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[dejoesoef]

I’m not here to charm you — I’m here to be.

Atharais Micaiah Joesoef — call me Rais, if names matter to you. Born under the sign of Virgo. I exist somewhere between stillness and observation. The kind of person who notices the shift in tone before the words even land. I’m not interested in fitting into anyone’s curated narrative; I move on my own terms. I find comfort in stories. The kind told through films, series, lyrics, or late-night confessions. I’m addicted to the kind of movies that don't spoon-feed the truth, the kind that leave you thinking long after the credits roll. I've been easing into books too. It's slower, quieter, but they hit differently. I like that. I like things that take their time.

I collect songs like memories, and sometimes, it’s the only thing that makes sense when nothing else does. Music threads through me like smoke in an abandoned room feels thick, low, heavy with memory. R&B that sounds like regret, jazz that sounds like rain on concrete. I don’t need lyrics to feel seen. I don’t need noise to know something’s broken. I collect these sounds like artifacts, like proof that emotion once existed even when the world grew cold.

I’m drawn to the emotionally fluent, the scarred but unafraid, the ones who laugh with their whole chest but keep their chaos neatly folded in their pockets. I don’t play it safe. Not with words, not with connections. I crave intensity, depth, substance. If you’re shallow, scroll. But if you’ve ever wanted someone who listens deeply, speaks honestly, and sees you before you speak and maybe this is where we begin. @ Northerealm