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feeling like there were so many mistakes i made through out my academic career, but honestly #whatever

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this awareness gives me peace

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don't give up

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René Magritte, L'État De Veille (1958) Philipp Igumnov, Cloudhouse (2013)

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Healing taught me that honesty wouldn't ruin a real thing. Speaking about your feelings won't lose you anything worth having. Setting boundaries won't scare off proper people. & authenticity won't cost you genuine relationships.

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Focusing on what’s rooted in reality has reduced so much of my overthinking time. If a friend is already out of my life, there’s no point dissecting our interactions from back when we were friends. If I already broke up w someone, there’s no point thinking about the could-have-beens because they will never happen. If I’m into someone but it wouldn’t work for whatever reason, then it just doesn’t. Something just is or just isn’t. There’s a lesson to take from everything but I also don’t want to use that as a catch-all excuse of getting into the weeds for something when the weeds have already been cut off and it doesn’t even matter anymore

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memory, palimpsest, nostalgia

“I need someone to remember me”

Mitski

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You're not always going to be motivated. So you must learn to be disciplined.

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One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.

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me every three seconds when i'm not in the mood for studying:

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iuliastration

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here are unflattering photos of my study/work station today. I am decked on minor surgeries but there aren’t any scheduled ORs today so I’m just studying pharmacology, which I need to be serious because we have an exam tomorrow and it’d be great if I could just rest tonight. I’m also behind anki because I prioritized sleep last night and yesterday I was in OR the whole day so! today we are serious. yes yes, we’ll get some studying done.

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📖 08.05.2024 // I'm sick today (I think I caught a cold, nothing really important but it bothers me a lot) so I read for 1 hour and did my march journal :))

My journal isn't pretty but it is efficient and I like it! I don't have any log for all the beginning of march as I took time to do the log pages ahah

📕 Tartuffe - Molière

🎧 hey, doctor doctor - milk in the microwave