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Hello my computer friends!!!!❖❖❖

I hope your holidays are going well!!## do you like the charcuterie board I made? I actually made that for solstice the other day. It is a holiday my family celebrates and we do some rituals to welcome the sun back. Anyway, how have you guys been? I have not talked much on here lately### actually I’m feeling bad again. I keep longing for the hospital and want to go back. But I know that it truly is not a good option, and I shouldn’t get used to being institutionalized. That was my 4th admission in only 2 years. So I must get out of this. I just wish I did not feel this way. I feel so self destructive and low and angry all the time. Anyway, I hope the next 2 days will be a distraction (*。0 – 0。*) also can I say something? I have actually been talking to two boys from a dating app. But they are so annoying now to me. I now realize I don’t want to talk to boys. They are far too bland, and they give me headache even if they are just asking how my day is. Is that normal? Anyway! ₍˄·͈༝·͈˄₎◞ ̑̑ෆ⃛

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I’m feeling awful again and long for the hospital again. I left too soon.

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I’m just being honest and upfront (⊃ ✖︎ 〰 ✖︎)⊃

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That pang in your stomach but must force a giggle ☂︎☂︎

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Thanks for the tag my lovie @toothandfeather !

This is mine, I went to a light festival yesterday ^^ big ol nutcracker man☃︎ @pixiegiirl @the-real-loser-otaku-girl @deadcutiee @dolly-girl-rie

Let’s play a game

Everyone post the most recent picture in your camera roll. You only get one sentence to justify yourself if you wish. This one is mine.

My boyfriend is rly good at Latin, so I was looking up how to say ‘I love you’ but found this instead :)

Your turn!

@bookmovietvworm

@myfairkatiecat

@i-am-a-fish

@valtsv

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Reblog if it’s okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.

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so cozy ((○（＾▽＾）○))

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Seriously how do I manage to pull

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Would you guys have a sleepover with me?? ♡♡

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Hello my computer friends✖︎✖︎✖︎

Hnnggffff##.. I haven’t been doing as well as I would like. I keep having dreams I am back in the hospital, and I think I miss it? Home has been stressful. 7am today I woke up and had panic attack due to my parent### So what did I do? I took extra of my sedative pills. I laid down on my bed staring at the ceiling for 2 hours with no thoughts.But I felt very nice. I’ve been keeping busy and attended a Christmas gala this past weekend. It was fun but I had missed my meds###that day so kept having head ache. I hope all my jirais are well and tomorrow I will try to take a selfie if I don’t feel fucking ugly!!

Today I had hot chocolate then I wanted to puke after ☃︎☃︎☂︎

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She is me and I am her

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welcome back hehe!!!! You didn’t post for a couple of days, but I’m so glad you’re back, I missed your blogging xD

thank you!! ✿✿ I honestly didn’t think people would notice!! I am going to be posting more now ʕ◉ᴥ◉ʔ

I just got busy a bit!! Love you! ♡♡♡

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Too cute to be here long

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Is this so much to ask for?

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HELLO MY COMPUTER FRIENDS ✳︎✳︎✳︎✳︎

I have no updated in a bit right? I’ve actually been discharged from the hospital!! It was so on Monday. I have been enjoying my freedom and now it’s time to get into the Christmas spirit. Aren’t these cookies so cute? Well the box anyway. The cookies are also cute. I hope all my jirais have been well!!

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Evening my computer friends♡♡♡

Today was my first day of my weekend pass and it went lovely. We went to the mall and I got some Christmas gifts, we ate Filipino food which hit the spot so hard. And I got my self a Wicked edition lush bath bomb! This is my view from my bedroom which I missed so much. And the Christmas lights look so pretty. It feels so good to be home. I will definitely be asking for an early discharge. I do think I am ready. But we will see how tomorrow goes. Good night everyone!

My selfie was taken before I left the hospital, you can see my bed in the back.

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