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10/9-10/15

Right now, I’m sitting at a Starbucks, typing away on my tumblr, drinking a tea and not talking to the person with me (my husband). Am I really this girl? 

Anyways, This week was a good one for as far as the learning process goes. Chapters 3 and 4 of WTCTW got better, and I feel like she actually shed some knowledge. However, I'm finding this book difficult to read as the author is obnoxious . I feel as if the whole book so far is pretty much talking about how terrible the world is and how writing is the cure. I'm honestly tired of this political agenda that I feel I'm being dragged into. She seems like the old, cranky lady at the store who blames you for all the problems today because you were born 40 years after she was. I'm not here to argue about whether she's right or wrong, but I grow tired of her commentary. Is this a memoir or actually a piece of information that will help me some how? Is that bratty of me? According to Mary Pipher, probably so. Anyways, I’m also writing a paper for my music class. I’m trying to use my new skills to write a decent paper, but it’s hard. I’m still a shitty writer, but Mary Pipher tells me to find my voice, so I’m finding my voice. From now on, I’m not going to try and sound all educated, because I’m not. I like to read and I like to write and learn, but does that make me smart? Not really. Sometimes I think I’m more ignorant than I put on. I want to be smart and I want what I say and write to somehow mean something, but I know it doesn’t. I’m not profound in any way, but maybe I can be some day. Does it matter? Not really, but I’m persistent. Also, my professor is very helpful. I emailed her to let her know that I was pretty pissed about the intro to the book and her response made me realize it’s okay to feel what I’m feeling, and I can use that to write. I guess I’ve always found it so hard to write because usually I don’t agree with whatever I’m forced to read, so now I feel okay about not agreeing and being able to write about it. I think I’ll go now, because Starbucks is closing soon and I have work tomorrow. Until next week! 

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10/2-10/8

This is my second post for my learning journal, and I still am unsure what I’m doing. This week was hard for me, because I felt that I had a lot of work and not enough time. I am jealous of all students who don’t have a full-time job. I am also jealous of all students that college just comes easy to them. Up until this week, I had planned on getting out of the Navy to become a full time student. I don’t think I can do this.

Anyways, this week I read a text from Bell Books called “Critical Thinking” which I found interesting and incredibly insightful. Is it dumb of me that I didn’t know how to critically think before? I try, but I feel I have nothing to think about. I just want to read a book, not think about the meaning. I don’t want to think about anything really. I just want to learn. Now, I understand the importance of critical thinking and how to do it. I guess you could say that’s my “AHA moment” 

Another thing that I found difficult this week was reading the book “Writing to Change the World”. Honestly, I couldn’t get past the introduction. I’m tired of being a part of this political agenda that the school I attend tries to feed me. I am so blessed the Navy pays for me to go to school, because I would not use my own money to go to this one.  I feel this class is part of a political agenda that I don’t want to be a part of. I am really choosing my words here because I honestly don’t want to offend anyone, but if you’d like to discuss my thoughts I’d love to. I won’t go into to much more depth there, but like I said, I’d love to discuss it further. 

Basically, this week was hard and bad, but at the same time I did learn a lot and I am thankful for that. Here’s to another week of learning!

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Week 1 9/25-10/1

 This is my first entry into my learning journal. Let me start by saying that I’m not exactly sure what I’m doing and I’m not even a blogger but I thought I’d give tumblr a whirl. This week I really struggled with accomplishing this, and free writing so I’d like to dedicate my first entry to that. 

  I took this class before, a couple years ago actually, and I went to one class only. We did a free write and I was anxious that whatever I wrote was lame and someone would see, so I wrote something lame and no one saw. This time, I was glad that Dr. Ogden included an article on free writing. I read it and it. changed. my. life. So this week, when I free wrote, I found myself not thinking. I just wrote whatever was on my brain and I didn’t stop or lift my writing utensil (unless I had to of course). How liberating! I’ve always been very secretive of what I write, so this was WILD for me. I’ve kept a diary since I was about 11 but I’ve never shared it with anyone (except for a shitty ex-boyfriend, but it wasn’t shared willingly ha ha) Of course, I probably won’t ever put anything that personal in my free writes that I share with my professor, but who knows? Maybe by the end of this course I will. Look at me, you’ve already got me on tumblr, blogging of all things. 

   I struggled with the learning journal because, if you can’t tell, I don’t like to get too personal. Even something as simple as a journal talking about my week in class is hard for me to do. I somehow feel safe. My entries will be lost in the wide world of the web, and no one has to know who I really am in person. This comforts me. Anyways, another struggle I’m having with this is that I don’t really know how to “tumblr” and I also don’t know if I’m really following the instructions to the assignment. I hope that I am, because this is actually fun. Well, I’m going to try and figure out how to insert pictures on this post but I look forward to your feedback.