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@bernthirst-events 📺 Shane Walsh 📺 The Walking Dead Season 2 Episode 05 - Chupacabra

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This new world is ugly, it’s harsh, it’s a survival of the fittest. And that’s a world I don’t want to live in.

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@xgoldxnhour asked: “Why don’t you give Daddy what you spent all morning making?”

Happy Father's Day, Shane!

Nestled on the corner was a small piece of heaven. A home with white shutters and lace curtains, filled with nothing less than the happiness that Shane and Eloise built together. Something better than the campfires and tents of their past, no more exposed to the elements or the dangers that lurked within the woods. Surrounded, by both walls and unfamiliar people, sheltered but ever still at a distance. Garrulous conversations that never seemed to truly understand the outside - the residents of Alexandria had much to learn. Desired to be taught, too, Shane had spent many hours to the cause. Demonstrated weapons safety, simple combat holds, patrolled the streets as an officer of the law. A land that felt to be almost totally lawless. Didn't need him around, with muscles tender and sore from a particularly difficult training session, he walked through the front door of his beloved home.

Back into the arms of those most loved and held dear, the faint sounds of his wife and children were able to soothe whatever hurts his own hands couldn't work out. Eloise, Roan, and Winnie; the only reason that Shane had not lost himself. Was able to not be driven insane, without a bullet to his brain or worse. Sat in the living room, the hum of a television being played, a cartoon cat and his imaginary friends, Shane made his way toward his loves. Kicked off his boots by the front door, stretched out his fingers, felt as a warm smile grew on his lips. Moving behind the couch, head bent down and just near the side of Eloise's face, he stole a chaste kiss from her, a silent hello.

His palms rested on her shoulders, rubbing delicately, it wasn't until his eyes found his children and their creative works that Shane remembered what special day it was. In bright bold letters, colorful depictions of himself and them, Roan and Winnie captured more than just Shane's heart. Entire soul melted into a puddle, brown eyes become wholly soft; Father's Day.

"You made all this for me?" Shane asked as he positioned himself around the coffee table, the workspace of Roan and Winnie, their crayons, markers, and glue sticks scattered about.

Legs crisscrossed, comfortable on the rug on the floor, arms wide open to welcome both son and daughter. Roan and Winnie in either arm crook, sat on either thigh, he inspected their homemade gifts, the light never lessening in his gaze, so proud and so very honored. A card and beaded necklace, the best presents Shane could've asked for.

"Roan, you wrote all this yourself? I love it, little man! Check it out, Sunshine. Our boy knows just what I like: trucks and fishin'. Gonna hang this on the fridge, bud. Gotta show it off, don't you think?"

Shane ruffled Roan's honey-blonde curls, peppered Winnie's cheek in kisses, tickling her with his beard.

"And you, little girl. What you doin' spoiling your daddy like this, huh? Winnie, baby, I love it! Ain't gonna take it off. I'll wear it everyday. Think it'll look alright, baby girl? Here. Let's ask your ma."

Removing his hands from their children, Shane worked the back hooks of the necklace, small and needing a gentle touch. Fidgeted with the jewelry until it locked together, the green, black, and blue beads a stark contrast to the dark gray of his uniform shirt but not an unpleasant one.

Shane asked, lifting a brow to Eloise, displaying himself like a prized bird, cocky and playfully arrogant, "what do you think, Mama? Daddy doesn't look too bad, does he? I think these colors are quite fitting, if I do say so myself. Shoot, they're my favorite... You guys are my favorite. I love you three. Best things that ever happened to me, I swear."

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Finally, after today, I'll have my deserved summer break! No more work, no more early mornings. Least, until September!

Though college work will still be on the daily, I hope to spend a bit more time here and a bit more time writing! There's so many of your messages that I've been dying to get to, OOC and all that. So many threads I've been desperate to reply to - believe me, I haven't forgotten you.

Thank you, as always, for your patience. I appreciate you, my RP friends, beyond words! Here's to a fun summer! ☀️

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i'm not afraid to burn bridges

the fire will bring me more warmth than you ever did

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make me choose: saveahorse-rideadixon asked me lori grimes or beth greene

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xo

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"You'd give up everything to look for him?" "Yes."

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Sealed with a kiss, the last of Shane's crumbled walls crashed down, fell to ruin and laid scattered. Broken bits and chipped pieces, a barrier that had tried to keep emotions out for so long, to numb all the pain that had been carried since the start. Better was it to be so cold, like steel, an unbreakable force, someone who couldn't be bent. Who couldn't be twisted for another's pleasure; restrained was the anger within Shane, controlled and steady, until it wasn't. Reshaped over time, beaten out of him, he never did properly mourn the loss of his old life. Simple happiness, the warmth of sunshine on his skin, Cassie's touch before they were so cruelly separated. Her smile, her laughter, the echo of a lonely jukebox playing in the corner of their favorite bar and dance club - before they were given a chance to be together.

Sealed with a kiss, as Cassie leaned back onto their bed, the soft blankets and covers, so, too, did Shane follow her down. Leaned over top of her and sampled her lips, one kiss after another, his hands lifted to cradle her face between them. Tears shamelessly run down his cheeks, what had been hidden for years, buried so deep. All the tears he didn't spend when he lost Jean. All the tears he didn't cry over Lori or T-Dog, Glenn or Abe. All the tears that had been bottled up since the day he lost Cassie, when the world pulled them apart and watched gleefully. Agony because he failed to find her, enraged when he did, poor woman battered, abused, and toyed with. Returned to each other, completely changed but nonetheless the same, the wounds still needed their time to heal.

"It's been so hard, Cassie. It's been so hard."

Shane sobbed, for the first time in so many, many long years. His words punctuated by delicate kisses, the pads of his thumbs across her skin.

"I've lost so many. So many people, I can't keep track. Their faces, their names, their screams... it just plays through my head like a God damn broken record. Can't make the difference between life and bein' dead - I see your face in them. In the hordes, in the Walkers I've put down. I see you, Cassie. I see you, dead and gray. Just a cold body. And, shit, baby, that scares me to death!"

"I lost you once. Darlin', I don't think I could stand to lose you again. I wouldn't be able to take seeing you become like them. If anythin' happened to you... I'd just die, Cassie. All this... This world... It's just become too much. I'm so... so tired."

who would have thought that the world would be at this state? and the fact they were both there watching it all end? it felt like a sick dream but also a way for them to survive together which is what cassie wanted. she wanted to survive with someone, she was tired of being alone, and it was even better that person was shane. her expression softens in the dark night listening to him struggle with everything silently, knowing there is nothing she can do about the monsters in his head. she had her own monsters too. it felt like somehow they both could not reach them but at the same time..... it was just a comfort to have someone there to hold in the aftermath of their troubles.

and so that is what cassie does, her arms wrapping around her lover, wishing to ground him to reality, a happy reality with her, the way her lips press along his sweaty skin tasting salt but hoping it could provide comfort. shane's words cut through the tense silence allowing her to know she is helping and she smiles through the fears. what if one day her love is not enough and she cannot reach him? the negative thought terrifies her. but there he is steady and reassuring with his love that shines through even on the darkest of nights.

" i get them too, shane.. " her voice shaky for him but she stares into his beautiful brown eyes feeling at peace knowing he did truly love her more than anything in this world and that they could conquer their demons together. her hand moves to his face just touching gently.

" i love you even in your flaws, in your fears.. " she reminds him softly taking his hand and pressing it along her warm face closing her eyes. she never wants to miss the feeling, to take it for granted and never have it again. the thought pierces her heart and she holds onto him tighter. survival was all about living in the small moments.

" you have me, baby, i promise, until the last star falls in the damn sky. " her voice shaky but her promise true and she leans in to connect their lips softly. " just let me in, please. "

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