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Trigger warning: suicide

My friend is suicidal and we made a deal. 

Please please reblog/like!!!

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Do you think this is a pretty sight? This is the reality of having anorexia for 12+ years. The reality of what eating disorders can do to your body.

When I was in high school and then in college getting my bachelors degree, I spent more time in hospitals and treatment centers than I did out of them.

And then I found out

My organs failed. Permanently.

Last year, I needed major surgery that took about 4 HOURS, and after that I was admitted to the hospital for a week on heavy pain medications, being wheeled around because I couldn’t walk.

I had tubes everywhere.

I had to medically withdraw from graduate school because I had to spend that time in doctors offices, infusion centers for IVs, in the ER, or admitted into the hospital.

Now I have a 6 inch scar across my abdomen and will be on medications for the rest of my life to help my heart and stomach function enough to keep me alive.

I’ve nearly died multiple times from the ED, but I had never believed that my organs could shut down and leave me to deal with that reality for the rest of my life.

That is not a way anyone should have to live life.

This is what an eating disorder looks like. Not the “thinspo” everyone sees on the Internet. This is what you don’t see behind those pictures and it’s not pretty.

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Why You Should Eat More

Your hair won’t fall out.

You won’t be as tired all the time.

You won’t binge uncontrollably.

You won’t cause damage to your vital organs.

You won’t inspire younger siblings or family to starve themselves.

You won’t die.

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One of these days I won’t need to suck my stomach in when someone takes a picture of me

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Fascinating

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I love healthier thinspos :)

Healthy thinspo

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putting this here — not to upset anybody but to educate. I didn’t know this.

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can i stop dropping grades and start dropping pounds please?

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Throne of lies 👊🤠

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Is ted bundy a thinspo kween????

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i wish people would stop romanticizing not eating breakfast and not getting enough sleep and being dependent on coffee to function and always being in a bad mood and treating yourself poorly because that behavior is very unhealthy for you

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Sweetspo if you need it ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I know. It’s hard right now. But think of when you finally hit that goal weight. When you can finally fit into that dress. When you can get a new bathing suit for the summer because your old one doesn’t fit anymore. That’s what you are doing this for. You do it for yourself. I believe in you ❤️❤️ Think about all the people who insulted you or told you that you couldn’t do it. Next time you want to overeat or binge, remember those people. Remember that you want to prove them wrong and show them that you can do whatever you put your mind to. I know you can do it!! ❤️ Fighting.

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ah yes, the four main food groups: chinese takeaway, coffee, carbohydrates, and pussy

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🖤 Formerly Pudgefree 🖤

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~ delicate ~

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*not me* *read entire caption*

This is my ultimate thinspo pic. I know she’s not skeletal, her BMI is probably like 20, her thighs probably still touch, I don’t care. She looks so at peace and someone she loves probably took this photo.

One day I want my boyfriend to see my looking so perfect and tranquil and be so inspired to take a picture before getting into bed to curl around me, knowing that I’m so tired that I’m curled up like a child and just wanting me to get some rest because he loves me and wants me to be happy.

To me this picture reflects being loved, loving yourself, and being cute and cozy. And that’s what being skinny ultimately represents to me too.