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Temp Hiatus Notice

I DIDNT ABANDON THIS BLOG BTW. Apparently I’m still logged in here at work oops but HEY.  For now I’m putting Papa Joe here on the back burner until i finally get to play the full FC5 game PERSONALLY. I’ll just end up being a whole heck of a lot more comfy that way. BUT In the meantime, I have a far cry oc over at @hollowedgrovnd if you guys wanna check him out.

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I don’t do this for the riches ,  I’m infected ,  my condition is   I’M ALWAYS IN MY HEAD.      these words are my religion ,  I’m obsessive by decision ,  I'mma do this ‘til I’m dead.      set me on fire.    I’m still alive  -  bet you didn’t think that I’d come back to life.   I do this with conviction,   I write truths and never fiction ,  my disease is what you fed.     I can’t stop with my ambition ,  like a missile on a mission  -  I’m a force that you will dread.

             independent / private / highly selective    jacob seed   from far cry 5.   headcanon heavy.   written by ninja.        please read rules & about before interacting.      personals do not reblog.

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“ you are doing this to survive!! you are doing this to be reborn. after tomorrow, you’ll be completely different. i will wash away your sins and you will atone. you will take everything i am. everything i have. ”

                                  “ —you’re going to be disappointed with what you get. “ 

JOHN SEED of FAR CRY 5   &   ALEX of INSIDE EDEN’S GATE

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‘ i fixate on teeth and bone because the flesh confuses me ’ ‘ our foundations can be nothing but honest ’ ‘ the pulp is pliable and warm and manipulative ’ ‘ whole novels spelled out by the knots of your entrails ’ ‘ this is what you get for not believing in demons ’ ‘ baby you’re a vision ’ ‘ i once saw you in a dream ’ ‘ i think you’re an invention of my subconscious ’ ‘ i am afraid ’ ‘ i want to bring my fear , loathing , and delusions to a pour ’ ‘ i want to tip panic and reason into my god - fearing mouth ’ ‘ all i ask is that you want a little less ’ ‘ it’s simpler to retreat into your unyielding bones ’ ‘ the body is a calamity ’ ‘ i just like to believe i’m real ’ ‘ i am full of love and fear in equal measure ’ ‘ sometimes i make lists of words i like ’ ‘ sometimes i can’t believe i’m going to be talking to people for the rest of my life ’ ‘ logically , i know i won’t be sad forever ’ ‘ i know i won’t want revenge forever ’ ‘ for someone so afraid of change , i sure do a lot of it ’ ‘ i wish i had more free time so i could spend it thinking about ghosts ’ ‘ i just think about the devil ’ ‘ caught between wanting to be something of somebody’s and nothing of nobody’s ’ ‘ threats are just promises you actually want to keep ’ ‘ what you’re capable of isn’t always good ’ ‘ i never know what to tell you ’ ‘ you want to like yourself ’ ‘ what survived may not be kind , but it’s me ’ ‘ i’ve got nothing clever around you ’ ‘ are these the abc’s of why you hate yourself ? ’ ‘ you bring something empty ’ ‘ the stranger starts to live in your skin ’ ‘ we once had fear and reverence for angels and aliens ’ ‘ what if i’m like this forever ? ’ ‘ you are the axis by which i navigate the world ’ ‘ the more i care for you , the more i agonize over losing you ’ ‘ yours is not a body i can bury ’ ‘ i am more foolish than i care to admit ’ ‘ when you are living and losing you learn to devour ’

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❝Ｉ ｃｒｙ—    ｗｈｅｎ ａｎｇｅｌｓ ｄｅｓｅｒｖｅ ｔｏ ｄｉｅ❞

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i’m well aware that i’ve accidentally set myself on fire, and it’s none of your business. i don’t need your pity water, either. let me burn in peace.  /  ( the answer is no, i don’t sleep. instead, i stay up till four making bad decisions like this. at least it’s a sideblog! ) 

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❝Ｉ ｃｒｙ—    ｗｈｅｎ ａｎｇｅｌｓ ｄｅｓｅｒｖｅ ｔｏ ｄｉｅ❞

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‘ when I was five, I burned my hand on the stove my mother never warned me not to touch ‘ ‘ your soul seeks the warmth ’ ‘ tell me again how our ashes were too holy for this universe to taste ’ ‘ you have bitten your tongue so many times it no longer remembers how to bleed ’ ‘ you have an army of words hidden behind your teeth ’ ‘ what a modern fucking tragedy you turned out to be ’ ‘ what do you think the stars wish for then ? ’ ‘ maybe i could have loved you if i’d prayed another way ’ ‘ maybe i could have loved you in any life but ours , now ’ ‘ i found a catalyst for disaster in you ’ ‘ i don’t know if it’s true but i’d like to believe it ’ ‘ i’d like to believe that we exist living a thousand lives , side by side ’ ‘ you would consume me ’ ‘ my organs are tied in knots ’ ‘ my bones are headstones ’ ‘ tell me we’re not still hollow ’ ‘ tell me we’re forgiven ’ ‘ smile with your teeth , darling ’ ‘ do not be afraid to show the world that you would eat it whole ’ ‘ you are the brightest goddamn sun i have ever seen ’ ‘ mention our ghosts , our knotted spines ’ ‘ we are graveyards , reaching , with haunted bones ’ ‘ we endure ’ ‘ this heaviness in my chest , i wanted to give this ache a name ’ ‘ there are no pain receptors in the lungs ’ ‘ with every breath i swallow , i drown ’ ‘ you are in my bones , wherever i go , know — i take you with me ’ ‘ you matter ’ ‘ but for right now , in this very moment , you exist ’ ‘ you don’t have to be , you already are ’ ‘ soulmates aren’t rare , they aren’t ’  ‘ you’ll meet a thousand soulmates , just as you’ll live a thousand lives ’ ‘ knowing them is like being found without ever knowing you were lost ’ ‘ you can’t give your storms to someone else ’ ‘ nothing lasts forever , not even the rain ’ ‘ to be is terrifying and it’s okay to fear ’ ‘ there will be hollow spaces beneath your heart and in your ribs ’ ‘ don’t claw out your throat while waiting for someone else to scream ’ ‘ blood beneath your fingertips isn’t easy to clean ’ ‘ where death becomes , red lips are stained ’ ‘ doomed are we to seek an absolution we will never touch ’ ‘ in some other universe you’re asleep ’ ‘ everyone leaves ’ ‘ the important ones come back ’ ‘ you’re not a ghost , you can’t haunt those that forget you ’ ‘ don’t count your breaths as you cross the street ’ ‘ every moment passes into another until it doesn’t ’ ‘ everything ends and it’s okay ’ ‘ behind every constellation , there is a pathway to another you and i ’ ‘ every star is another story , every night a different sky ’ ‘ we end , to begin again ’ ‘ beyond every somewhere , we still exist ’ ‘ there are a thousand theories , we are only one ’ 

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This bad boy now has a blog. Here’s a temp promo. So far all i know is he’s one of Jacob’s BIG goons, he’s a rough guy but he’s got a good heart despite Jacob’s shit. Idk, i literally just made him like 2 hours ago i’ll figure it out tomorrow. Catch him over here at

@hollowedgrovnd

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I forgot i queued a bunch of memes god help me.

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‘ something’s terribly sick in my head ’ ‘ these are my darkest thoughts , the bad things lurking in the closet ’ ‘ is this how i tear the monsters from my body ? ’ ‘ i want everything to stop ’ ‘ fuck your immaculate existence ’ ‘ today i want my heart to tremble ’ ‘ i want my teeth to shatter bone ’ ‘ today i want killing to mean living ’ ‘ nothing you do can hurt me but you better try ’ ‘ you can’t live without burning your comfort and safety as firewood ’ ‘ maybe the ghosts learned how to build stairs into the mountainside ’ ‘ believe me when i say there is no pride in this ’ ‘ i want to be one of those city sprites among termites ’ ‘ cleanse this body through tears and emesis ’ ‘ circumvention was futile , damnable ’ ‘ we’re all burning ’ ‘ we learn to laugh in the midst of the inferno ’ ‘ i realize now that i am the one out of place ’ ‘ i want to destroy all the parts that aren’t working ’ ‘ i never knew i had the capacity for cruelty ’ ‘ i condemn myself to failure without batting an eyelash ’ ‘ choosing to protect ourselves is not failure ’ ‘ nothing is working ’ ‘ at some point i stopped , i sank ’ ‘ breathing seems so difficult now ’ ‘ living was easy as breathing once upon a time ’ ‘ i don’t think it’s living , but it’s not hurting either ’  ‘ my body is a room made of glass walls and wooden floors ’ ‘ today , i ache for somewhere to hide ’ ‘ how do i turn the light on in my eyes ? ’ ‘ please , no one look at me today ’ ‘ i mused over all the times i had prayed to a god i do not believe in ’ ‘ the gods died laughing ’ ‘ you must learn fear ’ ‘ let’s not be enemies tonight ’ ‘ hold my hand while our greatest tragedies are lost and forgotten ’ ‘ you are only a murderer if someone cares ’ ‘ dreaming is so painful and i wish i would stop ’ ‘ i can still love you with my eyes closed ’ ‘ i’m not sure why you’re acting surprised ’ ‘ let me pretend that i’m made of magic ’ ‘ i am a creature of contradictions ’ ‘ remember your strength , unchanging and eternal ’ 

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This bad boy now has a blog. Here’s a temp promo. So far all i know is he’s one of Jacob’s BIG goons, he’s a rough guy but he’s got a good heart despite Jacob’s shit. Idk, i literally just made him like 2 hours ago i’ll figure it out tomorrow. Catch him over here at

@hollowedgrovnd

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Meet the cult boy who is coming soon maybe.

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❝Ｏｈ Ｌｏｒｄ,                    ｔｈｅ Ｇｒｅａｔ Ｃｏｌｌａｐｓｅ                                                     ｗｏｎ'ｔ ｂｅ ｏｕｒ ｅｎｄ –❞

Semi private. Semi selective. 18+ Indie. Joseph Seed, antagonist of Far Cry 5. Written by Simon, heavily headcanon based. Warning: Heavy religious themes, brainwashing, manipulation, mental illness, etc.