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Struggles Ahead

I don’t know pero since nung nagbakasyon kami, di pa din ako masyadong naging masaya. Yes its sad kasi naturingang vacation but I ended up like this. It’s a shame that I should have been happy and refreshed but its the opposite. 😶 Madaming reason actually. Starting from the not-so-long ago closure that happened between me & the guy I liked up to the present wherein we are going thru financial shits.

“Sorry, pero hindi ko na itutuloy yung panliligaw” These words got me like siyempre mixed emotions na galit curiosity doubt fazed lahat na so “Oh yeah I was expecting that fuck get out of my life u don’t know what I went through just to be wt u every time and yeah give me back my everything u made me a fling and all fuck ” but luckily after he said that, I didn’t cry. I mean, di ako magsisinungaling pero given that I’m a girl, alam natin kung may mali na nangyayari. But sadly this doesn’t happen every time. Ayun nga, my friends told me to be open minded in whatever will happen. Rationality and open mindedness is what I ought to do after that. He kept on telling me na “Hala Diane sorry ang laki ng kasalanan ko sayo” so ako parang ’“Ano ba okay na yun, alangan namang pilitin kita chuchu ekek” Pero totoo yan swear. Ayoko namang lumabas na bitter e. Ma’s mabigat sa loob ko kapag bitter ako. I mean gusto ko lahat ng tao sa paligid ko okay kami. Ayan, medj masakit pa nung first week. Naiiyak ako ng walang reason parang gago hahahaha. Pero ngayon, okay na ako. Natitingnan ko na pics niya. Nasasabi ko na yung name niya. Nakipagbiruan na din kami sa isa’t-isa. Actually,last Sunday nagkita kami coz debut ng aking tambol. Nung una, medj bitter ata dating ko. Pero ayos naman na nung nag-vidcall. Àyoko na ng negativity. Masyadong hassle. Ayaw ko din ng bitter. I mean decision niyo siya and may part ka din din sa naging status niyo so bakit kailangang iblame yung kabilang party knowing na isa ka sa nagbuild ng relationship niyo? Hihi my thoughts po ✌✌✌✌ Ayun nga, okay na ako. To this guy, I might not actually tell u this in person pero, thanks for the wonderful time. Let’s be friends, hindi na uso yang ex-lovers cannot be friends na yan hahaha! Good luck sa everything and pramis di ako bitter!!! Itaga mo pa yan sa bato!!!! Maybe someday we’ll learn to be okay again sa isa’t-isa. Yung tipong wala ng uneasiness. Ganern. Thank u and sorry sa mga sins ko!!! Peace na!!! ✌✌✌

“Imbalance” Fudge this. Search mo yung google. Tigidigs awtsu

“Sa January ka na pumasok” It’s not actually a demand but a command. Tengene parang ako “Seryoso bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” then I found out that it’s true pala in a way. Recently parang nabubuhayan ako ng loob na yessss papasok ako tengeneeee!!! Tapos kanina lang napapaisip ako na parang hindi ata ako makaka-enroll on time… Or never….. Okay lang po talaga ako 😔😔😔😔 nakakalungkot kayang isipin na parang di siya kasali sa plan mo, no Hindi mo nga ineexpect na mangyayari yung ganito diba??? Ito yung madalas kong iyakan every night. Yung tipong titingnan ko pa lang yung album e may tutulo ng tears sa mata ko. Grabe as in lahat na ata nangyari sa clan namin. Like yung sa bahay nung lolo ko. Medj confidential pero first time nangyari ito sa amin. I used to think na bakit ganito may ginawan ba kami ng masama at sa amin talaga nangyari ‘to? Pero ganon nga, dapat every time open minded ka sa mangyayari. And prepared. Yung life parang siyang gulong na minsan na sa itaas ka, minsan nasa ibaba. Shit happens talaga. Pero positive na lang dapat ang outlook naming regarding this issue. Ganon talaga, minsan hindi tayo papaboran ng life coz may ma’s better na mangyayari 👍👍👍👍 There’s more to life other than money. Aye? So what ever happens, happens. Game face on 👆👆we are better than this right?

Well expect for more and more struggles. Whatever happens, happens. I am ready. ☝💪

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