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I'm currently on graduation holiday with friends

At the beach

With the ocean

While I have thalassophobia (fear of the freaking ocean)

And I actually avoided going anywhere near the water for three days straight until yesterday...

At first I was very very VERY skeptical; stayed on the towel we put on the stones and watched over my friends while they were in the water, quietly panicking about them going a little too far away from the shore (in my eyes at least)

Then I prayed to Poseidon (although it probably was more like threatening him out of panic) to keep my friends safe, especially after I couldn't see them anymore because they freaking left behind a big stone/cliff-thing

They came back safely and then I stared at the ocean for a while and then I asked them that if I worship Poseidon, the God of the Sea, then technically the sea water would be the equivalent of holy water, right?

AND THAT'S ALL I FUCKING NEEDED

I didn't go in completely immediately, but I slowly came closer at least and crouched down, just putting my hands in the water basically to get a feel, especially the temperature; but with the waves my feet got wet real quick too and I almost jumped out of the way because I haven't even been in pools anymore the past five years lol

Anyways, I sat down at a big stone nearby the shore and just let the water hit my legs while I was looking for pretty stones in the water for his altar (and the others are getting one too, but Poseidon gets the biggest one); pretty sure I was more or less playing splash with Poseidon because everytime a pretty big wave splashed me, I splashed back and then another wave came (which is very much how it's supposed to go, but it felt different, you know?)

At some point I was relaxed enough and didn't see the ocean that scary anymore to the point I was actually in the sea up to my stomach, but then I had to go back because the waves were too strong to just waddle around while picking up stones

But to be honest I think I was so distracted with pretty stones that I completely forgot about the big wide scary ocean and just focused on this little area I was at; and it might have reminded me of that time I used to be in our pool at home pretty much daily and all day back when I was a child because it took a lot to get completely out of the sea again haha

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Sometimes I feel tired of fighting and I just want to crawl over to him and lie down in his lap or under his wing somewhere and be there until the end of time.

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Zeus Plusius 💸

(of wealth)

E-offering for King Zeus🦅

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Made a Lord Lucifer themed stimboard

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I'm a little pissed at current events, but I still appreciate the fact no one judged me for asking to move the welcome rug in front of the front door away

Now the only problem is that one of them was pretty much convinced someone was knocking at the door, and not once but thrice and none of us heard it, but she was still like "open the door!" so then we opened it, no one was there obviously and right there I saw a "welcome" sign screwed onto the door...

I really wanna tell myself I'm just freaking out for nothing, but I really don't like the energy right now, but maybe it's just me being pissed/overstimulated right now

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One can argue if Lucifer or Apollon was the first deity I worked with; well, no, it was definitely Lucifer, I just decided to work with two too fast, so he left, so I could focus on one deity haha oops

Buuuuut you know who my actual first deity was years ago?

Loki. Like seriously, the amount of spiders I had in my room five/four-ish years ago was unreal; there was at least one everyday, sometimes I saw more during the day and now I see a spider maybe once in two months or something (which I like to see as Loki checking up on me, even though it could just be a normal spider, you know?)

I would also just yap to them back then; no candle, no altar, no nothing, but I'd just greet them and tell them about my day because I felt their energy

Also my social media would be full of Loki videos, which at some point probably was just the algorithm, and lots of beginner videos, which mostly were witchcraft videos and I decided not to become a witch nowadays haha but anyways–

I didn't call it that back then, but looking at it now, I definitely was working/worshipping Loki in some way, so safe to say I was already pagan back then I just didn't realise haha (I think because of the thought that I had to be a witch to become pagan which I didn't really want to do already back then, at least not while I'm living with my parents, but guess what? You don't have to be a witch)

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Ok Im ranting lol

I think the thing that is most perplexing to me is this insistence that having interactions with deities is somehow a statement of superiority.

I’m not allowed to just… y’know, talk to the Gods and deities I have dedicated a large portion of my life to. By even insinuating that they would talk to me, would have anything positive to say to me (Lord forbid it’s approval, oh no) I MUST be implying that I am better than everyone and more deserving of divine attention or something.

Hermes told me “good job” one time so that means I’m basically saying that I am immune to all criticism and wrongdoing for all eternity- Because Hermes said that one thing to me.

Right.

Every single time I’m like “hey, this spirit that I work with daily said this thing to me today,- Lord Lucifer told me he’a proud of me and that made me really happy.”

Someone is like “You’re a narcissist. You have delusions of grandeur for thinking that the deity you have been working with for years would express some sort of pride or approval with you. The Gods would never let someone know that they’re doing a good job and they certainly wouldn’t ask you to continue. You’re trying to speak for the Gods so we think you’re better than us”

And it’s like…

Dude.

No one even slightly implied that I am better than anyone. Hermes didn’t say “you know what Shi, you’re perfect.” He just said. “This thing you’re doing means a lot to me. Thanks. Keep going.”

What do you think? We’re doing here????? Like what do you think demonolatry and occultism and witchcraft are?

Of course???? My Patron advises me? And guides and encourages me??? Why wouldn’t he??? What work and growth would I be doing if they never gave me feedback?

You’re supposed to be like, learning things and experiencing new ideas. Right?

Do you guys think demonolatry and paganism is like… an aesthetic, that has no real practical pursuits? I do ritual prayers for Lord Lucifer every single night guys. ????????? Of course ??? He’s going to come to me in my dreams, I asked him to.

??? Why???? Would I do this otherwise???

When people get into demonolatry especially, and they hear things like, “you’re entering an initiation, this is a living and developing relationship and pursuit, it will be intense, you will be forced to change. You will have to do intense shadow work.”

Do they think it’s like??? Metaphorical? Symbolic???

When I’m like “wow Lucifer just took me through a super intense experience that really shook me to my core and made me re evaluate and approach my philosophies and actions. I really have a lot of new insight into something I previously didn’t understand.”

And people are like “no. Thats too much. That sounds like a lot. That’s intense. No. Too much for paganism, too extreme. You cried? That’s toxic. He said he loves you? You grew? Okay now you’re a narcissist.”

When I’m like “yeah I did a really intense ritual with Lucifer and I used psychedelics as an aid, we engaged in blood magic and sex magic and shadow work and it was really transformative.”

And people are like “no. Drugs? Drugs in??? Witchcraft? Oh No. Thats too much. Thats too icky. Blood? You’re saying you were communicating all day? You experienced an ecstatic trance? No. Thats not real. Rituals are always clean and they are always very tame. If a ritual gets too intense that means you’re lying. Experimenting with altered states is weird. Thats never been a thing.”

GUYS. WHAT. WHAT DO YOU MEAN ????

What EXACTLY do you think this is????

I’m sorry but paganism on tumblr has been so beyond sanitized it’s insane. And I know this for an absolute fact because this attitude only exists on Tumblr. Whenever I’m in any other occult space and I’m like “oh yeah, ritual, sex, drugs, magic, he said he loves me,” everyone else is like “yeah bro me too. Thats just a Wednesday. Anything actually interesting to report?”

But on tumblr it’s like “WOAH? That’s…. Weird. Thats…. Too weird for witchcraft…”

You’re here telling me that I’m TOO FREAKY for DEVIL WORSHIP ???? Where do you think you are??????????

The fact that I’ve had so many people be like “vessel-hood? That’s never been a thing. Thats way too weird. Gods dont do that!!!! Gods would never ever do that ever!!!!”

As if vessel-hood isn’t an already established ancient practice. Holy Dionysus, as if substance use, or blood magic, or sex magic, possession, ecstasy are new. As if literally any of this is somehow new??????

No Im actually losing it guys cause wait.

What do you mean??????

Communication in dreams? Nope that’s too much. Altered states? Absolutely not. Astral sex? Woah, now you’re definitely crazy Shadow work? You should just get normal therapy thats too weird!!! Vessel-hood?? God-spousal?? Way too close to the divine!

Are we saying these things are ???? Somehow??? New ?? And unbelievable????

Are you really that surprised that a God can communicate through dreams???

Are you that horrified that substances and sex have literally always been a part of witchcraft???

No Im so serious right now, I genuinely have to take breaks away from Tumblr at times and just interact with other witchy and occult adults on other sites and forums because I lose touch with reality sometimes.

Im like. Holy shit. Is it really that insane? To see ? A deity in a dream? Is magic even real?

And then some other practitioner is like “Third night in a row that Paimon has read to me in my dreams. Does anyone know of any sigils to make him keep returning?”

Or someone will be like “Asmodeus and I are getting married next month, would someone please design me a tattoo for my big day?”

“Taking a break from possession because Lord Belial advised me to take a tolerance break. We’re sticking strictly to astral sex this month.”

And I’m like holy shit okay. The sky is still blue. Okay. Fuck.

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Beloved Lucifer, Bringer of Light

Beautiful Morning Star

He who walks in the light

And that wanders in the dark

That whispers to the winds

Who illuminates us with his torch

And marks us with his trident

From the breath of your nose to the parting of your lips

Your beautiful burning flames;

Make my eyes open, my ears hear

I offer my humble gratitude to you for guiding me through the darkness, fears and uncertainties

and light my path with clarity

In your wisdom I find strength, in your grace I find comfort

I am grateful for your eternal presence and advice

Hail Lucifer,

I honor you with love and reverence.

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Hehe

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Wanna play dress up with my deities...

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it’s okay if you haven’t pulled cards in a few days. it’s okay if you haven’t lit a candle since last week. it’s okay to be busy with school or work or life and collapse into bed, fast asleep before you can do any meditation. life will happen, your path will still be there.

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So uhm… I was JUST doubting myself while colouring for Poseidon because I’m not even doing any rituals or stuff like that, currently I’m not even lighting up the candles I have for my gods, they’re just on my mind basically 24/7 but I don’t really do any devotional acts anymore (at least it feels like that)

And then I open tumblr and that’s the first thing I see😶

The Gods: oh I just love this little guy so much! 💖

Devotees & god- spouses: oh I just love my God so much!!! 💕

Some guy: nooo you can’t do that! you have to be super serious and not have too much fun or gain too much enjoyment and comfort from your practice because that makes it too real and uncomfortable for me personally!!! That’s not traditional enough! You can’t do that!!!

Devotees and God- spouses: oh, Im sorry…. Maybe I am doing something wrong.

The Gods: MAN what the HELL I just wanna love MY little guy what’s YOUR problem!!!???

Some guy: but they didn’t do this one method! And they don’t seem very professional! They didn’t even do the invocation the way I would have! I don’t think they’re legit!!!!

The Gods: who tf cares about sticking to a ritual when your love for your God is this pure dude? what?? I just want them to spend time with me because I love them……??? *Takes their little guy and runs away*

Devotees and God-spouses: oh shit so you mean my God actually had absolutely no problem with me and it was just other humans giving me a hard time again? Well would you look at that. Anyways. I love my god so much! 💕💗💖

The Gods: Anyways! I love my little guy so much!!!!! 💕💓💖

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Luci agere page thing, but dunno how much agere there is despite being regressed (and having worked on that while regressed)

Hope he likes it

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Prayer to Lucifer

Praise be to you, Lucifer,

O bringer of enlightenment, wealth, & wisdom.

I am calling upon you to aid me in my daily endeavors.

Illuminate my world with your radiant light,

Shine bright upon each stepping stone I am to take from here on.

I ask that you show me which doors to open,

Direct me on what paths to take.

May each path guide me to prosperity and knowledge.

Hail Lucifer.

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Started this piece a while ago. Decided to make some art with Hekate in mind. 🗝🔮 ʕuᴥuʔ

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sleepy apollon kiddo

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pagan/wiccan things for age regressors

go outside and pick flowers, herbs, plants

look around for pretty rocks and/or crystals

make fairy houses

make flowercrowns

rock painting

make mini jar altar

(if you can) light a candle for fragrence