’t trust his memory thanks to his broken brain and the meds side effects]

Sylvie: [the way he’s going to catch you looking at him is gonna kill him when he looks at all these photos later because could not be more into him in every way than you are right now, shamelessly doing the most for these kissing pictures because you’re THINKING about him having them and you like the idea so much, which is evident in you turning this into a full makeout sesh]

Jake: [mhmm he will be deceased when he looks through all of these, which will probably be on his way home lbr, I’m gonna be evil and say there’s no time now to pour over them like you want to because someone comes out of the cinema doors for a piss or whatever and interrupts y’all being no distance away from them, not as evil as I could be though cos I’m saying it’s a randomer and not one of y’all’s friends, you’re welcome, regardless, take the interruption as your cue to find and pull her into the disabled toilets with you because she defs would have a key if they haven’t just been left open anyways, lock yourselves in and IMMEDIATELY kiss her again against the door like that momentarily interruption also killed you]

Sylvie: [y’all shook and affronted like no one else has a right to be in this cinema lol, you love to see it, as do you love your right to be in this disabled toilet without anyone saying a thing to you, saying his name like you’re saying hello for finally being alone and able to do whatever y’all want, pulling on his lip with your teeth so you can have enough distance to LOOK at him like you haven’t seen him in a lifetime]

Jake: [mhmm fuming as if they privately rented it, I’d say y’all wish but you don’t you loved those cinema screen antics having an audience as much as you like being alone now, in a hot move that’s giving the same energy as the pick n mix selecting because controlling her again, spin her to face the terrible mirrors they always have in toilets to go with their horrific lighting lol, and stand behind her while you KISS her neck, making that lovebite worse, LOOKING at her in the mirror while you do to see her reaction]

Sylvie: [exactement, don’t act like you didn’t, certainly no acting required here and now as you watch him in the mirror, tilting your head to the side slightly so your neck is even more exposed to him, making a little whimpering sound about it and wrapping an arm over his shoulder to pull yourself flush against him as tight as you can]

Jake: [letting her feel exactly what that whimpering sound did to him as he uses his body to push hers into the mirror but that isn’t enough because he wants there to be a trace of lipstick left behind as evidence they were there being feral so holding the back of her neck and pushing her face into the glass too, again letting her feel that he’s even more turned on by it]

Sylvie: [turning into a full on MOAN when he pushes you into the mirror, so turned on your breathing is fogging it up until you can’t even see yourself, doing a hot lol and a whole lot of French swearing]

Jake: [pulling her back because it’s a hot move and exposes her neck and throat so dramatically which he always loves and taking an artsy picture of the fogged up mirror covered in lipstick because another album cover mood while he licks each indent from her necklace when he choked her earlier deliberately and in turn, kissing and gently biting where her adam’s apple would be if she had one because the move she did with his before killed him and he’s REMEMBERED getting her a collar and is !! about it, hence he can’t help also dry humping her from this position because a new one]

Sylvie: [being unable to stop yourself from rocking your hips back against him as you watch this unfold, your breath getting caught in your throat whilst his mouth is against your skin because you are THINKING about it again too, finding his hands and making him put them around your neck like a collar as if you’re trying to picture what it will look like]

Jake: [doing a MOAN of his own when she moves his hands into collar position, quietly like he’s forgotten he doesn’t have to be, but very !! doing an experimental choke with said hands because he’s never done it before and he’s not trying to go too hard immediately and feels like he could because of how feral they both feel here and now and lowkey whenever they’re in each other’s company, dryhumping her harder though as if to make up for the choking being a little bit tentative] 

Sylvie: [catching his eye by turning your head enough to be able to do so without turning around, which also shamelessly tightens the hold he has on your neck, because you know he liked that and you wanna see it for yourself, turning to look at your own self in the mirror again and making an OH !! kinda noise because the pink of your flushed skin against the artificial pinky red mess of the lipstick is as much of a lewk as his hands around you like that as far as you’re concerned, nodding like yes, this is correct and what absolutely needs to be happening, thank you, in a throwback but mix it up move, so casually undoing your belt and letting that fully clang to the floor, without any acknowledgement that you just did that]

Jake: [taking a mental picture of her as she looks at herself in the mirror and loves what she sees because that’s what he always wants to be happening, telling her how beautiful she is in breathless and still hushed French, in every way he can think to, including how hot she is in it too because distinctly different sexier connotions than beautiful so it’s necessary, moving his hips with each compliment for emphasis, when she takes off her belt and he hears it fall to the floor, taking off his vegan leather one and using it to tie her via the wrists to one of the handrails in this disabled toilet, not at all casually, again experimentally because he doesn’t even know if it’ll even work but he’s REMEMBERED when he said earlier about using his belt to tie her and therefore he must attempt it]

Sylvie: [shamelessly matching his rhythm here whilst he showers you in compliments, interjecting with a French ‘no, you’ every now and then because you gotta but you’re too !! to say anything that requires more thinking power when your whole brain is focused on what he’s doing and how he looks and sounds and feels whilst doing it, and said brain is going into complete overdrive when he attempts to use his belt to tie your hands up, the vulnerability in being unable to move or do anything to stop him doing whatever he wants is KILLING you, experimentally tugging to see if it’s worked because you really want it to]

Jake: [we’ll say it has because you’re a nerd and when you said it before you probably looked how to do it, more as a turn on than thinking you’d actually get to do it actually here and now but nevertheless, telling her this as she pulls to test her restraints because she’ll be into you being a massive nerd rn if she wasn’t before lol, taking his time doing a casual photoshoot while she can’t move, taking so many artsy pics of her because she’s such a muse atm, then when he’s satisfied that urge, finding her red lipstick and taking his time reapplying it for her before undoing his jeans because the time is coming when he’ll have to wash it off his face but his THINKING is, he doesn’t have to his 🍆 and he’s so real for that because I’m not letting y’alls first time hookup be in a disabled toilet but you can do this]

Sylvie: [being so visibly turned on by this, which, again, he will see in his pictures when he looks at them later, it’s giving eyes like saucers and nips poking through your tank top ridiculously, the intimacy of him applying your lipstick and you not being able to stop him from drawing it over your whole face if he really wanted to, making a NOISE about it when he starts undoing his jeans because you know what that means and you’re so down, rearranging yourself so you are comfortably on your knees WAITING]

Jake: [mhmm those pics are gonna be iconic and we all know it, shoutout to those nips, he will shamelessly be touching them through said tank top while he ‘helps’ her get onto her knees comfortably because do genuinely want her to be and her hands are tied but also couldn’t resist the grope while he was at it, I love the juxtaposition of doing something gentlemanly and pervy at the same time lol, asking her ‘are you ready?’ in French as he gets himself by taking his jeans and underwear all the way down and exposing himself to her, again I love the difference between her seeing his dick out in a dark cinema vs now this lowkey fluorescent lighting, the escalation is so legit]

Sylvie: [as does she, pressing her body into his hands as much as she can whilst still getting down on the floor, nodding her head enthusiastically at his question but doing a GULP when he exposes himself to her like maybe I’m not, asking ‘am I?’ in French, because you would hate to flop this and you need him to say he won’t let you, unthinkingly licking your lips with the excess saliva that has suddenly appearing in your mouth as you LOOK at him]

Jake: [unthinkingly reaching down and touching her throat as she gulps to feel how dramatic it is, putting both his hands back there and giving it a reassuring squeeze as if it’s her hand and he’s like it’ll be okay cos it will be and he’s encouraging her to remember how feral she is and how easily she matches his freak even before he knew what his was, nodding as he applies this pressure ‘I don’t doubt you, remember?’ also in French because they had that whole interaction earlier about how he doesn’t, LOOKING at her as he lets her throat go to let her take a deep breath before she goes at this ‘you can do anything’ still in French, emphasis on anything because he’s telling her he believes in her but also telling her to go wild with this]

Sylvie: [opening your mouth instinctively when he applies this pressure, because you are feral and you’re only worried you can’t back up the things you want to do to him and have been THINKING about this whole time, but you’re not so worried you aren’t gonna give your all to trying, lowkey hypnotised by him right now, just about remembering to say ‘I remember’ in French because you can’t forget him saying that, gesturing with your head for him to come here because you can’t stand looking but not touching at this point]

Jake: [making a NOISE as instinctively because her open mouth is already such a turn on and it’s about to become even more of one, involuntarily moving closer before she’s gestured for him to, so then moving even closer when she does, taking her face in both his hands and guiding her head to him and holding it in place while she adjusts to the feeling of having him in her mouth for the first time, doing breathing exercise type breathing at her again to instruct her how she should while he guides the movement of her head until she gets used to everything, letting it go when she clearly has and just holding her fringe in his fist because he wants to]

Sylvie: [letting your MOAN vibrate around him, becoming a hum you’re keeping up because you can’t get over how much you like having his dick inside you, slapping your tongue against him, experimenting with pushing him right against the roof of your mouth and then into both cheeks, wishing you could still see in the mirror and see what that looks like, shifting to rub your thighs together and to take more of him in your mouth, sucking greedily like you are dying of thirst now and the drink was just a warm-up, LOOKING up at him and panting, your hot breath teasing his skin]

Jake: [forever a lil bit shook to his core in the best way that she’s as into all of this as she is because China is and was never that girl even in y’all’s honeymoon period and I’m sure you always felt like you had to coax her to do stuff that was just the basics and nowhere near as feral as this, hence remembering what she said about wanting to film them and doing so on his phone, however shakily because he’s !! but the important thing is he’s catching all her experimental antics and capturing this first, making a SOUND like he’s dying when she starts sucking that hard, the EYE CONTACT off the charts as he calls her an ‘angel whore’ in French]

Sylvie: [mhmm, that’s definitely how it was, sex is far too intimate and exposing when you’re putting on such an act, she’d not want to do anything that meant she couldn’t stay in control and stay looking pretty, meanwhile, this girl is looking a MESS and likes it like that, having to rub herself against the heel of her foot when he started filming because too turned on to not be doing something about it, hands tied be damned, still focusing on him like it’s a job because his reactions only spur her on harder, wanting to get his cock as far down her throat as she can to be worthy of that nickname, practising his breathing exercises DRAMATICALLY, MOANING again to see if it feels different for him now he’s so much closer to her voicebox] 

Jake: [exactly, I figured as much, it’s a show but in the opposite way to how they are putting on an absolute one whenever they’re together, he couldn’t be more into her vibes, hence messing her hair up with how he’s ruffling it frantically with his free hand in response to her antics, pulling at it not to correct or adjust her but because she’s doing everything so right, zooming in on her deepthroating as if it’s his job and he isn’t dangerously close to dropping his phone on her head lol, thankfully he’s gripping it really tightly like he was gripping the armrest earlier so he won’t, making SUCH an unhinged and LOUD (in comparison to how quiet he was being before) sound as she moans around him because he’s gotta let her know how it feels, calling her a ‘virgin slut’ in french this time, because whore and slut can be different words, so use the one that also means bitch for the double meaning, pop off]

Sylvie: [your hair is going to look so crazy by the time you’re done here and both of you will be thrilled, like she is that he’s getting this absolute feral content on film, when really, you shouldn’t trust someone you barely know yet with that but you feel like you know him and you do so here we are with our no regrets lmao, nodding whilst he’s still in your mouth, because must agree wholeheartedly and also see what that feels like, at least you’ll have to come up for air enough to not fully choke yourself there so breathe, taking the time to kiss his dick all over whilst you still have some lipstick on your lips to make that look OBSCENE, smiling happily at your handiwork, then at him/his phone]

Jake: [especially when he cums in it which we all know he’s going to cos he’s been OBSESSED with the idea since he had it lol, RIP fringe which she’s gonna have to wash in the sink before they leave, for now though, luckily he isn’t gonna fuck her over with revenge porn and a lovely time can continue to be had, and thank god China doesn’t have any of him because he wouldn’t have ever allowed it prior to this, he used to be so anti phones, anyway, do some breathing yourself sir even though it’ll turn to panting as soon as she starts covering him with lipstick because he’s so into it, getting all the close ups, doing his own nodding, encouraging her with his !! eyes, telling her to ‘smile for the camera’ still in French because unspoken rule he’s not gonna use any English for this appaz haha]

Sylvie: [I say I surely hope you know enough French for this sir lol, the way she is BEAMING at him whilst rubbing him all over her face, chasing the way you had to chase that straw ‘cos you’ve got no hands here, making the struggle aesthetic and part of the fun, making such a happy and satisfied noise when you fully get him back in your mouth because missing it is the energy]

Jake: [he might well flop and end up using English but we’ll see haha, calling her a ‘good girl’ when she’s chasing him around cos he liked it so much when she did it with the straw and he likes it even more now, calling her a ‘good dog’ when she gets him back in her mouth, for the escalation, all in French, adding ‘I missed you too’ because he did and it’s their thing]

Sylvie: [I assume you both have enough passion for it to get by and you only wanna learn it even more now, you’re welcome lol, this girl doing the best miming of her life to indicate that he should be patting her on the head right now for being a good girl and dog respectively, ‘cos going to use that to get into a rhythm here]

Jake: [this boy is gonna be swotting up harder than past me so he knows every word he could possibly need lol lol, for now though, do follow her instruction and give her head pats and strokes like the good girl and dog she is, enjoy the rhythm which they defs both are, him so much that he gets bold and says ‘I think I want-’ in French, a pause because he’s THINKING about doing something he has never before and how it will feel but also because he doesn’t know the French word for bite because I didn’t until I just looked it up out of curiosity, so he has to say ‘bite me’ in English, cos again, China has and would never]

Sylvie: [me like you better move to France for a bit for real or y’all are wasting this nerding, not that it matters if all you ever use it for is seducing each other tbh and that is already being thoroughly achieved, not you thinking he wants to cum so only going harder to make him, which will make that pause even longer because distracting lmao, widening your eyes when he says that because not what you expected at all but of course you’re down, not just going for it though because don’t wanna cause serious injury with enthusiasm, instead really lightly pressing your teeth into his skin to see what he thinks to that before you do anything more, running your teeth gently up and down the whole length]

Jake: [I genuinely think they should move to Paris and then explore the south of and other places too even if they realistically have to wait until they finish school instead of pissing off now like they want to, soz lads that we didn’t make y’all older and it’s gonna be years but you can spend the summer hols there until then, but that’s not what is relevant rn, it’s a fair assumption girl because it’s not gonna be long especially now that all the biting stuff has begun which we all know he’s gonna love, telling her as much, back to French for his ‘I love that’ and ‘it feels…’ insert every adjective like incredible, amazing etc that he can think of in French, though thinking at all is getting impossible but he’s making that struggle part of it, the pauses getting longer and the words sounding more indecent]  

Sylvie: [agreed, there’s no reason you can’t, the only reason would be if you’d gone off the idea/each other and that’s not the plan so bebop through the whole of Europe if you want lads, right now she is so wet from this that it’s come through her jeans and he can see it, pressing down harder but only for but a second, giving a little nip energy, doing it every time he adds an adjective, working up until you’re on the most spot and doing it the hardest you have dared to]

Jake: [me laughing evily because if he can see it all of their friends will be able to because bathroom hand dryers are shit and aren’t fixing anything, you’ll have to throw loads of water on your crotch too girl and pretend you spilled that drink all over your lap lol, he isn’t thinking of logistics though, all he’s doing is STARING at it, doing a little groan about it, his French accent slipping a little because he’s so !! as I bring back rain = wet from the OG for him to talk about how wet she is because that was fun and it’s legit you wouldn’t know the real slang they aren’t teaching you that at school lol, this boy OBSESSED with the fact he doesn’t have to tell her to go a bit harder or handhold her through any of this like he had to coach China through it all, being the LOUDEST he has dared to so far with all his SOUNDS and NOISES because he can’t help but be, he’s losing it, in fact, that hardest thusfar bite move got him so close he has no choice but to pull out of her mouth, trying to carefully aim so she can keep her eyes open without getting jizz in her eye but careful has left the building and he’s still trying to film as well, LOOKING at her, repeating his ‘are you ready?’ but saying it in English this time as if he’s forgotten the French because he’s too flustered]

Sylvie: [my boo bullying her like haha you peed yourself lmao, but truly, good luck getting jeans dry honey, it’s not happening before everyone needs to go home, not that you truly give a damn what anyone here thinks or if y’all dip without speaking to any of your friends again, shamelessly the forever mood when you are with him, shifting back onto your booty so you can open your legs and let him look even harder, back to ferociously nodding at him telling you how wet you are, biting him playfully like he’s teasing you about it and you gotta get him back but you’re just so heavily into how he’s into it and must keep doing it until he has to stop you, encouraging him in French, your tone being beyond feral, to give it to you]

Jake: [honestly I’m sure they’re gonna want to go and get a dog collar asap after this and that’s just as well because their friends don’t need to see it, they’ve seen quite enough, and I’d be more surprised if y’all bothered coming back than didn’t when you have her sick kid excuse to hand of her feeling rough and him taking her home, the forever mood is no fucks given, well the mood rn is him cumming in her fringe DRAMATICALLY but you know, giving himself (and her) no recovery time (because that’s also the mood and the thrill of it all) before he’s getting her back up to a standing position and leaning her back against the nearest flat surface to keep her steady, and him if he needs to lean on her at any point too (whether that’s the rail she’s tied to or she can reach a wall or something while still being) because the point really is that he’s gotta take his turn to be on his knees and SUCK that wet patch on her crotch like it’s his job (as if he’s cleaning it for her and making it better instead of worse) and then try out what she can feel when he BITES her through this denim, seeing how hard he can go]

Sylvie: [being more SHOOK by him spinning you ‘round and getting down on his knees than you are about him cumming on you, simply not got time to process it honey, being LOUD as all hell about this development though because it is unholy and literally the slightest touch when you were receiving none is gonna send you, me like hope no one is waiting on this disabled loo because you’re gonna know his name and entirely too much about what she sounds like close to orgasm lol]

Jake: [catch her having even less time to process that he’s untying her hands and giving her the phone to film from her angle and POV while he undresses and then goes down on her because he’s gotta return the favour even though I’m sure he feels like a complete novice at it because there’s no way in hell that China was giving up control like that, but it’s okay sir because she’s that close already and enthusiasm will carry you through this, love that she’s still got a forehead full of jizz throughout this btw]

Sylvie: [you’d be lucky if China ever let you do any kind of foreplay on her, it’s giving main event only in a very specific way, god bless, and truly, I wouldn’t be surprised if this gal came the second your mouth made contact but you can keep going and try for another, she’s not about to stop you, restraints gone be damned, we can inadvertantly get a shot of her cumshot hairdo when we let his phone drop on this first orgasm because dramatics baby, making an absolute movie here on this day, only putting the camera back on him when you shakily lift your own head to LOOK at him like what have you done ‘you’re not stopping’ as if the commentary is needed but you are that !! about it and you can hear it in her tone]

Jake: [exactly, we’re so on the same page about this notp, and he’d beyond excited to do this for what could very well be the first time so hooray for girls being able to have multiples so he doesn’t have to stop and they can carry on being cinematic, at least there’s unlikely to be an abundance of wheelchair users at this indie cinema on this day so I don’t have to feel bad about him really taking his time, having so much fun with it and all the experimentation of it all, including running his mouth telling her ‘I’ve never done this before’ A PAUSE to do the most like can you tell? ‘except on…’ and listing all the fruits he’s practised with as if he’s in a French lesson because all of this is in French and he’s living in a vegan household so there’s lots of fruits he has access to that he could use to master his fingering and oral techniques as his gf won’t let him lol]

Sylvie: [no, y’all would’ve noticed, even in your state, because this is giving a one-screen affair, two at a max, plus we’re still mid film so everyone is otherwise engaged whilst y’all are being this feral, doing such a hot lol at him listing fruit like that but the intrigue of if he’s being serious at all has you THINKING ‘will you show me?’ in French, because you would like to see that, thank you, trying to list your own fruit and vegetable possibilities, which is a smaller list but there’s definitely some phallic offerings lol, the panting being ridiculous, trailing off frequently because you clearly can’t tell he’s never done this before and it is hitting, playing with his hair and pulling on it to lift his face to LOOK at you/the camera for a moment ‘do I taste better?’ still in French and still serious]

Jake: [he’s such a big serious romantic nerd that he would’ve done so much practice and so much research in general when he started getting interested in girls, we all know it, lowkey an expert and it was meant to be for China’s benefit but she didn’t wanna take him up on the offer and thank god cos now here y’all are having first times together, GRINNING at her and incorporating his nodding (because of course he’ll do a demo for her if she wants) into his antics to see how that would feel, using so many different parts of his face for the same reason, just to see what her reaction will be, his whurls no doubt tickling her skin so much, doing his own hot lol too at her fruit and vegetable suggestions again as much for the sensation as his THOUGHTS of her likewise showing him, LOOKING back at her with the hair pull, as serious ‘the best’ also in French]

Sylvie: [your loss, good luck with Bobby the incel, you’ll be full of rage together lmao, these two living laughing loving meanwhile because truly has never felt anything like this in her life and words are failing here so you’re just getting NOISE in response, along with the blatant physical reactions, ‘so lucky’ as one phrase you manage to get coherently out (French obvs) because can’t quite believe that y’all have this much sexual chemistry and you didn’t end up disappointed or disappointing ‘I’ll be your meal’ as if this is a viable alternative to veganism because he has made you vaguely hysterical at this point, pushing his head back down like please don’t stop]

Jake: [sucks to suck, enjoy visiting him in young offenders until you get bored of that and move on, meanwhile these two will continue to live their best lives, he can’t quite believe he’s slaying this hard either because the flop hookup the notp had really knocked his confidence and it deffo would’ve that for their entire relationship even when he thought things were going good that they weren’t ever sexually compatible and he had to just tell himself that wasn’t important and overcompensate by being OTT romantically, like at the party, but anyway, enough about the notp, ‘yes I am’ in French because he feels like the lucky one rn, pinching her thigh again harder because can’t believe his luck or that this is real ‘the last’ also in French as if he’s on death row but we’re just being extra about wanting to be with her until we die/forever again, vaguely hysterical himself clearly because he’s calling her ‘my…’ and then inserting random foods with adjectives, not just using ones like little cabbage that already exist but creating his own, ridiculously but totally seriously, imagine the possibilities because you know he’s not just saying things like juicy or hot or creamy for food but he’s also adding slut and whore and bitch in and all the things, some hilarious combos happening]

Sylvie: [‘don’t get full’ just telling him he has to do this forever and ever amen, nbd, putting your head in your hands because losing it and trying your hardest to hold on, but of course you end up with his cum all over your hands and the way this realisation has your body grinding into his face, juddering as you make an almost YELP kind of noise about this, licking on your fingers hungrily and filling your mouth with them because you are so not fine, ‘your pussy’ which you’ll have to say in English ‘cos as my boo said you probably aren’t up on the slang required to not sound hilariously formal in French but you MEAN IT just as sincerely nevertheless]

Jake: [shaking his head so dramatically not even for how it will feel because he’s so !! at the thought and he could never, hitting her with a ‘non’ so sincerely and seriously, passionate about it the way he used to only get fired up about music or crusades, doing a MOAN of his own at her noise because love to hear it even if he doesn’t then know why she made it, LOOKING up when he hears her making a meal of her fingers and REALISES, WATCHING her do this like he’s fully forgotten what he’s busy with because he’s likewise not fine about it, not even aware he’s mirroring her with how hungrily he licks his lips and swallows ‘all mine’ in English, before he jumps back in to continue this antics and redouble his efforts to try and kill her]

Sylvie: [giving him the most dazed yet loved up heart eyes because you feel so insane about him in this moment and you already felt pretty damn obsessed but this is confirming what you suspected and you just know you are IN love with him, SQUEEZING your eyes shut because you can’t look at him whilst feelings are this high or you feel like you might actually scream it at him, instead repeating ‘all mine’ as ‘all yours’ like it’s the only thing keeping you from floating away, overhearing how wet you are and not being able to believe that that’s coming from you, whining about it full puppydog style]

Jake: [reaching up to hold her hands now that they aren’t tied, unaware that you’ve cinematically SQUEEZED them at the same time as she did her eyes shut because you’re not looking at her you’re too focused on eating her out as if she is your last meal, feeling each wrist where you tied the belt to see if you can feel any indents from it because you can’t believe you did that either, letting her hands go to find the belt, wherever you discarded it after freeing her (by feel alone because you’re not stopping what you’re doing for even a second) only when you hear her whine, reaching for it and shoving it at her for her to bite down on, instructing her to, again in English because you still don’t know the word, combining your earlier bite me and get down by saying ‘bite down’ because 2 words are all you can get out when you’re refusing to pause for breath never mind to speak]

Sylvie: [doing this with ZERO hesitation, because you would literally anything at this point, shoving this belt into your mouth so roughly you lowkey choke until you get acclimatised, trying to say ‘are you going to bite me?’ with this belt between your teeth, so how clear it is is dubious but the mess you’re gonna make is the whole point]

Jake: [this boy losing his mind at the idea of going home wearing a belt that has her teeth marks in because the one on his neck will fade but that’s not going anywhere and he loves how permanent that is, as well as them continuing to be blatant in plain sight obvs, doing a NOISE at her choking sounds though he’s trying not to make any sound over them he simply can’t help it, the same way he can’t help asking ‘Am I going to what?’ whether he understood what she said or not, purely to prolong her having to speak and make a big mess because very much the point, LOOKING up at her though in a way that shows he definitely understood]

Sylvie: [CLAMPING your teeth down even more aggressively to make worse permanent marks and to make speaking even more of a difficulty, even though this time you’re simply saying two words and they are ‘bite me’ because now you want it even though you know full well you are going to be killed off by it, just here covered in spit now, casual]

Jake: [WATCHING her sink her teeth into this faux leather as if she’s sinking her teeth into him again, such is the visceral reaction he’s having, unaware that one hand is going to the lovebite she gave him on his neck and the other where she bit his 🍆 the hardest touching both areas as if to check that really happened with such a dramatic intake of breath, but no further hesitation in following those instructions, starting at her thigh he didn’t pinch as if it’s feeling left out, experimenting with doing everything from soft kisses to harder bites until he’s thoroughly lavished attention on both thighs, pausing to look at her then, asking her with a LOOK if she wants him to do more]

Sylvie: [this will be what sends you over the edge, the combination of WATCHING him right back and these thigh bites, soz you don’t get to go further right now but you’ve got nothing but time girls, you might be able to sneak one in but she’s already come entirely undone and there’s nothing subtle about it so the boy is gonna KNOW what he did]

Jake: [like my boo said there’s nothing but time so you can save that for the next occasion of y’all being feral it’s fine, he wanted to kill her and he definitely has, there’s nothing subtle about the way he’s fully and frantically jerking off to her orgasm either because in no world is he not the most turned on he’s ever been about it yet again, it won’t take much or long so by the time she’s back in the room he’ll be done and almost as dead, this time aim at the sink y’all are supposed to be cleaning yourselves up in because it’ll be a mood when you do, especially because I just know he’ll deliberately get some on the mirror like he wanted to leave the lipstick smudges as evidence they were there]

Sylvie: [I say oh they know you been here diva, these underpaid teens dying for y’all to leave lmao, and tbf to them, you are doing the MOST, it feels exactly right to y’all though, when she does come around enough to see what he’s doing/has done she is gonna LAUNCH herself out him to makeout because forever astounded by your ability to match our freak, it is still a LAUNCH even as dead as you both are because can’t kill extra right now]

Jake: [the poor cinema staff, I’m so soz, I just know this toilet was so clean and unused before y’all came along to be heathens in it, he’s not at all sorry, despite having just finished and being shaky from the lack of recovery time yet again so he has to lowkey cling to her when she launches herself at him, he will be still be giving this makeout his absolute all, telling her he missed her in French as per as if she was passed out in a legit coma for days instead of what actually occurred]

Sylvie: [soz they feel it is their right as newly diagnosed and pissed off about it, take it up with the universe because you will not be getting any kind of apology from either of them, at least it was clean because y’all are spending a lot of time on this bathroom floor with no consideration or care for that either, just holding each other so dramatically but it is genuinely entirely necessary as well as just what you want ‘you were…’ shaking your head because can you even begin to describe it ‘wouldn’t want to sound like another of your followers’ like the singing of your praises would be too real]

Jake: [mhmm they’re unrepentant and they’re got a right to be under the circumstances, arguably not a right to be acting this feral but they’re teens and they don’t care, catch him running his fingers through her GROSS fringe because OBSESSED ‘you started it’ meaning she was incredible with her oral antics first but it also works for following him the most devotedly rn because she was singing his praises with her reactions and he’ll never forget any of that]

Sylvie: [hiding in her fucked hair as if she is embarrassed or even capable of being after that blatant display, nudging his shoulder with her own like no, you]

Jake: [bring her to the sink under the guise that you’re gonna wash it out for her which yes, eventually he will, but more as a byproduct of playing with it and the water, making a real moment ™ of every second of that because couldn’t be touching it more]

Sylvie: [acting like a child who doesn’t wanna take a bath, as if you can walk around town in the state you’re in, obviously relenting because you want him to play with your hair, doing a contented sigh about it as you watch him, clearly thinking ™ about something]

Jake: [being daddy ™ about it purely because they both love when he takes control like that, he knew she’d relent and there’s no need to actually ‘force’ her but they’re having fun with it, asking her ‘what are you thinking about?’ in French because love to know]

Sylvie: [‘the fact you’ve never done that before, what the why might be’ because got to be honest and that’s what, I’ll say you can get through that sentence in French because no hard words, particularly, even if you put it together slightly wrong for being longer than usual, reaching up to fix his hair because you were not being gentle, especially towards the end there]

Jake: [checking yourself in the mirror while she fixes your hair shamelessly more to watch her do it than to see if he looks alright at the end of it lol, but the gesture reminds you to sort yourself out re getting properly and decently dressed because you were being feral with your jacking off at the end there and then y’all were making out, answering while he’s making himself more presentable as if it’s casual and hasn’t been a constant source of stress to you your entire relationship ‘she didn’t want to’ in English because China doesn’t deserve French thank you, but that’s equally honest to how you feel the situation was]

Sylvie: [you likewise need to get your clothes back on and find your belt, do so in this accidentally awkward interim you have inadvertently created, making eye contact, briefly, via the mirror, when he speaks, also reverting to English ‘that must’ve made you feel… shitty?’ making it a question at the end because you don’t want to presume even though you are assuming because that’s how you would feel]

Jake: [meet her eye in the mirror as you answer truly ‘yeah’ because you’ve lied to yourself about it for months but you’re not gonna lie to her especially now that this past relationship is dead in the water and you’re sick so you’ve got bigger worries, can’t help smiling because you feel the opposite of shitty rn to such a laughable degree that it’s hard to even remember how bad you felt before, like it was another life and a different person, your eyes communicating all this, you hope, because she gets it]

Sylvie: [smiling so fondly at him via this mirror because you feel for him so much in this situation ‘but you know now, why she couldn’t allow intimacy, that it wasn’t anything wrong with you’ because got to hammer that home, it really truly was not about him in that sense and everything to do with her act ‘perfect doesn’t sweat or make stupid noises or crazy orgasm faces’ listing these things off on your fingers as you turn around to look at him properly]

Jake: [nodding because he does get it now, his face saying thanks to you, but in a sincere way not a fuck you one, while he takes her hands again, playing with her fingers and rings like before but just affectionately now not trying to give her flashbacks lol, but letting go before she’s using them to list obviously, suddenly remembering the pearls and getting them out of his pocket and tipping them into her hand before closing said hand over them with his own so she doesn’t drop any, a protective and possessive gesture  because she needs these and he almost forgot, looking back at her ‘you do’ counting each off on his own fingers with another smile, letting her know with his heart eyes how perfect he thinks she is ‘but they aren’t stupid, they’re…’ trailing off because he can’t find the word ‘and I love your orgasm face’ adding that in French purely so he can use the beloved phrase for orgasm]

Sylvie: [copying this gesture whilst you’re holding hands, finding and tracing the calluses on his hands from playing guitar, you too had forgotten about the exchange y’all had to do so the gasp may seem dramatic but is entirely genuine lol, undoing your necklace so you can thread these pearls onto the chain, making him put it back on you, of course, WATCHING your own moment of intimacy unfold via the mirror, going, instinctively, to say ILY in response and having to fill the awkward pause where you’ve opened your mouth yet caught yourself before you actually say it with KISSING HIM ASAP, whilst fishing in your pocket to find your cigarette to give him because of course you have it as promised]

Jake: [she doesn’t know it but that calluses gesture is making him wanna work on the song he’s writing for her so hardcore, just shamelessly thinking to himself that he’s gonna stay up all night to work on it, school night be damned lol, life may yet get in the way of that boy but I’m glad you’re feeling inspired, oh the intimacy of putting that necklace on her, I see that and raise you him about to reapply her lipstick for her but then she’s KISSING him so he’s just holding this lipstick in his hand while he kisses her back because he’s feeling a similar rush of love, only breaking apart for long enough to put that cigarette she saved for him behind his ear and then KISSING her again]

Sylvie: [my boo said we’ll see about that but love your enthusiasm lol, almost as much as y’all love each other, and it could not be more blatant how in your feelings you are right now, once again curling yourself around him and making him hold you in this kiss, groaning ‘I wanna do this forever’ against his lips, because you know you have to leave this bathroom now, even if you’re going somewhere else to be alone and together]

Jake: [using the intimacy of reapplying her lipstick for her to temporarily appease her that y’all can’t make out constantly, telling her that you can make out all the way to the pet shop you’ve gotta walk to and around every aisle because he’s already decided in his head that they are leaving these friends in the dust and so it doesn’t matter if he gets covered in lipstick again for the way home because he won’t see them, only random other travellers who he is happy to let look at him in that state, clearly]

Sylvie: [catch her appeased lol, asking him if he’s serious about the pet shop because in fairness, if anything was just going to be talk, you wouldn’t be surprised for it to be that, but the way we’re bouncing beside you excitedly tells you that we hope it is not just chat]

Jake: [catch him doing one final lipstick check in the mirror because lbr how wet she was did a lot of the clean up for him and he’s not trying to scrub that off before he answers by taking her hand and leading her out of this disabled toilet so fast like chop chop we have places to be lol because ofc he’s the most serious about the most outrageous and blatant part of it, this boy is embracing his possessiveness so hard on this day]

Sylvie: [the boy's face was spotless if you don’t count the obvious way it was not lmao, GRINNING so huge and letting yourself be led so happily, trotting after him like oh yeah, I say oh you two, god bless]

Jake: [sorry to the different retail staff they are about to annoy at the pet shop, but for now, enjoy the fresh air because this boy is FLUSHED from all those antics and now that he has a moment to he’s worried that a seizure is gonna happen in the aftermath (even though it isn’t), not enough to be fully panic attack mode like he was in the kitchen with his hummus but it’s on his mind, especially because everything feels so perfect, eat some of the left over pick n mix which I’m sure she put in her bag because no need to abandon it like you did the disappointing drink or the popcorn, feed her some like she’s a dog you’re training to heel, nbd to the passersby who might see this]

Sylvie: [there’s no way you aren’t going to notice this vibe shift, even with it being less dramatic than his kitchen freakout, things have been on such a high that even a little dip is something we can spot, not meaning we have to acknowledge it or make it a Thing ™ but she will be SQUEEZING his hand and slowing down her manic almost-skip to be walking alongside him more calmly lol, squeezing herself under his arm like let’s snuggle boy]

Jake: [mhmm they are simply too in tune for her to not, going to say something but realising there’s no need to verbalise these fears because she knows, and luckily once they have a snuggle about it he will calm down and nothing seizure related will occur so he can just kiss the crown of her head and keep walking with his arm so tightly around her as if they are drunks who need to support each other]

Sylvie: [kissing his cheek, but just so he knows you aren’t treating him any differently, giving his earlobe a little nip on your way like tehe, putting your thumb in his belt loop in this hug for reminder’s sake as well as just wanting to be all over him always ‘should we get real food too?’ as you help yourself to another sweet, because ain’t no way either of y’all eat before leaving the house, you were too busy having phone sex]

Jake: [tucking her hair behind her ear as she nips his, to do a quiet little happy sigh into hers, playing with her necklace for the reminder and because the dog collar is imminent and he also just wants to touch her as much as possible, looking around to see if you’re passing any food places on route because it’s not a bad idea tbh, Winnie says he wants them to eat something french but the only thing I can think of is a crepe stand and that’s not real food lol unless you can do it savoury maybe, be scooping out what there is though huns, his hand in her back pocket of her jeans as they walk, oh and to be cheeky do tell her what fruit you hurriedly snacked on as you were leaving the house cos it’s giving one of the ones you listed like I’ll never look at them the same way now]

Sylvie: [touching the pearls on this necklace and remembering when he did that, because truly that feels like so long ago now for just being some hours earlier, this is all so wild, shaking your head at this admission with a smirk like he is an absolute pervert but you are OBSESSED with this information, clearly ‘trust you to do homework for this too’ like is there anything you aren’t a nerd about? stopping, to pull him into you for a kiss because as much as you suggested getting real food, you don’t feel hungry, you’re too wrapped up in him and are fine with the only sustenance you have being the sweets you are now sharing in the most literal of ways]

Jake: [briefly taking one of these pearls on her necklace into his mouth, remembering how amazing that was and likewise struggling to get his head round that only being a few hours ago, taking it out of his mouth to flash her his own smirk back even though he clearly wasn’t eating this orange or whatever like that lol ‘I may be a teacher’s pet but you’re my pet’ in French, smugly like well if I’m a nerd you’re about to be OWNED by me, so what does that make you, the girls are too high on each other and love, that’s so real, gently biting her lip in this kiss just so he can get red lipstick on his teeth and turn that smirk into a GRIN at her]  

Sylvie: [your breath catching when he smirks at you, dropping that pearl from out his mouth, because yes, you are so unashamedly owned by him and you aren’t about to deny it ‘what are we putting as my return address?’ ‘cos old school ones would have your home address on sometimes and this is giving where in Paris are we going to live, absolutely taking pictures of his red toothed GRIN because almost everything is on his phone right now and this is criminal and must be rectified]

Jake: [I love this because you can fill the time however long of a walk it is to this nearby petshop talking about where y’all wanna live in Paris and taking pics of each other because he’s defs gonna take some more of her too like the pearls on her necklace and her wet curly fringe and her eating pick n mix etc etc, as well as coupley ones like their handholding and more kissing ones, the possibilities for artsy photos are endless]

Sylvie: [absolutely the vibe, not you asking him if you can post one of the two of you, it’s obviously not a really salacious one that wouldn’t last without getting you banned but it is still of y’all and not just her because let’s not pretend we aren’t being that shameless already]

Jake: [it’s adorable and so nice because being feral and having that chemistry is one thing but he also wants and needs this sweet domestic energy he’s a soft and romantic boy too, agreeing that she can post a pic of them if he can too because of course he wants to and ofc that’s so shameless because he hasn’t posted anything yet tonight so that being the only thing he has/does combined with unfollowing everyone but her is such a hard launch of them dating]

Sylvie: [mhmm and despite your initial thoughts, she is not aromantic and she will give you that, me like I just know that so many people are blowing y’all up for this, including his OTT sister, everyone is being ignored and that is iconic lol]

Jake: [his sister being UNBEARABLE lol even though she knows that he’s in the cinema and is supposed to have his phone on silent if not off, imagine being the friends in the cinema they left behind and seeing them posting pics like oh okay they’re not coming back, very funny, but anyways lads you might as well get to this pet shop and make a nuisance of yourselves, speaking of Winnie is saying that Jake should get this gal a small pet (because even though he doesn’t have any she’s his so he doesn’t need one) and I say edward bear you’re a card, that’s so the ridiculous reckless energy of them rn]

Sylvie: [I say why you stalking him so severely ma’am, like I don’t know why but for real girl, you gotta chill, their friends found gagged is so funny and is not why you did it but you’re certainly not mad about being talked about in this way, as discussed, but Winola is so correct for that ‘cos such an impulsive thing to do when you see something cute and it’s 100% the ridiculous vibe, I KNOW y’all are calling this animal something French/something you related like a word from the lyrics of y’alls song or something, just getting a child like careful what you wish for lmao]

Jake: [mhmm it’s giving a child and foreshadowing and we’re so evil but so real for that, winola gay says it should be a rat because Paris and New York coded and I say what a MIND because yes, iconic, I shall let my boo pick a cute colour as and when she ever wants to post pet rat content lol, I’m dying thinking about her having to carry a cage and all the shizz on the train, very impractical, such a teenage decision, you might have to call your parents to come and get you in the car and thankfully they are chill nerdy animal lovers so they won’t make you immediately return this creature]

Sylvie: [oh he’s in the fan breeze doing big thinks, what an icon, me like ooh how fun to look for rat content lol, what a turn this has taken but at least the appearance of this pet will make you less pouty about having to go your separate ways here for the now]

Jake: [he’s on it to make up for my melting brain he says, what an excellent first date these cheaters are having, not to mention they are gonna ADORE the whole dog collar try on cos everyone will be looking at them cos you know damn well the type of peeps in a pet shop at this o clock on a school night are just trying to buy some treats or food they emergency ran out of and not entertain this nonsense, nevertheless it’s being secured including the tag with his name and their Paris address even if he has to literally do his best arguing and evoking of his rights to not be thrown out, she’ll love that he’s being peak insufferable prick for good and not evil]

Sylvie: [simply having a wonderful Christmas time, we know the pet shop is gonna be the casual highlight of your life, the less here for it everyone else in the shop is the better and I know plenty of people in her life are going to be side eyeing your sudden choice to wear a literal collar all the time when you suddenly do that, just being so concerning but you two are so about it and couldn’t be happier with yourselves and the outcome, the endless photos she’ll be taking of this collar immediately]

Jake: [love that he’s buying her this rat pair and collar rn and the perfume they discussed and the necklace I mentioned asap (because online purchases) and it’s not remotely near Christmas or her bday clearly, it would be giving lovebombing if he didn’t blatantly already love her haha, everyone is gonna have so much to say about the collar but I say it could be worse at least she doesn’t have a permanent tattoo of his name, as if that means their behaviour is fine haha, he’s not fine about any of this in the best way and neither is she and that’s all they care about, you know he’s filming every sec of this try on for her as if it’s a cinderella shoe situation, likewise taking so many pics of the one that’s the perfect fit, it’s lowkey giving Sabrina’s album cover that everyone is so salty about, y’all are gonna be on such a post collar high when you look at these animals it makes so much sense that he buys her some, the girls are giddy, none more so in his case than when he WATCHES his name and their future wannabe address get carved into that tag by the machine]

Sylvie: [my boo says okay sugar daddy haha, it very much does look one way and that is that this situation/Jake is super problematic but this girl doesn’t care one little bit, soz to concerned friends and family, literally loving every minute in a way I can so clearly see this pet shop sequence in the most cinematic way, also thinking that you could call up your auntie Alison to pick you up because animals and it’ll be less awkward than your parents right now but also an easy way to lead into a convo with Maggie if we wish]

Jake: [mhmm it would be an amazing montage in a film with a cool soundtrack, I’m so with you, and that’s a really good idea, Tommy is gonna be worried when he finds out about the Jake of it all because of Alison’s shit track record in gen 2 so put off stressing your parents for as long as you can diva and yes from a jemily writing POV it also tracks, I’m just wondering if there’s anything else we want to happen before y’all part ways but I honestly think we might be good]

Sylvie: [agreed, on all fronts, y’all had the best time and were SO unsubtle with it and we know you won’t wanna part ways but simply must for the time being, lots of lingering until it’s absolutely impossible because Jake’s sister WILL come and find y’all lmao, will post this bit and we can go wherever we want]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Sylke pt.3

Sylvie: [finally fucking show up because even having a slight panic, you’ve gotta keep walking and him saying that will have you uncasually running those last few steps to the front of this cinema to finally see him, excuse us friends we’re leaving in the dust and the friends here we’re not hugging first because we’re too pent up and if this is directed at any of y’all it’s gonna be weird lol]

Jake: [we all know he shamelessly would’ve hugged anyone and everyone else before her and tortured her by making her wait until last (so that he could hug her the longest as everyone else is heading inside for tickets and snacks when he’s like excuse y’all I need a sec alone with Sylvie but still) so I love that she took that out of his hands because none of these other girls turning up need to get the idea he’s got a crush on them or develop one on him thank you, take from the OG and do breathing exercise style breathing in her ear while this hug occurs because it was a mood then and it’s an even better mood now]

Sylvie: [like it doesn’t even make sense because you are going to have to hug/say hi to everyone else but there was no way we could wait, soz not soz everyone, again, could not be more obvious but thank god your illness is out there and we can just pretend Jake is being his nice guy self and being there for you lol, we will shamelessly exploit that now we have a reason to, trying to copy his breathing but you’re being so dramatic with it that when you whisper ‘hi’ you have never sounded more !!]

Jake: [mhmm and it’s risky but I love it for y’all, exactly, he’s gotta shamelessly exploit her sick kid status to heavily imply she’s upset and needs to confide in him when he wants to shoo everyone away because even the more stubborn friends of the group, aka Sylvie’s who don’t have to kiss this boy’s arse like his have just always done, can’t refute that she is ill and having a time, but anyway, here and now they’re just having an obvious hug and he is whispering his own hi back but in French, to make it even more so, literally not breaking apart until the joker of the group decides to say or do something to acknowledge how long this hug is, only then will he say hello and hug or put his arm around other peeps who have arrived lol]

Sylvie: [and you do look/are acting like you don’t feel right right now the way you are being so borderline dismissive with your own hi how are yas to everyone else here, keep looking at him instead of listening to what anyone has to say properly, you love to see it, well your friends surely don’t but you still have good graces at this point because your news is fresh and it has been a rubbish time with the Sam of it all]

Jake: [yep she’s really selling it rn and that’ll only help get rid of everyone, catch this boy lighting her a cigarette as he’s dismissing everyone not because it’s also an excuse for them to be out here and it’ll help her calm down but entirely for their own reasons that only they know, barely giving anyone a chance to get out of y’all’s eye line before the behaviour ™ has begun, because no chill ever and he really does not care]

Sylvie: [y’all may as well be in another city by the time he’s dismissing yous because she is STARING at him and only him with all the intensity of two people who ignored each other all day and then have been talking non-stop/driving each other crazy since you got home from school, nbd, taking this cigarette like it’s something far more salacious, it’s giving you’re doing drugs out on the street because of how you’re acting about it, we all know it’s actually a stand-in for your lipstick which was in itself a shameless stand-in for his dick so you’re welcome boy for the show pt.2]

Jake: [mhmm they’re in Paris atm and y’all aren’t invited, soz not soz, but this boy is welcome for his turn to STARE at this performance she’s giving as if y’all have all the time in the world to stand out here and do this because the film has been momentarily forgotten, everything has except this, when she’s fully smoked this cigarette, because it’s giving her literal last inhale and exhale, duh (because that’s giving dying breath) it simply must despite how !! he is to do it before, PULLING her into him so that she can do it into his mouth]

Sylvie: [and this cinema/film is giving minimal/no ads because it’s indie and a little artsy so I know y’all are gonna be missing the start and nothing has ever felt less important in your lives lol, MOANING the second your lips touch upon his to do this iconic blowback/tantric breathing moment, grabbing the collar of whatever lewk he is rocking to have something to hold onto because you feel like you could DIE and this is all you’ve done in person thus far]

Jake: [literally, if y’all actually see any of this film it’ll be a miracle and only because of how badly he wants the first time he touches her indecently to be in a cinema full of people, but rn, no fucks are given, HOLDING both sides of her face in his hands as dramatically because feeling like you could DIE is mutual and also doing the most feels beyond necessary because she made him cum without touching him and he wants to do the same by initiating this makeout and putting all his !! into it]

Sylvie: [me like anyone could and will be driving past, as if that’s a concern of theirs and you aren’t lowkey hoping they do, trying to tell him how good it feels to be kissing him again/kissing him here but you quite literally can’t make the room to be coherent, like he might stop kissing you if you dare to pull your lips away for one second and you CANNOT allow that when you need to be kissing him so badly, getting your hands all up in his hair when your words fail you like you can explain via hair tugs and scratching your nails through his scalp to the back of his neck]

Jake: [China like vroom vroom bitches lol, literally even that wouldn’t stop this boy atm soz not soz gal, NODDING like she’s speaking coherently because you feel that on each other’s wavelength rn that she could be, plus there’s the added bonus of that making her hair pulling worse and he’s into it, MOANING into this kiss about her nails because you’re THINKING about her leaving any kind of mark on you, which leads him to remember and GRAB the bruises he left on her in that kitchen while continuing to kiss her senseless, PUSHING her against the nearest cinema wall with !!]

Sylvie: [and you truly are on the same wavelength right now because without hesitation, as that THOUGHT hits with his MOAN, dragging your nails down his shoulders, because you can, you know he’s not with China like that right now and you’re saying as clearly as you can that you don’t give a fuck if he is, you’re gonna make it known that he’s yours, doing your best French swearing when he grabs you too, taking a beat of a pause to LOOK at him because how else are you gonna communicate that this is exactly what you want]

Jake: [the girls are very much in sync in this moment, hence, an equal lack of hesitation in saying ‘harder’ in French because he likewise doesn’t give a fuck about his gf here and now and wouldn’t even if the flop hookup hadn’t happened that’s making him hardcore avoid her like that, gotta be claimed by this girl in this semi public setting knowing that all your friends are inside, following his own instructions and grabbing onto these bruises even harder when she LOOKS at him, and in the pause BITING her fringe like it’s his job because he’s had his own hair in his mouth so much today but it’s been forever since it was hers, MOANING again about it, her nickname this time]

Sylvie: [going down the whole length of his back with that instruction because don’t need to tell us twice to lose any and all sense of chill about what we’re doing here, it’s a miracle we had that shred left and it’s gone so fast lmao, MOANING even louder about him bruising you further and then the hair antics that SHOCK you every time and you are obsessed with because it’s so unhinged and that’s exactly how you feel, going to kiss his neck in this moment because you cannot be trusted to have your mouth free whilst his is busy, being super extra about it like you’re still making out, kissing up to his ear to ask ‘do you want me to bite you, Jake?’]

Jake: [this boy never had any chill to lose lol as if evidenced by the way he’s essentially dryhumping her against this cinema in response to her moaning again as if it’s not a school night and far too early in the PM to be acting like this, really doing the most to PRESS against each bruise with his body while his hands are all up in her hair too, taking fistfuls of it, his rings snagging and pulling at the same time as he’s got her fringe between his teeth, doing an even bigger nod than the one he did earlier, and adding a ‘oui’ totally unnecessarily to make jemily laugh because it’s so unserious but he’s being deadly just like her on the DART before and because his voice is peak indecent and breathless and !!]

Sylvie: [there’s 100% people coming home from work and milling about going for dinner and whatnot, you are being teenage heathens with no shame and we love to see it, soz not soz world, they need this, which is basically what we’re telling him in how frantically we’re moving against him because felt dead before even seeing you so edging doesn’t cover it, not even a oui oui would stop you from absolutely chomping down on this boy’s neck right now tbh, it is a must, you simply need to feel his pulse against your tongue and taste his hot skin, like you need to prove he’s real and this is happening, groaning a ‘fuck’ in immediate response because it was everything you wanted it to be and you wanna cover him in hickeys ASAP]

Jake: [literally but if the fact you have a gf isn’t stopping you none of these random people will, these are shameless hours and he has no regrets, matching her energy with how dramatically he’s upped his efforts dryhumping her into the wall because he needs to make her cum rn immediately and he’s acting as if that’s his only goal in life and he has all the time and privacy to do it, likewise do your own groan with the french equivalent because y’all are still that in sync and never more so than about how that felt, but instead of letting her cover you in lovebites which you happily would, drag her mouth back to yours and let her continue to cover you with the bright red lipstick you demanded she put on]

Sylvie: [your faces are going to look unhinged because red lipstick truly does get everywhere and you aren’t being chaste out here lol, feeling like you ran out of oxygen so long ago that stealing his is absolutely fine and that’s how we’re kissing him, desperately and on a mission, having to stop moving because you can’t bear it so you’re letting him do the MOST to you with no even accidental resistance, LOOKING at him like you’re going to make me cum as if he doesn’t know and isn’t trying to, making the most !! sounds into his mouth]

Jake: [thank god for the dark cinema because he isn’t gonna wanna clean that up til the last possible second and it affords you the luxury of only having to worry about it and sneak off some time before the credits roll, here in this moment though only Junie is considering such logistics, this boy is not, LOOKING back at her, once again holding her face with such !! and only smearing the lipstick all over it even more as he says his iconic ‘you’re meant to’ for the throwback as if she had spoken aloud that he was going to make her cum, his tone and continued antics both making it clear that she doesn’t have a choice in this]

Sylvie: [mhmm, we know that’ll give y’all a shameless buzz, simply having the best time behaving so terribly on this day, plus we all know red lipstick is very much giving WHORE and that’s another big reason y’all chose it and him smearing it all over your face and saying that is absolutely going to make you cum, you wanna screw your eyes shut instinctively but not as much as you wanna LOOK at him in a look what you made me do manner, fighting that natural urge as you lose control in every other way, GRABBING his hips to PULL him into you as hard and as close as you can but also so you have something to hold onto as you unravel here beneath him on this street, nothing to see here]

Jake: [as well as red lips being very french girl chic in that classic retro way, y’all are hitting all the marks and living for scoring big, no one more that this boy rn because it’s much harder to make a girl cum than it is a teenage boy, especially without touching them, but he’s succeeded, only cheating slightly because how hard he was dryhumping her should count as touch but nevertheless, WATCH her so intently because y’all have only done that over the phone so far and in person it hits very different, do your own best french swearing, but almost in a whisper because you don’t wanna talk over a second of her reactions, only calling her a good girl, in both french and english when he’s sure she’s fully dead]

Sylvie: [mhmm, god bless, you can be proud of yourself boy, it is harder and you put in that work by having decent chat unlike many a boy/man does, and lord knows the fact that you’ve never actually cum in front of each other in real life is HITTING her as it’s happening and you can read that on her face because the shock and awe honey, also realising that you did it first and now you get to make him, pulling his head down, more gently now because you’re dead, and kissing him softly but still insanely and passionately ‘I missed you’ because your thing and he’s here now and you don’t have to miss him]

Jake: [the girls are shook to their core in the best way, not least because yep he knows she’s gonna get her own back but not when or how and those unknowns are delicious in fact, smiling smugly into this kiss because genuinely are feeling proud of yourself but also you know she loves when you are, shamelessly kissing her back like she’s your gf and not just a whore ™ because there’s so much love in it for how shamelessly he’s been falling today, when she says that, likewise pulling her into such a gf coded hug because y’all weren’t holding back much in front of your friends lbr but this boy can always be more extra]

Sylvie: [doing a hot lol at his smug smile because you do love it but you also can’t believe that just happened ‘can’t say I’m surprised I let you do that to me here’ because shock about how intense and fast it happened is one thing but you’ve been talking a big game about letting him do whatever to you wherever and whenever so you knew it was gonna be on sight like that and you aren’t about to pretend otherwise now to seem more coy, wrapping your arms around him tight like you haven’t seen him in years because today was LONG and you hated it ‘how are you, anyway?’ like it’s so casual and you’ve just forgot to ask him ‘til now lol but you actually care and wanna know, tucking one strand of his hair behind his ear and blowing another wurl off of his forehead as you gaze into his eyes]

Jake: [she has been talking a big game and his face is saying that in his agreement of not being shocked or appalled that happened, sounding like edith piaf when he says in french that he regrets nothing so humming that song in her ear like a nerd and swaying y’all a little bit like you’re gonna dance again how you did in the garden but not actually because he’s likewise too busy hugging her to commit to the bit and start fully dancing, they need to be and stay this close for a minute while she tries to recover, he said he’d hold her up if needs be and he is, blowing her fringe harder like it’s a competition but really he’s just obsessed with it, lowkey remembering when he said he wanted to cum in it earlier and blushing a little bit, subtly but she’ll notice from this proximity, answer ca va and then fire it back as a ? how the french do so you’re lowkey mocking them a little for using it to mean both okay and how are you when they’re supposed to be the city of love and not be so lazy when you’re both clearly so highkey, but to be sincere, moving her ear to his chest to listen to his heartbeat because even though they’ve been !! so it’s faster because of that feralness, that’s the only reason and he still feels calm for her being here, like he said, so he really is okay]

Sylvie: [raising your brows like oh excuse me ‘did you doubt me?’ acting like that’s outrageous when you’ve not had a (proper) boyfriend or fully hooked up with anyone so is completely valid lmao, GRINNING big at him having no regrets because that feeling is entirely mutual, only becoming more mutual when he starts humming and mini dancing with you like a giant nerd, giving him heart eyes, though from within said dance/hug he might not be getting them full barrel, absolutely seeing his blush though because you’re THINKING the same thoughts right now and you have likewise not forgotten he said that, shaking your head at him and tutting like yes, you should be blushing, bad boy but that isn’t to say you aren’t INTO it and the lip bite being done without conscious thought gives that away, hitting him with a ‘bof’ because that always cracked me up like okay diva, let me know you couldn’t give less of a fuck, love it lol, closing your eyes when he moves your head to his chest, holding your breath like you need to focus entirely on his heartbeat and breathing and not your own, nodding your head like you’re a doctor satisfied with his vitals, smiling and rubbing his chest where your head just was, knowing you should be like we should go in now but you also don’t want to and could just stay here with him forever]

Jake: [shaking his head because he genuinely didn’t doubt her for a second despite how much has been said vs how little irl experience she has ‘never’ quietly but entirely sincerely into this hug/sway moment, likewise giving her heart eyes back even if she can’t see them, it’s just the mood y’all are in, until she sees his blush anyway and the mood has shifted from soft back to being !! again, doing a NOISE at her lip bite because so much attention has been drawn to them today but somehow that’s what’s hitting hardest because it’s here in front of him and entirely unintentional, she just had to like he just had to make his noise in response ‘blood next’ in French, as always, it’s supposed to have a questioning playful tone as if covering him in lipstick wasn’t enough for her so he’s asking if that’s where it’s heading, especially because she’s just checked his vitals, but the tone he eventually comes out with is giving away he’s INTO it and so it’s sounding less like ? and more like ! and meaning he’s equally in no rush to go inside quite yet even though y’all should]

Sylvie: [‘you shouldn’t’ as seriously as he hit you with that oui, because however extra we’ve been, we’re being that for real and intend to prove it to you in all the fun and creative ways our imagination and yours can think up, hence taking a step (that you don’t need to, giving how close you already are) towards him and jutting your chin and thus lips up to his face like you’ve accepted his offer of bleeding, challenging him to bite your lip instead, all your body language saying go on then]

Jake: [‘I don’t’ because he believes her that wholeheartedly it bears repeating, STARING at her lips for a beat as if he’s never seen them before because mentally taking a before and after knowing he’s about to fuck them up, still, how hard he goes in making him GASP into her mouth because it’s one thing to throw her all around that kitchen drunk and it’s another to have the sexy aggression in him stone cold sober like they are here, not stopping though, spurred on by her blood in his mouth to keep doing the absolute most]

Sylvie: [you’re crossing new lines and experiencing so many firsts being here sober and this in public, you both feel that and are !! from it without the effects from what you’re doing even hitting, though HIT this will, unthinkingly pulling back to make NOISE about how that felt and being unable to throw your head back ‘cos you’re still attached to him via a bite so you’re making it hurt even better which only makes your reaction more dramatic]

Jake: [mhmm and we love that for you, as unthinkingly and protectively pulling her back into him so that she doesn’t accidentally rip her own lip off, which means he’s really getting a mouthful of blood too by keeping her close and not letting any of it spill despite getting covered in it like the lipstick being the goal, love that I put him in a white tee though so I hope some will get on that at some point before the night is over, also letting her know exactly how turned on you are by this and where all your blood has rushed to, saying her name like a plea/demand without even knowing what he’s asking for because no thoughts rn just vibes]

Sylvie: [my boo says I will be making a mess but for now, saving your lip from major injury and being adorable with it, well, adorable and feral because duh, feeling how hard he is with your hands over his clothes because you can’t start touching him properly here but you can have a spoiler, doing a hot grunt that’s giving GROWL lowkey with how INTO it you are, saying his name back as a ? like he needs to spell out what he wants]

Jake: [reacting like she did touch him indecently with the SOUND he makes and the way his body is trying to fuck her hand immediately as if that’s possible through these jeans he’s wearing, in answer to her growl as a much as her question, if not more lbr, pulling her by either her jacket collar or a necklace if she’s wearing one I can’t remember, whichever is giving the most like pulling her by the dog collar she doesn’t have yet cos it hasn’t occurred to this boy that they could say fuck it and go and get one asap, dragging her to and through the doors, slamming her into them to push them open because I doubt they’re automatic in this indie cinema, using his body to push her along, INSANE eye contact the entire time, I’ll be kind to everyone else and say there isn’t another film starting soon or getting out as y’all are doing this, not that you’d care, but get through without knocking anyone else to the ground please because you’re definitely knocking into if not fully knocking over some artsy display as is and his only response will be to KISS her with so much !! as if they’re completely alone and there are no consequences to any of this, only becoming vaguely aware of y’all’s surroundings again when the momentum of this !! makeout pushes her into the stand where the pick n mix are and the smells of said sweets as well as the popcorn and everything else finally reminds him what they’re meant to be doing here, unrepentant in putting whatever sweet he grabs at random, not with a scoop but with his bare hands, bad boy alert, into her mouth, I vote it’s one of the sugary af ones cos that’ll sting her bitten lip, shamelessly telling the bored older than you teen that works here that she’s diabetic when they’re like um can you not cause absolute scenes]

Sylvie: [if you were about to complain and say no, let’s not go in, this is being silenced by this ultimate hot move to end all hot moves he’s pulling here, could have knocked an OAP over for all you know because can’t take your eyes off of him, nor would you because the message is very much you’re in control here Jake, being mad when he stops KISSING you because you haven’t worked out why until he’s feeding you sweets and you’re hit with your own OH, I remember why we’re here moment, nodding dramatically in the direction of this teen but not actually looking at them because you don’t care enough to ‘it’s an emergency’ whilst proving it’s not by grabbing some strawberry laces to swirl into his mouth cinematically]

Jake: [soz to this poor individual trying desperately to get to the end of their shift because the hot moves are only continuing, he will be encouraging her to pick out sweets in the most indecent way possible, standing behind her and again using his body to move her along the selection and staying fully in control, it’s giving ruster behind the bar pretending to make drinks but with a bag of pick n mix instead lol, entirely the vibe but even more extra because y’all aren’t even pretending to hide what you’re up to, occasionally reaching to select his own but they’re 10000% going straight in her mouth 99% of the time and it’s shamelessly so he can pull her head back really far each and every time, no fucks given to the absolute show this is that they’re putting on with it] 

Sylvie: [you did not ask for this diva but I’m afraid they are fully in their no fucks left to give era tonight, you don’t get paid enough to try and stop them, just make sure they give you some cash before they go in to the film lol, because I am sure you don’t want to stand and watch this indecent display, could not be more into it, opening your mouth so dramatically each time on purpose to make this more of a show, asking him if he wants to share a particularly tasty sweet, holding it between your teeth so he can tear some off with his, nbd]

Jake: [you’re welcome that this boy will at least pay you because however much of a bad lad he’s being he’s still on baby steps and he’s not there with stealing sweets lol, I imagine this person just on their phone so bored and so like please go away haha, y’all are lucky they’re not a perv who’s super into it though, do make an absolute meal of sharing this sweet with her, it’s gotta be done, especially when he’s so so clearly fighting the urge to bite her in a million different places rn, dramatically lick the sugar off her lips for good measure first too obvs, whether it’s actually there or not, gotta delay the moment ™ that we all know this is]

Sylvie: [truly lol, OWing out loud when he licks your lips but it doesn’t sound like you’re in any sort of pain except the one that’s the good kind, LOOKING into his eyes and grinning in an almost manic way because you feel high on the what’s next of it all and how y’all are progressing further and further here, taking his hand in yours and tucking yourself under his arm]

Jake: [giving her the biggest heart eyes in return because he feels as manic and even without grinning (because he’s leading her by the hand to the counter to pay for these sweets so he’s being serious and daddy coded) his eyes are showing that he’s entirely matching her energy underneath his acted composure (which it’s entirely too late for as far as this teen is concerned so you know it’s really for Sylvie’s benefit and nobody else’s), I’m gonna say this indie theatre thinks they’re doing something an have an old fashioned soda fountain purely so that whatever drink he orders for them to share has a cherry on top, because we can and it’s a big mood, hand that to her and you hand the money over, you’ve entirely forgotten about what you said about chewing a piece of popcorn for her so we can save that for another movie night unless this girl remembers and interjects, up to my boo there]

Sylvie: [meanwhile, deciding to play your own role and acting up like a bratty child, but doing so by pushing yourself up onto the counter like you need to to be able to see all the options (but we know you are reminding him of when he pushed you onto that girl’s kitchen counter last night), swinging your legs and tilting your head like you’re really weighing up what you want here but again you are just using this opportunity to really pout your bitten lips at him as you ‘ponder’ but you can also use this opportunity to be like ‘you said you’d get me popcorn’ sassily]

Jake: [take this opportunity to do some dog training style antics as if she is one and she’ll only get popcorn if she behaves because it’s such a treat, saying ‘get down’ in your best voice and offering her a treat which is obvs the cherry from the top of this drink, taking it seriously because he’s !! after watching all her up on the counter antics and the reminders they throw his way as well as all the new possibilities he’s THINKING of, when you’ve used the cherry to lure her down, giving it sassily little twirls like come on cos he’s holding the stem, put it into her mouth so dramatically ofc, let her make another meal of this before you finally also buy some old school style popcorn]

Sylvie: [we know that even if you had intentions of being cheekier and making him wait, you are physically incapable the second he tells you to get down, we can all pretend it’s about the cherry that we are gladly taking, here attempting to tie a knot in the stem, just making a meal out of it for his benefit]

Jake: [I love that y’all could leave this poor cinema teen alone but he isn’t moving until he’s WATCHED her try and tie this cherry stem because the screen will be dark af and he needs to SEE it, every second of whether she succeeds or not, rewarding her for immediately doing what she’s told and doing the most to shamelessly encourage these endeavours by calling her a good dog, me like sir please you are not alone have some decorum but he won’t, the fact that you’re saying it in french this time so it’s even more indecent than when you said it in the chat earlier doesn’t make it any more subtle]

Sylvie: [my boo said consider moving but nay nay, how could we even think about that when we’ve got to focus all our attention on this task lol, I’m gonna say you were nearly there but you cannot focus properly because of him calling you that in French, LOOKING at him in a way that says this is ALL your fault as you spit out the stem and take his hands to pull him away in the direction of the screens/toilets, because I’ll let my boo decide where you end up but they’re usually the same way regardless]

Jake: [love that because she’ll have to keep practising and wow him with it another time, I hope cherries don’t make you ill diva, I don’t actually know but at least if they do you only need the stem and you only ate one tonight, speaking of things that could/would make you ill, after he’s said that and while he’s still WATCHING her trying to do this party trick but being too flustered, catch this boy chewing up a single piece of popcorn so thoroughly until it’s mush and then when she’s spat the cherry stem out, launching himself at her to spit this into her mouth like he said he would, meaning they aren’t gonna get far before he’s making out with her again like his life depends on it and almost knocking an artsy movie poster off the wall, therefore I think they should go into the film because less distance than the toilets probably if you’re in a screen number that’s right there lowkey and more importantly y’all have missed enough that most of your friends are gonna turn and look when you come in (especially his friend from last night who knows what’s up) and give you both a massive kick out of the fact that they can’t see the state of y’all’s red lipstick covered selves in the dark, but you haven’t missed that much of the film that you don’t have time for torturing each other with saucy antics, so lead her to her seat with your arm around her so possessively but the silhouette of it looks protective to your friends who think she’s been really upset and you’ve been comforting her] 

Sylvie: [you shouldn’t eat a shit ton of fruit and veg but there aren’t pips or undigestable shit in cherries (‘cos you’re not eating that stem or stones lol) so it’s better for you than the popcorn because corn is famously undigestable but he truly has done the most for you to give you a fighting chance there lol, definitely not why you’re MOANING so appreciatively but thankfully this teen no longer has to deal with y’all and you’re off to be the cinema screen’s problem now, SQUEEZING his hand every time one of your friends looks at the pair of you, as if he’s not taking it in and as !! as you are]

Jake: [he would’ve picked a small piece of popcorn too because the point is a hot move not giving her a stomach ache, in fact, if you told me that after doing that and when he launched himself at her he dropped the rest to the floor and left it there like an absolute heathen I’d believe that, wasting money like he doesn’t have NYC to save up for (and a baby on the way soon Winnie says, gagging us all) but in the moment he simply does not care, the cinematic difference between this boy and the boy who was washing out and recycling his bottles last night, we love to see it, he also loves to see and feel all these friends eyes on y’all knowing that he would have such an obvious erection rn as well as the lipstick covering his face, giving her SUCH a grin about it as they walk to their seats, his white teeth flashing in the dark]

Sylvie: [the parallels, the blatant shift in your behaviour that is so beyond noticeable, even for your oblivious friends, this girl is OBSESSED with it all, brushing your hand against said errection, in a way that if seen would look completely accidental in the dark but it’s of course not and you’re so here for everything you’ve done before you’ve even got to your seats, doing a sharp intake of breath at his grin like it genuinely took your breath away, taking a handful of popcorn to shove in your mouth because you can’t handle it, ill-advised but if you get sick then we can use it lmao (and that handful was being rashly shoved into your face so a lot of it probably ended up on the floor anyway lol)]

Jake: [you’re welcome gal that there isn’t much popcorn left after he threw most of it all over the foyer floor anyway so you’re getting the dregs of the container and then dropping a lot yourself, not that either of you are thinking about consequences atm including those of her getting maybe sick, all this boy is thinking about is getting to his seat when it’s already hard to walk and she’s only making it even more difficult lol, making the kind of quiet but !! sound at being touched you do when you lose your footing or miss a step or something like that and the surprise shakes you to your core, lowkey pushing her to and into her seat with some of the rest of his !! he couldn’t express via a full noise or anything else] 

Sylvie: [STARING at him in the brief pause after he’s pushed you but he’s still standing up and over you, the novelty of being in this position and the ideas it gives you being brand new and thus the most exciting anything has ever been, shifting needlessly because he can definitely get in his seat without you doing so and yet you MUST]

Jake: [STARING back as he runs a hand through his hair which only makes it messier rather than giving him a better view because the whurls are wild, shamelessly prolonging the moment ™ of being stood over her because they’re on the same wavelength and he’s loving it too, doing a dramatic lip bite because the urge to speak some of these feral thoughts is overwhelming, instead, doing the most and making an absolute meal of climbing over her to get to his seat, acting like he once again stumbled in the dark purely so that they get to enjoy him being on top of her and all the sensations for a brief moment because he’s an actor honey and he will milk it before he’s finally in his seat breathing heavily about it]

Sylvie: [y’all look an absolute mess and that alone is enough to drive you crazy, likewise wanting so badly to reach out and touch his hair and then touch him when he’s over you so shamelessly but there’s the chance the people behind you would see so you can only take advantage by accidentally pushing your body out again at the wrong time and catching him, making the most of this Moment ™ before it has to be over for now, biting your lip enough to make it bleed again, licking the trickle up and trying not to do it immediately again, closing your eyes with the effort]

Jake: [mhmm they are living for being this blatant because again like we said earlier it’s one thing to be extra when you’re drunk and it’s another to be doing it stone cold sober like they are rn, watching her so intently once again that he sees her eyes close even in the darkness and he knows why so reaching out to touch her bleeding lip, lowkey poking it hard enough with one of his rings that it bleeds more so that said ring and his finger gets covered, leaving it on his ring like a romantic memento but putting the bloody finger to his mouth, unable to suck or lick because the sound (the film being on a quieter dialogue bit I’m gonna say) so just leaving it against his slightly open mouth to fill with the taste of her blood again]

Sylvie: [not that you feel sober at all right now, but you are, and it’s a whole new vibe, OPENING your eyes to witness this, leaning your head on his shoulder, because you could do that if you were feeling weird and it could be platonic but really you need to be this close and able to see and talk to him without anyone else being able to fully nose in, saying ‘the new vampire of Paris’ in French because he’s got a taste for it and you’re smirking about it]

Jake: [he does have a taste for it, she’s so correct, therefore 0 hesitation in whispering back how her blood tastes, in french and english as the mood and vocab he knows takes him, in great detail like he’s writing a poem or a song about it, brain storming lines by thinking aloud and correcting himself as he thinks of better, all the while he’s slowly swirling his bloody finger in their drink from the soda fountain, as a throwback to the party when she did similarly but also like he’s gotta to improve the beverage he hasn’t even tasted yet, his other hand stroking her hair as if comfortingly and platonically but he’s sneaking the odd good dog style head pat in there]

Sylvie: [listening to him because you are actually fascinated by how his mind works and hearing him come up with these lines and jumping from one thought to another, you’re paying such close attention you almost miss what he’s oh so casually doing to your shared drink, when it catches your eye, doing such an OH noise of surprise which clearly does not match up to whatever is (or isn’t) happening on screen but do we care, no, assuming there is a straw, chasing that around with your tongue to get a taste, having to lean further into his personal space to do so, maintaining EYE CONTACT about it]

Jake: [watching her tongue as it chases this straw with such close attention that a bomb could go off next to his head and he wouldn’t even realise, shifting in his seat lowkey in sync every time her tongue moves because he’s so painfully turned on in these jeans atm that he doesn’t even care if his chair is squeaking annoyingly or anything every time, doing a pained sound when she finally takes a drink that would’ve fully been a groan or moan if he wasn’t vaguely aware of his surroundings enough to not, maintaining the eye contact to the point of that feeling painful too and he has to give in and lean back against his seat and squeeze his closed for a sec]

Sylvie: [doing the satisfied ahh sound after your sip, even though it’s obnoxious, as my boo said, not as obnoxious as you moaning about it like you really want to and you’ve got to get some of this pressure out, you both wearing jeans is funny, like boys only have so many options but you just wanted to make it harder for him too, I guess, go off girl, touching his top as if to recognise the reference you just accidentally made but also to touch his body and feel how fast his heart is beating]

Jake: [when you’ve gotta smile at hearing her ahh sound however much discomfort you are in because it is obnoxious and who you are now loves that shamelessly in a way past you would never and also you shamelessly recognise it for what it is, leaning forward and getting right in her grill when she’s touching his chest to talk nerdy about what a good sound that would be to sample on a track and that he’d call it thirst, trying it out in french and english both to see which she likes better in that thinking aloud way again, likewise trace the letters spelling out angel on her top like he can’t decide if she’s the biggest angel or the biggest devil atm, balling the fabric in his hand like he’s gonna YANK her to him and KISS her but obvs he stops short of the kissing part]

Sylvie: [when he says it in French, letting him know you like it by undoing his belt, having to do it torturously slow so it’s quiet but you couldn’t be more clear, replying with how that would be a good sound too and workshopping names for that aloud, the !! being punctuated right in his face, opening your lips as if you’re expecting him to kiss you here and now, but after letting it sit for a beat, mouthing ‘I miss you’] 

Jake: [when she mouths her I miss you letting her know you like that and feel the same way by likewise undoing her belt like this is a game of copying or seeing who can be quieter/more torturous when it’s nothing of the sort, upping the stakes by also undoing her button (but not the zip yet), letting his rings brush over her skin, pressing to see if you can make different indents in said skin in the shape of each one]

Sylvie: [only just muffling your GASP into his hair on time, thank god you both have a fair bit so what is happening right now is obscured by it because however upset you might be, you don’t need to bite someone’s hair about it, but we actually do so good day, pulling harder when he touches your bare skin, copying him and undoing the button on his jeans but no more because you’ve technically added hair biting/pulling there and you would never break the unspoken rules here lol]

Jake: [shifting in his seat the most dramatically he has yet, lowkey would be falling off it if he was as small as me cos it’d be folding up on him but thankfully he isn’t twink though he may look like lol, because the hair bite got to him that much he can’t stay still, GRIPPING the armrest so hard when she takes his turn to unbutton his jeans because the desire to MOAN at even just that amount of contact is overwhelming but he cannot, unzipping her jeans in retaliation, doing the same thing of letting his rings brush over her underwear so slowly and deliberately, PRESSING down HARD with the one that’s shaped like a compass as if it helped him find the exact right spot]

Sylvie: [acting fast, as if this has become an EMERGENCY, because you need to get his unzipped IMMEDIATELY, before he’s even finished unzipping you fully, however more awkward that makes this because simply must give him this relief and prompt more reactions like he just had, a level of frantic has entered the chat even if we must be silent (as possible) about this]

Jake: [a level of frantic has indeed entered the chat so even though he obviously wants to die immediately because it feels like this edging has gone on forever and always and he can’t remember a time before it, he simply must focus and slip his hand inside her underwear and start touching her indecently, with the rings at first, again, lowkey teasing her but actually he’s testing to see how loud that is when he puts the kinda cross shaped one’s sticky out end inside of her cos gotta know before he goes feral af as it’s been his dream since this cinema date was announced clearly, to do and get away with exactly this nonsense and he’s not trying to get caught before it’s even got !!]

Sylvie: [mhmm, y’all want to get away with this, so unlike your outside and foyer antics, you have to show some decorum and try to do this as stealthily as you can, even if you would quite like to scream about him touching you for the first time, you must do that all internally, only your face giving away how !! you truly are, and no one but Jake should be looking there, thank you]

Jake: [I’m sure his nosy friend from the party is trying to look but we picked these seats for a reason so good luck dickhead you cannot see nothing, which is just as well because his face is likewise giving away how !! he is about touching her for the first time, luckily it’s not a completely tedious artsy film and we can say some kind of ‘action’ scene is happening so that his noise about it could sound like a reaction to that and if it doesn’t it won’t be heard because the speakers are popping off, shamelessly exploiting the opportunity to really touch her while this scene plays because he can get away with not having to be as careful and slow and torturous, even if he can’t finger fuck her as hard as he truly wants, he can still get a lil rhythm going]

Sylvie: [you avert your gaze, you sick pervert, this is not for your eyes, we’re alone and by the speakers, we couldn’t have picked a better seat to do this in, and thank god it isn’t the artiest of art films or there’d simply be no way lol, however much y’all are doing to not wild out, GRASPING onto his arm the way he did the arm rest previously, realising when you do that you could be touching him too, LOOKING down at the way you’re holding his forearm like OH, blushing under that smear of lipstick and looking up at him questioningly like do you want me to?]

Jake: [we all know you fancy Jake in a wig but this is not for your benefit, hooray to the more pretentious kids getting outvoted by the others who couldn’t be bothered with a film like that because the fact that nobody has immediately caught him is emboldening this boy so much and he’s as immediately going so much harder because her reaction is the only one he’s got to worry about and it’s spurring him on to be even more extra and shameless, LOOKING where she is (not a second has been spared for the cinema screen lol) his own eyes urging her to dig her nails into his forearm hard before she does anything else, then he’s transfixed by the blush he can barely see in the dim light but he can feel the heat off as clear as day, nodding, doing a GULP like swallow as he does like god help me though because he knows he’s gonna wanna be LOUD in his reactions and he isn’t allowed to]

Sylvie: [my boo says you can embarrass yourself and tank this friendship fully by asking to get with his sister later, right now mind your own, nodding back at him like yeah I KNOW and here’s you trying to kill me like it isn’t taking everything not to be loud and dramatic about it/die instantly, doing a hot lol that is mostly silent and is more just in the attitude like you are unbelievable sir (but never stop thank you), reaching out to TOUCH his adam’s apple when he GULPS because it do be prominent and he just brought all your attention to it, scratching your nails really lightly down his throat, watching his skin get goosebumps to match your own]

Jake: [mhmm, back off until we need you babes, doing such a dramatic OTT shudder at the adam’s apple antics to the point it looks like he’s watching a horror film and just got jumpscared but he genuinely feels that !! about it, the rest of the popcorn has definitely been tipped/kicked over RIP diva he had but one piece of you, no thought to that though nevermind regrets, he’s too busy getting his own back by pinching her inner thigh because he doesn’t have nails to scratch her with, not good enough ones anyway]

Sylvie: [a waste of money you’re unconcerned with, as are the tickets to this film but worth every penny as far as y’all reckon, would gladly sit through an arthouse film because they’re usually long as fuck and you want all the time in the world now, pushing onto him harder for the thigh pinch, unrepentant in needing more, finding the waistband of his boxers and pushing it down to just fully let him loose like two can play at this game, gonna be feeling #exposed at the gig but obviously we’re positioned over you in such a way that no one can actually see in your lap, the NOISE we have to hold back behind gritted teeth at finally SEEING him in person like this is iconic, saying his name how you would usually take Jesus’ in vain]

Jake: [he has a cardigan he could throw over his lap if he wanted to be discrete but being this exposed is the thrill of it, hence THROBBING about it before she’s even touched him and knowing in his heart of hearts that he’s gonna die almost as soon as she does, embarrassingly fast if either of them had shame but they obvs don’t and we’re all well aware he hasn’t cum since he did on the bus/tram which feels like forever ago (and that being without her touching him is the only reason he’s this determined to hold out until she has this time, however shortlived) so there’s no shame in not being able to last through all this edging tbf hun, doing his best therefore to make her die too or at least feel as close to it as him by curling his fingers doing a ‘come here’ motion over and over inside her with frantic !! energy, not caring rn if anyone can hear how wet she is because he’s on a mission which includes the added double meaning that goes with this hot move of him trying shamelessly to non verbally say come here/touch me right now when his jaw is likewise clenched too tightly closed to speak, and so there’s 0 doubt at all (not that your ‘secret code’ was in any way subtle sir haha) LOOKING at her as well]

Sylvie: [no shame at all because you know what y’all are here to do and how long you’ve been planning aka edging this in y’alls heads and conversations so we never thought you’d last the whole film without cumming, that’d be crazy work for either of y’all when you are perpetually this turned on in each others’ company, case in point having to say ‘FUCK’ out loud and quite loud which makes you seem hilariously impassioned about whatever the fuck is going on on the screen but of course it has nothing to do with that and everything to do with what he’s doing inside of you, the way you aren’t even clocking the people shook by your outburst because you don’t care, LOOKING back at him like if you don’t stop, giving the warning !! signs, SQUEEZING your thighs shut around his arm because you can’t handle this, shaking your head like no, I can’t, because THINKING about touching him but now scared you’re gonna hurt him if you come at him with that intensity lol]

Jake: [that would be a lot of intensity to come at someone with especially the first time you ever touch them haha she’s not wrong, he can’t stop though not when she’s giving him golden reactions like this, meeting her LOOK with another grin that has him again flashing white teeth in the dark, his whole face is giving smug because she shouted that loud and he loves to see it, grabbing some pick n mix with his free hand and shoving it into her mouth, leaving his fingers there for that garden flashback and for her to genuinely bite down on if she wants as his other hand continues to go to town pulling out all his other hot moves and rubbing her clit in time to his slow nod that’s telling her to let go and let herself die because if he has to kill her first before she dares to touch him then so be it]

Sylvie: [pushing his face as if you’re wiping the smug off but instead of pushing him away from you, you’re pushing his head towards yours like and what if we kissed lmao, once again just stopping before you actually do but you may as well be at this point, simply must make a meal out of sucking and chewing on his fingers in a way that’s giving you’re just trying to eat these sweets and not choke to death but with the EYE CONTACT she’s struggling to maintain let’s you know this is not the whole truth remotely, making lil sounds around his fingers because you can’t help it, using her forehead to push his back so you’re both leant over his lap and you can spit some sticky sweet drool onto him which the sensation of alone is enough to let him know how much she wants to kill him too]

Jake: [what if is correct because now he’s THINKING about kissing her as if it’s been a million years when it has been nothing of the sort, when she stops from doing exactly that, doing such a blink and you’ll miss it gently taking her fringe into his mouth moment, which she won’t miss because they are FOCUSED on each other’s every move, just mouthing it for a sec like a puppy or a baby as if he desperately needs the comfort, doing a tiny little sound of his own around her hair before he lets it go and switches things up by giving her a daddy style kiss on the forehead, all while likewise trying to maintain the eye contact (and his fingering antics) and WATCH what she’s doing to his fingers, mouthing his own ‘fuck’ at her with the same energy as the one she shouted but moments before as she pushes him back which turns into just a !! wide OH mouth when the first of her spit lands because he’s shook in the best way, GRIPPING his arm rest again as he GASPS at the feeling of it continuing to pool there]

Sylvie: [OHing like he’s truly a baby/puppy in need of your comfort, instinctively pulling him towards you, even though this means he’s fucking you even harder and you can already barely cope, thank god he switches it up to daddy mode so you can let go or you may explode, panting as quietly as you can, with the effort of still holding on, just, reaching just your index finger out to run along the biggest vein in his dick, feeling his pulse and BITING back your MOAN so it’s in your throat and guttural af, using the sticky mess to cover him entirely, tracing around the head of his dick with extra attention, circling towards the hole and out again, timing it with your erratic breathing, which is to say, slightly frantic ‘come on’ quiet considering but not just mouthed, because you’re serious about him cumming for you lol]

Jake: [the girls are barely holding onto their sanity or composure and we love to see it, the throat sound is giving growl reminders so of course he’s inspired to choke her with her necklace for lack of a collar yet, tight enough to leave marks from the chain across her neck because she’s finally touching him and he can’t cope, making his own choking sound as if a sweet went down the wrong way (despite him not eating any) or as if he’s the one being choked rn instead, going so red she’d even be able to see it in the dark lol because may explode is so real lol, choking out his words too, doing a ‘ladies first’ in french but instead of calling her a lady he’s calling her a whore, whispered thankfully cos of how hoarse his voice is at her antics because he wasn’t especially giving a fuck there to try and be quiet, neither is he with how he’s literally using his hand to fuck her as hard as he can because he’s as serious about his task, that being covered by the action scene having been replaced by a more saucy one between the hero and his love interest so other immature teens (not your group clearly) are wolf whistling or doing the sex noises teenage boys are obsessed with doing at the back of a bus and the like when they reach a certain age]

Sylvie: [SCREWING her eyes shut with the force she wants to SCREAM his name right now, going as red as him from inadvertently holding your breath so you don’t scream, meaning the breath you finally take is DRAMATIC, not to mention the fact you can’t fully catch it because he’s choking you and you’re only pulling harder away to deepen that because you are OBSESSED, paying way less attention to the way you’re touching him but doing more, finding the natural rhythm and letting him fuck your hand as hard and as fast as he wants, shout out to the sex scene for doing them the biggest favour because you know him calling her a whore in French is going to make her cum and you are just not gonna be capable of full silence in this state]

Jake: [not that y’all care remotely what’s unfolding on the screen but I had to at least try and help y’all not be caught and banned because we all know you’re gonna wanna come back here a lot and relive the mems, not to mention we’ve gotta let you finish when you’ve been driving each other insane for this long, idk how the hell she’s gonna style out chain indents on her neck unless you’re zipping that jacket up full so it’s a good job y’all are enjoying the element of cheating of being brazen, speaking of, he’s definitely gonna also bite her neck HARD to give her a matching lovebite to his but more importantly stifle some of his !! when he inevitably cums right after her in reaction to hers, shoutout to that empty popcorn bucket coming in handy once again so that he doesn’t get jizz absolutely everywhere because it would be explosive and he doesn’t need his clothes or hers to be absolutely covered]

Sylvie: [you’re welcome, you heathens, it’s the moment y’all wanted it to be and more, no fucks given to any consequences ever, my boo says I’ll do the thinking for you and what a move, sorry to the staff who find that later in their clean up lol, you will think it is DISGUSTANG but this girl does not, dead as she is, she is WATCHING every second of this with heart eyes on !! 100%]

Jake: [mhmm and it’s very fitting that when y’all emerge from being feral to redress and try and remotely recover it’s to a saucy/romantic scene playing on the big screen because y’all feel like you’re in one, SQUEEZING her hand because there is no way to ever recover from that but it’s giving her are you still with me after their iconic pause when phone sex, his other hand pushing his wild hair off his face because in no world is he not sweaty, reminding him of when she called him clammy last night hehe, I’d like to point out btw he’s been too distracted to have even a passing thought of a seizure or any of this being a trigger, love that for him]

Sylvie: [the way we’re looking at the screen so blankly like whatever is happening there doesn’t even register as saucy/romantic in comparison because it simply doesn’t, shaking your head in pity at this scene like nay nay, turning to look at him when he SQUEEZES her hand, giving his a lighter squeeze back because still recovering doesn’t cover it, smiling a you okay? at him that is answered by how he’s being and we do love to see it, nodding approval and resting your head back on his shoulder with a dramatic sigh]

Jake: [truly it’s giving y’all have just woken up from a coma and are less than thrilled by the state of affairs which is also fitting for all their earlier coma talk lol, answering her is he okay question inadvertently amusingly when he takes his first sip of their soda fountain drink and acts like it’s so bland and tasteless after biting her neck because that’s how he feels he’s not even trying to be OTT and dramatic but he’s pulling such a disappointed face, rummaging through the sweets and picking one out to see if they fair better because slightly I’m sure for the fun mems y’all have of how he made her pick them out but he’s still STARING at her lips while he chews THINKING about how he’d rather be kissing her than eating this]

Sylvie: [smirking at how personally affronted he is by this drink because you know why because you are still both on that wavelength and understanding, and if it was meant to be a line, he would’ve said something, to make sure you understood, which is how you know it’s genuine and so is he, touching where he bit your neck, to see if you can still feel the indentation of his teeth, which leads you to feel the indentation from your necklace from that casual bit of choking, trailing this hand down your body to find his to hold !!]

Jake: [he is genuine even when his free hand he isn’t holding hers with is lowkey softly patting out a rhythm on her leg for the song we all know he’s currently writing about her rn but she doesn’t yet, unaware he’s doing it but his thoughts have never been racing faster or been more about her so it tracks he’s inspired af, would shamelessly feel like something he’s putting on to be pretentious in other circumstances but here he is actually being authentic about what a slay new muse she is]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Sylke pt.2

Sylvie: [after an iconic pause whilst the girls gather themselves]

Sylvie: Still with me?

Jake: [send her a fresh from the shower selfie when you get out because you never posting and her needing more pics of you is valid, it’s giving you aren’t just in a towel though you’ve got a your aesthetic (and weather appropriate to whatever season this is) kinda dressing gown on (while you pick an outfit) so your body is away, because y’all gotta calm down, but your hair is wet and you look slay]

Sylvie: Damn, after all that, you’re still cute

Sylvie: Wear that

Jake: I guess if we tell [the cinema] I’m sick, they’d let me get away with dressing like someone’s grandfather

Sylvie: Grandpa kink, that’s niche, can reclaim some cool points

Jake: I wonder how niche it is in your friend group, you’ve got a pretty cool grandfather compared to most

Sylvie: You saying you’re scared of the competition?

Jake: I don’t need your friends to fetishise me, mine already do

Sylvie: I’m not sure I wanna think about people fetishising my grandad, thank you very much

Jake: [French] I’m sorry

Sylvie: It’s alright, you only want some solidarity in being seen as a sex object

Jake: Thanks to [the boy who called her a sex doll], I have you for that

Sylvie: We’re well suited like that

Jake: One of the many ways we are

Sylvie: Petits pois

Sylvie: I found the cigarette for you, can you find me one of the pearls from your necklace?

Jake: They say, deux gouttes d’eau

Jake: and yeah, of course

Sylvie: That’s better, of course it would be, almost everything sounds better in French

Jake: Or comme les deux doigts de la main, I like that too

Sylvie: See, teaching me lots already

Jake: Hold my hand in the dark

Sylvie: Of course

Sylvie: I can’t say that’s all I want to do and not be lying but it’s maybe the thing I want to do most

Jake: I don’t even know what I want most

Sylvie: Maybe you’ll work it out when you see me in person

Jake: It’s overwhelming, the idea of spending [this film’s run time] with just you, alone in our corner

Sylvie: Like today was overwhelming

Sylvie: but now I know, you’ve said and done things sober, I don’t intend to let you ignore me again

Jake: [show her that you’ve just bought their tickets online and picked seats right in the corner next to a speaker where there are just 2 together, aka exactly where my dad and I used to sit when we went before he met Sal because we’re antisocial and refuse to sit in a row with other people haha, because you know if you don’t do it ahead of time your friends will try and sit with y’all and you don’t want that, you’ve defs circled the seating chart with a heart like she did when y’all’s locations]

Jake: I can’t ignore you there

Sylvie: 😍 Fuck

Sylvie: You can’t even talk to anyone else, just how I like it

Jake: You have my full attention

Sylvie: Good, I’m not going to waste it like other people do

Jake: [French] Every second counts

Sylvie: I intend to steal as many as I’m able 

Jake: [post to your stories an artsy pic of these beads, minus 1 that only she knows is missing because that’s in your pocket to give her]

Sylvie: I can’t believe something that perfect actually happened

Jake: Me either, I can’t believe how perfect you are

Sylvie: Am not

Jake: Pour moi

Sylvie: Pour toi

Sylvie: Tout pour toi

Jake: You can have every pearl if you want, all [however many cos you’ve counted]

Sylvie: I already feel bad I made you break it

Sylvie: well, no I don’t, at all, but can you fix it?

Jake: You should make something with it, art beyond music or my lame photography, like you said

Sylvie: There’s nothing lame about it

Sylvie: it’s like having our own secret language, no one else has the context

Sylvie: so I will make something

Jake: [send her a completely unnecessary little video of you picking every pearl up because it feels necessary to you]

Sylvie: I can hear your thoughts

Jake: What are they?

Sylvie: You’re thinking about the exact moment they went flying, what was happening, what it felt like

Jake: I haven’t stopped thinking about that

Sylvie: I didn’t know it could happen like that, honestly

Sylvie: It hasn’t for me before

Jake: You’ve restored my faith in loads of books, songs and films I figured were lying, or at least exaggerating

Sylvie: Working our way through them all sounds like a pretty good way to spend our time in Paris

Sylvie: New city, new perspective

Jake: Fitting for our new lives

Sylvie: I’ve gone from being so fucking angry about it

Sylvie: to being impatient to still be here in my old one in some ways, so ready to move on

Jake: We don’t have to wait for [the date of the french trip, in / how he likes to do]

Sylvie: Don’t we?

Jake: I remember you saying you like that I’m Jewish because my bar mitzvah money would pay for us to go whenever we want

Sylvie: Sounds calculated said like that but

Sylvie: when?

Jake: What were our plans for tomorrow?

Sylvie: I forget, it can wait if you mean it

Jake: I’m supposed to be getting a job to pay for New York first, but Paris feels more important, and however disloyal that makes me sound to my dead father, I know you won’t judge me

Sylvie: I don’t judge you at all

Sylvie: how could I when we’ve both got living family we’re not thinking about at all in this decision

Jake: We aren’t moving to Australia though

Sylvie: They’ll see it for the good thing it is, eventually

Sylvie: they’re just holding on extra tight right now, bad kind of suffocating 

Jake: Not if we rush in, like fools

Jake: my mother would get on a plane to immediately force me back home, even if she had to search Paris street by street single-handedly

Jake: but if I prove to her that I can keep the [wherever] job, you can take care of me, and she trusts us to go on the [french] trip together

Jake: [French] it’s a plan for a reason, right?

Sylvie: Right

Sylvie: you’re right, of course, it would just be nice to run away with you now

Jake: I promise I won’t make you wait 4 more years, but I do need to force myself to wait longer than 24 hours, somehow

Sylvie: I believe you

Sylvie: we just need to keep ourselves busy and keep together, so we don’t lose it before then

Jake: Keep me busy and I’ll do the same for you

Sylvie: I’ve got plans

Sylvie: we don’t have to go to school tomorrow, do we

Jake: It’s practically the weekend

Sylvie: We deserve an extra day

Jake: My house or yours?

Sylvie: What shift is your mammy on?

Jake: [tell her because we have free rein to do whatever we want here, whoever’s house we like, or nobody’s if he decides to flip flop]

Sylvie: C’est un rendez-vous

Jake: But our first is in [however long this cinema date is, clearly not very now]

Sylvie: Are you nervous?

Jake: [French] I’m excited

Jake: Are you nervous?

Sylvie: Les deux

Jake: About seeing me or about everyone else being there when you do?

Sylvie: I’m nervous about not being able to hold back

Sylvie: but excited about having to

Jake: If [some of his friends] weren’t outvoted and we were going to see [an artsy film that’s basically no dialogue and just lingering shots, aka quiet af whereas this one is a bit louder, thank god] you’d need to hold back a lot more

Sylvie: Unbearable amounts

Sylvie: I would

Jake: We’d walk out and I’d tell the group later it was in protest of [something ridiculous only you could but something in relation to that other film specifically haha so nobody can say shit]

Sylvie: Oh no

Sylvie: I just realised everyone’s going to think I’m as big of a nerd as you now we’re best friends

Jake: [French] Excuse me, I’m not a nerd!

Sylvie: [French] Oh, baby, yes you are

Jake: [French] Don’t be a bitch

Sylvie: [French] Treat me like one and I’ll be so nice 

Jake: [French] A collar with pearls would look nice on you

Sylvie: I know what I’ll be making now 🥺

Jake: You’ve got the pets and you’ll have the pearls, all you need is a hot glue gun

Sylvie: And your name on a tag, in case I get lost

Jake: [not you looking up the pet shops that have the thing to do those and sending her the locations, doing a heart around the ones that are nearest to the cinema like she’s gonna go before or after]

Sylvie: Please take me, we can say we wanna look at the rabbits and hamsters

Jake: I’ll say [do a lil rant about how bad pet shops are for their treatment of those poor animals which I’m not gonna, but like it’s a trial run for what you’re gonna go in there and say to the underpaid staff because your friends would wholeheartedly believe that and also be distracted by it]

Sylvie: You’re a genius

Jake: [French] I’m possessive and I love the idea of you wearing my name around your neck

Sylvie: [French] I love it more, my thoughts are running wild now

Jake: If we’re seriously going to [this pet shop] we can get you your own collar too

Sylvie: Help me try them on, pick out the perfect fit

Jake: Tight, that’s your perfect fit

Sylvie: As tight as having your hands around my throat at all times

Jake: I’ll never forget how you said it, what that sounded like, as long as I live

Sylvie: I won’t forget how it felt, you’ll understand when I show you

Jake: I want to understand exactly how you feel at all times

Sylvie: I want you to know me, inside and out

Jake: You want me to possess you, inside and out

Sylvie: Badly

Sylvie: Please put a lock on my collar and keep the key

Jake: See, you are Paris

Jake: my very own love lock bridge

Sylvie: And you can throw that key into the Seine once we’re there, I’ll never have to take it off

Jake: I’d throw myself in the Seine if you did

Sylvie: I’m yours for keeps

Jake: You’re more beautiful than [and just listing places in Paris]

Sylvie: Will you tell me that in every one of those places?

Jake: And you mean more to me than [listing places in new york]

Jake: I’ll tell you that in every one of them too

Sylvie: My mouth hurts from smiling

Jake: Feels like forever since I watched you put [either her lipstick or lip gloss] on

Sylvie: I took that off, I realised I need to kiss you all over and I can’t make you messy ☹️

Jake: [French] Yes, you can

Sylvie: Oui?

Jake: Yes

Sylvie: [send him a video of you reapplying like in that case]

Jake: [swear in french, obvs because you’re !! it’s giving mon dieu or something because omg is real]

Sylvie: You want bright red and you want it around your fingers

Jake: The brightest red you have

Sylvie: Only appropriate for a girl like me

Jake: [French] My girl

Sylvie: [sending him maps of sex clubs in Paris and New York and drawing hearts around them all]

Sylvie: I wanna go to them all with you

Jake: Then London and Berlin

Sylvie: I want everyone to see you fuck me

Jake: It’s art, the way you fuck yourself

Sylvie: You inspire me, I want to film us

Jake: I’ll write an album and every track will sample the different sounds you make

Sylvie: That would be so

Sylvie: you should, you seriously should, I want to help you make great things

Jake: Film us for 42 years, longer

Sylvie: You’re going to be even hotter in 42 years, I’ll try and draw it but I’m no artist in that way

Sylvie: I can see you though

Jake: You can call the project [‘the coma diaries’ but in french because she said everything sounds hotter in it]

Sylvie: I have to

Sylvie: and you have to buy me a lead too, now that I think about it

Jake: What length?

Sylvie: As short as they have, I’m only walking to heel

Jake: [not you looking up online how short they have and telling her in relation to how her room was described like if she was at her vanity where he could stand to pull it TIGHT, those kinda vibes, same for her bed etc etc]

Sylvie: I’m already panting at the thought

Jake: Let me listen

Sylvie: [doing that with no shame immediately, whining full puppy mode about it for good measure]

Jake: Good dog

Sylvie: That’s what you can say when I’m curled up with my head in your lap

Jake: I don’t mind you telling me what I can anymore

Sylvie: You know you’d rather control me than yourself, you don’t need any 

Jake: You know what I need, even when you barely knew me

Sylvie: It’s so obvious to me, I don’t know why no one else can see it

Jake: They don’t see me how you do

Sylvie: I see you upending my whole life, I saw it when we first spoke and I was scared, now I’m scared to be without it ever again

Jake: I feel like I’ve never lived a life until now

Sylvie: Autopilot is default until you’re kicked out of it, I think

Jake: And it was you who kicked me out of it, when even my diagnosis and illness couldn’t

Sylvie: You were worth saving from the living dead, you are

Jake: You’re worth 10 of everyone that I thought were my favourite people

Sylvie: I might get that etched on another tag, just ‘cos

Sylvie: you’re so unbelievably nice

Jake: I’m a realist and that’s the situation

Jake: you did save me, vie

Sylvie: We saved each other

Jake: I would’ve saved you if your bedroom caught fire

Sylvie: Thanks

Sylvie: You would’ve been the only one that knew

Jake: And to blame

Sylvie: Technically, yeah

Sylvie: I’d have to come up with another story if I accidentally burnt my parents’ house down though, they’d not be happy about the real one

Jake: You’ll have to keep your window open ‘til your new perfume arrives, so they don’t find out what a bad influence I am

Sylvie: Mhmm, can’t have that

Jake: My reputation would be ruined

Sylvie: And you worked so hard to be seen as such a good boy

Jake: Yeah, for years

Jake: you can’t just destroy it overnight

Sylvie: I could

Sylvie: but I won’t

Jake: You like being my dirty little secret too much

Sylvie: The most

Sylvie: I’ll do anything to keep it that way

Jake: Anything?

Sylvie: [French] Everything

Jake: [French] You’re everything

Sylvie: I feel like I’m going to fall to the floor when I see you 

Jake: I’ll put my arms around you

Sylvie: It would be ungentlemanly of you to just let me faint away

Jake: As amazing as you make bruises look, if you’re going to be, I wanna be in control of covering you in them

Sylvie: That’s how I want it too, best behaviour, promise

Jake: Okay, the nerves are starting to kick in

Sylvie: I know

Sylvie: it’s okay, if we can’t get away or can’t do some of the things we said and want to, we don’t have to be stupid

Jake: I know, but it seems stupider not to do all the stuff we want to

Sylvie: Yeah, I can’t disagree 

Sylvie: Everyone should be watching the film though, not us, we’ll not put on a show for anyone but each other, for today 

Jake: Or be wrapped up in their own significant others, either way, I agree, they aren’t going to have eyes on or for us

Sylvie: Significant others, you are a granda 

Jake: I might like labels but not enough to stick them on how everyone else is or isn’t hanging out tonight, it works as an umbrella term

Sylvie: Sure, no need to get into everyone’s nitty gritty 

Jake: But if you want me to run back and grab a cardigan, I can

Jake: no kinkshaming

Sylvie: I’m sure you have a stunning collection

Jake: [tell her all about them because you defs do have some fr and it’ll distract you from your nerves]

Sylvie: You wore [one of these] to the [band y’all both like] gig, right?

Jake: I don’t remember, did I?

Sylvie: I thought so

Sylvie: maybe not, it sounds familiar though

Jake: [a lil pause while you go back to content of that night and check, because lbr it’s probably on China’s socials and her and Sylvie are likely not friends lol]

Jake: You shouldn’t have doubted yourself, you were right

Sylvie: Made myself sound so stalkerish 🫣

Sylvie: I just remember you there that night, lots of people aren’t into their sound so it was cool you were clearly appreciating too

Jake: Me first, I outed myself as remembering details of you ages before I should’ve been appreciating them this hard

Jake: when they played [a song that’s her fave or one of live], your reaction stayed with me, I’ve honestly searched the faces at every gig since, waiting for a glimpse of something close to a similar

Sylvie: My favourite thing about performing was watching those faces, those reactions make it worth everything 

Sylvie: not that I have properly but once or twice yet

Jake: Tell me about your performances, it sucks I missed them

Sylvie: I’m not sure it would be your thing, I’ve done some DJ sets,  just at [it’s giving a really small venue and just for fun to try stuff out vibes]

Jake: I saw [someone you do like musically because some peeps like to pop off and do a DJ set just cos even if it’s not their normal thing, there was a lot of that going on in my indie girl era even if I didn’t personally go lol] at [some venue]

Jake: [and ask her some questions that I can’t because I know nothing about Djing but even if one of your friend group hasn’t done it directly I imagine some of your many bandmates or a friend of theirs has so you know some stuff and you are genuinely interested in everything this girl could ever do]

Sylvie: I didn’t get to go to that, it was [someone in the fams bday, lord knows it always is lol], so jealous!

Sylvie: [nerd out lads, it’s an interesting way of making music, shall give you that, tell him everything you know thus far which it’s lowkey a newish hobby so you aren’t saying you’re amazing but interested]

Jake: [tell her a way that this dj set kinda sucked whether that’s because of a technical glitch or the person being a diva and coming out really late and/or only doing a very short set or just not being very good or into it, idk, the point is letting her know that she didn’t really miss out that much]

Jake: [and yeah, enjoy nerding out for a sec because the point also is that this boy feels pigeonholed and would actually like to be able to experiment more and try new hobbies and stuff across the board as I’ve tried to portray with the whole veganism thing and everything so whatever y’all are talking about it’s coming across that he isn’t just interested in her but in this and he’d lowkey like to try it without him coming out and saying that]

Sylvie: I see that for them, too much ego, not the talent to back it up, how disappointing 

Sylvie: I think you’d enjoy it, the way you talked about sampling before, that’s what I like to do too, using more than traditional instruments and vocals for a song, why limit it

Sylvie: I’ve not got the best or anything, but you’re welcome to test out my kit whenever 

Jake: Thanks, that’d be cool

Sylvie: And I’ll make you [something with meat, giving burger but something you think you’re slay at cooking clearly, idk what]

Jake: [Do the silly french wow that I’m not trying to spell because it’s so unserious]

Sylvie: 😅

Sylvie: I won’t be offended if you don’t like it, by the way

Jake: Last time it was her turn to solo cook, Talia made [something that’s giving food on a par with the commune in gen 2, soz gal, giving he did not care for it so Sylvie has nothing to worry about]

Sylvie: That doesn’t sound edible… are you messing?

Jake: No, honestly

Sylvie: Oh dear

Sylvie: does she want you to get better or kill you with mung beans, the real question

Jake: Someone at work gave her the recipe, so the real question is, who are they and what have I done to upset them?

Sylvie: Ex fan

Sylvie: done waiting for your comeback

Jake: [tell her that some of your friends brought up the looming cool kid event today at school when you were ignoring each other because I’m sure some of your friends are also thinking about performing in it not just going to watch]

Sylvie: You still feel the same? A no-go?

Jake: Yeah

Jake: no

Jake: maybe?

Jake: I don’t know

Sylvie: I get that

Sylvie: you’ve got [however long] to decide, they’d be chill and let you on, even if you left it last minute

Sylvie: or we can just go watch, or not go at all

Jake: The deadline is [whenever you have to let them know by, because he’s usually such a good boy and stickler for the rules hehe]

Sylvie: Oh, please

Jake: What are you gonna do if the date passes us by, write me a note?

Sylvie: Maybe

Sylvie: or would you prefer a petition?

Jake: Stage a protest and I’ll know this really matters to you

Sylvie: Did you go to [the other one he sassily invited her to]?

Jake: I had every intention of going

Sylvie: You were distracted

Jake: A little, yeah

Sylvie: It’s hard to care about other people half as much when you have your own shit to address first

Jake: It’s hard to care about anyone who isn’t you

Sylvie: And does it make me a bad person, to want your undivided attention so much?

Jake: Those are your real thoughts and feelings and that’s what matters to me right now

Sylvie: Maybe I need saving as much as the whales, who’s to say

Jake: More, the whales don’t push people away when they’re just trying to help them

Sylvie: To help who?

Jake: Toi

Jake: et moi aussi

Sylvie: I’ll accept that answer

Sylvie: even if I had my doubts

Jake: You had nothing but doubts about me during that initial conversation, I know

Sylvie: Can you blame me?

Jake: I tried, but no, I couldn’t, not convincingly

Sylvie: And I couldn’t be a big enough bitch to totally cut you off

Jake: [do ‘thankfully’ in french because it’s literally like happily and therefore more extra]

Sylvie: I’d be so gutted now

Sylvie: and lonely, it’s crazy to think about

Jake: Me too

Sylvie: Relating to [her bf who barely is but does still exist lol] would not be a fun time

Jake: What did you say to get him to not come tonight?

Sylvie: Oh, I didn’t ask him

Sylvie: he’d not be interested in [this vaguely artsy if not uber artsy like the other film]

Jake: I guess not, there’s no car chases or explosions

Sylvie: Harsh

Jake: Truths can be

Sylvie: You don’t like him, do you

Jake: We don’t have anything in common, from what I can tell

Sylvie: Unless I make a joke at my expense here

Jake: Even you, we obviously have completely different approaches

Sylvie: My interest in him is surface level

Jake: The surface being what, his [insert whatever physical feature this boy has, we don’t know cos he doesn’t have a face to us]?

Sylvie: Does it matter?

Jake: To me? That you have any interest in him at all?

Sylvie: Yeah

Jake: I don’t like it, you already know that

Sylvie: You think my interest isn’t past tense?

Sylvie: Imagine how much I don’t like it 

Jake: You wrote is, not was

Jake: What else am I supposed to think?

Sylvie: I’m not saying I’m going to stop seeing him when what it is is a perfectly good cover

Jake: I’m not asking you to use him, or anyone, to cover for me

Sylvie: You didn’t

Jake: You don’t need to

Sylvie: Okay

Jake: Okay

Sylvie: It’s confusing

Jake: My feelings for you are straightforward

Sylvie: What about your feelings for China?

Jake: I should’ve done more to talk to her about that earlier

Sylvie: I’m just asking, not telling you what you should or shouldn’t do

Jake: You made me question her and my feelings because of what you told me

Sylvie: I told you the truth, not for my own gain or something malicious 

Jake: And that truth affected my perception of her and our relationship, both have changed

Sylvie: It’s not my business how you handle this

Jake: You’re emotionally invested in how I handle this, Sylvie

Sylvie: I know but

Jake: It’s as much your business as anything else I do

Sylvie: You have to make the decisions for yourself

Jake: With the information I’ve been given, there’s only one decision I could make

Sylvie: I just look like such a slag

Jake: I’m not going to come out of cheating on her smelling of roses either

Jake: but that isn’t what I’m focusing on, we can’t

Sylvie: I don’t care, I can’t

Sylvie: people’s opinions of me in this place aren’t going to matter when I leave it

Jake: And we’re going to leave, I promised you

Sylvie: Not soon enough 

Sylvie: but you’re right, I’m just embarrassed to be jealous

Jake: I’d be heartbroken if you weren’t

Sylvie: Can’t have that

Sylvie: even though I know you like me more

Jake: I more than like you

Sylvie: And you know you’re the one I want

Jake: I’m still jealous of him too, I can’t help being

Sylvie: You were meant to be

Jake: And you were meant to forget about him when you left the party

Sylvie: Who did I spend the entire party flirting with?

Jake: [French] Your hair did a lot of the flirting for you

Sylvie: Your mouth and hands were the ones that touched me, made me need more, more touching and more of you all for me

Sylvie: you know I spit him out, Jake

Jake: When I can finally touch you again, my hands’ll stop shaking

Jake: and I won’t keep choking on my own spit from [his location] to [the next big landmark] because of how badly I want to kiss you

Sylvie: The fact you’re even just that much closer to me than you were before makes me feel so 

Sylvie: if we meet up outside before, once everyone’s inside, do you think we can kiss?

Jake: They’ve got to buy tickets before the film starts, we don’t

Sylvie: That’s what thinking ahead gets you

Sylvie: as well as getting to be alone as it’s possible to be

Jake: Are you admitting you like that I’m a nerd?

Sylvie: I would never admit to that!

Jake: Quel dommage

Sylvie: Pardonne-moi

Sylvie: I don’t have a type though, not really

Jake: I’d rather be open-minded, people surprise you

Jake: granted, sometimes it’s not a good thing, like with Sam

Sylvie: That really messed you up, didn’t it

Jake: I thought we were best friends

Sylvie: It sucks

Jake: And now [his friend who caught them] sucks too

Sylvie: They’re both just horny

Sylvie: not an excuse but it happens all the time, people suck at our age especially

Jake: People are going to say the same thing about us, Talia would call that karma

Sylvie: Yeah, likely

Sylvie: My friends will be pissed, but I don’t care

Jake: None of our friends are in the position we are, having their lives turned upside down basically overnight by doctors and test results

Sylvie: Even if they ever have to deal with shit like us

Sylvie: there’s no prize for living life ‘right’, we all have to live it how we want

Jake: Clean living isn’t prevention or cure, I’d know, being a vegan for [however many years] didn’t mean I didn’t get sick

Sylvie: Virtue isn’t safety

Sylvie: from gossip, only sometimes but that’s about it

Jake: [some teacher] used to be a nun, right? And she gets gossiped about the most

Sylvie: And who was I before Sam spread my business all around school?

Sylvie: I’d rather be known for this

Jake: You were minding your own business, I’d never heard anyone say anything negative about you before, or vice versa, heard that you’d ever talked about anyone

Sylvie: Never felt like I had that sort of time to waste, who does but losers

Jake: Even back when we thought we had nothing but time, it’s such a pointless way to spend it

Sylvie: I feel bad for them for caring

Jake: Yeah, so do I, for anyone whose life revolves around school drama

Sylvie: All we have is moment to moment, everyone should focus on feeling good, that’s it

Jake: I’ve spent long enough feeling bad about stuff

Sylvie: We’re a better match than you two now, it’s as simple as that

Jake: [French] We’re a perfect match

Sylvie: [French] I have to have you

Jake: I’m yours

Sylvie: I’m going to make you say that in person, I need to hear it

Jake: You don’t have to make me, I’m willing to say it

Jake: in person and/or right now [and give the deets of what public transport you’re on with what friends, because it’s giving a big group of y’all on your way to the cinema and I love that he’s pointing out he’s been talking to and flirting with her the entire time this blatantly, tis part of the thrill again] 

Sylvie: [tell him who you’re with on your DART coming from your area ‘cos you both love it and it’s so blatant]

Sylvie: You’re my background

Jake: [do send her a voice note saying it because you do love it and all your friends will just think you’re being extra about China while she’s at work washing dishes, so]

Jake: I’ve taken [a screencap of a specific point of the vid when she was putting her red lip on, he’s giving the timestamp] to be my new background

Sylvie: How many times can I listen to that? And what will happen first, the DART getting there or me having to touch myself about how you sound in front of all of them

Sylvie: until I give you even better to use

Jake: [tell her that someone in his group saw the pic and thought they were/asked him if they were the lips of someone famous, I can’t think who that could be to namedrop without looking at lips like a crazy person, but it’s giving someone she’d think is such a massive compliment, clearly]

Sylvie: You make me feel like I look like her

Jake: [just be extra about all the ways you think she’s prettier than whoever this is, being specific like Sylvie’s eyes are bigger/a better colour, her hair is cooler, she’s got a better body all that kind of shit because you’re so !! to see her and you therefore mean it so sincerely]

Sylvie: You’re a million miles more attractive than [this celeb’s famous mans either of the now or most famous partner]

Sylvie: boys outside of Paris aren’t meant to look like you

Jake: [whatever this famous man is famous for creating tell her how you’ll do it better and more extra with her as your muse because we’re not just limiting ourselves to music now]

Sylvie: [‘I really, truly believe in you’ as a voicenote]

Jake: [‘I miss you’ as one back, in English but to remind her of when they said it in french when they were being feral before]

Sylvie: [send him a picture of the half-smoked cigarette in your hand like I remember too, as well as a ‘I’ll be with you soon’ voicenote because slightly risky to imply that and make it seem like whoever this is you’re talking to is going to be at the cinema]

Jake: [posting a picture of himself, yes you heard me correctly when he rarely posts on his stories or feed, on this bus or train or whatever with his hair in his mouth, it looks accidental but it’s 100% on purpose cos it’s my fave move showing up again, hand in his pocket cos that’s where the beads are]

Sylvie: [giving that a like, of course, but really letting him know how you feel about it in the DMs]

Sylvie: 🤤 me next

Jake: [oh you should also have y’all’s song on it too because I forgot you can add songs but you can, so we gotta say he did, we can even do his version to pretend he’s just being like look how good I am at singing this cover but we all know what the tea really is]

Sylvie: Can we do a duet?

Jake: [French] Any time

Sylvie: [French] All the time

Sylvie: I wanna try to sing whilst you’re trying to stop me breathing, I can imagine how it would sound but I need to know now

Jake: I don’t know if it needs to be the first or last track of the album, because I can’t wait, but everyone else has no choice but to

Sylvie: There’s multiple ways to try, could be a whole EP in and of itself testing out every single one

Jake: It has to be now

Jake: What’s the title?

Sylvie: Hmm, good question

Sylvie: The prettiest girl with the dirtiest mouth, that’s what you called me

Jake: I love that, gives me a shameless excuse to put your mouth on the cover

Sylvie: You say the best things

Sylvie: and you don’t need any excuse to make my mouth dirtier

Jake: You do unspeakable, unforgettable things 

Sylvie: I like speaking about them all with you, ad nauseam 

Sylvie: being your whore can be my whole personality, I wouldn’t mind

Jake: Ad nauseam doesn’t apply if neither of us get bored of it

Sylvie: Bored was before

Sylvie: I’m alive with you

Jake: Ad infinitum

Jake: you’ll never die

Sylvie: That’s how long I want to be with you

Jake: Ensemble à jamais

Sylvie: If we ever die, we can be buried together in Père Lachaise, and people will come visit our grave

Sylvie: and we’ll never be apart again

Jake: The only rule is you have to have lived or died in Paris and we’re going to do both

Sylvie: We can fit in one coffin, just like our single bed

Jake: No one could begrudge me, being buried with your most treasured possession is an ancient practice

Sylvie: Every time you call me your possession it rewires my brain in the best way

Jake: You started it, you make me feel like I’ve been deprogrammed 

Sylvie: You deserve what only I can give you, that feels like a fact my body knew before it was even in my head

Jake: The prospect of having a piece of my brain cut out is way less scary when, the fact is, my body would still know what to do

Sylvie: There’s literally nothing that can tear us apart, not even death

Sylvie: with me, your biggest fear is gone, so is mine, you’ll be mine no matter what

Jake: Sans crainte

Sylvie: Sans crainte

Sylvie: you aren’t just all I need, you’re all I have, everything else disappeared into nothingness when you looked at me

Jake: I didn’t know how empty I was until you filled the space

Sylvie: I’m made for you, papa

Jake: I couldn’t make you, I’m not that talented

Jake: there must be a God, like my father thought

Sylvie: You are, you’re the best at this and we’re going to get better at everything else together

Sylvie: but you can tell me I make you believe in God, essentially, if you wanna, like 😍

Jake: I’m meant to believe I’m one of his chosen people, and because of you, I do

Sylvie: As you should

Sylvie: I’m not chosen but you could make me

Jake: You’re my own personal prophetess, divinely inspired and guiding me, you gave me warnings the first time we properly spoke

Sylvie: Remind me

Jake: There were so many, you really wanted me to get my shit together

Sylvie: It was important to me in ways I didn’t understand

Jake: It was a calling, challenging hypocrisy is part of what some of them did

Sylvie: I’m gonna have to look into it

Sylvie: even if it comes to me like instinct, I wanna learn more

Jake: Amos is described as being harsh in his approach, you should start with him

Sylvie: Were there any women?

Sylvie: I know you know, your sister would’ve made sure

Jake: 7

Sylvie: Good number

Jake: 48 male prophets, less cool of a number

Sylvie: The ratio is pretty impressive for however many thousands of years ago though

Jake: Women have a sacred role, you’re only born Jewish if your mother is, technically I’m a fraud in that sense as well

Sylvie: That’s harsh

Sylvie: clever system to get nice jewish boys to marry nice jewish girls 

Jake: It’s an extremely traditional, Orthodox view, outdated according to the majority, who don’t do halves and prioritise how you were raised as a child or affirm your identity as an adult

Jake: but I thought you’d like hearing it, knowing how much you enjoy calling me out

Sylvie: I do find it a little bit amusing, I can’t lie

Sylvie: but your mammy would’ve converted, no? I don’t see how that’s not how you’re raised too but I’m not here to be the authority on that

Jake: I guess still celebrating Christmas and stuff like that would be frowned on by the super conservatives, but my family aren’t strict

Sylvie: Awh, it’s not even about Jesus, everyone knows that

Jake: We weren’t adhering to the extreme end of the kosher kitchen scale before my sister converted us all to veganism either, though that’d be a valid reason, avoiding some of those rules and pitfalls

Sylvie: It must be hard to eat entirely kosher, unless you’re making everything yourself

Jake: Yeah, and who has the time?

Sylvie: Not you, sorry to your ancestors

Sylvie: but all things considered, I think they’ll end up proud

Jake: As long as I’m proud of myself

Sylvie: That’s how I feel

Sylvie: Owing anything to anyone just because they decided to have you, it’s a weird concept when you think about it

Jake: Exactly, we didn’t consent to being born

Jake: it isn’t the same as choosing to be in a committed relationship with someone and wanting to be the best version of yourself you can for them

Sylvie: And why do people have babies?

Sylvie: Usually not for entirely selfless reasons, even the parents who do a decent job in the end

Jake: You’d get a wide range of answers depending which relatives and teachers you asked

Sylvie: I won’t ask the biology teacher, give them a crisis about how terrible they must be at their job

Jake: You can come to me with any glaring gaps in your knowledge and you don’t need to call me sir unless you want to

Sylvie: Optional but encouraged, I see 

Jake: Would you roleplay my interview with me, if I get one?

Sylvie: Of course

Sylvie: Seriously too, my one-track mind is capable

Jake: Your one-track mind just needs to be reminded about the free [whatevers]

Sylvie: Go back into strict mode myself

Sylvie: as you’ve missed me calling you out

Jake: Miss or ma’am?

Sylvie: Ma’am makes me feel too old

Jake: I agree, but mademoiselle is seen as problematic unless I actually was a grandfather, so I probably shouldn’t get into the habit openly before Paris

Sylvie: Demoiselle, if you wanna lean into it

Sylvie: I don’t think Parisians of all people can judge you for your manners

Jake: Bonne if I wanna lean in and have them judge me for my disrespectful manners, but as I’m a pacifist, you shouldn’t be encouraging me to get slapped across the face

Sylvie: No one else is allowed to slap you, no matter how bonne they are

Jake: It’s okay, there’s no shortage of other French words and phrases for how hot you are

Sylvie: [French] When we’re alone, you can use whatever words you feel

Jake: [a lil countdown to when they will be but in French]

Sylvie: How’d you make me forget I was on the DART when [x annoying things like teens playing music and smelly people, all the classics that we haven’t played a blind bit of attention to]?

Jake: [do your own version but specific to the annoying things about either the bus or the tram, whichever you’re on, just for fun, cos same kinda vibe as the DART but slightly different too, I’m sure whatever o clock it is there are peeps drinking and babies crying (foreshadowing haha) etc etc]

Sylvie: When you talk to me, next time we’re in school, imagine how much better it’s going to be, all the noise and nonsense made irrelevant

Jake: We wouldn’t bother going back if I didn’t owe you that

Sylvie: You do

Sylvie: it was a bit my fault, I should’ve trusted my judgment and been braver

Jake: It’s my fault and I take full responsibility

Sylvie: This is easier for me, I accept that

Sylvie: Kissing [bf] a handful of times doesn’t put it on a par

Jake: [French] I don’t accept that you’ve kissed him a handful of times

Sylvie: [French] Then it never happened

Jake: [French] I’ll have to kiss you more before the film starts

Sylvie: [Tell him exactly how many boys you’ve kissed before, because it isn’t giving millions you aren’t that gal lol, just like that’s how much you’ll have to kiss me teehee]

Jake: [likewise tell her how many girls you have, you aren’t a slag clearly because that doesn’t fit with who you were trying to be but there’s defs been some girls before China, I literally have content of younger Timmy and Madonna’s daughter so]

Sylvie: I know you kissed [a girl, ‘cos it stands to reason one of them could be one of your friends because you’re in adjacent circles like that and you would’ve had to hear about it]

Jake: [tell her the tea about that, whatever it may be, because you’re so jealous and you want her to be too lol lol]

Sylvie: Do you still have her number?

Sylvie: I can give it to you, as you remember it so fondly

Jake: [write her phone number down like yeah I do, because again, you’re that bitch you’d stay friends with them all unless they refused and again you’re trying to make her jealous haha as if you’re gonna run off with her mate when this was clearly giving a date and a kiss, nothing more]

Sylvie: Another one in the cult, who knew

Jake: You did, she told you

Sylvie: God, you’re so cocky

Jake: [French] And you love that

Sylvie: Oui, mais tu me rends frustré

Jake: Tu me rends fou, c’est juste

Sylvie: Non

Sylvie: [French] Have you kissed her more times than you’ve kissed me?

Jake: [French] I kissed her once, like you

Sylvie: [French] I’m going to kiss you more times than even your mother has

Jake: [French] Don’t ever stop kissing me

Sylvie: I’m so desperate to start

Jake: [tell her you’re literally staring at her location dot thingy move because you’re as desperate and we all know it]

Sylvie: What if someone tries to stay outside with us, what’s the plan

Jake: I’ll tell them to go inside and give us some privacy

Sylvie: Please do

Sylvie: That will be seriously hot

Jake: [saying ‘you’re hot’ in as many ways as he knows in French because like he said there are lots and we’re feeling extra as per]

Sylvie: Pour toi

Jake: [French] I’ll say you need me

Sylvie: I can’t stop thinking about you kissing other people

Jake: What are you thinking?

Sylvie: If I should take the time to slap all of them

Sylvie: or take the time to torture you, even if it means torturing myself in the process

Jake: Torture me how?

Sylvie: Not let you touch, or even kiss me

Sylvie: but I don’t know if I can be strong enough

Jake: You can’t

Sylvie: No, I can’t

Jake: [‘but you can hit all of them, you’re strong enough for that’ in French as if that means it’s okay/he didn’t say it lol]

Sylvie: [French] How does that idea make you feel?

Jake: [French] Desperate to be alone with you

Sylvie: [French] I’ll make it so I’m the only person you’re ever around, how’s that?

Jake: I don’t know the French word

Jake: but handcuff yourself to me

Sylvie: I’ll ask the first gendarme I run into to

Sylvie: about his baton too, naturally 

Jake: Who better than a French policeman, if I’m going to have my first fight

Sylvie: Peaceful protest is not going to cut it

Sylvie: but being anti-authoritarian is still on brand

Jake: You’ll fit right in

Jake: [French] the almost arsonist

Sylvie: It’s dangerous, what you do to me 

Sylvie: [French] Never stop 

Jake: [French] You’ve started a fire in me

Sylvie: [French] It’s a crime anyone let it go out

Jake: It’s a crime you aren’t here

Sylvie: I’d ask my parents to move, if we didn’t have our own plans

Jake: How long have you lived there?

Sylvie: My whole life, when my parents got together, they got the place, it’s one floor, which my dad needed

Jake: A career-ending injury must’ve been pretty severe, not that my [however long] in ballet makes me an expert

Sylvie: Yeah, I don’t make a habit of asking him but if the one thing you’ve worked for and planned for is taken away, well, you’re gonna lose it a little

Jake: I kinda relate, feeling like I’ve lost music lately

Sylvie: It is pretty relatable, even though what I’ve lost isn’t something tangible I can explain

Sylvie: everyone is quick to tell me I haven’t yet

Jake: I was gonna say he might be someone you could talk to, but if he’s in that camp, maybe don’t

Sylvie: They all are, they think it’s comforting, not dismissive 

Jake: Yeah, my mother loves to act as if being an ED nurse makes her an epilepsy expert when she’s mainly dealing with drunks or car accidents, stuff like that

Sylvie: Right?

Sylvie: Everyone is rushing to make apples oranges, just to fill the unknowing gaps, they can’t stand it, so they act like it’s not happening to me

Jake: [French] Don’t they realise there’s a whole world of fruits out there?

Sylvie: Now I’m just thinking about your taste again

Jake: My distraction technique worked

Jake: everyone else sucks, focus on me

Sylvie: My attention is yours

Sylvie: my inability to focus on anything or anyone else might be a symptom, it’s that real

Jake: It is, a symptom of how much you like me

Sylvie: C’est fatal

Jake: Vital

Sylvie: Today was like having to hold my breath all day

Jake: [French] If tonight or tomorrow are the same, it’ll be for completely different reasons

Sylvie: You’re being held to that

Sylvie: and to me

Jake: ASAP

Sylvie: [give a guestimate of how close your DART is now, like SO soon]

Jake: [not you being a massive annoying nerd and making your friends who you are with do the why are we waiting protest chant thingy as if his tram or bus or whatever is delayed af or has stopped mid/is taking ages/the piss when it’s just about this girl not being at your side already lol lol, send her that though because it’s sending yourself up and who she thought you were]

Sylvie: You did not

Sylvie: 😍

Jake: You’re taking too long, we all agree

Sylvie: Love it when you talk in we’s, did I ever tell you

Jake: You love it now you’re in the cult

Sylvie: God, you sound so smug

Jake: I have a lot to be smug about

Jake: [French] thanks to you

Sylvie: [French] the feeling is mutual

Sylvie: [a friend] said it’s obvious I’m talking to a boy

Jake: [French] What did you say?

Sylvie: I wasn’t going to lie

Sylvie: I told them all about you without telling them about you

Jake: [this friend] isn’t going to see me blushing but [his friends] can

Sylvie: It suits you

Jake: [French] Red like your lipstick or pink like your [something else of hers which is a more obscure ref to something else she has worn previously and he noticed when he had no business doing that, like he said earlier]?

Sylvie: You’d look really good in both

Sylvie: and I didn’t need that visual to get in the state I am with you saying that 

Jake: I’m not sorry

Sylvie: You won’t be

Sylvie: no matter how blatant I’m about to be

Jake: [French] No matter how much, I want more

Sylvie: [French] I know exactly what you want

Jake: Because you want exactly the same thing

Sylvie: I want my collar, now 

Jake: [French] Now?

Sylvie: Jake 😣

Jake: You have to wait

Sylvie: ‘Til when?

Jake: [whatever o clock the film finishes because y’all have clearly not left enough time before, it wouldn’t be ‘cool’ to turn up ages before this film starts I’m sure]

Sylvie: Oh, if that’s as long as you meant, then okay

Jake: Am I meant to be making you wait longer?

Sylvie: I thought you might say I had to wait until you decided what you were going to do with China

Jake: I decided last night, it just takes time, and sensitivity, to go ahead with

Sylvie: I know

Sylvie: and I’m capable, I won’t wear it around town, like

Jake: [French] But I want you to wear it everywhere

Sylvie: Moi aussi

Sylvie: 😞

Jake: [French] And never take it off

Sylvie: Put it on me and I never will

Sylvie: I’ll have to think of a reason that your name is there

Jake: If anyone’s getting close enough to read my name there, I’ll have every reason to get into my first fight before Paris

Sylvie: I can’t wait, for anything, and I can’t be sorry

Sylvie: I feel naked without visible signs of your ownership right now

Jake: It’s written all over your face but that isn’t enough for me either

Sylvie: You can write all over me, maybe that will give [bf] the hint, poor guy

Jake: No, poor you

Jake: you’re about to be covered in bruises

Sylvie: But I really am asking for it

Sylvie: my body, my choice… to give all control of it over to you, what could be more feminist?

Jake: [French] A feminist icon

Sylvie: [French] Your family might not hate me yet

Jake: They’ll like you because I do

Sylvie: I more than like you

Jake: [French] The feeling is mutual

Sylvie: Worship is pretty close, but I know the meaning of the word, unlike your other followers

Jake: You’re so unlike my other followers, I almost feel bad for them

Sylvie: I would if I didn’t want to be your only follower

Jake: You’re the only person I’d follow

Sylvie: How obvious can we be?

Sylvie: the urge to unfollow everyone but you online is so strong now

Jake: If you do, I will

Sylvie: [do it because what do you have to lose now and you wanna see if he will shamelessly]

Sylvie: [a screenshot of every app where you were able to do this]

Jake: [do as shamelessly because you only have insta which you barely use anyway so I doubt you have as many followers as are following you anyway and you truly don’t give a fuck rn, soz not soz everyone]

Sylvie: Tell me you’re as turned on as I am now

Sylvie: because fuck, it’s so disrespectful how blatant that is and it’s the best, you’re the best

Jake: I’ll show you in [his ETA]

Sylvie: [adding a comment to his picture from earlier, not full !! but it’s flirty and we know it]

Sylvie: Can’t wait

Jake: [do the same to her iconic petite mort post because you probably just liked it earlier but now you can write something, in French obvs]

Sylvie: Maybe one day I’ll be brave enough to post you making me cum instead of just the aftermath written all over my face

Jake: One day we’ll screen that in [famous cinemas in Paris because I’m sure there are lots for lots of different historic reasons so he can list a few here]

Sylvie: It can be art, it is

Sylvie: I would pay to watch it on the big screen

Jake: It will be

Jake: I told you, alone you already are

Sylvie: Your fingers and tongue are the only parts of you that have been inside me

Sylvie: oh, your hair, how could I forget

Jake: [answer with ‘encore’ because it can mean yet and again, even though technically in this context I’d use a different word for yet, he simply must because both are accurate here and now when the girls are !! and he isn’t as fluent as me]

Sylvie: [the runtime of this film] isn’t long enough

Sylvie: I need longer, more

Jake: No amount of time is

Jake: even after 42 years, I’ll still want more

Sylvie: You’ll have to die inside of me

Sylvie: unless you want to turn me into that much of a degenerate 

Jake: We can be buried like that

Sylvie: Only you could make me not scared of dying

Jake: If we have to, it should be on our terms, the way life is now

Sylvie: Exactly

Sylvie: fuck going out in formal wear all dolled up, who is that, who’s that for 

Jake: [French] All you need is a red lip

Sylvie: [French] And my collar

Jake: [French] And all I need is you

Sylvie: éternellement

Jake: You make me want to believe in an afterlife so that we can be together longer

Sylvie: I won’t tell if you wanna give it a try

Sylvie: your secret is safe with me

Jake: All of them are, I know

Sylvie: I want to be the only one who knows everything about you

Jake: In Paris, I won’t tell anyone anything

Jake: except you

Sylvie: There’ll be no one to tell us we can’t only care about each other

Sylvie: I might pretend not to speak English or French sometimes, just so you’re the only person I speak to for the whole day

Jake: I love that

Sylvie: And some days you’re going to handcuff me to you, right

Jake: No, wrong

Jake: every day 

Sylvie: from now, please

Jake: We’ll have to use my belt for now

Sylvie: You need to believe in the Afterlife because I’m in Heaven now

Jake: Convert me

Sylvie: Flagellate me

Jake: [insert his most extra French swearing to date because we’re not okay in the best way about that, giving religious for obvious reasons]

Sylvie: I need to be the first thing that you really break, that’s what I should’ve asked you to do from the start

Jake: If you’d said that’s what we were gonna do at [the junkyard place they didn’t get to], I’d have gone

Sylvie: I know, for all your good boy talk, I’ve always known how badly you need this too

Jake: I wish you were here to help me up from [either the bus or tram he’s on]

Jake: or to sit with me ‘til [the last stop, wherever that may be]

Sylvie: I’d be lying if I apologised

Sylvie: but I can empathise, everyone can see, I can feel their eyes on me

Jake: I’ll pay your [whatever amount] fine for ruining your seat out of my first wages

Sylvie: Will you, well, this must be serious

Jake: [French] You know how serious I am about you

Sylvie: [French] You’ve ruined me

Jake: Break the seat free and bring it with you, we’ll turn it into an art installation

Sylvie: Worth the [imagining how big that fine would be lol]

Jake: Priceless 

Sylvie: It’s settled, you and the seat are coming home with me, no arguments

Jake: D’accord

Sylvie: You can do all the things I’ve been fantasising about on the way back

Jake: No arguments but I do need spoilers

Sylvie: I want you to cover me in bruises, your fingerprints need to cover me, because you’re coating my insides with your cum, every hole

Jake: I just moaned

Sylvie: I can’t sit still, imagining you spreading me open for anyone to see but only for you

Jake: [French] I don’t want you to sit still

Sylvie: [French] Tell me what you want

Jake: [French] Open like a flower

Sylvie: Your virgin whore, that’s how you want me

Jake: Exactly like that

Sylvie: You don’t care that it’s problematic, it makes you wanna moan again just thinking about how untouched I am

Jake: You want to know if you can make me cum without touching me

Sylvie: Yes

Sylvie: don’t you want to cum for me, I’ve waited for you so long now

Jake: I’m so close now

Sylvie: Spoil me

Jake: You deserve to be

Sylvie: You deserve this, if I can’t walk then that must mean I need to be on my knees for you

Jake: Crawl to me, baby

Sylvie: Daddy

Jake: [‘I miss you’ in french again because they said that when they were being feral before and they’re being feral now]

Sylvie: [say it back and for all your friends who don’t grasp any French know you just said something buck wild because there is not chill to be found here on this day]

Jake: Listening to your voice did it

Sylvie: Do you think your friends know that just happened?

Jake: For sure, they can all tell

Sylvie: They’ll tell when I can’t wait ‘til they’re gone for my present

Jake: It’s a true test of how diplomatic they are

Sylvie: You can feed it to me on your hand if they’re going to be prudish

Jake: My hands are shaking too much

Sylvie: I’ll hold them, it’s okay

Jake: You make me feel more than okay

Sylvie: I want to take care of you, nothing like how your mammy and sister do

Jake: [French] Your own special way

Sylvie: [French] Maybe I’ll write a book

Jake: [French] I have the special ink for you

Sylvie: You’re special, I’ll fight her, you know

Sylvie: Breaking a rule talking about it but it’s too late to pretend 

Jake: She isn’t special to me anymore, you are

Jake: you don’t have anything to worry about

Sylvie: I’m your girl

Jake: I want you to be

Sylvie: You can ask

Jake: [French] Will you be mine?

Sylvie: [saying your oui out loud which is so unserious but we are being deadly lmao]

Jake: And wear my name until we both die?

Sylvie: [do it again, because nbd that that’s like vows lol]

Jake: I need to be yours too, how can I?

Jake: What do you want me to do?

Sylvie: Just want it as much as I can hear you do now

Jake: That’s such an easy promise to make and keep

Jake: of course, vie

Sylvie: Maybe when there’s more blood rushing to my brain, I’ll think of a harder one

Sylvie: but I don’t promise that, it just is simple

Jake: I can’t promise to ever let blood flow back there again when the alternative is keeping you like this

Sylvie: I prefer that promise

Jake: No thinking unless they’re thoughts I tell you to

Jake: that’s a cult leader’s job, I’ll break your brain first

Sylvie: You already are

Sylvie: and I love every second of it

Jake: We’ve only got [however many seconds, roughly probably because you’re not a nerd like that, for the MANY other ways you are] left apart, I’m counting down

Sylvie: Count for us both, my brain can’t handle it right now

Jake: You breathe for us, I think I’ve forgotten how

Sylvie: [send a lil vid of you trying your best because we know it’s giving laboured by this point, even if you have to attempt to hide that fact]

Jake: [call her ‘my good girl’ always in French because it sounds better, which won’t help how difficult it is, for the love of god just type it though and don’t say it aloud because when you’re talking in french it’s obvious to everyone who was at that party who you’re talking to even if they don’t know what exactly you’re saying]

Sylvie: [that’s what we’re saying, everyone knows lmao, it is not subtle at all by this point]

Sylvie: We’ve stopped breathing, bear with

Jake: Okay, explains a lot about how I feel

Sylvie: You’ve only got yourself to blame

Jake: [French] No, this is all your fault

Sylvie: [French] When you say it like that…

Sylvie: I need to take the credit for the state of you as well as accountability for my actions

Jake: [French] That’s more like it

Sylvie: God, I really do miss you, starting to think I could’ve crawled faster

Jake: [turn her location into a sad face because agreed]

Sylvie: Maybe something has died on the tracks

Jake: Repose en paix

Sylvie: I forgot to save a thought, minus karma before I’ve even got to you

Jake: You were doing a good deed thinking about how much I want you here, I’m the one being selfish

Sylvie: We’re both selfish

Sylvie: but we’re allowed to be now, it’s one of the far and few between perks, enjoy it

Jake: I am, every second

Sylvie: Good

Sylvie: because I wouldn’t know how to stop, when I thought that’s what you wanted 

Jake: I thought I had no choice, but I do

Sylvie: I could say you don’t, say it doesn’t feel like a choice

Sylvie: but of course you do and it is

Sylvie: I could’ve chose to ignore this, ignore you, if I really wanted

Jake: We both could’ve and I’m really glad neither of us did

Sylvie: I want you more than I don’t wanna look stupid

Jake: I’m not going to make you look stupid

Sylvie: That’s what boys do, that’s how I felt, rarely worth the hassle

Jake: Other boys maybe, you know I’m different

Sylvie: The fact that’s true…

Sylvie: I should hate you

Jake: [repeating his ‘how angry does that make you?’ from the garden last night but in French because everything sounds better and it makes it sound even more flirty than the OG did]

Sylvie: [voice note ‘I’m still furious with you’ to make it even more obvious it’s Jake because who else have you been more furious with lately lol, of course sounding anything but, even more so than you did in the garden, also in French again to really be blatant]

Jake: [‘life’s too short to be anything else’ also in French and also a ref to something he said in the Garden ‘and even if it’s not…’ again a ref lol, saying this all as a voice note of his own purely so he can trail off there to mean that’s exactly how I want you and I wouldn’t change a thing and obvs also to be as blatant as she is because time is running out to annoy everyone on public transport and y’all have gotta make the most of it while you can]

Sylvie: Your life will be shorter if you avoid me ever again

Sylvie: and yeah, that’s a threat, pacifist 

Jake: Kinda empty when I’ve got you walking on a lead at my heel

Jake: but I respect your right to be an aggressive dog

Sylvie: I like being the reason you’re cocky

Jake: You’re the reason I’m a lot of things

Sylvie: You’re gonna show me

Jake: All of them

Sylvie: I can see [the name of the cinema], we’re about to stop

Jake: Finally

Sylvie: Am I allowed to hug you?

Jake: Yeah, I hug my friends

Sylvie: I know

Sylvie: stopping at friends has always been the issue

Jake: Everyone else will be going inside, like we said

Jake: there’s nothing stopping you

Sylvie: Okay

Sylvie: I’m only freaking out a tiny bit

Jake: We’ll swap, I’ll breathe for us for a while

Sylvie: Aren’t you nervous too?

Jake: I don’t know, I feel weirdly calm

Jake: maybe because you’re nearby

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Sylke pt.1

Jake: [just a note to say that they’ve had an awkward school day and this is after, realistically when China is at work and he’s just been re-reading what was said in messages and torturing himself, safe to say he did not touch her in French haha]

Jake: I’m sorry

Jake: for the majority of what I’ve said since [one of their lines of silly french convo during the party when they were being nerds, cos a bitch is self-refing part 2 of said party convo]

Sylvie: I figured

Sylvie: that’s fair, probably

Jake: Do you agree we can wipe the slate clean and start again?

Sylvie: Can is a question of whether it’s possible, should we, sure

Sylvie: There are plenty of reasons to

Jake: Are we going to?

Sylvie: You’re not going to break up with China, obviously

Sylvie: Did you talk to her today? About this, I mean

Jake: At lunch, I tried to talk to her

Sylvie: How far’d you get?

Jake: As far as acknowledging things aren’t working between us anymore, I thought mutually, but I’m not sure she’s on the same page I am about what that means

Sylvie: It’s off script

Sylvie: She can only promise to do better and I’m sure that rightly made you feel like shit

Jake: Yeah, especially when it isn’t a promise I can make back

Sylvie: You’re tired, not just literally today

Jake: Today’s my fault for staying up and out late on a school night, though

Sylvie: Your sister stayed up all night to let you know that one, hypocritical really

Jake: Totally, she didn’t come in until after lunch

Sylvie: I shouldn’t have

Jake: Me either

Sylvie: How do you feel, after all that drinking we’re not meant to do anymore?

Jake: Like their poster boy for why we shouldn’t

Jake: but that could be my suspiciously empty vape pen

Sylvie: You need some real cigarettes, doctor recommended for all the triggers

Jake: [name dropping all the french brands you know because obvs they’d have to be]

Sylvie: Too late to dare you to ask [their French teacher] what they smoke

Sylvie: your good boy reputation remains intact, thank God

Jake: [in French] What a relief!

Sylvie: [in French] Fool yourself

Jake: Did I make a fool of myself last night?

Sylvie: It was fairly fucking mutual

Sylvie: if it was just me, I’m sure you’d find a way to be patronisingly smug about it

Jake: You told me you’re shameless, I was expecting you to be the smug one

Sylvie: Lucky for you I’m not as shameless as I thought, what would you have done then?

Jake: That depends on what you’re implying you’d have done

Sylvie: You’ve not read any of it back, no

Jake: You wrote a lot of stuff

Sylvie: You too

Jake: I know

Sylvie: And I knew you’d take it back, I said so

Sylvie: don’t worry, you have your reasons, I don’t have to think they’re anything but stupid

Jake: You said sleep on it, I eventually did

Sylvie: You fell asleep on the phone, with me

Sylvie: a heads up on what you decided isn’t much to ask

Jake: The decision was made for me, not by me

Jake: I didn’t get the chance to talk to her properly

Sylvie: Well, big ask for yous to start talking properly now

Jake: She’s at work now

Sylvie: You don’t need to tell her

Jake: If it was a one-time thing

Sylvie: Does all night count as one big mistake?

Jake: Have you decided last night was a mistake?

Sylvie: I told you how I felt

Jake: In the moment, and I told you, we’re not there

Sylvie: That’s your answer then, moment’s over

Jake: We both drank too much, let the moment overtake us

Sylvie: Maybe, okay

Sylvie: but you don’t have to be so weird with me today

Jake: You weren’t any less weird at school

Sylvie: What was I supposed to say?

Jake: What am I?

Sylvie: I still wanted it, alright

Sylvie: so you have to say no

Jake: And if I can’t

Jake: What then?

Sylvie: Talk to me

Sylvie: you’ve driven me insane all day, not knowing what you were thinking

Jake: You should’ve known I’ve been thinking about you

Sylvie: You could’ve been thinking I’m totally desperate and embarrassing

Jake: So could you

Sylvie: That’s not what I was thinking

Jake: It felt like you were hiding from me this time, all day

Sylvie: I’ve never spoke like that, to anyone before

Jake: I’m not evolved enough to feel bad for your boyfriend

Sylvie: How unrepentant I feel is the problem

Sylvie: it’s not cool of me to be causing you drama you don’t need and loving it

Jake: You aren’t causing me drama, I did that myself

Sylvie: Life did that to us both

Jake: Life didn’t force me to bring you a drink

Jake: or your jacket

Sylvie: I think we should accept that we want to be around each other

Sylvie: even if you don’t want to break up with her

Jake: It isn’t fair of me to keep seeing you around unless I break up with her

Sylvie: I can’t hide any more than I have, unless I take more time off

Jake: I don’t like the idea of you taking more time off

Sylvie: [in French] my studies!

Jake: Your accent would suffer, I’d hate that on my conscience

Sylvie: What can you handle on your conscience then?

Jake: I would’ve already touched you, if [his friend] hadn’t interrupted us

Sylvie: Then we can wipe the slate clean from there

Sylvie: that’s more honest

Jake: Deal

Sylvie: Today didn’t happen, that’s not how I want it to be going forward, not even if we have to compromise

Sylvie: it sucked

Jake: We went backwards, like when you were off school avoiding Sam and me

Sylvie: I guess I thought there was no way you’d stand by some of the stuff you said, so I took it all back

Sylvie: too far

Jake: And I didn’t take it far enough

Sylvie: You have no idea how many times I almost broke and tried to talk to you today

Jake: My count is every lesson you were in and every lesson you weren’t, practically a scheduled breakdown on the hour

Sylvie: I thought I could’ve dreamt it all, a side-effect

Jake: Folie à deux

Sylvie: As long as it’s with you

Sylvie: [her bf] is so boring

Jake: You need to be close to have shared delusions

Sylvie: I considered it, getting closer to him so I could think about when it was you

Jake: But you only want real

Sylvie: Yeah

Sylvie: so don’t ignore me no more, it’s lonely

Jake: I stand by saying if I talked to you exclusively I’d be much better off

Sylvie: Wasn’t everyone especially terrible today?

Sylvie: even if you’d let me get a full night’s rest, I’d still not want to deal with the nonsense

Jake: At least I also talked to you in my sleep, like I said I would

Sylvie: Can’t call you out on being totally full of shit

Sylvie: which is rude, you know it’s my favourite hobby

Jake: I wouldn’t know, I had to discuss [someone else]’s hobbies in French earlier

Jake: [shade them by putting the bad french here haha, it’s giving when someone is scrambling, fighting for their life to answer a question]

Sylvie: They’ve never picked up a 🎾 in their life, just the same word

Sylvie: So, go on, tell me

Sylvie: [asking him what his hobbies are, in French, obvs]

Jake: [not you instead of writing your actual hobbies in french eg playing guitar and writing songs, instead telling her via things you did with her last night, so smoking, dancing in the garden and kissing because all french you could know]

Sylvie: I think you’re going to fit right in 

Sylvie: [French] and you sound like a lot of fun

Jake: [French] It was a lot of fun

Sylvie: à tout moment, monsieur

Jake: With you, any time, anywhere

Sylvie: We’ll see

Sylvie: once we work out how to be in the same room with other people around us

Jake: Are you going [somewhere/to something his friends are and have invited him to, could be tonight literally or whenever we want it to be]?

Sylvie: [list of some of her friends] are going, I could

Jake: If you want

Sylvie: Being in the same room as you when I’m not doubting what you’re thinking is what I want

Sylvie: so, yeah, let’s do it

Jake: Cool

Jake: I’ll see you there

Sylvie: Is China coming?

Jake: She doesn’t finish ‘til [an o clock that means she wouldn’t bother coming unless he asked her to and he’s clearly not going to, especially as we said it’s now thursday so another school night]

Sylvie: I’ll come solo then

Jake: [French] Good idea

Sylvie: Wouldn’t want you to start a fight, know what you’re like

Jake: Still a pacifist 

Sylvie: And I didn’t get you a burger either

Jake: [whichever artsy cinema this is] sells hot dogs, I think

Sylvie: We’ll share, I’ll try it first

Sylvie: if it puts you off for life accidentally then your sister wins and I can’t have that

Jake: I did tell you I’d eat anything you fed me, I can’t just take that back

Sylvie: I read it back in every lesson you were in and every lesson you weren’t

Sylvie: you’ll have to be specific if you want to take any of it back

Jake: I don’t

Sylvie: None of it?

Jake: Not really

Jake: not if I’m being honest

Sylvie: We won’t be friends if you’re not

Sylvie: and I’d like to be

Jake: I’d like that too

Sylvie: We’ll do pick n mix roulette, I’ll pick yours, you pick mine

Sylvie: see what you get right

Jake: They’ll probably all taste like [a year you’re saying those sweets have been there since]

Sylvie: Spoilsport

Sylvie: they’ll all taste like [what he said she tasted like], actually, as I’m shameless

Jake: I won’t be angry about it

Sylvie: I might be

Jake: You’d be a spoilsport if you weren’t, vie

Sylvie: You need to add winding me up to your favourite hobbies

Jake: What’s that in French?

Jake: Le wind up? 

Sylvie: They probably do say that and I hate it

Sylvie: Me taquiner is teasing me

Jake: Of course you know the word for tease

Sylvie: Studying doesn’t have to be boring, not how I do it, teacher’s pet

Jake: [French] How do you do it?

Sylvie: [French] If you take notes for me again, I’ll show you

Jake: [whenever their next french lesson is, e.g he’s saying tomorrow if it is, also in french]

Sylvie: C’est un rendez-vous

Jake: D’accord

Sylvie: And tonight, are you feeling alright about it?

Sylvie: Maybe that’s a cliche, the whole flashing lights thing, I have no idea

Jake: Photosensitive is a genuine type of epilepsy, but not a common one

Sylvie: Not yours, good

Jake: It could still be a trigger, technically, they didn’t bother to rule out all the rare ones with the diagnosis

Sylvie: Right

Sylvie: I shouldn’t have any popcorn, that’s about it

Sylvie: but I’ll make sure you’re paying closer attention to me than the screen, as a friend

Jake: My own personal EEG test, that’s romantic

Sylvie: Sounds it, doesn’t it

Jake: If we want it to

Sylvie: Everyone else will be distracted

Jake: They usually are, easily

Sylvie: We might be, the film could be really, really good

Jake: [French, to use that word] You’re teasing me, aren’t you?

Sylvie: [French] I want to be

Jake: Would you be able to eat popcorn if I chewed a piece for you, really well?

Sylvie: Probably not but

Sylvie: I have to try now

Jake: You can always spit it out, I’ll be doing it first

Sylvie: I get to taste it, wherever it ends up

Jake: [French] Taste me

Sylvie: It feels like we kissed for hours when it can only have been seconds

Jake: Maybe a minute, at most

Sylvie: Will he be there?

Jake: I think so

Jake: I’m glad there’s an agreed no talking rule

Sylvie: You’ve not then

Sylvie: I don’t blame you, sleeping on it or not

Jake: He’s sent [however many messages this boy would, obvs not giving the amount of times his sister rang him when he was at the party but Jake going for the same ugh energy typing it like it’s the same] messages

Jake: I haven’t replied yet

Sylvie: Maybe he does want something after all

Sylvie: well, if he wants to look he’ll have to be serious about it, we’ll sit behind him

Jake: I was hoping he’d forget everything he saw, he drank more than both of us

Sylvie: Are you worried about it?

Jake: The tone of his messages aren’t any different than how he spoke when you left, unless he hasn’t sobered up yet, he’s got no excuse

Sylvie: He hasn’t messaged me, that’s something

Jake: And thankfully there’s a no phones out rule later as well

Sylvie: You’ve made me glued to mine but as you’ll be there

Jake: I’ll glue you to me with half-eaten pick n mix

Sylvie: I wanna be sticky and I want it to be all your fault

Jake: [write the french word for sticky which I think would be collant in this context but idk if it has an e or not]

Sylvie: You owe me

Jake: I won’t let anyone interrupt us this time

Sylvie: They didn’t when we were in the garden

Jake: It’ll be even darker

Sylvie: Darker than when [the bday girl] blew out her candles

Jake: As dark as it would’ve been if you’d turned every streetlight off on my way home

Sylvie: I would’ve laid out there talking to you all night

Jake: It feels like I almost did, but I can’t have

Sylvie: You had to have a row, and not even with me

Sylvie: which is really mean

Jake: We might have one about the film and your wrong opinion, our odds are better than the 3% I’ve got the kind of epilepsy to cause a fit during instead

Sylvie: Don’t make me throw one, boy

Sylvie: we’ll get out of there if we need to, then you tell me what to do, okay, no big

Jake: I’m not above lying about a seizure coming on if the film sucks

Jake: or I just wanna go somewhere else with you

Sylvie: I’m telling you, you should be using it to your advantage

Sylvie: I might tell you I need you to chew up all my food for me

Jake: I should, that’s a veganism get out clause even my sister would struggle to argue against

Sylvie: Unless she’d rather I die, I need your help

Jake: Not before she’s met you

Sylvie: When can I come over?

Jake: Are you being introduced to my mother too or are we staggering them?

Sylvie: I know how busy she is

Sylvie: you have me over to study more often and I’m bound to catch her eventually, right?

Jake: And we’ve established, you need to eat, so you don’t die

Jake: we have dinner together [on whatever day or days your mum can swing eating with y’all]

Sylvie: Okay, let’s do it

Sylvie: I can behave, I just forget my manners around you

Jake: Behaving for me, Talia or my mother involves very different things

Jake: but I’ll coach you while we’re ‘studying’

Sylvie: I’ll behave for you before anyone else but test me

Jake: I won’t test your behaviour by taking you to the cemetery, we’ll skip his introduction

Sylvie: You’re going to introduce me with [the songs he told her to listen to that are about his dad]

Jake: Yeah

Sylvie: I didn’t listen today, I didn’t wanna colour it by being in my feelings about you ignoring me

Jake: I appreciate that

Sylvie: I’m going to though, and the rest

Sylvie: I don’t mind that they’re about her

Jake: My former bandmates mind, which is why they perpetuate the rumour I haven’t ever written a song about anything or anyone else

Sylvie: I had heard that

Sylvie: even if it were true, most songs are love songs

Jake: You know how long we’ve been together, when to skip if you don’t want to hear songs written in that chapter of my life

Sylvie: Yeah

Sylvie: You’ve got lots to write about now

Jake: Or a valid reason for writer’s block when everyone finds out how sick I am

Sylvie: It’s your call either way

Jake: If one of my friends calls inviting me up on stage I’d have to put the phone down

Sylvie: It feels too risky

Jake: Performing is the only trigger I’ve pinpointed for sure, if I was keeping track in a notebook, that’s double underlined

Sylvie: I get it, so no stages and no bright lights

Jake: I’ve been wondering about the stage at school, as a test

Jake: but [the people who would] are always hanging around

Sylvie: S’a good idea though

Sylvie: leave it with me, I’ll make it happen

Jake: What are you going to do?

Sylvie: Don’t sound so worried

Jake: Sneaking in after hours is breaking and entering, dressed up to sound less like a crime

Sylvie: That wasn’t my plan

Jake: No bright lights or sirens

Sylvie: Promise

Sylvie: don’t you want to sing to me?

Jake: I do owe you, you did for me

Sylvie: Not that I’m keeping score but I am

Jake: [The song that became their song because it was playing] is scored into my brain

Sylvie: I need to hear it from you

Jake: [not you sending that because all you had to do is sing it and play the guitar part not write anything like you would your own, so doing a version of it rn, nbd]

Sylvie: Oh, wow

Sylvie: no warning either

Jake: I mean, you had [however long the pause was, for however long it took him to do that], but I guess not

Jake: because you didn’t give me any at [bday girl]’s house

Sylvie: It’s my favourite song now

Jake: Mine’s [whatever she sang to him]

Sylvie: I should probably be embarrassed, but I’m not

Sylvie: I’d sing to you anytime, anywhere

Jake: You have been, I’ve listened to you sing [however many times you have today while y’all were ignoring each other, and tell her where too, all the classes, the bathroom breaks etc]

Sylvie: You missed me

Jake: I thought the lyrics might help me find something to say to you as an icebreaker

Jake: [and drop your fave lyric, whatever that might be from this french song], for example

Sylvie: I can’t say it wouldn’t have worked

Sylvie: if you’d have said anything

Jake: I missed you so badly

Sylvie: I missed you more

Sylvie: we have to be friends

Jake: We like each other, we said we do, if neither of us takes it back

Sylvie: I can’t, I was going to be more of a bitch to you when you finally spoke to me but that’s not happened

Jake: I was going to say you can be my

Jake: but I can’t

Sylvie: [French] Tease

Jake: Salope

Jake: Are you happy now?

Sylvie: Happier if you really say it

Jake: [write out the full ‘you can be my bitch’ in french as if that’s what she means/wanted because you’re teasing her a little but also baby steps for you]

Sylvie: [writing out I am over and over like lines]

Jake: Really say it

Sylvie: [send him the ‘I’m your bitch’ voicenote and do it in French, gotta encourage his babysteps]

Jake: [encourage her back in French by typing out ‘very good’ because she said that to you last night in the garden and you remember]

Sylvie: I want you to call me a good girl again after tonight goes so well

Jake: After I give you a goodnight kiss

Sylvie: I’m already sad you’re leaving 

Jake: I’m not leaving, Sylvie

Sylvie: Then sleepover

Jake: Talia would outdo my broken brain by having an aneurysm 

Sylvie: Yeah, I know

Sylvie: no fun her taking the negative attention that hard but

Jake: You know I want to

Sylvie: I know

Sylvie: someone will throw a party we can crash at soon

Jake: [list all your friends' birthdays and upcoming events with the same frantic energy as when he couldn’t shut up talking in the kitchen]

Sylvie: The France trip!

Sylvie: Were you going? We made the first payment ages ago

Jake: Before my mother and sister became overbearing, I was supposed to be

Jake: but that payment wouldn’t get returned now, so maybe I can convince them

Sylvie: This is for your studies, and it’s culturally enriching 

Sylvie: if they’re going to say they’re against that then you may as well never leave your house

Jake: They’d rather I didn’t anymore, and it’s necessary to leave the country for this

Sylvie: What do you want?

Jake: To go

Jake: even more than when I signed up

Sylvie: Then you’ll go

Sylvie: they know deep down putting your life on hold is wrong, they’re just scared, so are you, it’s not a good enough reason to stop

Jake: The prospect of sending me to [wherever they’re going] under [the chaperone teachers 1 and 2]’s supervision isn’t putting their fears to rest

Sylvie: What will, I could take a first aid course, probably

Sylvie: depends how long they take, I’ll see

Jake: Would you, seriously?

Sylvie: Why not

Jake: You don’t need to, I’ll show you what to do, but it’s mainly common sense stuff and calling an ambulance in the worst case scenario

Jake: the fact you’d offer though, is beyond cool

Sylvie: And I won’t need to do any of it, I’m sure, but if the idea that I know what to do makes them chill out

Jake: We’ll bring it up over dinner, they can quiz you on what I’ve shown you ‘til they chill out

Sylvie: Not as fun as you testing me but I’ll pass

Sylvie: I’ve looked some stuff up, I don’t know if you’ll hate that but I can’t lie about it

Jake: I’ve looked up my mother’s go-to recipes to make sure they won’t make you sick, ingredient by ingredient

Jake: and what substitutions I could make if I need to

Sylvie: That’s so thoughtful, Jesus

Jake: When I tell my sister you’re coming, she’ll make up a brand new recipe just for you, she asks all of her friends about their dietary requirements as if they’re pronouns and need to know

Sylvie: What does she want to do, for Uni and after?

Jake: [tell her what uni course this gal is hoping to do, even if it’s between a few and she hasn’t decided yet on one or a specific uni either because she still has time, it’s always giving something very do gooder-y and eco, obvs, but I’m not gonna look at them all and pick]

Sylvie: She’s cute, I have a very clear picture in my head of her already

Jake: Everyone says we have the exact same face

Sylvie: You do

Sylvie: I thought me and my mammy were dead ringers but you could be twins

Jake: I’ll tell your mother you two could be twins when you invite me over, get on her good side

Sylvie: You are such a suck-up

Jake: I’m not apologising for wanting her to like me

Sylvie: I wouldn’t expect you to

Sylvie: and it won’t be terrible if they like you

Jake: The perks are gonna outweigh the coolness of a star-crossed lovers angle, you’ll see

Sylvie: Amants maudits?

Jake: Have you seen the 1952 film?

Sylvie: No, is it any good?

Jake: I haven’t either, but it’s online, we should watch it sometime

Sylvie: Definitely

Jake: It’s a date

Sylvie: There’s a perfume, I’ll get it

Jake: Can I get it for you? I’d like to

Sylvie: In that case, I won’t stop you

Jake: Thanks

Sylvie: I’m the one that’ll be thanking you

Sylvie: I don’t know how yet

Jake: You don’t have the bottle in your hand yet

Sylvie: It’s a thank you for you wanting to buy it, a thank you for actually doing it

Sylvie: the thank you if we like the way it smells is the least important but you will still get it

Jake: There’s a wine I’m going to try and buy you too, if my sister’s boyfriend is the romantic he claims to be and can be drafted in to help

Jake: he turns 18 [the date in / how he likes to do, whenever we want this boy’s bday to be]

Sylvie: You’re so romantic, he better join the cause

Jake: I’d offer them a glass, but it’s not vegan as far as I can tell

Sylvie: You can show me how to make some vegan food for them, as a thank you, then we don’t have to share anything 

Jake: His favourite is [whatever it is], we’ll do that

Sylvie: Why didn’t I know you were fun?

Jake: You barely knew me

Sylvie: Only the bad stuff

Jake: We had our own creative differences, in that I’d created a persona you couldn’t stand

Sylvie: I thought it was real, that you loved all the bootlicking you seemed to inspire in certain people

Jake: I thought if I embodied who certain people wanted me to be hard enough, it would become real

Sylvie: Pretty high and mighty of me to judge you so harshly for that, what teenage boy doesn’t want what you have

Jake: I don’t, not anymore

Sylvie: You want real

Jake: Yeah

Jake: [French] I want you

Sylvie: [French] I’m yours

Jake: I feel pretty high whenever you say so

Sylvie: You’ll feel higher when I can say it in front of you, properly

Jake: When’s that gonna be?

Sylvie: [whenever your cinema date is, which we can be kind and say is tonight lol]

Jake: I’ll save you a seat 

Sylvie: Ha, you better

Sylvie: I’m not sitting next to [his friend who caught them in the party kitchen]

Jake: Behind him, I remember

Jake: he’ll be sitting next to [some girl everyone thinks he fancies when jemily knows it’s Jake’s sister]

Sylvie: Very unlike me to put myself in the middle, you’re right

Jake: Possessive of me to put us in a corner

Sylvie: So do it

Sylvie: you are

Jake: Show me what your bruises look like, you didn’t this morning

Jake: they would’ve been unignorable 

Sylvie: I’ll know how to get your attention next time

Sylvie: [send him pics, you’ve defs been putting your fingers where his were and therefore making said bruises worse]

Jake: I know how to keep yours

Sylvie: You know that I feel sick with you, dopesick without you

Jake: Today left a scar, we’re both uglier for it

Sylvie: I don’t have all the answers for what happens next

Sylvie: but that can’t happen again, I need to be around you, no matter who else is

Jake: No one else is who matters as much, whatever happens

Sylvie: We can tell each other our secrets, be ugly

Jake: I meant what I typed, however ugly this gets, you’re fucking beautiful

Sylvie: I meant it too, I’ve never seen anyone prettier than you, and now I have no desire to keep looking

Jake: Look at yourself

Sylvie: No, you look at me

Jake: I am

Sylvie: Doesn’t it feel good knowing you own me

Jake: I’d be disowned if my family knew how I feel

Sylvie: I’ll try to just call you your name in front of them

Jake: I’ll try to just call you yours, or your nickname

Sylvie: I won’t sit still if it’s my nickname

Jake: You’ll be a good girl, do whatever I want

Sylvie: Yes, sir

Sylvie: do you want me to be touching myself right now looking at pictures of you?

Jake: Until I’m touching you so you have right now to compare it to

Sylvie: I hope someone sees

Sylvie: how I look at you, no one else exists before you’ve even touched me, think how obsessive I’m going to be

Jake: Toxically

Jake: you don’t look sick unless you’re looking at me

Sylvie: I want to need you more than any fucking meds

Sylvie: I’d rather swallow you 2 times a day, more, as much as I can take

Jake: You already do

Jake: you’re shaking while I’m still halfway across this city from you, at the thought of me lining your stomach

Sylvie: How am I meant to talk to [the rest of the peeps going to this cinema with y’all, lest we forget]

Sylvie: I don’t even know how I’m going to walk there now

Jake: Don’t talk to them

Jake: put your fingers in your mouth and refuse to spit them out, like they’re mine

Sylvie: [do that now and take a photo, casually, this cheating is not subtle lol]

Jake: [likewise take a photo of your hair in your mouth as if it’s hers, oh fringegate]

Sylvie: We need to work on your hairball, immediately 

Jake: Your hair won’t grow down to your waist immediately

Sylvie: Mean

Sylvie: I’ll start now

Jake: I’ll keep biting it back to the length it is now

Sylvie: I do need to fit in with the Paris girls

Jake: I need to cum in your cool girl fringe

Sylvie: Please

Sylvie: we’ll go to the bathroom, I don’t care how obvious it is, you have to

Jake: The disabled toilet is ours

Sylvie: How is this the first time that perk has occurred to me?

Jake: You’re inspired

Sylvie: By you

Sylvie: I thought I was meant to be the muse, boy

Jake: Nothing about our dynamic is one-sided

Sylvie: That’s true

Sylvie: I’m losing count

Jake: I’m insanely connected to you

Sylvie: I’ve felt it since we first spoke

Sylvie: I feel you under my skin

Jake: Your skin doesn’t want to be a barrier between us

Sylvie: The bruises don’t go deep enough

Jake: How deep do you need me to go?

Sylvie: You’re teasing me again

Jake: Tell me

Sylvie: ‘Til there’s no space for air between us

Jake: We’ll suffocate completely on our own terms

Jake: ‘til you feel constantly simultaneously the most dead and alive you’ve ever felt, just like I did, and do, because of you

Sylvie: [French] Choke me, daddy

Sylvie: I can’t believe the things you can make me feel, shit you make me say, but I don’t care how I sound, it’s what we need

Jake: [saying ‘like a slut’ in French obvs cos babysteps but that is how she feels and sounds rn so he gotta, it can be the same word he used for bitch earlier cos they’re interchangeable but use a different one for the flex of knowing another word for it] 

Sylvie: Yours

Jake: Mine

Sylvie: How did this happen?

Jake: We went from not really knowing each other existed to no one else does

Sylvie: If you told me I was in a medicated coma, I’d not be surprised

Sylvie: just really gutted now

Jake: The record is about 42 years, I’d be cool with spending that long doing this

Sylvie: [when 42 years ago is giving about 2004 (I think) so you’re talking about films and music from then like it’s that long ago]

Sylvie: and imagine 42 years from right now

Jake: [do a nerd and be having fun imagining the future as well as popping off about the past as if it was forever ago and all of that is such niche lost media because soz China but he is a massive nerd and we love to see it, me and my boo forever cackling]

Sylvie: How old were your parents then?

Jake: [tell her because idk how old they were or are now tbh]

Sylvie: [tell him about your parents because they were 4 and 6 and I think the mcvickers fam moved to Ireland in 2003, deffo around then even if we’ve moved it so drop that lore]

Jake: [likewise tell her about yours because you can drop the lore of your dad being from New York and when he moved here and how your parents met, none of that was in 2004 but nevertheless]

Sylvie: Have you ever thought about writing a song about their love story?

Jake: Maybe if I ever get the chance to visit New York the song might sound closer to the vision I have for it, my other drafts ended up scrapped

Sylvie: You should, it’d be amazing

Jake: You should come

Sylvie: I hope you’re not waiting for me to say no to be polite

Jake: I’m hoping you’ll say yes

Sylvie: It’s New York, of course I will

Jake: My mother’s been saving to take us for Talia’s 18th, I’m not supposed to know she only has half the total because [something broke or some kind of emergency happened]

Sylvie: That sucks

Jake: At least the surprise hasn’t been ruined for my sister, I guess, if we can’t afford to go she’ll plan something else and the birthday girl is none the wiser

Sylvie: You’ve not told her

Jake: She’d be heartbroken

Sylvie: You’re a really good brother

Jake: Plus she’d go hunting for another job or 2 on top of her existing shifts at [wherever she works] to try and help pay her way, her stress levels are already through the roof

Sylvie: That’s the last thing she needs

Jake: We’ll have the money for sure by her 21st, as long as you send us your thoughts and prayers

Sylvie: You can have all my thoughts and prayers

Sylvie: what else am I doing with them

Jake: Do you seriously think [the place she said he should work when they talked about jobs they wanted before] would hire me or were you being polite?

Sylvie: I’m never polite

Sylvie: They’d totally hire you, you’re an asset

Jake: And you’d cover for me, lie that we’re studying together at yours when my mother or sister ask where I am?

Sylvie: Obviously

Jake: I’ll owe you big time, whatever you want

Sylvie: Anything?

Jake: Anything

Sylvie: I’ll have to think about exactly what I want, don’t want to waste this opportunity

Jake: I’ve got the whole process from filling out my application to being interviewed to get through before I can even start

Jake: take your time

Sylvie: It’ll be a cool place to hang, you might even get free [whatever this place is serving, literally lol]

Jake: I’ll give you free [whatever it is]

Sylvie: You’ll be bringing in so much other business, they won’t mind, nor me hanging around all the time

Jake: I’ll mind less than they do

Sylvie: That’s good, as I’m giving you no choice in me stalking you

Jake: [turn your location back on for her like y’all were doing last night cos you would’ve turned it off when avoiding her all day]

Sylvie: [turn yours back on and draw a lil 💘〰️💘 between y’all on the map thing showing where y’all are, which is giving home rn probably]

Jake: [recalling how she described her bedroom and playroom to him and being like are you here or here rn, being specific about where exactly]

Sylvie: [you’re probably in your bedroom getting ready at your vanity right now so tell him that and ask him where he is exactly]

Jake: [I’m gonna say you’re just chilling on your bed because you’re probs gonna get ready in 10 minutes right before you need to leave lol so send her a pic because it’s a nice throwback and parallel to when they sent each other those pics that they then set as their phone screens]

Sylvie: Look at you

Jake: You did want pictures of me to look at

Sylvie: All I have right now is your tagged, lowkey, you never post

Jake: I’ll post us tonight, a bathroom selfie once your fringe is wet again

Sylvie: No one but us will know what’s actually going on in it

Jake: [French] Our secret

Sylvie: Secrets are a good thing, I was just pissed off Sam ruined mine for me

Jake: I’d thank her if you weren’t my secret

Sylvie: She does deserve the heartbreak but

Jake: Thank you for wiping her kiss from my memory

Sylvie: I would do that for anyone, so especially you

Sylvie: no one deserves that lingering

Jake: It used to keep me awake, what I should’ve done

Jake: picking apart our former friendship for clues I missed

Sylvie: She saw what she wanted, an opportunity that wasn’t there

Jake: She exploited an opportunity I gave her

Sylvie: and she fucked up the friendship you had, it’s her loss

Jake: And according to you, China’s done the exact same thing

Jake: fool me twice, shame on me

Sylvie: Were you friends before?

Jake: I thought so, kinda

Jake: not like me and Sam but we’d hung out

Sylvie: I’m not exactly helping you with that complex, am I

Jake: We’re different, we’re not built on a lie

Sylvie: I’ve tried to be very upfront with how I feel, even if it changed before I knew what was happening

Jake: You are

Jake: [a french equivalent of ‘very upfront’ because she has always been but it’ll sound sassier to y’all whatever the word for upfront might be idk, franc or franche (for m and f) appaz I just googled lol but you can also say direct or pas du tout hypocrite so why not write them all and be extra sir, for fun + ‘that’s true’ because it is]

Sylvie: 😄

Sylvie: I think you’ve improved, can call that my good influence at work

Jake: At French, being more upfront or both?

Sylvie: Now you mention it, both

Sylvie: [but compliment his Frenching in French lol]

Jake: [French] Thanks, it really is because you’re such a good influence

Sylvie: I’ve hope of your mother and sister liking me yet

Sylvie: provided I remember we’re not the only people in the room when they also are

Jake: Provided I fake a seizure to let you show off how well you take care of me

Sylvie: Reckon you could?

Sylvie: It’s been years since you were [his starring role]

Jake: It’s the role I was born to play, genetically, epilepsy sufferer 1

Sylvie: You would make a stunning poster boy

Jake: There’s a lot of fierce competition

Jake: [and be listing famous peeps and historical figures because you clearly looked it up as soon as they diagnosed you]

Sylvie: 😮‍💨😮‍💨 Okay, maybe we’ll be in touch then

Jake: Who’s yours? Do you have any?

Sylvie: It’s not as mysterious, not many cool people wanna put their names to it

Sylvie: [name the truly random celebs who have talked about it like see lol]

Jake: You’d still be the coolest, even if [celebs they’d like, it’s giving whoever sang their song and peeps you know she likes from her posts and aesthetic] put their names to it

Sylvie: Fine, you’re cooler than Ian Curtis too, I was just playing

Sylvie: you’re the coolest to me, by a long shot

Jake: [just be teasing her asking her if you’re cooler than such and such or such and such though because there’s truly so many celebs and historical figures to pick from that you can really have fun with it, like Joan of Arc is literally one lol, pop off doing this for a while as she’s getting ready because you’re so touched by what she said and you’d be even more extra if you addressed it]

Sylvie: Pretty bad feminist if you think you’re cooler than Joan of Arc

Sylvie: but that whole thing was pretty Christian too so maybe you can get away with being smug

Jake: The smugness gets wiped off my face a little when you discover my Jewishness likely contributed to it

Sylvie: Well, that just seems like a cruel joke for God to play

Sylvie: seriously?

Jake: I don’t know, there’s loads online about Jewish communities being smaller and more geographically isolated which causes something called genetic bottlenecks

Sylvie: Oof, and then your dad got with an Irish girl, God knows what sort of genetic bottlenecks are occurring here where everyone knows each other

Sylvie: pretty doomed, before you even knew it

Jake: But next time my sister is losing it at me as if she’s the sick one, I do have a whole list of other genetic diseases she might be a carrier of, not just my doom and gloom

Sylvie: Throw the DNA tests and accusations out

Sylvie: it’s very tempting, I know my mammy was having words with the doctors herself in case she’d had it too the whole time and that’s why she struggled to have me in the first place

Jake: Does she?

Sylvie: Nope, just clutching at straws

Sylvie: she has/had/idk [whatever issue Meena did have to affect her fertility journey, won’t be specific but I’m sure it’s as cut and dry as that, but you’re like what if]

Jake: [tell her what issue either your mum or dad had because I said that your sister was a test tube baby too but you weren’t, it’s giving something slightly less serious like a low sperm count or low estrogen or whatever]

Sylvie: And then some people trip and get pregnant

Sylvie: it’s all so random, lucky or unfair

Jake: C’est la vie

Jake: I didn’t think I’d flip from cursed to lucky during a house party for [the girl]’s birthday, of all things, no offence to her

Sylvie: No offence

Sylvie: but as far as I’m concerned, it was a party thrown exclusively for us

Jake: When’s your birthday? I don’t actually know

Sylvie: [me either Jake lmao, must give you one, also not entirely sure when this convo is set so can’t tell you if we’ve just had it or it’s close]

Sylvie: I’m so gutted I missed your bar mitzvah, I don’t think I even wanna know when your next party is

Jake: I could throw another exclusively for us, set you a Torah portion to recite to me, my father would either only spin a few degrees in his grave, or be proud that I’m indoctrinating you

Sylvie: Indoctrinating is too hot of a word for you to not do it to me now

Sylvie: If I’m going to get lured into any cult by a hot boy, Judaism is one of the better options, my parents can breathe a sigh of relief 

Jake: You already called me a cult leader, I might as well do what you’ve accused me of

Sylvie: Long as I’m your favourite

Jake: As long as you’re my most devoted follower

Sylvie: Sam tried it

Sylvie: you don’t want devotion from just anyone

Jake: What do I want?

Sylvie: You want to be seen and known for who you actually are

Sylvie: and you want me

Jake: [French] You’re absolutely right

Sylvie: Pour toi

Jake: For me

Sylvie: I’m devoted

Jake: [again just frantically write every french word for it there is because they never just have a single word, I know of 3 just off the top of my head without googling and we love being extra]

Sylvie: You keep me so turned on, I can’t think straight

Jake: I can think for you, that’s what [insert the most Jake esque cult leader here because I’m not gonna look every cult up] would do

Sylvie: You should

Sylvie: or all I’m gonna be good for is being your sex toy

Jake: Your lips were created in the image of one

Sylvie: [some boy from school] said I look just like one, not wrong, honestly

Sylvie: [send him a video of you attempting to put on your lipstick/lipgloss because hi lips but also you genuinely are struggling to do it well because you’re as !! as he said]

Jake: I’m struggling as much to remain a pacifist right now

Sylvie: Sorry, I wasn’t trying to rile you up like that, however hot it is

Jake: You don’t have anything to be sorry for, he does

Jake: but I’ll see him around at school tomorrow

Jake: What kind of apology do you want?

Sylvie: 🥴

Sylvie: One where he’s fully aware you’re the only one who’s allowed to use me and he’s not even allowed to think about it for too long

Jake: [not you choosing the most public place and time at school to set this ‘apology’ so everyone would know if you really went ahead and did this, telling her like it’s a plan set in stone]

Sylvie: I’d die for you to kiss me in the exact same place

Jake: For [the exact runtime of their song]

Sylvie: It plays in my head on a loop, with your voice instead of [the lead singers]

Jake: I’d sing it for you there

Jake: and [places in both Paris and new york that have the most tourists and therefore are giving the same school public place energy but x 10000]

Sylvie: You’ll stop traffic, genuinely

Jake: You could do that without opening your mouth

Jake: every street we walk down in either city, they’ll try and scout you to model the latest fashions

Sylvie: Us, we could do it together, ‘til we get bored by all the vapid people and go do our own thing again

Jake: I’ll never be bored by anything we do together, you’re too interesting to me

Sylvie: I feel too busy to die when I’m with you, too important

Sylvie: we’ve got so much more to discuss, to discover

Jake: You’ll live forever as my muse

Sylvie: I want to make things with you, not just music, film and photography and art

Jake: We aren’t limited by anything except inspiration, which means no limits for us

Sylvie: Swear you mean none

Jake: I don’t have to hold anything back with you

Sylvie: I don’t know how it never felt like a risk, showing you this side of me

Sylvie: when no one else has seen it before

Jake: Because you’ve seen sides of me no one else has before too, we’re equal partners in this

Sylvie: Partners in crime

Jake: And in life, however long it is

Sylvie: Deal

Jake: If I die, my only regret will be leaving you alone

Sylvie: You’re not going anywhere without me, I would never let that happen, not now

Jake: Anywhere you can’t come with me, I won’t go, I don’t care who wants me to

Sylvie: We’re not bound to anywhere but we’re bound together always

Jake: [do a french translation of that because you REALLY like it]

Sylvie: [not you repeating it back in your best accent like this is a listen and learn exercise here via voicenote, nbd]

Jake: [do it too like these are wedding vows because they might as well be at this point, I fully imagine him getting that engraved on a coin style pendant that flips because they are both sides of the coin baby, yin and yang, beautiful and ugly etc etc, so one side english and one side french for her, asap, as a note to myself]

Sylvie: I don’t think I’ve ever been this excited to go anywhere, to see anyone

Sylvie: I know it

Jake: I’ve never been this angry at my sister that she doesn’t drive and I can’t pick you up

Sylvie: When we go out tomorrow, I’ll pick you up on my bike, if you’d like

Jake: I’d like that a lot

Sylvie: Unless you want to study tomorrow, I don’t mind staying in 

Jake: We’ll catch up on our homework Sunday

Sylvie: Lazy Sunday, sounds perfect

Jake: You sounded perfect, I keep playing your voice note

Jake: and my body keeps reacting to it like you’re in the room

Sylvie: I can feel you missing when we’re not in the same room

Sylvie: even today, not talking, the ache was so much worse when you weren’t in the classroom

Jake: I haven’t been punched but I imagine that’s what it would feel like if someone hit me in the stomach over and over

Sylvie: I’m not letting you go through that again

Sylvie: it might be wrong, I know, but I don’t care, I’ll just become your best friend, no one can say anything then about me being around you 24/7

Jake: The French is ambiguous, no one can say anything if I call you copine, it means friend and girlfriend

Sylvie: She doesn’t take it anyway

Jake: Neither does [the friend who caught them who is pissing him off]

Sylvie: He’s definitely not your copain

Jake: He’s my ennemi

Sylvie: Ours

Sylvie: I’ll struggle to ever forgive him

Jake: [not you telling her what he said when you refused to before like yeah fuck him, I see you saying it in English whatever he called her because they’re not your words and that’s how you’re getting around it, like ‘he said…’ idk his exact wording but he’s essentially calling her easy and a hoe, we know]

Sylvie: Does it count when it’s just for one person?

Sylvie: Maybe I’ll start claiming it, better identity than sick girl

Jake: His opinion doesn’t when I’ve already claimed you

Sylvie: He doesn’t make me feel anything when he says it

Jake: He doesn’t know anything about you

Sylvie: He doesn’t tell me what I am, not my cult leader

Jake: Not my friend

Sylvie: I’m sorry he sucks

Jake: I’ll lose most of them when they find out I’m epileptic anyway

Sylvie: Only the ones worth losing

Sylvie: fuck them, you’re incredible

Jake: They’re all worth losing if they speak about or to you like that

Sylvie: I want to be so toxic about you anyway, keep you all to myself

Sylvie: the less people that offends the better

Jake: [not you writing out the french word for codependent when it’s the same but just with an accent on the e, I can’t, Jacob, please]

Sylvie: I like you a problematic amount

Jake: Be my biggest problem too, Sylvie

Sylvie: Yes, I promise

Jake: Cause me so much trouble

Jake: starting with walking

Sylvie: I’ve been dreaming about it since you messaged me, every night

Sylvie: being who you call when you’re alone, text when you aren’t

Jake: What do I say when I call you?

Sylvie: You tell me where I need to be, how I need to be waiting for you

Jake: [do call her and say exactly that, ofc you’re going to, and y’all have called before already so it doesn’t count as far as he’s concerned, not that he cares rn]

Sylvie: [making such a NOISE just from hearing his voice ‘let me hear why you can’t walk’ shamelessly because you know what that means and you want him to touch himself about it]

Jake: [shamelessly do because it’s nothing you haven’t done before either you let her watch you be a right heathen and then go back to the party last night, so, nevertheless sober this will hit different when she can tell he’s being just as extra, as per, no hesitation, MOAN her nickname again while you’re at it just like you did in the garden but with even more !! if that’s possible]

Sylvie: [it will be hitting because there’s no denying this, not that either of you clung to the drunk defence for any length of time anyway, being so loud with how you’re touching yourself he might think you’ve put your phone right up to your crotch but nay nay, just that turned on as you MOAN his full name right back, like anyone who is somehow (some reason) listening in needs to know who this is in aid of]

Jake: [love that they’re both being that loud rn as if he doesn’t have a sister who’s already sick of his bs and could be home rn too for all we know, no fucks given, soz gal, I hope for your sake you’re at work, telling her ‘I miss you’ but in French because it’s more dramatic to literally be like you’re missing from me, using that tense even though she’s right there and you’ve been talking to her basically the entire time prior to this]

Sylvie: [look away and preferably don’t be here rn fam, no fucks given on this day, repeating the dramatic French ‘I miss you’ ‘til you run out of air and have to breathe as dramatically to try and get some back, asking him to come over like he can be here now and it wouldn’t be too late by the time it would take him to actually get here]

Jake: [not you telling her to light a cigarette when you hear that dramatic breath despite knowing full well she’s indoors and sat at her vanity but he said what he said because he’s remembering when she did last night and he wants what he wants, baby steps to being a bad boy whomst, knowing 100% in the same way and with the exact same energy that they’re both gonna cum way before she finishes smoking it if she does light one atm]

Sylvie: [SCRAMBLING to find your bag to get a cigarette lit ASAP, making so much noise because you’re way too close to be doing something that requires this level of attention but you gotta because he told you to and that’s all you want, if it wasn’t a videocall already, making it one because he has to watch you to prove you’re doing it, even though it’s going to kill you the second you make EYE CONTACT lowkey ‘I’ll save it for you’ because we all remember him saying he wanted to eat her garden cig]

Jake: [I vote that it wasn’t a video call until she makes it one then because that’s so dramatic and I love it, she’ll get to go from how audibly LOUD and !! he is that she is doing as she’s told so immediately to also getting the visual, god bless, that EYE CONTACT would be painful in the best way too, they’re both completely losing it haha, calling her a good girl because she wanted to be told she was and he remembers that, plus she just is being so how can he not]

Sylvie: [screwing your eyes shut when you take far too big of a drag off this cigarette that is lowkey going to have you fighting for your life because you were unable to control your breathing about this and that’s kinda key, here spluttering and coughing and still finding time to say ‘yours’ because even in peril you are SO lost rn lmao, shamelessly fucking yourself that much harder about it]

Jake: [likewise being as shameless about how much he likes every second of her having to fight for her life because it’s reminding him of when she said choke me daddy and all that suffocation talk, playing with whatever necklace he’s wearing atm, because Timmy is that bitch, to lowkey choke himself a little bit too, while his other hand is absolutely fucking himself senseless, saying ‘my baby’ for the daddy of it all so she knows exactly where his head is, in french because when she said that it was, I think]

Sylvie: [we all remember and this REMEMBERING is sending both of y’all over the edge, just making NOISE because you can’t quite speak yet but you’re !! and on the same page and that’s the only way you can let him know, NODDING FURIOUSLY about it whilst you watch him like correct, no notes ‘made me so tight, want you to feel it’ dropping so many words there to get the sentence out but you simply must tell him how choking effected your muscles spasming all over your body because remember that for later vibes lol]

Jake: [the girls are hanging on by a thread and so is this necklace he’s about to break in front of her in real time because of his reaction to finding out that piece of muscle spasm info and how it has him CLUTCHING at this jewellery too hard, I’m imagining it’s a beaded or pearl choker kinda one fully because Timmy has and would, and that’s more dramatic when they cinematically go flying everywhere all over him, it’s giving how an artsy film would symbolise someone cumming and I love that for you, just perfect vibes when combined with the UNHINGED noises he is making]

Sylvie: [it’s too perfect and seemingly out of a film that this girl is LOSING it, doing the hottest of hot lols of all time because the fact that that just happened and it looked as beautiful as it did has you wondering if you are in some kind of coma, dropping ash on yourself with this laugh and crying out like that burned so much more than it ever would but we know why you’re actually crying out]

Jake: [just accidental cinematic excellence across the board because we all know how hot she looks with that cigarette that has either lipstick or lipgloss on it and doing her hot lol, she literally looks like a film star herself rn and he’d tell her that if he could speak but he simply can’t, only managing to do such a dramatic GASP when she drops her ash and cries out as if she’s in such genuine peril but we likewise know why you’re doing it]

Sylvie: [you’re welcome lads for this movie experience you are getting before you even make it to the cinema, have never felt more feral in your whole life, only being able to adequately communicate that to him by losing all control with how you’re pounding your fingers deep inside yourself, letting him see far more than you did the last time y’all did this, no holding back now because you need this so desperately, calling him daddy all the ways you can in English and in French, it’s giving free association because thought has left the chat, this is on feeling alone now]

Jake: [mhmm if y’all cared about the film at all later you’d be so disappointed but we all know why you’re going and it isn’t to watch it, has equally never felt this feral in his whole life because his gf isn’t bringing this energy to phone sex, she isn’t even bringing it when she’s in the room, likewise only being able to show her how hard he’s losing it because he drops his phone onto his lap when he’s trying to give her a more indecent view too, making such a good !! sound as if he has been punched in the stomach for the first time in his life when it lands right where he’s the most sensitive, scrambling to pick it up again so he doesn’t miss a second of being able to watch her with the same energy as she was scrambling to light that cigarette, apologising as desperately in french and english as if he ended the call on purpose when he did nothing of the sort and y’all are still very much connected]

Sylvie: [imagine if this was all about the film, sorely disappointed lmao, thankfully it is merely an excuse to spend time together and we will rinse it for all it’s worth, not before we’ve absolutely killed each other and made leaving the house a TASK though, why would you not, I just know that when he makes this !! sound like he’s been winded, you are CUMMING likewise like you have never before, a miracle you can hear his fervent apologies but you must be able to because the WHINING you do like he’s kicking you whilst you’re down is so real]

Jake: [mhmm, this cinema outing started out as nothing more than an excuse and better venue for him to touch her without being interrupted, which is more likely when it’s dark and their friends are either gonna be watching the film or having a makeout sesh depending who they are, he still will be doing that defs but it’s become so much more too since these extra bitches have been talking, speaking of extra bitches, in no world is watching her cum that hard not gonna make him do the same, even harder, just pure noise and insane breathing, thank god, because I don’t trust what he would say if he was speaking, do put your hair in your mouth like it’s hers again too though and BITE IT at the sound of her whining because I love when he does that move]

Sylvie: [my boo says you shut your mouth sir and I agree completely, y’all have said enough and we know where it is headed without you literally doing it now, plus you truly are gonna be in shambles ‘cos you probably fell off the stool you were on and now need to locate this cigarette to stub it out so you don’t start a fire in your weakened state because tomeena don’t need their house burnt down thank you miss miss]

Jake: [stools are treacherous at the best of times especially the sort you get with vanities so yeah that’s totally legit, add to the bruises he already gave you girl with some leg ones or something, he’ll love to see that when he sees you IRL later, and god yes please don’t burn the house down, you’re welcome boy that your biggest mess is some beads and a lot of jizz, recover and when you feel like you can manage it, go and get in the shower (even if you have to do a little sit in your weakened state lol, nobody will know) because there’s no just cleaning up the aftermath with a tissue and getting ready like it’s nbd when you were as feral as that]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

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[deathdoesntkillyou]

Mali pt.2

Ali: [creating further difficulty for yourself in regaining composure and control of your breathing by hot loling because you simply must when you can’t believe that just happened and here too, shaking your head like what the hell, lifting your head to check on Django and see that he is (somehow) still sleeping, turning back when Moses is resting on your bump again like OH, allowing him for a while, stroking his hair whilst you gently remind him (and yourself) ‘I’m meant to be working’]

Moses: [y’all are welcome that whatever the nan medicated him with made that child even sleepier than usual as Moses knew and said it would, shaking his own head to remind her that she’s on a break ‘and he owes you how many hours off?’ a rhetorical question because she’s already told you that the literal first break she’s taken was when the work van shenanigans the other day, kissing her, like a peck but it’s more extra than that, we all know, as he gets off her and up, like relax, making himself decent because as per they only got naked enough and going over to this makeshift kitchenette area like he’s about to demonstrate to her what taking a break looks like lol, filling the kettle but forgetting to flick it on because he’s distracted by scavenging around for some kind of snack that’s lying around (no way you aren’t hungry after the feralness, I get it sir and one thing about you, you love sugar) and shoving said biscuit or cake or whatever it is into his mouth before turning to grin at her holding it between his teeth like see, this is what not rushing off looks like, opening his arms, gesturing for her to come over and walk into them rn immediately instead of going back to work, cos he’s not taking no for an answer]

Ali: [going to explain that you don’t need time off because you’re so grateful for this man and everything he’s done for you and you barely view this as a job all things considered, but you don’t actually need to because all of this is obvious, so just spluttering a bit before raising your hands like okay, okay and reclining in this chair, getting comfortable when his weight is removed from you, watching him, amused, grinning, almost tripping over something in your haste to get over to him, catching yourself via holding onto his waist, pulling yourself up onto your tiptoes to try to steal some of this sweet treat from his mouth with your own like that’s what he was calling you over for]

Moses: [he’s being blatant and we all see it haha, only continuing to be more so when he picks her up and puts her on one of these kitchen counters, in my head shamelessly picking one that most faces the door so her boss could stroll it at any time and get an eyeful of what he’s about to do so she’s peak #exposed, pushing his face to hers now that he’s sorted the height diff problem, like there you go now you can easily take a bite of this sweet treat, his mischievous expression giving that she’ll need something to bite down on which is true (so I hope it’s a hard biscuit and not soft cake lol) because he isn’t yet fully convinced she still won’t run off back to work and therefore he’s undressing her again in a HOT move of pulling however many of her clothes down in one (flashback) and pulling her legs apart ridiculously far and doing the same thing he did last time she had to when they hooked up in the work van, once again here using his hand to fuck all his jizz back into her, doing it very slowly and deliberately (and doing the most when she’s had absolutely no recovery time might I add) not only making sure every SOUND of it is LOUD in this room but to also taking his sweet time obvs to try and delay the inevitable of her leaving as well as increasing the odds of her potentially being caught like this]

Ali: [seeming like you’re really enjoying that sweet treat to a ridiculous degree, considering it is just a biscuit, the way you’re making such an unrestrained noise of pleasure with your mouth full, trying not to spray it in his face immediately so using your fingers in a not dissimilar way to push it back into your mouth from around your lips, sharing the mischievous look when your eyes aren’t LOOKING at what he’s doing to you and checking the door, doing a big swallow with some difficulty and GASPING his name like you’re asking him what he’s doing]

Moses: [it’s not how he originally intended to make her gag and choke in this office but he’s loving it anyway, especially because he doesn’t have to pause what he’s doing to lick her lips like they’re his own, insane EYE CONTACT during that which is giving LOOK at me not the door when her gaze goes to there instead of her watching what he’s doing which he considers acceptable]

Ali: [catching his tongue with your own, giving him a taste of the biscuit but also tasting him, copying his movements by darting your tongue into his mouth, letting him know what it feels like as much as you can without being fully feral, not that you keeping your eyes trained on his like he did earlier looking at Django is not unhinged given y’all could get caught like this but you know, telling him, right up in his grill, about when you came back to work after the van hookup and how it felt to be full of him still]

Moses: [changing up his moves so that she has to her copying tongue ones as if y’all are just playing a fun and childish game here and not being as indecent as you are, likewise keeping the insane eye contact maintained so there’s the further challenge of who might blink or look away first happening, equally up in her grill asking her if she wants to be more full as if they can just stay here forever and hook up again because no fucks given by this man and we all know he’ll be getting turned on again by her big ass eyes and every word she’s said so]

Ali: [just having a lovely time and being determined to keep up (even though you aren’t recovered enough for this to not be killing you) and to not look away before he does, nodding dramatically and your hair attacking him, which feels like accidental cheating for which you are not sorry lol]

Moses: [being so silly and being so indecent at the same time, such fun y’all are having while Django is knocked out by the remedy not far away and that old man serves customers singlehandedly lol, how on brand for y’all, using his free hand that’s not killing her to BIG stroke her hair away in such a daddy how dare you try and cheat when I mean business manner and then HOLDING it out of the way in his fist so she can’t cheat again ‘say you want it’ shamelessly forcing her to have to speak when you know she cannot] 

Ali: [I can’t fault you diva, even though this is highly unprofessional of you in all the ways, you have not been having fun in your life for a long time lol, you need this, telling him as much, pressing your forehead to his so your eyes are almost touching like you’re squaring up here and not telling him ‘I think I wanna be full of you all the time’ like a confession]

Moses: [soz to her bestie boss that he brings out her irresponsible and unprofessional side but she is but 16 years old and she does need some of this energy in her life, especially before baby Rio is born and she’s run even more ragged caring for both a toddler and a newborn while still being a child herself, pressing his forehead to hers harder and using that to push her further back on the counter so she’s flush to the wall instead of on the edge, like again, she’ll need that to steady her if he’s fucking her senseless ‘you think?’ like he’s not sure he heard her currently because he wants her to have no doubt whatsoever at any point, which is forever their issue as we’ve said before]

Ali: [accidentally turning on the kettle that he forgot to earlier when you’re being pushed into the wall and CLAMP your hands down on the countertop to try to collect yourself, rolling your booty away sharpish so you don’t get burnt, loling but with a !! edge because you want him so bad you doubted your instincts and considered just staying pressed up to that kettle that was heating up ‘you know’ like I don’t need to tell you ‘I’m thinking about it’ as if it’s a correction because you are in my head all the time right now and that’s what counts]

Moses: [genuinely reacting to this kettle as if he doesn’t know what one is because they’re so in this moment that their surroundings have practically been forgotten about, however temporarily because they’re always relevant again when he wants to be indecent and maybe get her caught, beyond curious what her own reaction is going to be because there’s the same part of you that would let her stay pressed up against a hot kettle too and your eyes are BURNING themselves with that recognition and validation that you do think the same and you must be in her head, nodding as you continue to touch her like yep I know because her body is telling on her every single second how much she wants you the same way yours is ‘you’re so needy’ as if this wasn’t your idea sir and you didn’t all but beg her just now to tell her how !! she is] 

Ali: [having to pull his face to you IMMEDIATELY and making out with him like your life depends on it because you saw it too and you love when it gets unhinged, hence showing him said booty like excuse me, do you not think you’ve done enough damage to it, it’s giving when cats shove it in your face like hello lol, just a further compromising position you would have to die of shame if you were discovered in, nbd, pushing against his fingers so he’s touching you ever harder about it like yeah I am ‘surprised if you’re the only one that can hear that’ because as my boo said, the noises are LOUD and unrepentant on this day ‘they can know’ shrugging like it’s casual and you aren’t referencing the fact he’s told anyone and everyone he can about you]

Moses: [no hesitation in making out in an equally unhinged manner to everything else that has come before this because you’ll always love that and there’s no better feeling than this girl matching his freak with very little encouragement needed, hence he does not think he’s done enough damage to it and he’s likewise not hesitating to put a finger of his other hand inside her booty hole too (very unhygenic behaviour in this kitchenette on this day) like that’s what she was asking him for, and shamelessly spurring her on to be louder in reaction to that and accidentally on purpose tell EVERYONE, a GRIN into these kisses because it’s not at all casual to him but we can pretend we’re just happy about filling every hole rn] 

Ali: [my boo says excuse me, this is where we prepare tea and ready meals, show some decorum, but they are not, arching your head back so dramatically to keep making out with him whilst in this position, making everything he’s doing to you that much deeper which is driving you crazy, repeating the word yours over and over because saying more is becoming harder, not just because y’all are kissing]

Moses: [truly, stop it, but they can’t be tamed, not even after he kills her with these antics because it goes without saying that’s when he’ll be initiating a hookup, Jonathan loved to do that too, getting her to the point of passing out and then having her wake up to that, therefore I must, no notes, probably end up doing that on the floor sir, when she’s so dead that she can’t hold herself up in a sitting position on this counter, so that’s a throwback to being on his floor too, I just know he was running his mouth hardcore when she was passed out and couldn’t hear him lol, saying such extra shit as if other people might not]

Ali: [my boo says how’s that for a throwback sis, and what a throwback it is, coming ‘round in a different place to where you last remember being and with him fucking you like a crazy person, and you’re clearly catching the tail end of something he’s saying that’s so extra and you’re like OH, starting to cry but not in a dramatic fashion, like the tears are falling without your consent or understanding why, holding onto him around his neck like you need comfort but also are pulling him into you still]

Moses: [me here screaming she NEEDS to go back to work, but this boy is unrepentant and he’s also far too carried away to notice she’s awake until she literally signals it by holding on him, feeling the tears then when the wetness hits his skin and it’s different from sweat and can only be her crying, having his own OH moment, so pulling her face to his to LICK the tears from it with the same energy as when he licked the lollipop residue from her hair on day 1]

Ali: [my boo says I’m being so serious now lmao, or you may as well go home honestly, what are we doing, we know what you’re doing and it’s falling for each other but that’s not what you’re paid for, letting him lick you and making a tiny OH kinda noise about it, shaking against him because you’re so weak from everything that has happened ‘you can take it when you want it’ kissing his cheek like this is the most romantic thing he could’ve done, cupping his other cheek in your hand, stroking it softly like he’s a baby]

Moses: [I can’t insist she does when this has been emotionally draining as well as physically thanks to Jonathan and the miscarriage reveal and this man certainly won’t but girl please, you gotta find a way to go after this lol, stroking her hair like she’s a baby to keep it out of his way as he continues to kiss her face cos mouthing it after licking it like he needs to make sure he didn’t accidentally miss a single mm of this tear track ‘I’m going to take it, see how much more you can’ soft voice like he’s speaking to Django instead, because she’s baby rn, stroking the back of her neck too but also softly in complete contrast to how he was squeezing it earlier]

Ali: [I will have Django stir or somebody knock into this door and make y’all jump up real fast, don’t you worry, we’ll get you out somehow lol, because you aren’t showing any signs of stopping, even though she’s so sensitive and physically exhausted, she doesn’t care, shaking her head ‘doesn’t matter’ in a hushed tone like she’s telling him a secret when it’s clear how much you enjoy being pushed beyond your limits and then some ‘we only stop when you say it’]

Moses: [my boo says or so help me and she’s so right for that, this poorly child would stop you because he does genuinely care so much and if Django even made a tiny noise in his sleep he’d be like omg must check, but rn, he’s just moving his mouth from her face down to her chest to kiss her everywhere there in exactly the same manner because he can always push her further into overstimulation and those nipples are how, kissing the injured one better like it’s his job, smiling at how his mouth is now too busy to say stop because the vibe is that he never will]

Ali: [doing a shockingly loud MOAN for how dead and soft you’ve been since he killed you because you lowkey forgot how sensitive your nips are right now and he’s just reminded you in stunning fashion, swearing every swear you can think of and pushing his head down to say more]

Moses: [that unexpected MOAN nearly killing him right there and then because he didn’t think she had it in her to be that loud right now and he loves to see it, having to fuck her frantically about it, running his mouth about how he’s gonna fill her up in every possible way he can think to say that in both languages while his mouth and hands both go SO much harder with these nipple antics with the same desperation to them]

Ali: [using the strength you barely have to fuck against him as hard as you can, demonstrating just how weak he has you but still as willing and needy as ever ‘keep me like this’ like it’s feasible for y’all to stay in this state forever because currently that is all you could possibly want ‘I’m made to be broken by you’]

Moses: [nodding dramatically, using the gesture to pull on her sensitive nipples all the more, hopefully that’s the uninjured one because don’t actually pull the already hurt one clean off this time in your !! because we’re playing along that it’s possible y’all can stay like this forever despite the fact he’s losing it as she speaks and barely hanging on ‘weren’t me who broke you in but I’m who can fill the hole in you, deep as it goes’ unnecessary emphasis with how deep he’s inside her as he says that, sir we get it]

Ali: [devolving into just making SOUNDS that are clearly meant to be words but you have lost the ability to be coherent about it now because exactly what you wanna hear paired with this overstimulation, it’s curtains, the only word that is understandable being ‘again’ because going to pass out again, do that again, say that again, all of the above tbh]

Moses: [the girls are mutually losing it because in no world will it not kill him at the thought of her passing out again even if she actually doesn’t before he’s cumming inside her as if he never has before, the levels of drama are unparalleled, having to SUCK on her nipple as hard as he can to at least slightly muffle his own NOISE as he does, trying to speak but he’s likewise lost the ability to the way he’d love to be running his mouth to the fullest atm, ‘like this, or how else I’m after having you’ however long that takes him to say ‘you’re with me now, mine to keep’]

Ali: [RIP to you both, and not sorry that you get no chance to recover because you had it and we ended up here again so you’re cut off and whether you passed out or just died beyond being dead, you are being snapped back to reality by someone getting this door in such a way that you think someone’s about to come in, lucky you don’t hit the deck with how you shoot up and pull your clothes back on like you are ready to get back to work, nothing to see here, bye boy, you’re on your own lmao]

Moses: [it’s the way he doesn’t care for me, whoever may be about to burst in, he’s unbothered, his only reaction is to reach out and steady her when she gets up so that she doesn’t immediately hit the deck and fall flat on her face but that’s purely a protective instinct towards Alison and baby Rio, tell me why I imagine someone’s big butt knocking into this door like mine does hehe, some chubby lady innocently shopping while blessed with a booty that won’t quit or someone’s cardigan getting caught on the handle as they go past and not someone about to bust y’all at all, anyway, he’s just watching her amused as she speed dresses, lowkey holding her up, then checking on this sleeping child with a look as if that noise from the other side of the door will be what wakes him and Moses is so offended anyone would dare, catch him loudly and cheekily shhing the person and not Alison or himself, iconic]

Ali: [that’s absolutely what it’s giving, just people going about their day but you know you should not be in here acting like this and you don’t want your sweet boss to have any sort of inkling that you have been so you’re truly flying out so uncasually, hence sending this text but moments later]

Ali: If he needs anything, let me know

Moses: He’s got me to get him what he’s need of, you’re working

Ali: I know, but I can run out if you need me to fetch anything, or bring him to me if he wakes up and he’s upset

Moses: I’ll handle it, we can be upset together you left us

Ali: Don’t say it like that, I don’t want to

Moses: You got what you wanted

Ali: Stop that, I’m only in the next room

Moses: Charming the regulars and your boss, don’t work on me from all that distance away

Ali: Haven’t I charmed you enough already

Moses: Not yet, no

Ali: That’s rude, so you can join the club

Moses: Would be to say I’d had enough of you

Moses: and a lie

Ali: I miss you too

Ali: someone with a walker in here, must’ve hit the door on their way ‘round, I’d not have ran else

Moses: Hurts my feelings you can run still much as the fact you did

Ali: Don’t think it was easy

Ali: [tell him you’re doing a job where you can lowkey be sat doing it, like cleaning a bottom shelf or similar]

Moses: I’m thinking of the mess the floors would be in, you making any sudden moves

Moses: oldie in the walker’d be over

Ali: You don’t sound very sorry about that

Moses: Your fault if they break their hip, I didn’t tell you to run off

Ali: You made the mess in the first place though

Moses: You made it

Ali: Say it was for me

Moses: What do I do that’s not for you?

Ali: It’ll be really embarrassing when I have to get a mop 

Moses: If you start to blush, warn us so’s I’ve time to stick my head out

Ali: I’m a professional, thank you

Ali: cool, calm and collected 

Moses: Whore’s a profession but paying for it would embarrass me, even at your customers ages

Moses: best you’re [doing the job she said she is]

Ali: Tell me about your dating history, I don’t know who you’ve been out with

Moses: That’s ‘cause I don’t go out with anyone how you mean

Ali: You never have?

Moses: Why would I?

Ali: I suppose the main reason, putting feelings aside, is to make it clear that you wanna be exclusive with them

Moses: And I didn’t, they’re welcome I made myself clear and never played no games

Ali: Fair enough

Ali: I thought that’s how I saw things too but then in practice, didn’t really happen

Moses: You’re a girl, s’harder for you

Ali: So’s all the people you slept with before, assumedly

Ali: I’m needier than I imagined

Moses: I ain’t a deviant nowhere but your fantasies of us at work, that’s true

Moses: and that I got what I needed from those women and girls then moved on is too

Ali: Oi, leave my fantasies alone

Moses: Do better

Moses: you could have me doing anything

Ali: I have, in reality

Moses: In reality, you’re being a tease, all this talk of busying yourself with a mop and bucket

Ali: Oh, so that’s what you’re thinking about

Ali: I’ll be good for nothing if I don’t distract myself from thinking of you

Moses: Nah, I’m deciding what I’m gonna teach this boy to say when he wakes up

Ali: Teach him all the words you use at work, he’ll like that

Moses: He’ll be asked back when he’s better, he’s liked there

Ali: No one minded?

Ali: That’s nice to know

Moses: No one’d dare mind in front of me

Moses: but he’s a good lad and little worker, they don’t

Ali: He’s not stopped talking about it

Moses: I’d have him every day if he wanted

Ali: Maybe when he’s a bit bigger he could do a day or so

Moses: Sure, I’ll teach him everything my daddy taught me

Ali: Aww, bet you were adorable 

Ali: I should ask Miri all about you

Moses: I wouldn’t bet on her calling me that

Ali: Not to your face, ‘course 

Moses: Or yours, it’d only encourage you

Ali: Encourage me?

Moses: She told me to calm down with you

Ali: Yeah, but she doesn’t talk bad about you to me

Moses: She don’t feel she can, to anybody

Ali: I wouldn’t say she holds back, just because she appreciates what you’ve done for her 

Moses: You would if you heard Clem talk

Ali: Unlikely 

Moses: She’s a real bitch

Ali: You didn’t wanna talk about it earlier but yeah, I could tell you’d had a row

Moses: A smidgen of holding back wouldn’t hurt her, at times

Ali: Have you hope by their next anniversary? 

Moses: Of what?

Ali: That lesson having been taught and learned

Moses: I’ve none by her death bed, her stubborness has already been taught and learned to where there’s no getting rid, same as mine

Ali: Be why you argue, too alike

Moses: Be her choice of husband, if you ask me

Moses: her pretending she had a choice, at least

Ali: You’re never going to agree on that

Moses: I don’t agree with my sisters being sold off like horses, no

Ali: Don’t think many would blame you

Moses: The few who do are plenty but fuck them

Ali: I wasn’t taking the piss when I said you’re a romantic, it’s a good thing

Moses: She was

Ali: Sometimes you feel like you have to follow your brain, as a woman 

Moses: When you haven’t a heart, ‘course

Ali: To protect it

Moses: There’s no part of her she should need to from me

Moses: if she don’t know that, then Jesus, what’s the point

Ali: Not from you, but if she felt like you were attacking her choices 

Moses: If she’ll make choices like that, they’ll be attacked

Ali: You’ve right to your opinion

Moses: She’s hers about Miri who had less say in anything

Ali: Ronan said that’s what they’d been taught and told

Moses: He’s a eejit, she’s meant to be smarter

Ali: Girls always are

Moses: Have to be

Ali: Why?

Moses: Look what happens when they’re stupid, there’s no grace

Ali: Life’s not a bed of roses when you do everything right either

Moses: Living isn’t about doing only what you’re told

Ali: The more girls are allowed to fuck up just like boys, the faster everyone will get used to it

Moses: I’ll ask my [nan] how I can guarantee having just girls and let them do as they please

Ali: Fix everyone’s wrongs

Moses: Daughter at a time

Ali: I believe you 

Moses: I’ve no reason to lie

Ali: Believe in you, then

Moses: If there’s a God, he made me exactly as I am, he don’t get to bitch and moan about it later, my mammy don’t neither

Ali: You’re not bad, anyway

Moses: Am I not

Ali: No

Ali: you care about your family

Moses: My cousin would say he cares about his, proves nothing, does it

Ali: Depends

Moses: Bad men hide behind all manner of things to make themselves look good

Ali: Your actions show who you are

Moses: What do my actions show you?

Ali: You know, I just told you

Moses: And you can’t repeat it? Come on, what says you

Ali: I think you’re a decent person, Moses 

Moses: Don’t hear you choking from here, must’ve been easier than you reckoned to get the words out, like

Ali: You like hearing me speak too much

Moses: Who else have I to speak to? He’s asleep for all my poking of him

Ali: You best not be poking him, he’s got to get his strength up 

Ali: can’t you think of another way to entertain yourself

Moses: He’s got to play with me, you’re too busy

Ali: Or you could come out here and make yourself useful

Moses: You can’t reach [something he saw in this shop in the literal minute before he went straight to the office], is it?

Ali: That and

Ali: can think of plenty of jobs for you

Moses: [do come out and grab whatever it was and either hand it to her if it’s an object or put it on her if it’s clothes like there you go, whether she actually needs it or not and regardless of what customer she may be serving or what she might be doing]

Ali: [smiling at him big ‘thanks, darling’ because gotta show him you aren’t ashamed to be seen with him and you really aren’t it’s just a learning curve from how you had to be with Johnny, grabbing his arm like before you think of going anywhere and steering him to a job he can help you with]

Moses: [smiling back, he’s aiming for a smug smirk because ofc she’s glad to be seen with him his ego says but it’s more genuine than that because hers is big and adorable and he really is thrilled ‘no problem, sweetheart’ because can and will match your energy, likewise no hesitation in helping her with whatever else even if he does have an obvious ear and eye out in case this child unexpectedly wakes up]

Ali: [giggling a lil because it feels funny to be calling each other pet names like a wholesome couple when you’re nothing of the sort, showing him the baby monitor you have on you like don’t worry, this ain’t my first rodeo, boy, gesturing for him to lift you up to get something up high because you wanna]

Moses: [all these old people in this shop are bound to be fooled though and thinking y’all are very sweet which only makes it more amusing, god bless that baby monitor too because he isn’t gonna wanna rush back and do his babysitting duties when he can be picking her up, show off to the old ladies how easy that is for your sir, you’ll love that haha]

Ali: [oh you will love being a tart for all the old dears, which we will find endearingly amusant, shaking your head and leaving him to it like enjoy sir]

Moses: [he will enjoy hamming it up because he is that bitch but that won’t stop him from calling after her asking her if she wants a cup of tea purely to remind her about the hot kettle moment and distract her when she’s trying to work, nothing to see here everyone it’s a wholesome offer, nothing more]

Ali: [LOOKING back at him like oh no you didn’t ‘you’ve remembered’ like you’re just having some coworker bants like you offered earlier bitch but y’all are just having a lil moment here on the shop floor]

Moses: [giving her a mischievous grin because oh yes he did tehe, LOOKING back at her as he retraces his steps back to the office to make her a cup of tea purely to enjoy the reminders of what occurred in there as if it was forever ago because it already feels like that, make her boss one too sir you’ve gotta keep him on side so these gals can live in the flats, bring it to her when you’ve made it and say ‘careful, it’s hot’ just for the kettle mems]

Ali: [perving on him making his way back to the kitchen shamelessly, excuse us everyone we’re not apologising, nor are we when we’re sipping this tea as we make EYE CONTACT like you are boy]

Moses: [maintaining the eye contact as he asks what else he can do for her, more for the saucy connotations of it than being given another actual task lol but we all know whatever she tells him to do in this shop today he will]]

Ali: [the urge to be like yep follow me to the office is SO real lmao but it’s also real that you’ve taken the piss enough and you know you cannot, communicating that silently whilst you down this tea lowkey because too busy maintaining this eye contact to notice you are, shaking your head with a mischievous but slightly sad smile like unfortunately not right now ‘boy’ll be up for you to play with soon enough’ nodding your head towards the door like you can go back in]

Moses: [mhmm he knows the urge is real and who would he be if he didn’t encourage her to follow all of her feral ones but like my boo said, at that point y’all might as well just leave and I think it’s good to show that Alison isn’t there yet saying fuck it and she never really gets there not when it would feel like a fuck you to her boss bestie, take the tea from her because either she’s finished it and you can take the mug back to be stacked in the sink til the end of the day (cos I know you aren’t washing up sir, you never have a day in your life) or she hasn’t and you can finish it yourself because if she’s gonna keep downing it like that she’s gonna hurt herself and she won’t be able to taste her banana split if her tongue is burnt to shit, which your eyes are communicating as you go to leave like excuse me I said be careful and you are not, peak daddy energy which is appropriate for going back to babysit this kid, sneaking a kiss which is like a peck in terms of how quick and snatched it is, giving blink and you’ll miss it so that her boss doesn’t see, but is more indecent than that in terms of vibes as always (doing the most even in such a limited time lol) and is promising to be continued, I was gonna do cheek but Jonathan did that so mouth only please and thanks]

*the weather got us but we move

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Mali pt.1

Ali: I don’t know what you said to your brother but 

Ali: thanks a lot

Moses: Don’t you start your mouthing off at us as well

Moses: his little boy crush was years ago, he’s meant to be a man now

Ali: Exactly, years ago, you didn’t need to do that

Moses: It’s not my fault he didn’t take it like one

Ali: Why do you feel the need?

Moses: To talk of you? You know why

Ali: Mess with him, I don’t get what you’re trying to achieve with it

Moses: He’s my brother, that’s the fun of having ‘em

Ali: He didn’t find it funny, even a bit

Moses: He’ll calm down

Ali: What’s he saying to you then?

Moses: If you were to know he’d be saying it to you

Ali: Maybe he did, he said plenty

Moses: There you go, enough we’ve no need to go back over it ourselves, fun’s been had

Ali: I’m glad you had fun

Moses: I’m not sorry I told him, if that’s what you’re after hearing don’t wait up

Ali: That’s all I needed to hear, don’t worry

Moses: I’m not, you’re worrying yourself about my little brother’s crying when he never once did how you was

Ali: I can’t help it

Moses: Same as I can’t having no shame about liking you, I ain’t getting none for his sake, so

Moses: you do what you need to do, girl

Ali: There’s not much I can, he doesn’t want to be friends

Moses: I already told you, he wanted in your knickers not to be your friend, be why

Ali: Now he just thinks I like fucking up everyone’s lives

Moses: S’what they think of me too, don’t let it bother you, you know what the truth is

Ali: He thinks I’m going to get you killed

Moses: Ha, by who?

Ali: Who do you think

Moses: Let’s see him try

Moses: that useless cunt couldn’t kill himself never mind me

Ali: Like I said to Ronan, he’s not going to try

Moses: I’m ready for whatever he does, weren’t expecting a child of his to be named for me anyway

Ali: Dunno, it’s old school enough

Moses: Next 1’ll be named for my sister, by her, like that fixes fuck all

Ali: Hope it’s a girl then

Moses: A boy’d probably get my daddy’s name, as she loves him so much

Ali: Does she?

Moses: No, dope

Ali: How’d I know, I know neither of them

Moses: You know Miri, what he’s like, her age when she got hitched or thereabouts, you don’t have the need of loads of imagination

Ali: Miri said she thought they were a good match, she wanted to be married

Moses: There’s wanting a wedding day and there’s being wed

Ali: Ah

Ali: understood

Moses: She’s a girly girl, after the best of what our girls traditionally want

Ali: Makes sense why he picked her

Moses: His daddy picked her cos she was of age and Miri was gone

Ali: You reckon

Moses: And she said yeah for the big dress and nice ‘van to move into, best on their site, she reckons

Ali: That’s what life is all about, eh

Moses: Hers, but I’m the eejit living mine wrong

Ali: Wait, you didn’t tell her, did you

Moses: Ro did the honours, you don’t get to think even less of me, sorry, like

Ali: I didn’t say I think less of you, drama queen

Ali: but of course he did, hoping that she’ll tell him, rich when he was pretending to be concerned for your safety but there we go

Moses: You didn’t have to say so, woman

Moses: I’m not thick, even if the rest of my family don’t seem to have the sense they were born with

Ali: I told you, I don’t understand your reasoning, that’s all

Ali: he would’ve been hating me regardless, clearly

Moses: And I told you I wanna show you off to everyone, you don’t believe me, that’s more like it

Ali: I believe you, my cheeks are still red from when we came to see you at work

Moses: How am I to believe you about that unless you show me

Ali: [send him a picture of your lil face, and you probably are flustered because you’ve been mad and sad and all the emotions lol]

Moses: Cute

Moses: but how do I know that’s not for Ro and how angry he made you?

Ali: You don’t believe me back?

Moses: Not yet

Ali: How rude

Moses: How’s my hardworking little man today?

Ali: Pulling a sickie, bless him

Ali: he’s caught some bug so I’ve set him up with one of the old tellies and the videos, hopefully no one wants to buy [a retro one he’s loving] before he gets to watch it again

Moses: What bug?

Ali: A summer cold, the other kids got it at school, they’ve pretty much all had it now

Moses: Why didn’t you say?

Ali: He only started feeling rough this morning

Moses: And it’s now [whatever o clock, because he’s saying this morning was forever ago when it’s nothing of the sort and how dare they be talking about anything else instead of and before this baby Django news]

Ali: He’s gonna be fine, he is, like

Ali: you’re very cute though

Moses: He’s gonna be when I ask my [nan] what we’re to do

Moses: I’m driving straight there, time you’ve wasted

Ali: That’s really good of you but I swear you don’t need to

Ali: it’s only a cold, babies have to build up their immune systems

Moses: He might’ve caught it at work, that’s on me

Ali: He didn’t, the other kids here brought it home

Ali: you can go to your [nan] if you want but don’t feel like you have to

Moses: I’m on my way to her, she’ll have a remedy to help him

Ali: That’s so nice of you to do, thank you

Moses: He’s only a baby, he’s other chances enough to get sick

Moses: I don’t want him to feel bad when she’s the knowing to stop it

Ali: Tell her he’s had [whatever he has, giving Calpol usually, perhaps a coughsweet if he doesn’t find them disgusting, which you usually do as a child because they’re menthol] already, in case that matters

Moses: At what time, if she needs to be told?

Ali: [tell him]

Ali: okay, doctor

Moses: Tell him I said he’s a big and brave boy

Ali: I will

Moses: [a pause because he’s literally driving there as fast as he can as if this child is at death’s door, the drama, but he cares]

Moses: Right, listen, what you’re to do is [and tell her, it’s giving some kind of herbal remedy that Ali has to concoct exactly how he’s relaying with whatever ingredients and some kind of superstitious element also, just for fun, whatever that may be]

Ali: Ooh, that makes sense, [tell him why in a nerdy fashion like because that herb is good for that etc]

Ali: make sure you tell her thank you from us both

Moses: I brought her [something your nan likes as a sneaky bribe cos it’s giving something she isn’t meant to have maybe as a gypsy woman, that kinda vibe]

Ali: You’re such a charmer, aren’t you

Moses: What they say

Ali: They’d be right

Ali: 👼🏻

Moses: It’ll just make him sleepy but I’m still coming to keep an eye

Ali: You’re coming here? You don’t need to be working?

Moses: In [however long, giving he’s coming straight from his nan’s lowkey], he’s more important than [whatever you’re meant to be doing at work rn]

Ali: God, you’re so

Ali: I’m putting him in the office for a nap, you two can hang out there, hopefully he’ll wake up to see you and be feeling better

Moses: I’ll stay til you finish, so you can work

Ali: We can go get ice cream when I’m done

Moses: What’s his favourite?

Ali: [tell him]

Ali: with sprinkles, strawberry sauce and a flake, obviously

Moses: He’ll be getting an ice cream that massive he’ll be thinking it’s gonna touch the sky

Ali: What flavour are you gonna get?

Moses: [tell her]

Moses: and you?

Ali: Banana split, if they have it

Ali: I haven’t had one since I was close to his age, like

Moses: They’ll do it if I have to hand them a banana bought from [somewhere nearby], don’t worry

Moses: and last but not least, what does the baby want?

Ali: 😄 I’m not sick, you don’t have to spoil me

Ali: but the baby wants [tell him your weird craving like lol, because something he’d have to do even more to source than bananas obvs]

Moses: I’d be sick if I ate [the weird craving] but sure

Ali: I’ll not dare you

Moses: Well now you have

Ali: Ah, I bet you already know a remedy for that though

Moses: Yeah, not eating it, you messer

Ali: You’re to set a good example and be big and brave too

Moses: I’m a man of my word

Ali: It’s really good, you’re gonna be blown away by what my hormones have discovered there

Moses: Your hormones can thank me after they’ve tried [not you dropping pregnancy remedies you also asked your nan about]

Ali: You’ll have had her worried, boy

Moses: Ultimate good craic is winding up the elders and she’s the eldest

Ali: To think I was gonna call you dreamy when you’re such a nightmare

Moses: You weren’t gonna call me, except out for making Ro cry his eyes out

Ali: Is that what you reckon 

Moses: Reckoned, you’ve changed your mind since

Ali: You’re behaving again

Ali: it’s confusing

Moses: Nah, it’s simple, I wasn’t misbehaving by speaking to him

Moses: he took it badly, all of us know how hard you are to forget

Ali: Even you?

Moses: I didn’t, did I

Ali: No

Ali: but you know me better now

Moses: I wanted to know you better then, I’ve not changed my mind since

Ali: I wanna know you

Moses: Here’s your chance

Ali: Your bruises must look bad today, he brought them up

Moses: [send her some pics even though we all know you’re driving dangerously already from your nan’s]

Ali: I see what he means, Jesus

Moses: What did he say?

Ali: My jaw must be tired, something like that

Moses: Shows he’s who don’t know you very well

Ali: I showed him how much stamina I have as well

Ali: his loss

Moses: Had I better give him a bruise of his own?

Ali: Nah

Ali: even though he was horrible

Moses: How horrible

Ali: You’re not allowed to smack him

Moses: You’re not allowed to tell me what I can and can’t do

Moses: answer the question

Ali: I won’t tell you unless you promise

Moses: I promised to take care of you first

Moses: if he’s hurt you, he’ll get the same back

Ali: Only my feelings

Ali: and it’s only how I knew he felt, if I’m being honest

Moses: I still don’t like it

Ali: Aren’t you happy he’s standing up for himself?

Ali: Look at it that way

Moses: Look at you, trying to get round me

Ali: Let it work, shh

Moses: You’ve a point but 

Ali: It doesn’t matter what he thinks, he doesn’t want to be in my life or me in his

Moses: Say he doesn’t matter some more

Ali: 😏 it’s true

Ali: you’re the one that actually cares

Moses: I am the one, you’ve got that right

Ali: Another name you like being called that I can add to the list

Moses: Be a shame if you ran out, how much you love to talk til I guarantee you can’t

Ali: A shame for you, because you love to hear it

Ali: and I know exactly what to do now if I get a sore throat so there’s no stopping me

Moses: When you take a break and visit me in the office, I know exactly how I’ll give you a sore throat

Ali: When can I take one?

Moses: [his ETA because the second he gets there, obvs]

Ali: I’ve missed you

Moses: You’re gonna show me

Ali: then you’ll believe me

Moses: If you’re convincing enough, I’ll have to, won’t I

Ali: I am

Ali: and you have to see how quiet you can be

Moses: I can’t be quiet

Moses: What will you do about it?

Ali: I’ll have to get creative 

Ali: can’t kiss you like I usually do

Moses: I could, somewhere I can reach without it distracting you

Ali: Distract me

Moses: I’ll be in there hours, just me and my phone so’s I don’t wake the boy

Ali: Are you telling me to wait my turn?

Moses: You do need telling

Moses: but you reckon I’m cruel and that means you’ve the need of showing I can be nice

Ali: I know you’re nice

Ali: you’re nice to me, your sister,the boys

Moses: To the ones who matter most

Ali: [send him pictures to look at when he’s all alone with his phone because you’re too !!]

Moses: Worth crashing this car for

Ali: As long as it’s not into the shop

Ali: and that’s why you have to be quiet and behave too, I need to keep my job and [boss] liking me, as we’re going to be living here 

Moses: I’ll give you what you need

Ali: That’s what you do

Moses: That what you’ve been doing all day, convincing an old man to let yous live above his livelihood? 

Ali: Not convince him like that

Ali: but yes, as Miri was in 

Moses: When the boy is feeling better he can help me clear it out up there, proved himself a grafter

Ali: Jas can help yous

Moses: Miri never said he caught no bug, but like you she don’t tell me anything

Ali: Unlike me, she knows not to worry you

Moses: Is he sick too or not?

Ali: No, he’s over it now

Moses: Alright, he can join in

Ali: He didn’t have it to bother about much, just really snotty so she’s been chasing him around with tissues

Moses: [tell her a lil story of Miri doing a similar thing with one of y’all’s younger sibs at the time before everything went tits, thanks Caleb, it’s meant to be like yep she’s always been like that, oh her lol vibes but is actually just a sweet story of her nursing one of your other brothers or sisters back to health, because your other sister being so shady about her and her life upset this boy and got him thinking about that and how much the younger ones since are missing out because his mum is lowkey a flop and ST should’ve been in that role but she’s also a flop and instead she married Jonathan so]

Ali: She’s always been a mammy then

Moses: I wasn’t worried for my nephew, even in that place or who his daddy was

Ali: And you’ve no call to be, she’s amazing

Ali: I’m no natural at it

Moses: You’re not bad, I’ve seen women who are

Ali: I want to be good

Ali: I’ve met enough who seem to have no interest

Moses: His face lights up at the sight of you

Ali: We’re best mates

Moses: I don’t know that anybody would ever look at me like that

Ali: Maybe that’s a big why of having kids

Ali: one of those ones you aren’t meant to admit to but everyone knows it

Moses: Maybe I’ll have to

Ali: There’s pros and cons

Ali: and you’ve all the time to work it out, as you aren’t going to get accidentally knocked up 

Moses: You either, for [however long she has left of this pregnancy because she told him]

Ali: Right, you’re welcome

Moses: Why I like you, we get to enjoy the now

Ali: All there is

Moses: See, we are the same

Ali: Compatible works better

Moses: I’m not paranoid about whatever words you wanna use

Ali: It’s nice, not having to watch what I say

Moses: You’ve got [another updated ETA] til you do

Ali: You’re gonna watch it for me

Moses: It’ll still be your fault if we get caught

Ali: No, yours!

Moses: Your mouth

Ali: It won’t be my fault when you make me choke

Moses: Do you want to get me in trouble?

Ali: Just a little

Moses: I’ll be banned from the shop and only have seen inside his office

Ali: Maybe I should give you a tour first

Moses: Can you leave us alone long enough to walk ‘round it all?

Ali: You poor thing, so harassed, like

Ali: I’ll try my hardest

Moses: I’ll hold your hand, there’s at least one you’ll be keeping to yourself

Ali: Mine

Moses: [gypsy lingo it, like a correction, just for fun]

Ali: [say it in a voice note]

Ali: Do you think I should teach Djang? I’ve taught him some words but not fully

Moses: It’s part of him, his culture

Moses: when I was his age that’s all we spoke

Moses: but loads of the rest I don’t hold myself to, you know, I reckon s’fair if you don’t

Ali: I was all for it but Miri made a good point about not being wanted that’s made me reconsider

Ali: is it for me to say that’s his culture if he’s not going to be accepted by it

Moses: He’s accepted by me, I follow no rules but my own, he’ll be able to do the same as he grows

Ali: You know that means a lot

Ali: I want him to know where he’s from, even if it’s gone and we’re to keep moving on

Moses: He’s from me and I’m not going anywhere

Ali: Promise

Moses: I don’t turn my back on family, any of them

Moses: lucky for Ro and Clem who’ve both pissed me off

Ali: I didn’t need the sight to know they’d not be pleased

Ali: I’m sure they’ll get over it, given time

Moses: They’ll have to, they’ve no more say what I do than I’ve got over the state of them

Ali: If only, love to tell my siblings what to do, sort them all out

Moses: Me too, example I’m setting here should be the blueprint

Ali: I can’t quite go that far, not without being laughed out the room but

Ali: if they could all just be happy, I’d take it

Moses: To hear my sister, she’s the happiest girl who's ever lived

Ali: You think she deserves better though

Moses: If she stands by half of what was said earlier, I reckon she’s as much a stranger to me as she is Miri and her boy

Ali: She’s not going to tell you otherwise; she’ll want to save face

Moses: And I offered to save her from it all just for her to keep throwing that back in mine

Ali: She wants to make it work, not be wrong or wronged 

Moses: Why are we talking about this??

Moses: I’ll be parked up in a minute

Ali: We can talk about what you want

Moses: Or you can be quiet til I have 

Ali: Get a move on then and I wouldn’t need to be filling time 

Moses: [do get a move on because 1. You don’t wanna be thinking about your sister when you’re trying to be horny on main but more importantly 2. What she’s been saying has touched a nerve about jali and you don’t like it 3. You also don’t like that nobody is listening to and agreeing with you on this day, so show up and head right to where you assume the office is to see this sleeping child because that’s your priority atm even more than ever, making it clear he expects her to follow him with his entire being but not engaging with her, and tbf she does need to come with so she can see how adorable he about to be with this child from a jemily plot standpoint if nothing else lol]

Ali: [you just know he’s in a mood you cannot necessarily fix because of all this sibling drama and you would be tempted to not follow him for that alone but you’ve ultimately warned your boss that he’s coming to check on Django (and who the hell he is to just suddenly appear like this) so you have to follow to at least give the illusion of giving him updates and telling him what’s what with this sickly child, standing in the doorway of this office/staff room space where y’all can hide from customers when necessary and it’s clearly set up quite well for this bub and old man to hang out, it’s giving comfy chairs and a TV, radio and mini kitchen setup]

Moses: [go over to this sickly child and stroke his hair with no hesitation at all this time unlike the first time, smiling at him even though he’s asleep and will neither know nor care, putting his hand on his forehead to check he isn’t burning up and when he’s satisfied this bub isn’t running a scary high fever, nodding happily and talking about what a fighter he is and how well he’s fighting off said illness etc like he’s his proud father, all that’s in english but adding the word for bastard in gypsy lingo as if it’s an affectionate nickname because ST called this kid one and he’s reclaiming it because he’s livid, calling him a little bastard or something with such LOVE, it’s FINE, adjusting his pillows and/or blankets as necessary and tucking whatever toy he was hugging back under his arm, telling him, also in gypsy lingo, a family specific version of don’t let the bed bugs bite that Miri (not your flop mum) used to say every night to the sibs and probably still says to Jasper sometimes even to this day (she defs did when he was a baby before she stopped using gypsy lingo) if she’s sure he’s asleep and can’t hear it]

Ali: [catching your breath and holding it, not dramatically so that he’s going to notice only in a way that feels suitably !! to you as you watch this scene unfold, smiling at Django when Moses does, nodding along like this bub is awake and will know that you’re agreeing with how tough he is, doing a BIG swallow because this tiny child has never truly had anyone but you caring for him in this way so it’s such a bizarre yet beautiful thing to see here and now (with the added pain of it should be Johnathan but it’s never going to be), turning away momentarily, blink and you miss it, just to take a moment to try and collect yourself, thinking about what Moses said about no one looking at him the way Django looks at her, closing the office door gently behind you before turning back and smiling at this man, good thing you probably don’t know the word for bastard because you’d be like umm, lmao, you can only hear the emotion in the words and it’s NOT FINE]

Moses: [you’re welcome girl that he’s far too preoccupied with this boy and in his own emotions and thoughts to catch yours and then he’s getting himself comfy in whatever chair is the best and lowkey giving the boss’ because ofc that’s the one he’d pick because he’s the main character and he’s gonna be watching over this child for however long it takes, speaking of being lost in thoughts, here and now he’s decided that after mali and baby Django part ways, whether that’s post ice cream date or whenever he’s gonna let the tattoos commence and get one for Django, we all know he wanted to get one for Ali first but she didn’t give him the reaction he was hoping for so this boy is gonna be first because she can’t stop him and lbr he isn’t gonna tell her he’s just gonna show up when he next sees them and show it off to Django and tell him its for him and then start teaching him gypsy stuff cos it’s gonna be gypsy coded because he’s decided this boy is and he loves him so stfu ST and fuck you Jonathan, in my head it’s giving wild horses themed because of the cute cowboy theme of his sims playroom and they couldn’t keep him away haha, so yeah, that’s FINE too, only looking at her finally (when he’s comfortable and had this idea to cheer him up) to be like are you gonna stand in the doorway forever then or what]

Ali: [coming into the room on tiptoes as if you need to be that quiet when we already know you don’t, just that tentative as you climb up into his lap on this chair, laying your head on his chest and letting out a sigh, because it sucks when your child is ill (even when you are fully aware it’s just a cold you still hate to see it) and you’re glad that he’s here, looking up at him like are you okay? Without saying the words because you wouldn’t expect him to answer truthfully put that plainly, stroking his hair in the same way he just did Django’s like you’re saying it’ll be alright and comforting him that he’s doing a good job]

Moses: [hugging her for the first time ever because you can tell she needs to be held and you said you’d give her what she needs so you intend to, stroking her hair BIG how these boys do when you hear that sigh because it’s not the same but you were genuinely worried to death for this child too so you think you get it and felt like you simply had to be here to the point you sacked work off and are gonna be in trouble but in this moment you don’t care and you’ve decided to stop caring about your flop siblings or Jonathan as well (as much as either of you ever can when it’s that man lol), smiling at her when she looks up at you, holding her again tighter] 

Ali: [hugging him back as tight as you can, really getting in there and making him feel it too because you know he needs one too even if the reasons why are messy if you’re the one trying to talk about them with him, saying as much as you can without actually using words here, nuzzling into his neck and letting him stroke your hair ‘I’m not sick’ as a don’t worry because you’re up in his grill, smiling again like lol, running your hands over his top because he’s obviously in his work clothes, asking are you sure it’s alright you’re here by tilting your eyes up to meet his again, how you’re stroking his body so lovingly though is making it clear you’re grateful regardless]

Moses: [excuse me about to be EVIL because he’s been to see his nan and he’s asked her about pregnancy related stuff so it therefore stands to reason that he’s then reaching into his pocket to give her something like you won’t be, as if she means morning sickness or anything baby related, because whatever this is will protect her and baby Rio and he thinks he’s just doing a nice thing (and he is) but he doesn’t know that Jali have lost babies and therefore Jonathan has deffo given her this very thing before and she’s about to be triggered to within an inch of her life, in my head it’s giving a necklace/locket/amulet with some kind of lucky/protective thing therein/on idk which he’s literally putting on her (and therefore she can’t easily or subtly take off without him knowing) because that’s so intimate and also exactly what Jonathan would’ve done and was gonna do when we started the holiday miscarriage convo we didn’t write (even though he’d have 1000% gone more catholic with it and there’d be an appropriate saint involved too which Moses has not, he’s just going full healer nan coded) therefore I MUST, thanks brain, this man just there happily telling her what it’s for as he fastens this clasp with no idea she knows FULL WELL]

Ali: [my boo said let me just traumatise you real quick and make you fight for your life on this day trying to keep all this inside, there’s simply no way though, it’s going to be even stranger vibes if you are there in mute shock, rubbing at your eyes as if you can stop the tears coming by doing it so fiercely but you can’t, apologising and gesturing with your hands that you’re gonna explain but not right this second because you’re trying not to sob]

Moses: [very unnecessarily cruel of me but if I had to think it I had to share it and make us all suffer clearly, this boy just thinking that she must be trying not to sob because she’s touched by his kind gesture because in no world is he jumping to the dead baby conclusion rn even though Jonathan has form for getting people pregnant, boys are oblivious and he thinks he ate for doing something nice for an unborn baby that isn’t even his, especially when he hates Caleb, so, just holding her and trying to comfort her even if he’s once again a bit like a feral boy about it not really knowing how]

Ali: [my boo said I will be dragging y’all down with me, it’s FINE, and it is a nice gesture that she appreciates from him on it’s own, you couldn’t possibly know the deep pain behind it lol, and it isn’t fair to throw that in your face so we aren’t, even if we would quite like to not be wearing this necklace and being sent back to when we last were and the time before that, reaching to hold his hand, shutting your eyes, squeezing them as you SQUEEZE his hand ‘I’ve worn it before’ because no way you can say it but plainly, the gravity behind the words speak for themselves]

Moses: [say goodbye to the feral antics of the first mali blowjob you thought you were getting in this office and hello to jali trauma sir, am I sorry, no, not to you, only to poor Alison who we’ve truly put through so much at her still ridiculously young age, he do be holding her hand and squeezing back but when she speaks and those words hit, his other hand reaching up like he’s gonna immediately rip that necklace from her neck because it’s cursed, not actually doing it but the way he’s holding it makes it obvious the impulse was there and he nearly acted on it, looking from her to this sleeping child and back again because it doesn’t take a genius to work out what she means, she can only mean one thing, calling Jonathan the worst gypsy lingo swear word there is, whatever that might be, because he genuinely can’t believe he would abandon her to marry his sister after something like that has occurred, neither can I babe, hard same]

Ali: [the vibe shifted dramatically haha, y’all both thought this was gonna go differently but you’re both in here now having big emotions, holding your breath when he seems like he’s gonna yank that necklace off, opening your eyes to look at him because you really couldn’t predict how he was going to react to that information that you just dropped on him, with the hand he’s not holding holding up two fingers to be like twice, doing a laugh like what a joke because yeah we really did that to you and in turn so did Johnathan, crying harder because truly]

Moses: [can never predict y’all in this era especially and that’s the fun of it, literally involuntarily gripping this necklace again like he’s gonna rip it off again like he didn’t just stop himself from doing so once already because he’s so mad he wants to go and rip Jonathan’s head off and he doesn’t know what to do with the anger, doing a headshake + face of absolute disgust because the once you thought it was is bad enough never mind twice, looking at the bump that is baby Rio with a noise that echoes the what a joke sentiment because she couldn’t love Caleb less whereas you know she couldn’t love Jonathan more and that’s why mali is what it is, taking his hand off the necklace finally and using it to try and wipe away some of her tears before giving up that idea because there are too many and just pushing her head into his chest to let his work clothes soak them up instead (and muffle the sound if any happens so that this sleeping child doesn’t wake up and hear it and neither does her boss or any customers who may be going past the office rn), BIG stroking her hair again while she cries it out]

Ali: [the hurried and hushed way you’re trying to explain that it was really nice of him and you aren’t mad at him and you like that he’s trying to look after you, words jumbling up and being somewhere between overexplaining and not getting your point across because you’re just a mess, happily allowing him to push your head into him and giving in to having a proper cry instead]

Moses: [shhing her explanations in what you hope is a comforting way and not stfu but you’re so mad (at Jonathan) you don’t even know, like yeah now it’s clicking why he wouldn’t step up for Carly’s kid if that’s how he treated Alison but you’re not taking any comfort in him being a flop rn when she’s so upset, letting her cry for however long she needs to, not a single thought for the work she needs to go back to or anything except letting her do what she needs to do even if he’s too angry and tense to give her as much comfort as he ideally wishes he could, he’s trying]

Ali: [you can feel his tension and you know how hard it is to just sit with this for him, rubbing circles over his arms, working from the tops of his shoulders all the way down to above his elbows ‘I didn’t intend to just blurt that out’ because you did not but the situation called for it ‘Carly knew but-’ registering how you barely got to speak about (and still have not) this massive trauma, shaking your head and doing another (much sadder but getting your tears under control again) sigh, kissing his cheek]

Moses: [trying to shrug away her touch at first because you don’t wanna be calmed down you wanna sit with this, it feels right to you that you feel this angry and disgusted because it was fucked up and for once you actually feel justified in hating Jonathan and how you’ve said all along that he’s a prick and he had no right treating you like he did only to act worse, but ultimately you can’t force yourself to reject her touch because you want it ‘do they have graves?’ as a question you end up blurting out yourself because you don’t know and you want them to have, because you’re catholic enough that they’re babies to you, and gypsies love a funeral]

Ali: [making the sort of comforting noises you do because you know he wants to be angry but he also can’t go right now and murder Johnathan so he has to calm down his body even if that anger stays in his head, shaking your head sadly ‘not exactly, not proper ones, but I buried them [and say where, it’s giving somewhere near the site if not literally on undoubtedly because that’s where jali happened]’]

Moses: [doing his best to really try and calm down slightly for her, impossible as it feels because she isn’t the target of his rage and she shouldn’t have to be comforting him rn it should be the other way around, nodding back at her sadly because that makes total sense, she’d be able to see the cogs in his head turning as he’s trying to think of a way he can honour these babies without putting up full headstones that announce they’re there to the world]

Ali: [just unloading here in the way you do when the dam has broken and you can finally talk about this shit, telling him that you had to bring the first one home from that holiday you were on and how crazy you felt but no way were you just going to flush it all away and then telling him how soon after the second one he impregnated Carly and what he said about God punishing them]

Moses: [trying his hardest to just let her speak without interrupting because she clearly hasn’t ever been allowed to talk about this the way she should’ve but we all know he can’t resist cussing Jonathan out at every opportunity, however under his breath, because this boy doesn’t even believe in doing what his flesh and blood father says never mind a god he doesn’t think exists, and it’s just so stupid and wrong to him, having to GRIP the arms of the chair he’s sat in with both of his hands so he doesn’t fully get up and storm out to murder Jonathan when she gets to the bit about him impregnating Carly in the aftermath, doing a choked out sound of pure wtf vibes like okay wow]

Ali: [shaking your head as if you’re underwater, because can’t quite believe all this happened to us, it feels so distant and far removed because everything just went away and changed so fast, here realising how awful it all sounds like it’s the first time you’ve heard it ‘have to remember he was hurting too’ with the lol sure bitterness to it because you didn’t go out and get pregnant by someone else to deal with your pain but you also know that that’s why he did all that, deep down]

Moses: [oh Johnny you problematic fave, you’re making it really hard to root for you rn sir, holding her head as if by keeping it still and basically cradling it in both his hands the way he is he can stop all her pain and thoughts and everything in its tracks, LOOKING at her really intensely for the first time, eye contact which is !! because of both of their sadness and anger and disbelief being shared via it ‘he’ll hurt, I promise’ because you intend to kill him the next time you cross paths and in this moment you sincerely mean to with your whole heart] 

Ali: [maintaining this eye contact because it is so validating to have someone else feeling some of this pain with you instead of shouldering it all alone, and you know he can understand at least some of it because Johnny is his family, there’s betrayal there even if it is not as personal as your own, shaking your head slowly like don’t say that because you don’t want him to do that for so many complicated reasons, most simply you don’t want him to be a murderer]

Moses: [y’all out here falling in love thanks to all this lovebombing and mutual validation, we see you, nodding his own head back at her as slowly like but have you considered the answer is in fact and should be and will be a yes, KISSING her so DRAMATICALLY like that added incentive will fully convince her but really he just needs to because there’s so much he can’t even begin to verbalise that he’s gotta put into it]

Ali: [exactly dr phil, we can all see why it happens and how, going to say his name like no, naughty boy but you get caught by the kiss before you can so you are instead GASPING his name into his mouth, putting all the emotion there still is to get out (because that well never runs dry) into this KISS, wrapping your arms around his waist and letting yourself fold into him]

Moses: [we’re not saying it’s right but everybody is fucking up in this situation and we understand it, jali’s dynamics are complicated and so are Moses and Johnny’s, there’s years of unexpressed different emotions going on, MOANING her name into her mouth as if he’s gotta one up her but there is just that much !! here and now that he can’t help but do it, no thought for their surroundings or being quiet or anything except making out with her like his life depends on it and trying to let her know even a fraction of what he’s feeling inside]

Ali: [mhmm, it’s a lot and lord knows there aren’t enough adequate words to even attempt to put to this so I don’t blame y’all for ending up here remotely, you’ve both got your reasons, aside from the fact you’re both attracted enough to each other to happily be hooking up, PULLING him to you via his waistband when he moans, as if you two could be any closer, sudden frantic need to be all over him]

Moses: [my boo says it also helps that neither of you are ugly and she’s so correct lol, it also doesn’t hurt that he couldn’t be matching her energy any harder if he tried, filled with the same frantic need to be as close to her as physically possible, PULLING her to him via whatever top she is wearing, feeling the bump as he does so, accidentally but then deliberately touching it, like you can also pull this unborn child to you and prevent anything bad from ever happening to it, which is rich considering what happens later but here and now the intention is pure]

Ali: [not saying you couldn’t get here but the attraction is sure gonna help lmao, shamelessly so into him acknowledging your bump and unborn child in this moment because it is so meaningful in that unspoken way with everything that was just said, LOOKING at him, specifically taking a pause in your makeout to do so ‘you want to take care of me’ saying it almost like an accusation but you’re just reminding yourself that he said that and letting him know that you believe him now]

Moses: [using the same pause in the makeout to actually properly undo her necklace calmly and let it fall off between their bodies because the unspoken, I want to and I will, not this now cursed piece of jewellery that’s supposed to but didn’t, as he LOOKS back at her knowing she’ll understand the meaning without him needing to say it, doing the same slow nod as started the makeout sesh ‘but not just you’ as he looks at this bump and sleeping boy ‘them’ because again, couldn’t mean this more in this moment and we need her to know]

Ali: [shivering like he just stripped you fully naked in that moment, because it is even more intimate than that and you are DYING ‘protect us’ as if that’s a command, before telling him ‘I feel safe with you’ and kissing him again so you can’t say any more than that]

Moses: [without breaking the kiss for a single second, because he wouldn’t dare, getting off this chair and to his feet, pulling her with him so that not only does this necklace fall to the floor where it’s truly even more forgotten and unimportant and probably even gets stood on by him, but also so that he can demonstrate the way he’d fully use his entire body as a human shield to protect hers, doing the absolute most, and all of it so indecently because he is so !! about what she said cos that’s his entire vibe, paying such deliberate attention to carefully protecting this bump once again as he pushes her back down into the chair with his and then gets his whole body on top of and wrapped around her as completely as possible]

Ali: [making a little scared noise into your kiss as you CLUTCH onto him, genuinely concerned you would fall to the floor else, such is how drained and weak that emotional outpouring has made you feel, your eyes stuck on a loop of darting down to witness the complete lack of space between your body and his to LOOKING into his eyes with all the !! as you struggle to breathe about it, doing your own MOAN as you are pushed down and then surrounded by him so entirely, holding his chin tight with both your hands, your eyes on his as if you’re still communicating all those deepest, darkest secrets you haven’t told anyone else alive, just through SEEING each other, your laboured breathing and !! sounds ‘let me be yours?’ as a plea here]

Moses: [it goes without saying that her scared little noise and the way she’s gotta cling onto him for dear life will shamelessly turn him on in a way that she’ll be able to feel with them in each other’s grill that much because he is that bitch, maintaining the EYE CONTACT the entire time and refusing to break it like he wouldn’t the kiss before but nevertheless either pushing their chair closer to where the sleeping child is or pulling him closer to them, whichever is more logistically feasible, in a hot move, because ideally he’d have Django as close to him as Alison and baby Rio are rn but that’s a good compromise, continuing to get ridiculously turned on by the levels of both this physical and emotional intimacy because this is the most she’s ever given him and it’s exactly what he wants, her plea especially hitting him the hardest because it feels like she really and truly means it for the first time in more than just a suggestive manner ‘yous are all mine’ because he’s claiming not just her but these children who are both unwanted by their fathers, which is what makes me feel bad for you sir because you really did do that, even if it’s as fuck you]

Ali: [as shamelessly moving to feel how turned on he is, no hesitation like you gotta know right now and be SO sure about it, making the biggest eyes at him the entire time, only to somehow be able to widen them further when he pulls off that hot move, covering your mouth DRAMATICALLY, would look like you’re shocked and appalled but you both know it’s actually so you don’t scream about it in another way entirely, biting up your palm and scowling at him like how could you do this to me lol, and same, and Ali will always feel guilty about that too because you really did want to step up and do this and for a time y’all do but we can’t fight the truth that she will never love you as much as she does Johnathan and that’s gonna eat away at y’all clearly]

Moses: [the big eyes get to everybody she aims them at and he is not immune, loving her reaction to his hot move because they both know the real reason her mouth is being covered, no hesitation in pulling her hand away though and pushing whatever part of his body is within reach at her for her to bite instead because fuck you Ronan he’ll be a walking bruise and there’s nothing you can do about it hun, meanwhile also PUSHING the most obvious part of his body into hers, so that he’d be so deep inside her if there weren’t clothes in their way because he wants every part of hers to be full of him like he’s a human cork, oh girl, that’s what will always be the death of them and mean they can’t last, every argument they ever have will always be because she still loves Johnny and he can’t undo that however hard he tries and he can’t make her love him more which is what he wants, can’t fight the moonlight baby and the heart wants what it wants]

Ali: [it is a total fuck you to Ronan the way we’re biting this boy everywhere we can get our teeth into him now, not soz, also simply have to because our feelings both emotional and physical are too much and we need to do everything and anything to try and deal with it, hence attempting to get both of y’all undressed enough that he can be that deep inside you immediately but you can’t stop anything you are doing to get the job done with ease, but again, the kerfuffle of it all is turning you on more and you get to touch him and yourself in your messy attempt here ‘I’m so glad you’re here’ as something you’re blurting out in the heat of this, unclear if you mean here with her in this exact moment, on this day in this shop or back in her life after the fallout but the answer is all of the above]

Moses: [mhmm I like to think he’s meant to be on a job with him as we speak as well but because he ditched Ronan will actually have to do some work because if he has no haters I’m dead haha, Moses was originally planning to go after hours and do a bit of catching up when this kid is in bed but given Alison’s emotional outburst all bets are off if he will ever leave her side again tbh, literally letting her bite his face where it couldn’t be more visible, no fucks given, in this moment he’d let her do anything, likewise enjoying the kerfuffle so he’s hindering more than helping her to achieve the end goal and his ‘frustrated’ sounding noises are just !! and to spur her on and not because he actually is anything but the opposite of annoyed at how long this is taking, doing a hot lol as if her here means I’m so glad you’re finally inside of me because both of their bodies are shamelessly acting overjoyed about it]

Ali: [only making him more enraged because he knows full well where Moses is lmao, be worth showing up late just to rub it in but y’all are in a glued at the hip kinda mood rn so priorities, laughing with him like you’ve got no reason to try and be quiet here because verging on hysteria with how good it feels is real, GASPING ‘oh no, your tour’ like you just remembered that you said you’d do that first and he’s obviously far more desperate for that than this]

Moses: [mhmm, he’s gonna be fuming (so it’ll be worth you going to work tomorrow so he can see, at least, however much you don’t wanna leave her) and me and Moses are living for that, it’s worth making his dad or whoever else annoyed he’s not there too, thank god Ronan doesn’t know where Alison works (flop stalker as we’ve said before) or he’d be turning up his hippo self, and if that’s ever gonna occur then I do want you to be witnessing a loved up tour or some other domestic bliss tbh sir because you think this is just sexual (which is a fair assumption knowing your brother) but it’s not, not soz, but anyway, her suggestion that the tour is more important making him legit BURST OUT LAUGHING, such genuine lols because what is she like and the hysteria is real for him too, he’d love to tell her that she makes him feel drunk or high but doesn’t know how to without it feeling like a cheesy fake line, trying to let her know with his eyes so they’re blatant heart eyes, pulling out while still laughing like oh okay hold on we’ll go and do that rn shall we]

Ali: [when they live here you can live your best stalker life under the guise of suddenly caring about your sister loads but that’s not quite yet so hold on mr grumpy, in the here and now putting your fingers over his lips like shh, you because he’s meant to be caring for a sickly child and she should be coming out now to work, but of course she wants to hear him laugh too much to properly stop him so she’s just tickling his mouth lowkey, until she’s aggressively snapping his head via a jaw hold to look at sleeping Django when he pulls out of her ‘have you forgotten why you’re here?’ moving one hand from his jaw to touch him ‘this is where you’re needed’]

Moses: [he so will and Ronan don’t piss me off because it’s actually so cruel to get Miri’s hopes up that you give a shit and she’s gonna have some other family around besides Moses when you’re only doing it because of Ali, never mind interacting with Jasper as well, I hate you, bye, in the here and now I’m gonna have to say that the fingers she put over his mouth are on the same hand that she bit her palm of so he can snatch some quick kisses better on that before it moves, LOOKING at this boy like he made her do when they had their floor hookup, his gaze FIXED, his chest heaving a little bit at the overwhelming emotions he feels for him that he never expected to, so that his spoken ‘no’ is hoarse and difficult to get out, moving closer again so that he’s perfectly lined up but isn’t inside her yet because he’s gonna make her do it with that hand she has on him, just gotta show her that he knows exactly where he’s needed and there’s no doubt]

Ali: [like I’m sure you will grow to care but still, you’ve not got pure intentions right now and she knows it, this gal here doesn’t have pure intentions either, WATCHING him and his reactions so intensely you’ve stopped breathing casually, cannot miss a single moment of this, moving your hand slightly faster than his heaving chest, trying to make him even more !! with every stroke, nodding like your head might fall off because correct, has never needed you more but we’re trying to have you so close to the edge before actually letting you fuck us again because that is how we feel ‘my boys’ whispered, not to be quiet, but like you can’t quite believe it, resting your head on his shoulder to LOOK too, taking time to suck and lick and nibble on his pulse point in his neck]

Moses: [we love that she’s stopped breathing and his therefore seems so loud as the only sounds in this room besides those sleeping Django are making, trying his hardest to try and sync his breathing to this sleeping child’s but he simply can’t because he’s too !! about everything she’s doing that he can only pant basically when he does breathe, only managing to accidentally echo Django even slightly when he has to close his eyes momentarily when she says that because of the effect hearing it has, his MOAN being more like a GASP because he can’t believe it either]

Ali: [saying his name like you’re furious with him almost because you are so outrageously turned on you are on that fine line of obsession, biting the back of his neck like he did to you, not caring to be a little bit careful at all, which goes with the frantic way you’re making him fuck your hand ‘doesn’t this feel so right, us all together?’ asking with the same disbelieving tone because the answer is yes and you’re in awe of that]

Moses: [his eyes OPENING so dramatically when she says his name like that as if he was asleep and she’s waking him up, so big and blue rn and still staring at this actually sleeping child practically without blinking because he wanted to LOOK at her instinctively but didn’t let himself, the muscles of his neck and jaw clenching at forcing himself to keep his head still instead of moving it, when she bites the back of his neck, SQUEEZING hers in another hot move, as if she’s a little animal and he’s gonna pick her up by it because we’re all feeling that frantic and the urge to just lift her and position her in his lap is too real, doing a noise that means YES but is so much more indecent and !! than the word could ever be, resting his head on her bump for the first time ever and he’s really starting something with that because what he told Rio in roses about always sleeping like that is blatantly very accurate]

Ali: [not fighting the feral urge to poke his eye, thankfully not to the point of blinding him here but like a curious george, like you need to know RIGHT NOW if it’s possible for another human to have such blue eyes and not be related to you, using the same finger to push against his clenched muscles, testing how strong he is and how capable of holding on here too, shuddering and letting go all control when he SQUEEZES your neck, so ready and willing to let him pick you up and do whatever he wants, calling him the gypsy lingo word for daddy in an URGENT manner when he’s resting his head on your bump because you don’t know how much longer you can hold on]

Moses: [making an unhinged sound (soz boss or customers if you heard that but he’s not) at the eye poke because he may not have been expecting it but that doesn’t mean he’s surprised, he’s learning her feral ways and he’s into them all, trying to be quiet with it but only for the sake of these children both sleeping and unborn cos he’s such a good and caring father not for the sake of their surroundings or anyone else, no fucks given about them, he’s very strong and he’s proving it by how easily he actually can lift her up by this neck grab as if she’s a little kitten, we all know he was waiting for the d word before he did and she’s said it so she gets rewarded by having him inside of her again, there’s the sound of exertion he didn’t make at picking her up happening then because of how good it feels to be and needing to hold back from cumming the second he is] 

Ali: [me like I surely hope you’re a little hard of hearing sir because not trying to upset you ever but we’ve got to do this, I’m afraid, and we are not holding back, knowing neither of you is gonna last long here we are letting ourselves be as loud as we wanna be about how good this feels, KISSING him out of necessity and only being quieted as an accidental byproduct, panting into his mouth in a pained way that’s far less about the tight hold he has on her neck and far more about how insanely close she is ‘so, are you my boyfriend now?’ a hot lol that judders out of her body, making her vibrate against him which only makes it all so much worse, cursing him like he did that, biting his bottom lip HARD like making it bleed is making him yours, nodding your head to pull it severely, shamelessly leading him to say yes NOW]

Moses: [mhmm, Moses cares not if he upsets you rn or ever but I do babes and he isn’t gonna make her be quiet ever but especially now because we love no holding back, likewise only kissing her for the closeness, intimacy and intensity not because he cares about anything except where to express some of his !! so your sake hun we hope you’re old and busy in that shop today but that none of the customers are too nearby lol, still HOLDING onto the back of her neck like it’s his job, really PRESSING into the lovebite he did there as he asks ‘do you wanna be with me?’ unheard of for him to ask truly because we all remember when he just told Carly she was for that night and that’s his usual energy but he wants her to want it and say how much she does, grinning when she bites his lip which only pulls on it more but he had to]

Ali: [your eyes rolling to the back of your head as if you’re trying to see the hold he has on your neck, because it’s reminding you of the first time he did that and you don’t need any further stimulation at this point ‘yes’ so impatiently and hurried, like OBVIOUSLY I do ‘I am’ like if you didn’t wanna be with me you wouldn’t be here now because we know what you want and how clear it is is key, hands grasping to find something to grip onto, unable to focus, just flailing under him]

Moses: [actually letting his gaze move from this sleeping child to LOOK at her for the first time in what would feel like forever ‘yeah, what?’ because forcing her to really spell it out not only because he needs her to but because of how difficult he knows it is for her to focus or speak or any of the things atm, the LOOK feeling so dramatic as he waits for her to answer, a throwback to their first interaction with the what, giving those many reminders, his eyes lighting up with them, letting the back of her neck go though so he can HOLD both of her hands with his and SQUEEZE ofc]

Ali: [MOANING on sight like he just attacked you with his blue ass eyes, literally smacking his chest in that affectionate oh my god stop way you might when you’re flustered but you’re so beyond flustered you are SMACKING him fully !! which makes it seem like he took hold of your hands to stop you but you are picking up on all these reminders and know exactly what he’s saying with them, only being able to get out ‘I wanna’ on a loop because can’t finish your sentence but it’s a full one so we’re leaning in, saying it with every thrust until you come undone and it just becomes NOISE]

Moses: [it’s very valid to feel attacked by those blue ass eyes rn gal, and they’re only getting bigger and bluer when she smacks him because I’m sure he has any number of bruises and love bites from that sesh which she’s making contact with to make it even more !! making a NOISE like he’s mad at her for this (when he’s nothing of the sort lol) before his mouth is also retaliating by going for her throat as if he’s gonna rip it out and doing another new fresh lovebite right there in the centre of it where it couldn’t be more noticeable or obvious what y’all have been getting up to in here because all control has been lost and he never had any fucks given for her having to go back to work to begin with, plus he has the excuse that he simply can’t kiss her on the mouth because he needs to hear her say this on a loop until she’s incapable, answering with ‘you are’ as his own full sentence but not, only when she can’t speak any more, again like it’s a reward for behaving how he wanted, said on every thrust until he likewise can’t anymore]

Ali: [oh girls, you’re SO feral, she’s gonna have to find a sassy scarf or statement choker when she goes back out there haha, but absolutely no fucks given and zero regrets here in the moment, acting like you’d fully let him rip your throat out honestly, DYING so dramatically and completely like you’ve got nothing but time to be laying here so dead, WRAPPING your arms and legs around his back so he can’t go anywhere and is crushing you with his full weight]

Moses: [the shop is welcome for the free promo though I’m sure she’ll end up slaying her accessorising too hard and someone will want to buy it so she’ll have to hastily style something else and rinse and repeat however many times cos she just is that girl with that good eye and it’s why this job is perfect for her, likewise dying as dramatically and shamelessly to the point where he at first forgets he shouldn’t be putting his full weight on her like he is, but then he remembers baby Rio exists and wraps both his arms around this bump so protectively as if it’s giant and unavoidable already, lying his head on it again and for much longer this time as he tries to get his breath back and even vaguely recover]

[deathdoesntkillyou]

Miri & Ali & Ronan & Clem & Moses

Miri: Told you so

Ali: I could honestly crawl under a rock for it

Ali: won’t go so far as to say throw it at the pair of them but God, you can tell you’ve oldest sister patience to deal with this

Miri: I’d say beat some sense into them with it, use that would do

Miri: what are you, a [some toy from their childhood era] to be fought over?

Ali: I had told Moses that it was best kept to ourselves but that only caused hurt feelings

Ali: but if it means Ronan will put in the effort with you and Jas now… hardly alls well that ends well but

Miri: Sure Moses has the want to brag over anything else

Miri: and the less said about where Ronan means to put his efforts now, the better

Ali: Appreciate your attempts to talk to him too, by the way

Ali: I think some of it went in

Ali: I’m just so shamed this is bothering you at all when you’ve so much more to be focusing on

Miri: Someone has to, there’s times where he can’t be a law onto himself, much as it pains him to hear

Miri: Ah no, the shame’s these lads own that they still believe a woman’s hands not to be full unless she’s doing a million things for their asking

Ali: He’s different than the view I had of him from before

Ali: but they’re the true hard workers, still, don’t get it confused

Miri: It changed him, my going

Miri: he reckoned we were all of us untouchable, for my daddy being like a God to him, he was right in that being true, but that didn’t mean he was prepared for the type of God he’d be shown

Ali: I see that

Ali: he doesn’t understand a lot of the double standards, see the need for them

Miri: Growing up, he never treated me as a girl, different, even when he had his brother come along for him to play with

Miri: in turn, I didn’t see myself as one the way my cousins did and I think he blames himself for how things went, what I did

Ali: He would, that’s a very male way of looking at it

Ali: you don’t need to tell me, how little it had to do with anyone else but you and Caleb

Miri: It’s too late to take me in hand now, but he tries sometimes, still, all the same

Miri: we wasn’t traditionally raised, no one expected my daddy to take the stance he decided on, but here we are

Ali: He laundered his sins through handling you in the ‘right’ way

Ali: maybe so that parents can’t fight that urge, my mammy had tried it, so many ways

Miri: And in marrying my sister to a ‘decent’ boy before she could bring her own trouble to lay at his feet

Miri: we’re none of us perfect, I know…

Miri: I’ll fight the urge to smack Ronan for his blatant interest in only you and how you’ve been keeping

Ali: He’d his own troubles to wash clean with that arrangement

Ali: I don’t have to fight the urge, even if I keep it a verbal beatdown

Miri: More brains and they’d be dangerous, as it is, he’s harmless enough

Ali: I know you’re cutting him slack but he can do better than this and we both know that

Ali: he’s a sweetheart usually, I don’t get why he’s stayed away and I wanna know

Miri: He’s no need to do better by me, I can take care of myself and my son without being under his eye

Miri: I’ve plenty of brothers and sisters who are ones to rock the boat, he isn’t, not with my daddy driving how he does

Ali: He keeps the peace, little to be found though there is

Ali: I won’t be too harsh on him really, he’ll have enough to say back it’ll be a fair fight

Miri: I might envy him his peace but I don’t begrudge it

Ali: Me either

Ali: however it may seem

Miri: He’s got the luxury of taking longer to grow up than either of us, there aren’t any little boys depending or waiting on him to

Ali: True enough

Ali: he’d be great with them though

Miri: Hopefully he’ll bother himself to kick a ball round one of these days, maybe if I tell him you’ll referee 

Ali: Sure, I’ll get the whistle and everything

Miri: I give it all of 2 minutes before Moses storms the pitch to foul him

Ali: Worse than our two, truly

Miri: Puts me off carrying a brother for my boy

Miri: good thing they’d have to have a daddy first

Ali: Let’s hope I have a girl

Ali: Are you thinking of adding looking for one to your to-do list?

Miri: I’ll pray for you, a good reason to start again if I’ve any

Miri: Oh hell no, I’ve sworn off men with no good reason ever to start again

Ali: I don’t blame you, there’s so much more to focus on

Miri: I’d sooner search for somewhere to live

Ali: Well, I may just have a proposition on that front

Miri: An answer to my prayers, already?

Miri: Wow

Ali: We can’t be as damned as we’ve been led to believe, like

Ali: there might be some work to do, but in terms of location and landlord, we couldn’t be better off, so I think that will make it worth it

Ali: [tell her all about the flats/space above the shops]

Miri: I don’t know what to say

Miri: it sounds too good to be true, like

Miri: What’s the catch?

Ali: My boss could say no

Ali: but, he lets me take Djang to work every day and has helped me in every other way I’ve needed so I can’t see it

Ali: if he takes rent out of my pay, he can pay me less for work, I can’t see it as anything but a win-win and him agreeing there

Miri: He don’t know me though, not yet

Ali: Ah sure but you’re already far less of a liability than I was when he got to know me

Ali: you’re the hardest worker I know

Miri: I’ve had to be, there hasn’t been the kindness going spare, even with my height adding years to how old I looked to people of his age

Ali: I know I was so lucky to walk into the job, I’ve always been, in some ways, cursed in others some might say

Ali: but I can share this luck now

Miri: Are you sure? I can’t promise my bad won’t rub off

Ali: Of course, there’s more than enough space for the four of us

Ali: and I’ve not lived anywhere alone, the closest I got was with Carly’s mammy and us and that’s not a time I want to get close to again, everything is easier with someone else to help out and the pair of them to keep each other occupied

Miri: Me either, the closest was my daydreams of Caleb and I setting up a home and that never got even a bit close to coming true

Miri: only embarrassingly far from reality

Ali: Been there

Miri: A blessing in disguise I learned his true colours before then

Ali: That’s true

Ali: his room at [the commune] is anything to go by, he would not make a good flatmate, never mind the rest

Miri: [tell her a horror story of something gross Caleb did or something you found when you were cleaning up after him in the era of being together, that kinda vibe]

Ali: He’s no respect, I’ve never met anyone with such a lack for everyone and everything

Miri: I used to like it, when I thought I was an exception

Ali: That might be part of being a girl

Miri: A naive girl

Ali: I can’t even say I was that when I got with Caleb

Miri: We ended up in the same place, but we got with him in different ways

Ali: I didn’t need him to lie to me, that must’ve appealed, something different

Ali: but he was always going to get bored

Miri: Men would have loyalty mean something different than it does to us

Miri: to suit themselves they rewrite the meanings of loads of things

Ali: Devotion from us, they’ll give what they’re willing to at the time

Ali: I don’t want to sound bitter, they aren’t all the same, like us women aren’t 

Miri: I don’t mind sounding bitter myself, I gave him everything

Miri: my mammy couldn’t have done more for my daddy’s sake neither, she chose him over me and he still can’t treat her nice

Ali: You’re right

Ali: maybe I should be even more bitter, though your brother won’t appreciate that

Miri: Both brothers wouldn’t, but don’t let that stop you

Ali: I’ll let Moses help us move before I turn on him, shall I

Miri: Or we could move when he’s off grafting in [wherever he’s going] so’s he can’t involve himself

Miri: I don’t have much to bring

Ali: We could get it done in one trip, easily

Miri: I’ll feel cruel robbing him of a chance to show off to you how many heavy boxes he can carry

Ali: 😏

Ali: I’ll undoubtedly want to bring up plenty from the shop in time, maybe I’ll let him impress me with his brute force then

Miri: Grand, it’s settled

Ali: Imagine not having to queue for the bathroom 

Ali: or eat [some of the most hippie food] ever again

Miri: I’ve learnt my lesson about letting my imagination run away with me

Ali: I’m a bad influence as far as that’s concerned 

Miri: Are you?

Miri: Well, I’ve a strong will, I don’t reckon I’ll be easily influenced

Ali: that’s right, don’t bow to my peer pressure and inability to learn

Ali: that aside, and making your brothers even more annoying, I’m not that bad a flatmate

Miri: You’ve made 1 more annoying and the other less, it cancels out

Miri: and you’ve been a good roommate here so far

Ali: I’ll take it

Ali: and I’ll keep you posted with what [her boss] says, how soon we might be able to be out of here

Miri: And if he says no, don’t tell me

Miri: I’d work it out when we’ve no moving date but ‘til I do I can dream

Ali: Deal

Ali: but he’ll say yes, for Django if no one else, he loves that boy

Miri: I’ll owe that boy [his fave food or toy, that kinda thing] with rent every month

Ali: The boys being friends is all I could ask for

Miri: Mine’s been like a new boy since he met yours

Ali: They really bring out the best in each other

Ali: and I just do not want to enrol Djang in any kind of school ‘til I’m of an age to be taken seriously, but I know that means he’s missing out

Miri: I know the feeling, I was surrounded by family growing up and Jasper just doesn’t have that, not how I want

Miri: the wild kids in this place don’t bring out the best in him

Ali: Me too

Ali: but we can only control what we can, right, the rest isn’t down to us

Miri: I try to focus on what he isn’t missing out on, if we’d both stayed under my daddy’s thumb he’d have more friends his age, but I’d have less say in what he was doing with them

Ali: You know what’s best for him, that’s how I feel 

Miri: His daddy’s lifestyle isn’t his to be held over his head and I couldn’t stand there and let it be how mine would

Ali: He can be his own person, so can you

Miri: That’s my real dream, day or night, the one to matter

Miri: he’s had years free, me too

Ali: Going back can be harder than anything else forward can throw at us

Miri: Only a funeral would see me go back, and even at my parents’ graves I wouldn’t be welcome

Miri: talk of the future’s for the best

Ali: Then that’s all we’ll talk of

Miri: Moses is gonna hate us, he’s nowhere but in the moment

Ali: unless I’m letting him rewrite the past

Miri: He wishes, no one has that in them to do

Ali: He’s idealistic like that, I guess

Miri: We could call it that, yeah

Ali: Does he remind you of your daddy?

Ali: Everyone always says he’s the spit of him

Miri: He does, but he’s taken care of me like my daddy didn’t bother himself to when I lived under his roof, there’s the important difference

Miri: I need to remember they’re not as alike as they look

Ali: I didn’t know he could be a good brother ‘til I saw him with you

Miri: I didn’t expect it of him to be who stepped up, I sound and am making him sound bad for what I’m saying, but that’s the truth

Ali: No, you don’t, he’d have only been the age Ronan is now, right, thereabouts

Ali: it’s impressive, however you slice it

Miri: I had someone else in mind to stand by me, if any of my family would, and I couldn’t have been wronger 

Ali: Was it Johnny?

Miri: We were close, I thought he cared

Ali: Moses told me you were

Miri: Something else to feel stupid about, he turned his back in record time

Ali: You don’t need to, he only practices what his daddy preaches

Ali: it isn’t your fault you can’t trust the rest

Miri: His daddy preaches family at the heart of everything

Miri: What am I if not? Every memory from my first I’ve knowing of he was next to me, not Moses, not my sister he’s wed to

Miri: all of it’s lies

Ali: It’s all talk of community and tradition but he always put it so his family was better than yours

Ali: the lies keep him comfortable, safe

Miri: He’s too ashamed to talk to me but not to do as I did

Ali: No doubt all the blame lies at my door, far as he’s concerned

Miri: How like a boy pretending he’s a man

Ali: There’s so much he’s said and done, I should hate him

Miri: Hate don’t come easy, I should my whole family but Moses

Miri: and if they came tomorrow, I’d let all of them in

Ali: I don’t know how we’re meant to cut off family

Ali: even when it’s happened to you, you’re too good to do it in return

Miri: I cut the language off dead, my son doesn’t know a word of it but that doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten a single one

Ali: If you ever miss it, you can teach me

Ali: I was learning, just another one of the stupid things I did for him

Miri: I miss it every day

Miri: The number of days you gave him, whatever parts of yourself, you aren’t the stupid one, he didn’t deserve you

Ali: I’m sorry he let you down too

Ali: and I really do hope he’s good to your sister

Miri: He’ll be a good provider, what she’s always wanted

Miri: she’s a fan of the traditions and old ways herself when they mean she’s not to trouble herself with school or work

Ali: Well suited

Miri: More than he and I would’ve been

Ali: You must think I’m so naive for trying to be right for him

Miri: I wasn’t there to judge how you two were together or hear what he spoke of to you, I can’t say nothing

Miri: I didn’t know him myself how I thought I did and we grew up next to each other

Ali: That’s probably a good thing, you’re too observant, I’d not have got away with it for as long as I did if you had been there to see

Miri: I was blind to Caleb, people see what they want to

Miri: I had need of him being someone he wasn’t

Ali: We’re two sides of the same coin on that

Miri: On him and Johnny

Ali: Of all the things to be wrong about

Miri: And poor Moses getting misjudged as a gobshite when I’d be lost without him

Ali: Looking back, it’s actual insanity how Johnny treated him, considering

Miri: His heart was in the right place when he followed it, but as you said, too often his daddy was who he did instead

Ali: Exactly

Ali: his guilty conscience has a lot to answer for too, much as that pains me to say

Miri: He could turn guilt into a sport or make it his full time work, to be sure

Miri: as a little boy he were the same, serious above and beyond his years, carrying the weight of the world

Ali: and I’ve only given him more to carry 

Miri: No, he made his choices

Ali: However we dole out the blame, I have learnt my lesson enough that I’m not going to do the same to Moses, promise, like

Miri: I don’t worry for Moses, he can’t be forced into nothing, whatever happens, it’ll be what he’s after

Ali: Poor Ronan, I’ll make that okay too, somehow

Miri: Come on now, you don’t owe Ronan

Miri: he’ll calm down when he sees Moses likes you and it isn’t a game

Ali: There’s history there, in fairness

Miri: Jesus

Ali: Oh God, I didn’t mean like that, not exactly

Ali: I meant that there was a whole thing with them and Carly

Miri: Not exactly? Meaning you’ve some history

Ali: I met Ronan first, we were mates, we did kiss

Miri: Your unfinished business’ll be why he wouldn’t shut up about you

Ali: Yeah, I know

Ali: I didn’t expect to fall for Johnny and leave him hanging like that

Miri: His crush spoke for itself long before I heard this, I can’t say I’m in shock

Ali: And I thought I didn’t like Moses at all so

Ali: what a mess

Miri: He likes you so much, Moses, now there’s a shock

Miri: I’ve never been forced to listen to him talk of a girl before

Ali: 🫣 You’ll be sick of the sound of my name

Miri: It’s sweet, this new side of him

Ali: I have to agree, even if I’m still a little bit in shock about it 

Miri: We’ll all get used to it

Miri: But who can say when? Not yet, like

Ali: I’ll only tease him an appropriate amount for talking your ear off

Miri: What else have I to do with my boy in school, he’d say

Ali: Just what you wanted, a second, overgrown child 😅

Miri: As a child, I did think I’d have more than 1 by this age, maybe there is a God up there trying to nudge me

Ali: That would be the sort of thing he’d do, so I’m led to believe

Miri: Me and my sisters would fight over who’d have the most, as that’s what our mam has done, no shock

Ali: Mine think I’m crazy for the one, never mind if they knew how many I planned on before

Miri: It was crazy we made no other plans but those, give yours that

Ali: Their plans are beyond me now, for now, at least

Ali: I can’t catch up to finish school

Miri: You can get by without it, I have

Ali: Very true

Ali: we’ve all our own paths

Miri: I won’t be telling Jasper he can finish early, when I get him into a proper school, he’s staying

Ali: Do as we say not as we do is solid parenting advice, whoever you are

Miri: He’ll have to follow your gorja laws and rules, like it or no, that’s what he’s being raised as

Ali: I want to let Django know where he’s from

Ali: but there’s only so much I can do when he isn’t wanted

Miri: He’s wanted by me and I’m from the same family, I’ll help you

Ali: I hope you know how much that means

Miri: The least I can do is answer your questions about his culture, everything you’re doing for us

Miri: and one of the boys knowing is better than neither, if that’s what you want

Ali: The space is there, I’m not really doing anything but 

Ali: Do you think it’s a good idea, to have him know?

Miri: I can’t ask my son to embrace a culture that rejects him, especially when for all their talk about the dealing, I’ve heard worse be overlooked and such things probably would’ve been for us if he had skin the colour his mammy’s is

Miri: but you’ve your own mind and decision to make

Ali: I will think on it

Ali: how fair it is on you and him, I don’t want to do it for my own selfish reasons, even unthinkingly so

Miri: My reasons might be selfish, because they turned their backs on me and all I have to do the same to are the history and stories, I could be being as unfair, I don’t know

Ali: You’ve not entirely imagined the issue with his skin though 

Ali: there’s nothing petty about that, that’s about safety and his is the priority

Miri: Thanks for letting me vent

Ali: Of course, it’s insane 

Ali: and I know what it’s like to have things that affect you every day and not having anyone to talk to about it, on some scale 

Miri: When he said [a gypsy lingo word whatever that may be because she was still using it with Moses when this kid was a bub until literally this moment] as 1 of his early words, my heart broke

Ali: For so many layered reasons, I can only imagine 

Ali: I prayed for Johnny staying away from him as often as I prayed he would care, it’s a headfuck

Miri: That it is

Ali: I don’t understand how Caleb can be so unaffected, when he sees him as often as he does

Ali: to not feel compelled to step up

Miri: I’ve done my best to compel him, for years

Ali: Oh I know it’s him, there’s no doubt about that 

Miri: Unless he’s different with your baby, then we know it’s me

Ali: I’m not holding my breath for it

Miri: He hasn’t changed yet

Ali: He’d not for me, I didn’t for him

Miri: If he’s got his hopes up for a daughter, I do think she’s a girl

Ali: Really?

Miri: I don’t have the sight, don’t get yours up, it’s just a feeling

Ali: Moses said your grandma would tell me but I’m not sure that’s a good idea 

Ali: I’ll take your feeling

Miri: He would say that, trust your gut

Ali: I will, I don’t mind a surprise 

Ali: curiosity aside, Johnny said the same so even if the lady tolerated my presence momentarily…

Miri: She’s a… character, let’s say

Ali: Having knowledge not many else do can have that effect 

Miri: Not that I’m bitter the power went to her head

Ali: You didn’t benefit from it on the end, right, bitterness is allowed 

Miri: Long as you talk me up to our future landlord, I can smile sweet enough when needed

Ali: Ah, you’re gorgeous 

Ali: and he’s a good man, I’d not trust him with Django if he was even half the one he is

Miri: I trust you to know his character, who better, the hours you put in at his shop

Ali: It’s barely a job, I enjoy it so much 

Miri: Blessed in your way, like you said

Ali: Highs with the lows are what I cling to, always have

Miri: Smart of you

Ali: I dunno if it’s a choice, I’ve known enough people of the opposite way, the bad can’t be forgotten for a moment 

Miri: There’s times when it feels like one, to put aside the bad, hard as it is

Ali: Maybe so, I could be giving unwarranted grace

Miri: Grace is a cute name, if she is a girl

Ali: It is, do you wanna call dibs though?

Miri: Where am I getting my own girl from, the veggie patch?

Ali: 🥬👶🩰

Ali: never say never

Miri: If there’s anywhere you would find a baby playing up to their neck in dirt, it’s [the commune]

Ali: So true, no mammy in sight

Miri: Jump at the chance normally and they still won’t be throwing me a leaving party, I haven’t made myself popular

Ali: We’ll throw ourselves a housewarming, be miles better

Miri: Even without the sight I can see you gifting me a doll in a plant pot

Ali: Damn, I’m going to have to find a way to get creative now

Miri: Ha, good luck

Ali: You’ll be devastated if I just chuck a cabbage your way now

Miri: You’ll be you’ve wasted a good cabbage on your joke

Miri: [and just be listing the many things you could cook with this like tehe none for you]

Ali: No that is proper gutting, like

Ali: 🥺

Miri: Least you’re a while away from keeping the leaves as a breastfeeding remedy

Ali: I might have to go back for visits, only place I won’t look crackers for that one

Miri: Throw her at her daddy sometimes so he don’t forget he is one, again

Ali: Oh, I will

Ali: I’m nothing if not an absolute nuisance, ask any man

Miri: By then he’ll have another girl in trouble, as he’s making up for lost time

Ali: Perhaps he should think about opening a creche

Miri: The poor girls he’d involve for his unpaid labour

Ali: Good point, going for hims a choice we’re never to live down, I fear

Miri: I won’t miss his pals deciding that means I’m fair game for any of their choosing

Ali: I didn’t help myself on that score either

Ali: if they weren’t persistent losers before

Miri: Dopes, the lot of ‘em

Ali: But we’ll keep that to ourselves, considering Moses needs no excuse there

Miri: I’ve met no man or boy I need him to fight for me, not yet

Ali: Much to his devastation, I know

Miri: He don’t listen to what could devastate him

Ali: True enough

Ali: He’s really excited about this though, you having your own place, the safety of it

Miri: S’what he’s been after since day 1

Ali: Safety can look different

Ali: no one would’ve ever argued I was better off with Carly’s mammy than my own but it’s what I needed at the time

Miri: I’ve had him promise he wouldn’t do something dangerous for the money so many times, I won’t miss that either

Ali: Do you not think they always planned to do the dangerous thing anyway but they also get to be a hero too if they say its for you

Ali: I’ve my suspicions, that’s all

Miri: Of course, they all get a kick out of it separate from the saving of us

Miri: he didn’t give Cavante a beating for my sake

Ali: but he’s still alive for yours, allegedly

Miri: Yeah, not for his and the threat of being sent to prison when Caleb’s mammy didn’t mourn her son quietly, all for me

Ali: But of course

Miri: His hands didn’t get into the state they are because of the 1 child I had years ago, give over, little brother

Ali: Makes for a better story, or clears anything that may be lying just that bit too heavy on his conscience 

Miri: Right

Ali: He knows I can look after myself, won’t be no more scars added on my account

Miri: Does he? Intriguing

Ali: I’m not saying he’d admit it, like

Miri: Never say never, was that what you told me

Miri: I didn’t think I’d see the day where he’s speaking of a girl, you, how he is

Ali: To think he only spoke to me again to warn me away from you

Miri: There he goes, using me as his excuse again

Ali: I swear he meant it that time, was very serious 

Miri: I won’t ask how long it took before he forgot all about me and his reasons

Ali: but sacrificing himself to being dragged down by me was very heroic of him

Miri: As ever

Ali: Bless 

Miri: He’s blessed enough without me having to add to it from my own mouth

Ali: I best check he’s shut his

Ali: only so many people who could possibly need to know his news

Miri: Be thankful yourself he’s no roofer, sign he’d have the lads hang up from what’s more or less the sky

Ali: Dear God, don’t give him any ideas

Miri: I know, he’s plenty of his own, I hear

Ali: and no shame, yep

Miri: Our daddy didn’t have shame to pass down, that’s none of our faults

Ali: S’pretty overrated as a virtue, modesty

Miri: You wouldn’t catch me naming a daughter of mine Modesty, no

Ali: It’s not going on the list

Miri: My ma’s, the way she runs through hers

Ali: There’s not even a cute nickname to come from it

Miri: I barely scraped by with one and I’m the first

Ali: Miri suits you

Miri: My daddy’s never opened a bible unless he’s run out of rolling papers and the shop’s shut, who did they reckon they were fooling?

Ali: It does seem like your mammy is planning to recast the whole book

Miri: Repopulate the earth in her husband’s image is a fair goal when his looks are all she likes about him

Ali: If only that’s as far as DNA went

Ali: not that I can say a damn word when I’m here expecting Cavante’s child

Miri: Me either, I started him off on this path and he’s obviously got a liking for it now

Ali: His own repopulation goal, 100%

Miri: God, and my boy has none of me in him to look at, my DNA barely bothered itself to show up

Ali: He’s your build

Miri: Cavante and I are the same height or thereabouts, who can say

Ali: Men have complexes if their height doesn’t start with a 6

Ali: no, not all men, just a lot of them

Miri: Most

Ali: I can’t disrespect my own daddy like that but I’ll accept most

Miri: If he’s taller than your mammy still, he’ll not mind

Ali: Every inch counts, am I right

Miri: I’m the wrong person to ask, being able to count on one hand the amount of times that was relevant to me

Ali: If you had to

Ali: what would you say your dream man is like?

Miri: I’d have to meet a man who wasn’t a nightmare

Ali: Let me know when you do

Miri: An if not a when, and a big one at that

Miri: but sure, I’ll talk your ear off

Ali: You know what I always say

Miri: Go on and say something to my brother, you’ve 2 to pick from

Ali: Why did you never talk about your sister to me?

Ronan: You know why

Ali: I don’t though

Ronan: She weren’t my sister no more, none of us was meant to talk of her or to her neither

Ali: You could’ve to me

Ali: or come to see her, you’ve your own mind

Ronan: Oh so you can have your secrets but I’m to tell you all mine, is it?

Ali: Alright, no, you didn’t have to tell me

Ali: I just find it odd that you didn’t the whole time we were friends

Ronan: S’family business, I couldn’t of

Ali: What about visiting her

Ronan: He does that

Ali: So she’s to go from [however many sibs] to the one

Ronan: Where’s the sense in all of us going

Ali: Jesus, Ronan

Ali: you don’t think she was lonely, in need of some support

Ronan: I’m not her sister, where would I start?

Ali: Just being there, would’ve been enough

Ali: not that this is coming from her, by the way, it’s just what I think

Ronan: What you reckon is I’m a bad brother, cheers, like

Ali: I’m just frustrated at you on her behalf

Ali: that you would think you didn’t need to because you’re not a girl

Ronan: At the end of the day, you know nothing about it

Ronan: she had him watching over her, he had it handled and I wasn’t gonna add much

Ali: If that’s what you really think

Ronan: She never asked for me to see her

Ali: She wasn’t allowed to

Ronan: She wasn’t allowed to run ‘round or off with both yous baby daddy but I can’t remember it stopping her

Ali: Yeah and that led to her getting banished, she was hardly going to chance her luck any further after that

Ronan: But I should

Ali: Oh, nothing was going to happen to you, come on

Ronan: You come on, when it’s known by the elders she’s there cos wes are all visiting and getting cosy, what then for her?

Ronan: she moves and nobody has her under their eye

Ali: You could sneak

Ali: that’s if they don’t already know

Ronan: Yeah, has a track record of working out proper well, eh?

Ali: Hardly the same

Ronan: Or your problem

Ronan: I don’t know why you’re after involving yourself

Ali: Because I’ve got to know her and she’s my friend, I care about her

Ronan: And I don’t? She’s my sister

Ali: Now’s your chance to show it

Ronan: We spoke

Ali: Good

Ali: How was it?

Ronan: She can tell you herself if yous are such good friends, can’t she

Ali: Maybe she has

Ronan: There you go

Ali: She must’ve got it wrong though

Ronan: I ain’t asking about what

Ali: You aren’t asking how I’ve been and you apparently cared 

Ronan: They both already told me how you’ve been

Ali: But you don’t need my opinion on the matter

Ronan: Nah, you don’t tell me the truth, you never did

Ali: That’s not fair, it was one thing I couldn’t talk about

Ronan: What’s not fair is letting me hear from my brother you’re with him now, how he said it

Ali: I told him not to 

Ronan: Ah, that’s alright then, we’re grand

Ali: and I didn’t know he was going to turn up here, if you recall, I didn’t know your sister was here until I was

Ali: it’s not like any of this was planned

Ronan: Fuck’s sake, you didn’t have to fall into his lap the sec he turned up

Ali: I don’t know why he had to tell you, it’s just weird for you and now me too

Ronan: ‘Course you’d sooner keep it another secret

Ali: What’s wrong with that?

Ali: No one else has to make their dating life a headline

Ronan: Don’t mean it’s not happening

Ronan: and you’re here for all the news of me and my sister so that’s rich

Ali: That’s not me asking you about your love life

Ali: and you don’t want to know, if you didn’t know right now you’d be in blissful ignorance 

Ronan: Nah, the things you’re asking about are loads more private than Mosey’s love life

Ali: I’m sorry that he’s no filter that makes that so then

Ronan: Whatever, Ali

Ali: It’s not how I wanted to reach out

Ronan: Well, you’re too late to get in there 1st, he beat you to it

Ali: He’s your brother, he talks to you all the time

Ali: where was I to start

Ronan: I’m slagged by you for saying I don’t know where to start but s’cool for you to

Ali: I wasn’t slagging you

Ali: and I’m not your sister either

Ronan: Liar, you were giving it a lash sure enough

Ronan: and he won’t get hitched to you, so, least you won’t be

Ali: It’s constructive criticism if anything, clear instructions on how to do better

Ali: By God, of course not, let’s not be hysterical, I’ve only just started seeing him

Ronan: You’re not my ma either

Ali: That’s mature

Ronan: I don’t need telling how to be a good boy or brother or whatever you think you’re doing

Ali: I’m not trying to be your mammy, my hands are full

Ali: can we not just start over?

Ronan: We’ve no need, you said what you came at us to

Ali: If that’s how you feel

Ronan: It is

Ali: Alright, I respect you to not try to change your mind

Ronan: You would say that, I’ve obviously not been on yours

Ali: That’s not true

Ronan: Right, when was I, while you was fucking my brother, before or after?

Ali: Fuck’s sake

Ali: plenty of times over the last [however long it has been since y’all talked], I wasn’t keeping count

Ronan: Just since my cousin dumped you then

Ali: Ha, sure

Ronan: There’s nothing funny about it, my next oldest brother’s [however old] if you wanna wait on him, like

Ali: No it’s not fucking funny but I’m not biting

Ronan: By the look of Moses, I’m betting your jaw’s too tired

Ali: Tell him to cover up if it offends you

Ronan: It don’t, you do

Ali: Why do I

Ronan: Calling me a shite brother who don’t care and you haven’t seen your family since when?

Ali: How would you even know?

Ali: We’ve not spoken since when?

Ronan: I’ve heard

Ali: From who?

Ronan: How's that the point, it’s not

Ali: You want to talk shit about me and have me have nothing to say back

Ronan: You started it

Ronan: cos you wanna score points off Moses

Ali: Off Moses? 

Ali: Be serious

Ronan: Yeah, he’s always telling me to come, now you

Ali: I’m not scoring points, I want your sister to know you care about her and your nephew

Ronan: Are you messaging Johnny’s wife, you know, my other sister, about the duties she’s skipping too?

Ali: Yeah, that’d be appropriate

Ronan: Exactly

Ronan: don’t talk to me about my family like wes friends

Ali: If you didn’t feel bad about it, you wouldn’t be so butthurt now

Ronan: Maybe I feel bad about you getting under my brother only cos Johno’s married off and left you

Ali: I’m not allowed to move on with my life?

Ronan: There’s a whole town of lads for you to ride if you want, they don’t all have the need to be related to each other

Ali: Do you reckon your brother is concerned 

Ronan: We both know the answer to what concerns him

Ali: So there’s nothing to save him from, is there

Ali: he’s aware

Ronan: So I’m not to bother myself with him, just Miri

Ali: They’re your family, you can do what you want

Ali: but I haven’t lied to your brother to get him into bed or something, I don’t do that

Ronan: I can do what I want when it’s leaving you and Moses be, true enough

Ali: What can you do, really

Ali: I didn’t intend for you to know but just because you do doesn’t mean you’ve got to act

Ronan: What would I for my sister, she’s grown, she’s a mammy herself

Ali: You don’t need to do anything, just be her brother again, how you are to the rest of your sisters

Ronan: She chose a dealer over us, the rest of my sisters aren’t gonna learn from her mistake if it ain’t treated as 1

Ali: She loved him, Ro

Ali: don’t you want her to be happy?

Ronan: He didn’t make her happy, he ditched her

Ali: You can’t see how things are going to go

Ronan: She shouldn’t of needed the sight to see he were gonna do what he did

Ali: She was young and he was a convincing liar

Ali: she’s been punished enough for being a naive girl

Ronan: Her punishment isn’t yours to dole out

Ali: Not yours neither, you aren’t your daddy

Ronan: I haven’t, we talked

Ali: and are you going to keep talking?

Ronan: It’s none of your business unless Miri makes it

Ali: True enough

Ali: weird thing to be so stubborn about but that’s your decision

Ronan: No weirder than you reaching out to tell me off like that’s your place to do

Ali: I am weird, I’ve been weird

Ali: get your own thing

Ronan: I’ve plenty, don’t worry yourself

Ali: I’m glad

Ronan: Sure you are

Ali: Sure I am, boy

Ali: why is that so hard to believe?

Ronan: A word you say? Dunno, why would it be

Ali: I told you I had a boyfriend

Ronan: Thanks a million

Ali: And I told you I was sorry

Ronan: I don’t wanna hear it

Ali: I heard what you want, it’s fine

Ronan: Fine for you

Ali: I can’t make it for you, sounds of

Ronan: Later then

Ronan: or not

Ali: Do we really have to leave it like this

Ali: for another [however long it has been], check in then?

Ronan: I don’t know why I’d have stuff to say to you in [another however long it’s been]

Ali: Wow, okay

Ali: but I’m the bitch

Ronan: You fucked everything up, you’re trying to still

Ali: I’m fucking your brother, that’s it

Ronan: ‘Til Johnny finds out and they kill each other

Ali: He won’t, he doesn’t care about me anymore and he’s not allowed to kill his wife’s family

Ronan: He named his wife’s baby your name, that proper says he’s over you

Ali: Not over psychologically torturing me yet, maybe

Ronan: It’ll kick off, you know that, you want it to

Ali: No I don’t

Ali: he’s gone, I’ve not got any delusion of getting him back through any means

Ronan: He’ll hear, he’s not gone from the country

Ali: He isn’t allowed to do anything

Ronan: He weren’t allowed to be with you or put a baby in Carls and he did both things, don’t be stupid

Ali: He didn’t have a wife and children then

Ali: he’s responsibilities, that’s what he chose, not to play these games any longer 

Ronan: Be why he was pulling stunts as recent ago as [whenever her namesake child was born]

Ali: I have no idea what he’s doing, I haven’t seen or heard from him since

Ronan: You ain’t been in the dark about none of it though, that’s my point, he’ll not be either

Ali: He’s not going to do anything to Moses 

Ronan: He’s gave him a beating for less before

Ali: He’s loyalty to your sister now, that’s my point 

Ronan: Where?

Ali: He must do

Ali: they obviously get along well enough

Ronan: Him and Carly got along well enough to have a kid, don’t take much

Ali: Suppose not

Ronan: You’d know yourself

Ali: I doubt they get themselves into the states wes were in in both those examples but yeah, sure

Ali: don’t you think she loves him?

Ronan: She’s not thick, he’s in love with you

Ali: Was, if any of it was real 

Ronan: Nah, is

Ali: You don’t know 

Ali: but would he have got with Carly if he didn’t hate me

Ronan: Everyone can see it

Ronan: and what a thin line there is between the 2

Ali: Did he love her too then? By that logic 

Ronan: He used her to get at you, it weren’t about her

Ali: He’d already dealt the final blow by then

Ali: there was no need

Ronan: He must’ve felt a need

Ali: He’s not who he said he was

Ronan: You’ve that in common

Ali: I don’t know what I did to you, I kept being your friend when he told me I wasn’t to be

Ronan: Some friend

Ali: Jesus, I’m sorry that you’re related, I didn’t mean to fall for him, I just did 

Ronan: You was gonna run away with him

Ali: We were going to come back, once it calmed down 

Ronan: His daddy wouldn’t, you’d keep him from his whole family

Ali: It didn’t happen 

Ronan: Jesus, that don’t make it alright

Ali: What about my family 

Ali: I made sacrifices for him too, that’s what you do 

Ronan: Yous made a mess, that’s all you both did

Ali: You’ll understand when you meet the one

Ronan: Ha

Ali: Or are you just going to keep sitting on the fence 

Ronan: You moved on pretty fast from someone whos the one, from where I’m sat

Ali: He’s married and a father 

Ali: what the fuck am I meant to do, lay down and die?

Ronan: And you’ve another man’s baby inside you and his cousin at the same time

Ali: I have to keep going

Ali: or did you forget I have his unwanted child to take care of

Ronan: Yous are all welcome to each other and this carry on

Ali: Must be nice being perfect

Ali: your conscience is clean, yeah

Ronan: Yeah, mine is

Ali: Fucking hell

Ronan: [rudely don’t reply because that’s what you and your brother are like when you’re in a pissy mood lol]

Ali: None of you were good friends to her, not even close 

Ronan: She said she liked Bart, knew he liked her back, and slept with his brother, what do you call that?

Ali: I didn’t say she was perfect 

Ronan: None of us was gonna stay mates with her after she’d acted like that

Ali: How about how you acted

Ronan: What did I do to come close?

Ali: You did what your brother told you to and treated her like dirt 

Ali: but nah, you’ve no role in the mess made 

Ronan: The brother you’re with now

Ali: Yeah, you think I’ve not brought it up with him 

Ronan: I said sorry to her at the time, he never

Ali: You act like I think Moses is some sort of saint now, I don’t

Ali: he was awful to her and to you 

Ronan: You’re acting like how I treated her was the same

Ali: If you genuinely don’t feel bad then I don’t think I ever knew you either

Ali: I feel bad

Ronan: Me too, for what was my fault but I made it up to her best I could, not things worse

Ali: You just said you weren’t her friend after and you weren’t

Ali: I was still there for her even though I hated what she did, and I had to put that aside, none of you fucking could though

Ronan: I had to be on Bart’s side, she fucked him over and he didn’t do nothing bad to her

Ali: It was bad

Ali: but I’m sure the guilt is worse, if he liked her like he said he did

Ronan: I’m not gonna speak for him

Ali: He’s not here to speak for himself

Ali: you all just disappeared 

Ronan: Like I said, given the chance, you would’ve

Ali: But I wasn’t

Ronan: And I wasn’t giving you or her no more

Ali: I hope you're happy then

Ali: because only one of us is still here to hear it

Ronan: ‘Course I’m not happy she’s dead, don’t mean it’s my fault

Ali: Do you not think she could possibly still be around if she had fucking anyone in her corner

Ali: shit as we might’ve been, that’s all she had 

Ronan: She should’ve thought about that before behaving how she kept on doing

Ali: Did you behave any differently?

Ronan: I had no knowing Bart liked her when I did anything, nothing else happened between us when I heard

Ali: You treated her how you’ve treated her all along, like something to be called dibs on

Ronan: We were friends til she took it too far and we couldn’t be

Ali: And now I know where we stand

Ronan: Good

Ali: Fucking fabulous

Ali: Goodbye, Ronan

Ronan: [again rudely don’t reply because you’ve said quite enough sir]

Clementina: You cannot be serious

Moses: What can’t I be serious about?

Clementina: The fact you would even go there

Clementina: but you have to make him cry about it to me, now it’s my problem, once again

Moses: If Ro’s being a little bitch, that’s his problem

Clementina: Do I not have to think about that girl enough already?

Clementina: How could you do that to me?

Moses: Tell him to man up and speak to me

Clementina: Give over, why would he tell you anything

Moses: Why would he go crying to you when you’ve got it worse?

Clementina: Because seemingly I’m the only one with any sense

Clementina: he says Miri and her are getting on like a house on fire too

Moses: Yeah well, they’ve plenty in common

Clementina: That’s not weird AT ALL

Clementina: can see why you shifted her

Moses: Ask your husband why if you don’t, like

Clementina: Oh I know exactly what he saw in her, you too

Clementina: at least he didn’t announce it 

Moses: Other than at your daughter’s naming in front of everyone, you mean

Clementina: The names aren’t the same

Moses: Come on

Clementina: We’re not here to talk about that

Clementina: did you seriously have to?

Moses: Did you have to marry that prick?

Moses: we both know the answer

Clementina: I did, actually

Moses: Wrong, you did not

Clementina: Yes, I did

Clementina: I’m not about to live in some crack den like Miri

Moses: There’s a whole community of us, any of the other lads would’ve provided for you, all daddy wanted was you hitched, who didn’t matter long as he weren’t no trouble

Clementina: Not as well as him, and that’s who was picked

Clementina: You’re only sore about it for the times he’s bested you

Moses: I’m sore about him making a fucking joke of you

Moses: How aren’t you embarrassed?

Clementina: I’ve nothing to be embarrassed for

Clementina: we live in the best ‘van on site, I can get everything for it and the babies brand new, all the best

Clementina: He isn’t with her, he’s with me

Moses: Listen, that scar he has, it used to be her name

Clementina: What do you mean?

Moses: On his chest, she wrote it and he did the same back

Clementina: She carved her name into his skin? That’s of the devil

Clementina: and you’re happy to lay with that, are you

Moses: You spoke vows to that, you’ve got babies with him, of his blood he spilled for her

Clementina: He goes to mass, every week

Clementina: he cleansed himself, she’s still dirty

Moses: Use it does, he was going to mass when he put his firstborn in someone else, whos the spit of him, by the way

Clementina: That’s only talk, that girl lay with all of yous and then some, how would she know, nor her mother

Moses: I’ve seen the boy with my own eyes

Clementina: As well as the one growing inside her that’s not yours either 

Moses: Yeah

Clementina: How did you even go through with it

Moses: I ain’t asked if he’s told you to go blonde, am I?

Moses: don’t start

Clementina: It’s not remotely similar

Clementina: No one gets a pure husband, luckily for you or no one would ever consider you

Moses: I’m not after settling down with a wife, pure’s boring

Moses: be why your man’s going astray in his head

Clementina: But you will

Clementina: you don’t want to be a sad old man

Moses: I might but it’s a while away

Clementina: and who will wed their daughter to you by then?

Clementina: You’ll be getting the leftovers

Moses: Any gorja would, they don’t care

Clementina: Ah God

Clementina: you can’t marry no gorja, don’t be a dope

Moses: I can do whatever I want

Clementina: But don’t you want someone unspoiled

Moses: I’ve had virgins

Clementina: Not to keep

Moses: Whores are more fun, you wouldn’t understand

Clementina: I don’t think you understand how marriage works

Moses: Yours I don’t, it don’t work

Clementina: Why’ve I got [2 I think but just in case there’s another on the way or whatever] kids then, and the home

Clementina: and I was the first of [her friends and cousins her age] to get married

Moses: You were only picked to be marched down the aisle cos [their next sister’s name] was too young and Miri was disgraced, get that through your head, little sister, Jesus 

Clementina: Yeah well he could’ve picked any of them but he didn’t

Moses: He picked Ali and the trouble that came from it got you the kids and the home, nothing you did

Clementina: That’s what yous are for, providing

Clementina: and he doesn’t stray now like you would

Clementina: I’d never let any of my friends marry you

Moses: Charming, that is

Moses: good thing your friends are all ugly

Clementina: They are not

Clementina: you’re going to end up with someone like mammy because you’re just like daddy

Moses: I’d sooner be alone, ‘cept I wouldn’t be

Moses: when your pals hate who they’ve wed, they’ll come find me

Clementina: My friends aren’t dirty jezzies

Clementina: and that sort of woman isn’t going to wash your clothes and cook your meals for you

Moses: Mammy has her uses and I’ve no need to replace her for ‘em

Clementina: Ack, you’re a mammy’s boy

Clementina: that’s so sad, Mosey

Moses: And you’re such a daddy’s girl you’re too scared to ever tell him no

Moses: get a grip, Clem

Clementina: I got out from under them as soon as I could

Clementina: you and Ro are gonna stay forever, like

Moses: Difference is, I’ve never been under him or anyone else, not like that

Clementina: Sure it’s different, that’s what all you lads say

Moses: I would’ve got you out, I told you

Clementina: And rely on you, like Miri does?

Clementina: No thank you

Moses: Thanks a million

Clementina: You’re my brother, that’s so weird

Clementina: she only has to because she’s ruined and no one else will

Moses: You’re thick if you reckon he won’t ruin you, he’s probably talking to her now

Clementina: Shouldn’t you know?

Moses: I’m busy hearing you out over how perfect your life is, ready for when I get to say I told you so

Clementina: That’s never going to happen

Clementina: you should be happy for me

Moses: Happy for what?

Clementina: That I have a good man looking after me

Moses: You’re just like mammy yourself, turning a blind eye to how he’s treating you

Moses: Where’s your self respect?

Clementina: He doesn’t drink, drug or gamble the money away, he doesn’t cheat, he doesn’t beat me or the kids

Clementina: this is about you having a problem with him, because I don’t have no reason to

Moses: He wishes you were someone else

Clementina: You sound [one of if not the youngest sister’s] age

Moses: And you sound braindead

Moses: least if he beat you there’d be reason for you to be this pathetic over him

Clementina: If it were about some fairytale idea of love, we’d be encouraged to date and find ‘the one’

Clementina: we aren’t because it isn’t

Moses: He still shouldn’t openly disrespect you, fuck’s sake

Clementina: What can I do about that? 

Moses: You could’ve let me handle it

Clementina: You don’t handle anything

Clementina: you just want a fight

Moses: That’s not true

Clementina: Yes it is

Clementina: It’s only a name

Moses: Keep on telling yourself what makes you feel better

Clementina: Says you

Clementina: Why the hell did you tell Ro, but to cause problems

Moses: Brothers tell each other about girls

Clementina: Don’t lie

Clementina: you know he’s liked her forever now

Moses: If he liked her that much he should’ve got in there when Johnny left

Clementina: She was busy getting pregnant and the like

Moses: She’s barely pregnant now, he had time before

Clementina: He’s better off not going there

Moses: He’s welcome for another favour I’ve done him

Clementina: Ha, you’re so brave

Moses: You’re brave talking back to me as if you haven’t let your husband walk all over you

Clementina: Because you’re not my husband

Moses: Because you’d lose your bottle around him, scared you’d lose your nice ‘van

Clementina: He needs me, for his reputation, that isn’t going to happen

Moses: What reputation? Everyone knows what happened, she opened her mouth loud enough for his imaginary God to hear

Clementina: And now he’s a good man

Clementina: which he’d not be if he’d stayed there and followed your lead

Moses: He’s not changed

Clementina: You’ve no basis for saying that

Moses: Takes more than a haircut, stupid

Moses: and why would he for you?

Clementina: For himself, so he doesn’t get disowned for messing with that girl

Moses: Maybe he’s got you and his daddy fooled, I’m not

Clementina: He hasn’t seen her in years now, they don’t talk, I would know

Moses: Sure you would

Moses: there’s another scar I spared you the story of, you know

Moses: she did her initials on him how they’d be if they married

Clementina: Why should I believe that?

Clementina: You’re just trying to wind me up

Moses: Ask him, his eyes aren’t gonna believably lie even if his mouth is trying its best

Moses: that’s if he even denies it, how little he cares for you, I’m betting he won’t

Clementina: Shut up, I’m not going to ask him

Moses: I wouldn’t lie to you about this

Clementina: Why would you tell me

Clementina: same reason you did Ronan

Moses: You deserve to know

Clementina: I don’t want to hear it

Clementina: what does that do for me, at all?

Moses: I’ve told you what I think you’re to do, you don’t wanna hear that either

Clementina: Because it’s the most stupid idea I’ve heard in my life

Moses: The state of your life, you need to hear me

Clementina: Mine?

Clementina: You’re the one messing with a heavily pregnant girl who apparently has your cousin’s name carved into her

Moses: Save your hysterics for your husband

Clementina: Oh shut up, Moses

Clementina: you’re so childish

Moses: Am I?

Moses: you’re the one playing house like those babies of yours are plastic still Clementina: You know nothing about taking care of children, don’t try to lecture me

Moses: I take care of Miri’s, you don’t even know his name

Clementina: Do you now

Moses: Yeah I do

Moses: you’ve got no idea

Clementina: It should be its father but that was never going to happen with the way she went about it

Moses: Let’s not act like Johno wouldn’t do the same disappearing act, he’s disowned a son already

Clementina: A bastard, he doesn’t have no daddy, nor his real mammy

Moses: His daddy’s under your roof, where the only mammy the boy has would be if your ‘good’ man had grown a set and stood up to his own

Moses: but he’s a pussy instead and here we are, he couldn’t best me with my eyes closed, he’s weak

Clementina: He respects tradition, he was never going to be with her seriously

Moses: The tradition of what, being under his daddy’s boot?

Moses: that’s the man you want

Clementina: He wouldn’t call God imaginary

Clementina: nor do half the things you think are acceptable, however old you are

Moses: But he best pray I’m right or he’s going to hell along with us

Clementina: For what, exactly

Moses: Half the things you’re bringing up there as unacceptable I’ve done, for a start

Clementina: It’s called repenting, look it up

Moses: You’ve got to be sorry to repent, take 1 look at him

Clementina: He’s sorry enough to do right by me, that’s all I care about

Moses: If you’re after something to look up, there’s always what your ring engraving says, see if you reckon he did right by you with the quote he chose

Clementina: Do you think I have time to sit around and play these games, I have two small children, I don’t need to entertain you too

Moses: Mam’s sitting for them is what I think, what else have you to do but entertain the ways your husband is making a show of you

Clementina: To who?

Moses: Everyone, have a backbone, can’t you?

Clementina: Everyone is jealous of the life I lead

Moses: The mates who laugh behind your back or the elders who are shaking their heads and throwing you pitying looks? Who of them is jealous, hmm?

Clementina: And everyone thinks you’re a complete and utter gobshite

Moses: I don’t live my life to please nobody but myself, give a fuck

Clementina: So why would I

Clementina: I’ve got what I want

Moses: Because you give all the fucks what everyone reckons to you, from when you was small

Clementina: That’s really not true

Moses: Liar

Clementina: You’re the liar

Moses: Where?

Clementina: You’re a show-off, you think everyone is thinking about you all the time

Moses: I know what I look like

Clementina: 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Moses: [rudely don’t reply because I know damn well you���re getting bored of her not listening to you when you’re making quite valid points tbf]