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im moving back home to my parents house in 2 weeks im 26 years old with nothing to show for it.i spent the last 8 years catering my life to be loved by this man who it’s over with. what the fuck do i do now but relapse

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hi

i’ll be back on here soon

as you know bf of 8 years and i broke up

i got nothin to lose anymore i’m gonna get real thin again

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bf of 8 years who i thought i was going to marry broke up with me and i have to move back to iowa! i think i’m going to die but at least i might get skinny!

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mostly decorated for christmas just need a tree and lights now

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hi guys i feel so pathetic coming back here every 2 months and saying i’ve gotten so bad and then never do anything about it. but i went shopping today and saw myself in the mirror and lost it

im back from my work trip tomorrow and i’m going to be back on here for real.

i feel so awful

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the last month has been so awful and i havent been able to pull myself out of an overeating phase. i’ve gained back 10/15 lbs i lost in the early summer fml. but went grocery shopping and am locking in

123 today, 110 by christmas is the goal

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hiiii

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its 8 am and i havent went to bed fml

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found this pic of me as a bb at my grandmas

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favorite otp: omg i haven’t heard the word otp since my one direction fandom days

ahh this is hard! i used to kinda be larry but im out of that world so rn its tohru honda/kyo soma from fruits basket

thank you ♥️

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just got the most amazing twitch name LMFAOOOO

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OK update on this. i found out the one with the ring camera is actually not the neighbor that's been annoying me about the door but my other upstairs neighbor who i actually really like so i'll let it slide (unless the annoying neighbor also has access to it and we're the only apartment who can't view it)

i found this out bc she sent a text to our condo gc about how her packages got stolen with pics from the ring camera but then the annoying neighbor texted "Damn. Pretty sure this has never happened before. Please make sure to shut the door (referring to the door to the buliding which ig is janky), it's been open when I take the girls (her fucking irritating ass dogs) out in the morning"

and that pissed me OFF. firstly the packages got stolen from the PORCH - outside of the locked door. also i've been checking that fucking door every time i go outside. and her saying "it's never happened before" just makes me think she thinks it's me and my bfs fault that this happened since we moved in and apparently never shut the door. why don't we get the fucking door fixed how about that? also i don't go out late at night get off my ass

i live in a 3 flat and my neighbor has a PERSONAL ring camera at our shared front door. she texted me about not shutting the door hard enough “late at night” this afternoon like what the fuck? i also check that fucking door every time. i feel like im being watched. 2 of our neighbors have done weird shit now when we’ve been nothing but nice

idk if its bc we’re renters or we’re young but it pisses me off. we’re quiet, clean, and nondisruptive … i dont complain about HER DOGS barking on MY PORCH every goddamn morning or the smell of her cigarette smoke coming into my house

like girl my bf is a tenants lawyer if you try anything its not gonna fly!

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i'm emo

in 2016 when i could sing

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want to not do stimmies anymore for my own health but ... skinty ...

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the most random thing to happent to me in the last year is that i started enjoying football. if you told 16-23 yr old me that i think i would have died on the spot. i was the epitome of an indie hater and i still am but my bf started playing redzone when we were hungover on sundays and sports in an environment that isn't hypermasc (not like a bunch of dads yelling at the tv) is lowkey so fun. plus some of the players are super hot and my bf and i fawn over them together and buy campy merch and i get to cook really fun foods on sundays for game night i'm becoming a basic bitch sadly

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sometimes when i see rlllyyy young people on edtwt (not so much tumblr bc i choose not to follow them but my fyp on twt still shows me like high schoolers) i'm like ... sigh i hurt for them and wish it wasn't happening but also i miss that phase

having an ed as you get older (mid-late twenties) sometimes is just about maintaining a weight you're not thrilled w but you can live at without being caught/not being able to follow your life responsibliites and shit. i'm not just saying that bc i'm not at my gw like i could definitely be more disciplined but i feel like a lot of these kids think it'll get easier to restrict once they leave home and in some ways yes but also no. your life will get in the way in ways that both annoys you and you're grateful for. at least i hope that it does for them. i've been in an adult ed relapse completely isolated and able to do whatever i want and it was both awesome (to my ed) and ruined my ability to like be normal for a long time