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on my way to site for work palooza. already miss you all 🥲

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okay, gang. tonight is my LAST real free kg day until i go into festival work mode throughout the weekend.since i'll be working late night afters, i will likely do a few replies here && there as well.

mainly if i go ghost on sat + sun, pls know i will be back on monday as annoying as ever i WILL be on wire most throughout it all, so get that handle so i can bother you there on my breaks

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I’m still feeling pretty meh, so may not write but like this for a cute moodboard of our muses

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i got the good news i wouldn't have to work a late after party && everything just went downhill from there. i havent cried at work in literally the longest time ever so this blows

i have cried like so many times today? lol.

anyways, my goal is to go to this team dinner, decompress, && do a little writing here/on wire to cheer up.

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There's a FLICKER of understanding that she feels when she looks towards Vic, one she can't claim to know, but she senses it. Jennifer always had a looming cloud of self loathing she couldn't walk away from, no matter how long she spent doing her makeup or hair to be perfect; she always felt like she was about to shatter. That couldn't be so easily said, could it?

Hi, I think we're both broken.

"Ah, but I love a side of what the fuck ever with my soothing drink time." The words coo from Jennifer with ease, the smile pulled on her lips. "Lead the way, gorgeous."

Oh, she's definitely full of shit, in that case, and the roll of her eyes proves she believes that. There's nothing much to look at and she knows it — can't even pretend to feel differently when looking at her. If that confidence isn't real, she's sure fucking good at pretending. Better than Vic has ever been, ever color be. There's something like envy settling in the pit of her stomach.

Another roll of her eyes. "Dunno that a drink is gonna soothe you or what the fuck ever," it comes easily because it's the truth. Hasn't crossed her mind that this could ever be something like flirtation. 

"But sure. Why not."

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There's a tiredness that washed over her features, both from the exhaustion of a fight and the concern of never being enough. That sort of thing weighed in her chest, even when she KNEW better than to feel that way. It wasn't so easy for her to spin her mind a different direction; she wanted to believe in the worst when it came to herself.

"It's alright-" words are almost whispered as her head leans up, one hand gently guides his head to look towards her. She lets a moment linger before she leans in, a gentle kiss against his lips as though it said he didn't have to explain, not now.

"You're more put together than most," it was an honest answer, one she felt even after the situation had arose in front of them. Her body leaned further into his touch, legs now moved to wrap around his hips as she moved to lay on top of him. The tone she used now was quiet, a tinge of hurt that she had inflicted on herself with the realization; maybe she'd end up scaring him away still with the way she acted.

"You know, I'm afraid of losing you... Losing this. Like I deal the wrong hand and all of this goes away."

he never really thought his bed would be filled with anyone again. after stella he hardly had it in himself to think about anyone in that way. his bed was empty and his heart was hollow. he told himself he had enough. he had their children. he had sage. he had his sister. they took up enough space.

except they didn't. it isn't as if jennifer is fitted into the one left behind by his wife. it's more that she has found her own place, she has created her own shape to indent into his heart. she found room he didn't even know was there and burrowed herself back into it as if no time had passed at all between the last time he had seen her, and this.

❝ me too, ❞ he mumbles. ❝ i shouldn't've sprang it all on you like that. i...i dunno. ❞ he's tired. he's not even sure he wants to talk about it. he still feels a little frustrated and he doesn't know how his emotions will uncoil if he tries. ❝ i know from the outside it looks like i got my shit together, jen. but i don't. i really don't. ❞

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From the way their fingers are laced together to how her body curled and rest against him, there was almost an instant comfort that washed over her. A tired mind could try to recall any moment prior that she had found this sort of warmth in a shared bed with anyone else, she didn't entirely mind that her mind couldn't come to a good conclusion. It was far too easy to let the quietness wash over her now.

"Oh shut up-" the words are almost mumbled in a sleepy daze as she wrapped herself a little more closely, denying any idea of personal space between them. Her head moved to nuzzle into the crook of his neck, eyes closed and her movements slow as she found that comfortable place in tandem with him. It was a small space, that much was obvious, but she didn't hate the proximity, how intimate it all felt. "Goodnight, babe-" the words hummed softly as the faint snores started, a small grin tied to her lips.

Usually sleep was hard to find, the darkness of a space usually felt like an endless void that her mind could get lost in. Instead now she let her body grow heavy with his, pressed against him in a way that her own breathing found comfort in following his lead. Ears focused on the buzz of the insects outside, the way the rest of the world seemed to grow more quiet with each passing moment.

Finally, sleep found her for what felt like the first time in months. The usual hours it took to drift off were just a few passing minutes before him as she fell asleep. It was a gift to feel so safe, to have the softness of his touch being the last thing she felt before she fell into a deeper sleep than she was used to; it was EASY to know the nightmares could be kept at bay with boy like himself there now. He was KIND, a flicker of protectiveness that she had longed for yet never wanted to ask.

To sleep when you hadn't actually truly slept for months was a beautiful thing. Her mind was blank, steady breaths as her body was more inclined to try to move closer to him. Arms moved to wrap around his chest to in a gentle embrace as her head moved to use his chest as a pillow instead.

It had felt like she had JUST fallen asleep when the buzz of his alarm went off, tired eyes blinked open for just a moment as she snuggled against him. "Five more minutes-" a quiet plead as she pressed a gentle kiss to his chest, she felt already as if she knew the answer. A boy concerned on CURFEW was certainly not going to miss class. Eyes still stayed shut, one leg wrapped lazily on the side of his hip. "Class is like... The devil-"

That squeeze is noted, and he's certain he understands the sentiment. The same sentiment one gives when they're too shy or suppose to be quiet in public- somewhere between an I love you and Thank you depending on who was giving. In her case, it should be short of an I love you, but similar. I like you, I value you, I love this time we shared. Or perhaps he's only hopeful.

As fingers interlock in their own web, he brings it up to his face just in time to kiss her fingers so delicate, just as soft as the blankets they have holed themselves up in and the cool sheets hugging their skin.

He could practically feel her heart racing between the vague admission and the confession of his alarms, half expecting a chest slap from her. "Thank you," he says as some mockery of her way to go sentiment, something he loves to do- cause a little irritation, a little scare in his friends. And girlfriends are no different. They're just friends with strings, aren't they?

And she speaks, she yawns, and his mouth opens to speak and contagion hits as another yawn overcomes him. He breaks their hands' web to cover his mouth, yawn audibly beneath his palm, then return his hand down to take hers; having to tap blankets to locate before finally being able to hold. The squeak does bring him to laugh mid yawn, ever so quietly.

"Guess we will... cute noise, Minnie Mouse." he teases then as he readjusts his shoulders into the blankets. Typically he would be sprawled on his stomach, leg in four-shape and arms tucked under the pillow. This is a very tight fit, but it makes them have to pack tighter so he's perfectly okay.

In the quiet of the night, animals and insects only noise and some giggling down the halls, he can hear her sentiment clearly. He smiles to himself, closed eyes and all as his hand rests to her hip and nudges her close, gathering her. "Thank you for one of mine," he echoes. Another kiss to her forehead, and he's feeling the sleep overcome him. Body grows heavy into the mattress, arm relaxes over her torso. Thumb that had started to stroke her side stops, and very faintly the snores begin.

Sleeping sound had never come so easily. Usually his mind would raise with responsibilities; homework, work, meetings, jargon, projects, et cetera. Tonight? It's quiet in there. Quiet mind, relaxed body, and the warmth of a pretty and amazing girl. He's content.

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the MAGNOLIA CASTILLO series on jen's phone // ft. @desafia

send me 📷 or "snapshot" && i'll share photos of your muse jen has saved on her phone!

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the MIA CAPELLO series on jen's phone // ft. @racointeur

send me 📷 or "snapshot" && i'll share photos of your muse jen has saved on her phone!

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the COLTON RILEY series on jen's phone // ft. @racointeur

send me 📷 or "snapshot" && i'll share photos of your muse jen has saved on her phone!

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🌺 send this to ten muns you think are wonderful 🌺

this is so ENTIRELY sweet, omg. thank you for the kind words, i mega appreciate you + your blog too!

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the ANDY BRENNER series on jen's phone // ft. @linewrk

send me 📷 or "snapshot" && i'll share photos of your muse jen has saved on her phone!

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the EMIL KINDELL series on jen's phone // ft. @klarsynt

send me 📷 or "snapshot" && i'll share photos of your muse jen has saved on her phone!

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the pain of realizing I left my charger at the office for my laptop and now have to go to target

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*      ―    ﴾  𝚗𝚜𝚏𝚠  𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜  ﴿   :    𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒  𝐂𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐘  𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.

personally ,   i’m  tired  of  the  secondhand  embarrassment.   so  here’s  a  random  assortment  of  nsfw  actions  and  dialogue  prompts  that  don’t  feel  too  over  the  top.   (  don’t  forget  to  add  [ reverse ]  if  you’d  like  to  see  the  receiver  perform  the  action.  )

actions.

[ PULL ]:  sender  pulls  receivers  hair.

[ HICKEY ]:  sender  gives  receiver  a  hickey.

[ TRAIL ]:  sender  leaves  a  trail  of  kisses  down  receivers  stomach.

[ HIPS ]:  sender  pulls  receiver  in  closer  by  the  hips.

[ KNEES ]:  sender  lowers  themselves  to  their  knees.

[ STRIPTEASE ]:  sender  teasingly  strips  their  clothes.

[ STRIP ]:  sender  undresses  receiver.

[ GRIND ]:  sender  grinds  on  receivers  thigh.

[ ORAL ]:  sender  goes  down  on  receiver.

[ PASSENGER ]:  sender  touches  receiver  while  sender  is  driving.

[ DRIVER ]:  sender  goes  down  on  /  touches  receiver  while  receiver  is  driving.

[ OVERSTIMULATED ]:  sender  repeatedly  making  receiver  orgasm.

[ PUBLIC ]:  sender  and  receiver  have  sex  somewhere  public.

[ CAR ]:  sender  and  receiver  have  sex  in  a  car.

[ CONTROL ]:  sender  is  riding  receiver  and  receiver  takes  control  by  guiding  their  hips.

[ SHY ]:  sender  covers  their  face  and  receiver  moves  their  hands  away.

[ EYES ]:  sender  makes  receiver  look  them  in  the  eyes.

[ BEG ]:  sender  begs  receiver  to  touch  /  fuck  them.

[ MORNING ]:  sender  wakes  receiver  up  with  sex.

[ STRADDLE ]:  sender  sits  in  receivers  lap  to  tease  them.

[ CAMERA ]:  sender  records  receiver.

[ RECORD ]:  sender  is  recorded  by  receiver.

[ MOUTH ]:  sender  puts  their  fingers  into  receivers  mouth.

[ LOVE ]:  sender  tells  receiver  they  love  them  during.

[ PUSH ]:  sender  pushes  receiver  onto  bed.

dialogue.

“ you  look  so  pretty  like  this.  “

“ i  want  to  spend  all  night  learning  every  sound  you  make. “

“ let  me  take  care  of  you. “

“ i’m  not  wearing  any  underwear  right  now. “

“ you’re  really  good  at  that. “

“ god,  you’re  so  wet  /  hard  …. “

“ i  think  about  you  when  i  touch  myself. “

“ tell  me  what  you  want. “

“ please  touch  /  fuck  me. “

“ i  love  teasing  you. “

“ touch  yourself  for  me. “

“ i  get  so  wet  /  hard  around  you. “

“ get  on  your  knees. “

“ you’re  such  a  tease. “

“ tell  me  you’re  mine. “

“ i’m  yours. “

“ i  want  you  to  cum  for  me. “

“ i  want  you  to  cum  in  me. “

“ i’ll  be  good,  i  promise. “

“ you’re  doing  so  good  for  me. “

“ you  feel  so  good. “

“ you  sound  so  pretty  when  you  moan. “

“ i  could  be  your  toy. “

“ fuck  me  like  you  love  me. “

“ i’m  gonna  cum- “

“ i  just  want  to  feel  something. “

“ i  wanna  be  on  top  this  time. “