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“I’m not built like that, man. I, uh, I didn’t have a lot of friends growing up. I had a stutter when I was a kid. I was scared to speak half the time. And, uh, I got shitty grades cause I couldn’t pay attention in school. I didn’t get into college. I didn’t have any girlfriends. I don’t think I’m funny. I always thought my brother was my best friend. Like, we just knew everything about each other. Except … everybody thought he was their best friend, you know, he was that, he was that magnetic. And, um. I didn’t know my brother was using drugs. What does that say? As we got older I realized I didn’t know anything about him, really. He stopped letting me into the restaurant a couple years ago. He just cut me off cold. And that, um, that hurt, you know? And I think that just, that flipped a switch in me where I was like, “okay, fuck you, watch this.” And because we had this connection through food and he had made me feel so rejected and lame and shitty and uncool, I made this plan where I was gonna go work in all the best restaurants in the world. You know, like, like, I’m gonna go work in real kitchens. Like, fuck mom and dad’s piece of shit, right? And it sounds ridiculous, you know, me saying that now, but that’s - that’s - that’s what I did. And I got the shit kicked out of me. And I separated herbs and I shucked oysters and clams and uni. And I cut myself and I got garlic and onions and peppers in my fingernails and in my eyes and my skin was dry and oily at the same time. I had calluses on my fingers from the knives and my stomach was fucked and it was … everything. And a couple years later this funny thing happened which is, like, for the first time in my life, I started to find this, uh, this station for myself. And I was fast. I wasn’t afraid. And it was clear. And I — I felt okay, you know? I knew which vegetables went together, proteins, temperatures, sauces, all that shit. And when somebody new came into the restaurant to stage I looked at them like they were competition, like I’m gonna smoke this motherfucker. I felt like I could speak through the food, like I could communicate through creativity, and that kind of confidence you know, like I was finally — I was good at something that was so new and that was so exciting and I just wanted him know that, and, fuck, I just wanted him to be, like, “good job!” And the more he wouldn’t respond and the more our relationship kinda strained the deeper into this I went and the better I got. And the more people I cut out the quieter my life got. And the routine of the kitchen was so consistent and exacting and busy and hard and alive and I lost track of time and he died.”

The Bear, Season 1, Episode 8: Braciole

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Ok, but the character arc. The rise in his self-esteem. Singing Taylor Swift out loud. Figuring out his place in the fabric of the universe.

Yeah, Richie? He wears suits now

+ bonus:

Richard "I wear suits now" Jerimovich

THE BEAR - 2.08 Bolognese"

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Not a single one escaping the babygirl allegations.

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carmy’s monologue from season one of the bear

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Yo, cousin, I don't understand why you can't just let something good happen for once in your fuckin' life? Are you fucking kidding me right now? Are you fucking kidding me? No, I'm not fucking kidding you right now. Someone's gotta tell you this shit.

Carmy Berzatto & Richie Jerimovich

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Tina Marrero & Richie Jerimovich

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cw daddy kink 😝😝

“you gonna keep fuckin’ me? mhm? gonna keep lettin’ daddy have it?” richie’s deep voice penetrates the brain fog his dick has induced upon you. on top of him on the couch is how you ride him, face tucked into his neck with his big hands draped over your waist. “keep fuckin’ me, just like that. lemme feel it, baby. make me feel it.” you keen, whining hoarsely at his words and they work, have you bouncing your ass on his lap smoother and rougher, working up and down his cock, which has him chuckling incredulously and throwing his head back onto the sofa.

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Tell me more.

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Listen, we all love Jeremy Allen white okay. He’s lovely. We love our little mess that is carmy berzatto. BUT IF THERES ONE THING IMMA DO ITS FIND THE OLDER, FUCK UP /REDEMPTION ARC HAVIN ASS MAN IN THE SHOW, AND STEAL HIS WHOLE PERSONALITY WHILE ALSO BEING MADLY IN LOVE WITH HIM. THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK.

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@giftober 2023 | Day 3: Mood (Carmy, I feel ya)

The Bear S01E04

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BARK BARK BARK

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Carmy + Luca

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THE BEAR, 02.06 + Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents by Lindsay C. Gibson

(sugar version)

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I’m just like Carmen Berzatto fr:

tummy issues, sleep issues, explosive anger, no sex drive, auditory hallucinations