diaryofasociopath

[diaryofasociopath]

She deserves to know everything

Relationships are hard, everyone knows that. But some are harder than others because the person you're trying to be in a relationship with is a not-so-high-functioning sociopath.

After three and a half years, he writes: "She deserves to know everything". Oh, but she already does. See, if you are going to sleep with every woman you meet, not only sleep with them, but suggest you are in a relationship with every single one of them - don't keep a record. Don't keep a diary. Even if your therapist tells you to (but who are we kidding, there was never a therapist).

"She was reading a book a few weeks ago, 'Everything I Never Told You' by Celeste Ng. She bought that book because of me. Because of what I (have) never told her" [editorial note: I so didn't!] "Then I watch TV, a couple cheats on their respective partners, and he feels guilty and tells. He plainly tells. Which I never ever ever ever did besides a blasé text after the Adi misdemeanor (tip of the iceberg). I have to tell her. I have to tell her the whole truth of what she doesn't know; the history of my unfaithfulness."

You don't have to tell her, because she already knows. Because if you leave your diaries in her apartment, expecting privacy when you have been sticking your dongle into every outlet you've found, she'll read every word of it. Even if the writing makes her want to barf.