9.2.2024
Eight year old eyes
Devoured their senior
Citizen love, their
White picket fence
I was thrift store clothes
And skin wrapped around
Need, they never knew
The way they fed
Worms into my
Bluebird mouth,
Never saw me
Flutter in the trees
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POST-MAGIC
you are real
i hold onto this
even though
nothing else was
i hide in a room
full of plants
for what else shall i do?
the other rooms
were dreams
you pass by me
and it feels like passing through
what am i? please
don't say ghost
i still have to live with this
the waking up
and you did cross that room
and now again
for someone else
how i wish i could go back
but then i realize---
to what? you met my eye
more than once---
how far was that?
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Night Poem, Leila Chatti
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are old bad men ever afraid of weather? cause youre most susceptible to nature when youre at your youngest and your oldest. like when the thunder gets louder and closer and youre standing alone in a quiet house and you feel the sound in your vertebrae. if i had people under me that i knowingly wronged i think one day and one thunderstorm id fall to my knees and stay kneeling till i bled out. be wondering if any of those were sent down to scream at just me
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My tenth wish
Was to die
But now I am fighting time
To keep the back door
Closed
As dogs gnash
At the glass
And a dog finds his way
In through the front
And you won't even hold him
Down.
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pink moon.
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Ghost sculpture in the castle of Vezio, Italy.
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Anne Carson, from Autobiography of Red
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they told me to eat a lemon peel and wait 45 minutes, for euphoria, and what did i have to lose by biting through that bitter rind other than a lingering acrid taste on the back of my tongue, like bile in the back of my throat. low risk for the reward of activating the pineal gland, of being washed over by euphoria, opening that elusive third eye of perception.
but nothing happened.
now i am high as hell in a bed not mine, alone, after my baby brother's wedding.
still waiting for the valve to open, for the flow of that ancient greek pneuma, that breath, to tap that unassuming pinecone of an organ of excess and delirium open, calling to the goddess of strife and discord through the taste of zest, to channel this incessant rage, turn chaos into coping.
the stars are so far away, unable to be caressed as they're dying, already dead, light taking ages to fade, to blink out of existence. so far away from here, in a black sea of nothing, abysmal and freezing. poke holes in me, pinpricks, i wonder if i too can shine from within, if my void holds any light that won't be noticed when it fades.
@nosebleedclub June 29th - Lemon Rind
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It's about devotion and obsession. It's ALWAYS about devotion and obsession. And hunger. It's love with teeth.
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Art by Essi Välimäki
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I AM 17. I HAVE A LOT TO SAY.
by Jackson Holbert
My mother was around
all the time back then, always walking
in and out of rooms carrying stacks
of laptop computers. She spent most
of her daylight hours blowing dust
out of circuits, fans, motherboards, daughterboards.
Sometimes her little canister would die
and she’d have to use her mouth.
My father was gone all day
every day getting repetitive stress injuries
at the newspaper. He was a journalist
and everyone hated him, even his friends.
Nothing really happened during my entire childhood
so he ended up spending most days
shooting paper footballs through a miniature goal post
he kept in the locked drawer of his desk.
He was rarely kind. And in the few, short
instances he was, it still didn’t seem like it.
Something about his mouth made everything he did
seem either sinister or inept.
He was completely inscrutable except for a period
in the spring of 2004, when he was just sad.
I was young that year and my sister was older.
She came home from college for the whole summer of 2005.
I was 14. She told me not to worry
about other people, not to worry about war, not to worry
about a thing. That was the greatest summer
of my short life. I had no friends. Oh I had people
I talked to at school but once summer hit
it was like every school bus had crashed
headfirst into a wall except the one that was carrying
me and my silver trumpet.
I had that tall kind of joy that you can only feel
when your bones still have another few inches left in them.
My sister and I would watch three movies a day
and never go to the lake. Everybody says it seems
like summer never ends
until it does. But that’s a lie. I knew
so little back then but the one thing I did know
was that all my friends were coming back
and I would once more join them
in the hallways, in the classrooms,
once more join them for hours after school
in the far part of the parking lot
and would continue to do so until I turned 16
and got a job cutting my fingers
on the cheese grater at the Pizza Factory.
After that everything was all work work
work go home Jeremy get your feet off the sofa Jeremy
work work math homework band-aids
and on a good day a little trumpet
and on the best days
all trumpet. I wanted
my life to be about music
but in the end it was about
getting B’s in subjects such as Spanish.
I don’t know, sometimes it feels like those summers
really did never end, they went on forever
and just got
progressively
worse. We like to pretend that one day we just
walk into our adulthood like a congressman
walking into the ocean,
but we all know that’s not true. What really happens
is we walk into the same building
day after day, but every night
some crew comes in and replaces something little —
a lamp housing, the chair of a conference table —
until nothing is the same, until the building is not as we
remembered it at all, until the building is stronger,
up to code but a lot less fun,
and the lighting, the lighting is fluorescent and obscene.
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@Poetryisnotaluxury
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— Jenny Holzer, Living Series: IT’S AN EXTRAORDINARY FEELING…, 1981
— Grief Slut, Evelyn Berry (via)
door / by / von, florian hetz (via)
“We met our wounds in each other’s bodies.”
— The Chronology of Water: A Memoir, Lidia Yuknavitch
— Crash, JG Ballard
Jenny Holzer, Survival Series: WITH ALL THE HOLES IN YOU..., 1983
Jenny Holzer, Living Series: SOMEONE WANTS TO CUT A HOLE IN YOU..., 1981
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