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people who want to live in lighthouse - i hear you, i understand you

but i raise you

living in water tower

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somewhere out there right now is a kid with curly hair being raised by people who have wavy hair at best and those people are giving them 2-in-1 shampoo and conditioner and telling them to dry brush it. and that kid is gonna spend all of middle school and high school hating their hair and moping over the flat iron. they're being told right now that if they don't dry-brush their curl pattern into oblivion every morning it means they're unkempt and gross even though they naturally have the kind of ringlets that a thousand bridezillas would commit horrible murders for every june. it's happening right now it's an absolute epidemic and a tragedy every time

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“if you’re sensitive to sounds when sleeping, just use earplugs!” i cannot stress enough that the sensory feeling of having my ears fully blocked AND now being able to hear my own heartbeat and breathing and every other sound that’s happening inside my own body is a million times worse than whatever ambient noise may be keeping me awake

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HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

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Passed the bong to my gay friend and he started sucking it off

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I love it when women tell me they just finalized their divorce. ESPECIALLY older women. The correct response is always “congratulations” and they always seem so pleasantly surprised, they just seem to light right up and talk about how happy they are, what their plans are, how well they’re doing. I’ve only ever met like 1 person who was upset to be divorced and it was a middle-aged dude. Second most exciting is young men. A 25 year old guy says he just got divorced and you go “congratulations” and he SMILES? You KNOW there’s a story. I love it. People should get divorced more

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i don’t think jackie would have immediately forgiven shauna unless she was specifically woken from her death dream by shauna. if it doesn’t snow and she wakes up the next morning alone, she feels humiliated and disempowered. her control over shauna is the only thing she has left (jackie clinging to their friendship, jackie terrified that shauna was abandoning her, jackie holding shauna’s infidelity over her head) and even that left her. without love, without reputation, without control, what does jackie have? nothing, so she must be nothing then. if she’s nothing, there’s no part of her that’s salvageable. shauna can’t cure her suicidality, and if she does try, her efforts will prove lackluster. if shauna doesn’t deem her worth saving, why should jackie try to save herself? shauna sees the worst of her insecurities and her flaws so surely she’d be right if she deemed jackie a lost cause. and if somebody else brings jackie inside? she’s so beyond hurt that it wasn’t shauna, that her best friend apparently gave up the title and the obligations that come with it without letting her know. it’s another way jackie’s been replaced. she’s not the captain guiding her team through rough circumstances. she’s allie, cut from the heart of the team without exiting the team’s formation. she’s a dead spot which everyone knows, including shauna. a liability, a person to play around without meaningfully addressing. shauna wants to feel powerful, and while she ultimately feels disempowered by the loss of jackie and the identity she’s created around her, she isn’t aware of herself enough to recognize that. shauna assumes she’ll feel powerful if she feels like jackie. if there’s already a jackie, shauna can’t adopt that role so she’s still striving to feel powerful specifically by dominating jackie. her identity, her previous role in the group, the life she thinks jackie would have had simply because it’s the life shauna had. shauna is trying to find her identity outside of jackie which is impossible for her because of how formative jackie is to her adolescence. shauna didn’t stop trying to do that when jackie died so she definitely isn’t going to do that if jackie lives. jackie doesn’t really have a backbone, but she does commit herself to her image. if jackie lives, i think the image she commits herself to for a good while is one where she doesn’t need shauna. she’s better than ever, even if that’s not quite true.

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I wish they could invent a medical device that temporarily transfers your symptoms and pain to the doctor treating you and it worked like a shock collar. “I think light exercise would-.” and then bam they’re rolling around the floor clutching their stomach in agony and dry heaving.

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something important to remember is that there's always time. if you lost many years to abuse or mental illness, you will get a chance to live life on your terms. there is no limit on the age you have to be to achieve goals. you can go back to school at 30, or switch careers at 40. you can start new hobbies at any age. there is no cut off age for being happy and content. if you're trapped right now, you will get the opportunity to become who you want to be.

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I get to be more free as an adult than I ever did as a child and I think more kids need to know that. as a high schooler part of what made my depression so bad was being told over and over again that it was the most carefree time of my life. while I was trapped in an abusive home + amongst bullies at school + in a body that wasn’t right for me. opportunities to be carefree don’t end when you turn 18. you can be more you than ever as an adult and that’s such a gift. I know ‘it can get better’ is an annoying thing to see over and over when you’re as trapped as I was back then. and I know that if you’re still a kid you deserve to be free right this second. but it can and will get better and this is not where life stops being interesting. promise

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like, okay, consent does literally just mean agree. which is what enables this little rhetorical trick. because there's all this cultural emphasis on sexual consent, which is just expressed as consent, a lot of phrases whose intended meanings are "rape is bad" can be taken literally to mean "i should get to agree to everything that happens in my vicinity."

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I think being autistic has made me realize how extremely hostile the environments we have designed are. And I don't mean "this environment is uniquely hostile to me because I am autistic" I mean that even normies are just existing in brutal, stagnant spaces, they have just internalized them as normal. We could have it all, we could live in such a beautiful and fascinating world, designed by humans and for humans who actually enjoy life and it's complexity and wonder. but even now it's like, seen as kinda hippy-dippy bullshit to have "excessive" indoor plants in a workspace or something

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Make sure you don't accidentally punish people for communicating their needs and boundaries. When someone cares enough to have the uncomfortable conversation, that's a compliment and a clear sign that they are invested in the relationship. Yes of course it's uncomfortable to hear that something you've been doing has been upsetting someone you care about when that was never your intention, but people generally only bother to have these conversations with the people they want to keep around - the people they trust to care. If they just didn't like you, they'd probably just try to avoid you. So make sure you don't make it into a more punishing experience than it has to be. Try to see the care and the trust behind the criticism, even when it triggers uncomfortable emotions. It's a good sign that they're there telling you.

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Make sure you don't accidentally punish people for communicating their needs and boundaries. When someone cares enough to have the uncomfortable conversation, that's a compliment and a clear sign that they are invested in the relationship. Yes of course it's uncomfortable to hear that something you've been doing has been upsetting someone you care about when that was never your intention, but people generally only bother to have these conversations with the people they want to keep around - the people they trust to care. If they just didn't like you, they'd probably just try to avoid you. So make sure you don't make it into a more punishing experience than it has to be. Try to see the care and the trust behind the criticism, even when it triggers uncomfortable emotions. It's a good sign that they're there telling you.

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Speaking as a survivor of child sex abuse: the world would be a lot better if yall spent less time talking about the ways in which pedophiles should be punished and more time supporting survivors and preventing abuse

I get it, punishment can feel cathartic. I’ve certainly spent time imagining all the ways in which my own abuser might be punished. But ultimately, him dying, or being jailed, or publicly shamed, isn’t actually going to help me nor will it stop more kids from getting hurt in the future.

I don’t want more prisoners. I want free therapy with trauma informed counselors. I want better sex education for young children that teaches them about consent and body autonomy. And I want a society in which I can openly discuss my trauma, or at least as openly as yall discuss the evils of pedophiles

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Hooray! Yay! Dykes!

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the whole "lipstick on a pig" thing makes no sense because the second we gave a pig access to makeup she became god's cuntiest soldier