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40 FICTIONAL FEMALE DYNAMICS #9. Taissa Turner & Shauna Shipman (Yellowjackets)

I'm scared to go to sleep. Then I'll stay awake, okay? And I won't let you go anywhere.

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kinda pissed off at how we see van's, nat's and even misty's shocked faces when shauna picks the queen, but not TAISSA'S face??? where's my taishauna tea...

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He would find them to third wheel in any universe. Canonically.

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i don’t even know where you end and i begin.

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you know what truly drives me insane about the poppies on the wedding cake? it isn't just how it strongly suggests two completely different weddings. or how it shows that jackie's the reason behind this wedding, and that both shauna and jeff know it.

it's that jackie is represented by a wedding cake. by sweet and beautiful food, created just to be consumed. and as always, jackie's the main event of the evening, standing next to jeff and shauna. again, it'll end with them cutting her open and taking the first bites. the both of them, together, bound by always wanting more of jackie than what they got.

except now, they can get as much as they want. she's completely theirs. they don't even have to share her with anyone they didn't invite to the feast. and once the wedding is over, all that's left of the cake is memories, pictures, and the taste of it between their teeth.

but it's not a funeral, it's a wedding. it's about love and commitment. she's in both their stomachs now, so she'll be in their house, she'll be in their bed. and when the starvation starts again, when a wedding born from consumption starts to taste dead, she'll be in their daughter. a girl who will keep them together, who will be enough, because she'll be all theirs and finally so very alive.

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Mean Girls (2004) House MD (2009)

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ALSO in 1x06, we see more of jackie's bedroom through the mirror. there's a pic of a dark-haired girl being hugged from behind. jackieshauna?

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in jackie's room, there's a song called "whispering winds", and the artist's name is illegible. the only song with this title before 1996 was by patti page in 1952, according to google

and would you look at these lyrics??

another win for homoerotic bestfriendism jackieshauna! let me forget my misery! didn't know it was the last i'd see him, even though he as saying goodbye! don't whisper to me ("dreaming" as she was freezing) of a love that can never be ("dream shauna" telling her she loves her)!

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sometimes i wonder if i'm going too far by thinking that shauna had an affair mostly because adam reminded her of jackie (his easy-going and extroverted personality, his love for her, his possessiveness of her), and because her affair paralleled with her relationship with jackie, including its toxicity (the triangulation with jeff, the mutually-consuming relationship, the wrongness of acting on her desires such as Sex or Cannibalism)......... but then i remember that adult shauna's VERY FIRST SCENE was her ""regressing"", masturbating as she watched, in her traumatized mind, jeff and jackie together (even if the reality of who she was looking at was wildly different).

without this scene (and a few others), maybe i'd buy that she slept with adam only because she wanted to "get back at jeff", because she has some sort of "cheating kink" (or at least she perceives herself this way), and because she wanted to live her teenage dream of making floppy-haired, artistic boys fall in love with her mysterious self.

but let's be for real. adult shauna excels in surrounding herself with the past, consciously or not. her trauma can be found in all areas of her life, all her surroundings, all her decisions, all her desires, all her relationships. it's in her home decoration, her clothing style, her lack of career, her marriage, her daughter. even before the past came back to threaten and haunt her explicitly (jessica's questions and taissa's campaign on television), even then, shauna was able to look at photographs and perceive completely different people from who's actually pictured. moreover, she sought it, it most probably wasn't the first time. shauna had been living and breathing in the past for 25 years, and it both tormented and comforted her, she hated and loved and wanted it.

so there's no way her relationship with jackie, which had extremely influenced her for so long now, didn't play a big role in her affair. both relationships ended with her lashing out after she realized/believed they read her journals, feeling used by someone "who was supposed to love her".

(i'm not saying adam was "just jackie" in shauna's traumatized mind. i'm saying shauna's affair with adam was a golden opportunity for her to finally go back and relive her teenage years: mostly the thrill love and joy she felt being by jackie's side, the sense of control and the boost of self-esteem of sleeping with someone you shouldn't, but also the guilt and shame she used to feel. and it's easier for shauna to be blind, to believe the affair was about affirming herself and moving on, than it would be for her to identify/accept the real reasons behind the affair. it's exactly like teenage shauna convincing herself she only slept with jeff in particular "to be her own person and to move on from jackie", blind to how the affair was also a way to link her further to jackie. that is, up until jackie was dead and her desire to merge, to be one, to always be together, had no more obstacles, completely overtaking her as jackie's low protein ear was sitting in her pocket).

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i think it's very neat (the wilderness behind callie)

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When Shauna was talking to Callie in her room in S2Ep2, Callie’s jewelry rack was made from Antlers and was behind Shauna!!!

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when your circle small but y’all all crazy

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i do love the "she's back where she started but somehow even worse" yj moments

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it is, i fear, incredibly serious

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