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zombie girl voice im in my rotting era

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did anyone ever tell the Backstreet Boys why

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It's really interesting though how the first couple of times we really see Annie being emotionally manipulative are with Jeff and they're platonic, even using their age gap to make him feel worse. And she quickly learns that she can cry on purpose for that. And I mean, they have that manipulative tendency in common. Aside from anything else about their romantic stuff, I just feel like it would've been so much more interesting and entertaining to explore that as a platonic dynamic, with them falling into habits of manipulating people together, and Annie manipulating Jeff to get stuff out of him, and him feeling annoyed when he realises but also being like, hey I taught her this basically, I'm a bad influence. And then they could work on stopping it together!

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I mean, I don't think those things need to be at odds or balanced against each other necessarily. I am proud to be disabled. Pride doesn't have to only be about acknowledging the good stuff, it can be like this is me, impairments and all, and none of that makes me less worthwhile. Disability as a concept doesn't need to be opposed to pride.

Is there any sort of balance to be had with being proud of being autistic and also being disabled by it without people making assumptions? It feels like every single time I try to be even a little bit positive about my experiences I get dogpiled by other autistic people telling me I shouldn't be treating autism like a little quirk and that it's disrespctful to people who struggle, which I do but I'm not talking about in the current moment. It makes me really hate the autistic community on here and distance myself from it, and makes me wonder what's even the point of a community at all if everyone is always so eager to put each other down and make accusations over nothing. Sorry if this makes no sense I'm a bit angry right now.

This isn't something I've personally experienced, but it doesn't surprise me. I also tend to block people who comment rudely on posts, so I may have blocked many who would pull such things.

As for the question of is there a balance between being proudly autistic and being disabled by it?

Yes. And that balance is different for everyone as someone people are more disabled by their autism than others, but we're all disabled by it to some extent.

And it's 100% okay to enjoy the nicer parts of your autism. I adore that I can live in my head or that I get so much joy from my special interests. Anyone who told me that means I'm making autism sound quirky and fun can fuck right off.

I don't know why some people want us to lament our diagnosis like a Greek tragedy.

You can hate the disability but love the autism.

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So like i've heard english is 3 languages in a trenchcoat pretending to be one is that true?

it's greatly overexaggerated.

english is structurally a germanic language. it had a large influx of french vocabulary following the norman conquest, and it's picked up a lot of lexical items from other languages too, sometimes with their original morphology still attached (like pluralizing "addendum" as "addenda" the latin way, rather than english +(e)s plural).

so it's more like one language that really likes to accessorize and maybe kept the fancy suit that old norman left at its house one time.

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you know what would be really cool for autistic people/ADHDers and really annoying for everyone else? imagine if you could like randomly turn on "notifications" in your brain for whenever people anywhere mention your special interest/hyperfixation. like you could specifically see where the closest person who recently mentioned it is or if there's something related to it on the tv or it would guide you to an exact video with a random mention of it and you'd just. never miss it

especially useful if you have niche SIs/hyperfixations

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It just makes a lot of sense why Marcille and Laios would be good friends, really, because Marcille Will Tell You What Is On Her Mind. If she doesn't like something, she throws a tantrum. If she's down to clown, she clowns like a champ. If she has an opinion, she voices it clearly and concisely. Laios knows exactly where Marcille stands in pretty much every topic.

On Marcille's end, she's down to clown more than people give her credit for. Laios said "yo let's play with these bones and rearrange them in funny ways" and Marcille joined right in. Like, yeah, she'll want to bonk his skull in sometimes, but aside from the monster and dungeon (well, she does have this one, just differently) fascination, she's pretty much in the same wavelength as Laios when it comes to most things.

Which is cool! Because they could've made them hostile siblings in law but they are besties actually.

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a post-doc was doing a guest seminar at my institute and at the beginning of his presentation he was explaining why he chose birds for his evolutionary analysis - so he said "well first of all, because birds are the best and most interesting animals and it's fun to study them" and a few professors in the room gave him a very serious nod

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does anyone know how 're' became the suffix for denoting when something is done multiple times? return, revisit, remember, revolve etc.

yep, here's the etymonline entry!

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If Abed hadn't been laying low in Football, Feminism and You he could've made Troy stop and think about his attitude and priorities so easily. They had to take Abed out as a factor for that plot to work, a single well placed gentle, mysterious gaze and that silly jock would melt and not hear a word either Jeff or Annie said

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yknow that speech jeff gave in the thanksgiving episode. and at the end he reveals he keeps a bunch of get well soon cards from like his 7th grade class under his bed to prove that someone cared about him. and as obviously tragic as that is, the whole time i always just think my dude get a cat. it will hang out with you and make you Feel Loved

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Follow for the same picture of the moon every day!

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they should invent a brain that doesn’t whisper bad things to you

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"Continue watching" I didn't start watching it I just paused my scrolling for like five seconds and you autoplayed it youtube you bitch

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So I was writing a small paper in Microsoft Word and the program suddenly crashed (I saved a couple minutes before, thank god) and I get this message in the corner of my screen two seconds afterward

what the fuck

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Follow for the same picture of a rock every day

[ image id: a picture of a grey and white rock on a white background, with a stock photo water mark overlaid on it end id]

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No brain gremlin, there is nothing in "you need to send us these documents and tell us this information and then someone more suited to it will be in touch" that actually means "I, a stranger who works in inquiries at the uni disability service, am personally angry at you for sending a polite, reasonable question"