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waiting

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entry _11

the room is windowless. i do not remember arriving. how long i have been here alludes me. the only indication of the passage of time is the regular delivery of meals. i stopped counting after 159.

lisden is never going to let me see the grey sunless sky again. my location will always be unknown to me. hope’s wick has burnt out 

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entry _10

things have grown worse.

i awake to the shadowy figure standing before me, two objects in his hands. there is only just enough time for my brain to recognise my map and pencil before two arms seize my body and drag me from the blankets.

screams emerge from my chest and echo through the hallway. citizens appear from the doorways but are ushered back to their rooms by other bishops. the hands grip tighter on my skin, a wordless command for silence.

i do not obey.

“don’t let them control you,” i say, “head true-”

before i can finish my instruction, darkness consumes me. 

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entry _09

i’ve been here for weeks. leaving the city has been at the forefront of my mind. there is a map stashed under my bed and i keep a pencil tucked under the lighting fixture. when he thinks i’m asleep i light a candle and trace routes through the maze. inside me, hope flickers.

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2/25/2019 (59 + 60/?)

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sometimes i just really want to run away, somewhere nobody knows

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replacement // 7.31.2019

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feelings

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via @death-trips

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