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#42; Bye glasses

I am keeping my glasses and decided to not wear it again because I have came to realize that I do not like wearing them and it only making me more dependent to it the more I'm wearing it. Thats all.

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#41; Unexpected problem comes after achieving my goal

On my 3rd year annual dinner, I won 3 awards - book prize, dean's list and best student. I am expecting 1 award but definitely not 3. And I swear to you that I wanted an award so bad. It something about wanting to stand on the stage and taking academic award. But little did I know it is also becoming a problem later to me. But to make everything clear, I would not trade the experience of achieving the awards at all, ever, for anything despite this "problem" Im having after receiving the award. The problem is that other people are expecting you to excel at new things you are still learning. I have to admit, I am far from what you call a genius, gifted because I know I'm the type of person that need to work hard for almost everything. So why am I giving so much concern of their expectation? Idk either. I start to feel pressured of what people might think if I didnt do well, if I didnt get A for my exam or that I couldnt answer questions asked by lecturers or make mistakes in front of others? Honestly I care about all of these even more after the award and it bothers me so much because before, I'm not like this. If I continue to do this, I wouldnt be able to focus on things I'm doing because all of my focus is on the thoughts of what people might think of me when they might not even be thinking that..

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#40; How is it so far?

Now I'm on my semester break, I'm now halfway through the year 3. Its pretty common to be asked, "how is it so far?" from others, like family and lecturers, and I really dont know how to answer it, but my responds always goes "its fine". But tbh idk if its true cause it is just an easy answer cause I dont really want to talk about it. I guess now my answer should cover something about me still trying to adapt with a lot of new things that is happening to me recently while studying. Hopefully I'll become braver as in confidence, smarter, more organized. I still finds it hard tho :(

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# 38 ; Letter to my future self

Khadijah, if you forget how your undergraduate life feels like, or what type of working adult you want be. I’m spilling it here, so I can read it again.

If I ever gonna be a lecturer, I would advice myself, never ever do teaching with only using slides. But instead draw if needed. Give simpler explanation. Give a brief idea what we���re learning, explain possible new terms to the students.

The working adult I’ll be; to always respect your students, treat them nicely, have professional attitude (punctual with time and treat everyone fairly) and to always love teaching others. Never forget to adknowledge others and don’t be so full of yourself (you’re not the best even though you have succeeded). Help your students whether it is in their studies or as a moral support. Don’t compare your student with other students, because I know how sad to hear that from my very own lecturer.

This may sounds like I want to become a lecturer, but tbh I just want to be the person, who I wished I’ll have more around with me.

with that, bye.

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#37; Someone new

That day we wasnt suppose to go out far because we wanted to spend that time at home before going back. But a student my mom teaches needed help to sign his approval uni entry letter because he re-apply so the result came out last minute so my mom need to go to her school to get her stamp. At first he didnt get any offer to pursue his study. But after knowing him, you know why he is the one that had to go through it. Because he is the one who able to get through all of that. He is very hardworking, very sweet, very polite and intelligent. We all met at McDonald in front my my moms school and chat with him a little but and turn out he is my age. New semester is about to start. Goodluck Vishan!

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#36; New babe part 2

Basically my Nokia got soaked in water from the rain because I'm stupid (tried to listen to music during heavy rain and placed my phone in my bagpack side pocket). Then the charging port gave out smoke when I tried to charge. Then I put my phone inside a container filled with rice given by my friend. Then the rice got into the charger port. I managed to get it out but on the good side, the port is now dried. But the charger wire become loose with the port causing any movement of the phone while charging makes it ddiscontinuous and since it happen pretty often everytime I charged my phone which causes my phones battery to be damaged. It starts by battery draining and then the back of the phone starts to heat up snd now its expanding. Its really bad

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#35; Kacang selling story

This is during koko day. We have been planning to sell something that day since forever. After tons of cool ideas we ended up with selling kacang lol. We have 80 packs initially and fast forward all the 80 packs were sold from "paksaan" ╮(. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)╭ We had no choice because everybody is cheap. But it is only RM1! After all of that, we were cleaning then 1 fair skin, small but chubby guy come up to me, I said Hi as if Im talking to a little brother lol and about to tell him the kacang was sold out so he couldnt buy it but turn out he was asking if he could take picture with me. I'm like ok what a plot twist. We took picture and together with my sister. Then thts all. Later I found out tht he is not 13 or 14 but he is actually 17 (❛‿❛) another plot twist. Also found out is he a younger brother to hnm worker me and my sister met just before that. Lol

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#34; Yesterday's letter

Got my letter from my uni and it was my exam result. I was so happy cause I got A. Then I got RM100 as a gift and a piece of advice to not waste my money¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯

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#33; Life update

It's been awhile but I'm trying to catch up with few things here. #33.1 Firstly, I'm on my end semester break that is about to end in couple of days. My sister will further her study in law. And as for me, I passed my exam with an A and able to continue to next year which will be clinical year from now on. My brother did well for his video assignment about charity. Everything is going pretty good ༼ つ ◕‿◕ ༽つ #33.2 Next is about ꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡ lol. Flashback to when I was on my second week of my study week, I got a dm and it was actually a goodluck wish from 2 seniors and I said thanks and wishes them as well. But couple of days later, I got another dm from one of them confessing that he has a little crush on me and ask from my phone number if we can be friends. But I said I don't feeI the same he does and I'm not sure I have time to chat with him even if I gave him my number. Plus it is during ny study week rite? Such a bad timing too! He would have more chances if I was happy because that time all I can focused on is on my exam and the unread topics I have to cover. He said no problem and thanked me. One thing I have to say is that he is by far the best one to respect me as a person. He can just go and ask of his friends or my classmates for my number. But he did not. Which I trullyyyyy respect that and could not say that more real here. But idk if it has to do with "little" crush so he would'nt want to put so much effort. But anyway his respect has make me liked him back lol and wanted to dm him again to give him my number. And I also been waiting, checking dm too frequently EVERYDAY hoping he'll dm me again. But he did'nt. Now it has been almost 7 weeks all of that passed, I finally get over it after knowing that he's a smoker. Lol. I feel like God will definitely someday give me a better person. Hehe #33.3 My birthday coming up soon, and my mom bought me a surprise birthday cake! Today we are going to cut it eventhough it's not my birthday because on my birthday I have to go back to my uni.lol We're going #33.4 Oh btw, I have decided yesterday when I have my own job and salary, I will buy uniqlo outfits too aside from sports attire! #33.5 Btw we're going to KL tomorrow! #33.6 AND I'M THE ASSISTANT CR AND IM PUMPED FOR MORE NEW EXPERIENCES! I have always wanted to hold that position. How I got it, he actually ask if anyone wants to become one, that person can personal dm him. And I guess nobody dm him so he heard from someone else that I was suppose to be the assistant because I have contributed something which I will tell later. So he ws me saying that others said that you're the assistant cr. And I said if nobody volunteer, I would'nt mind to become one. And he thanked me. #33.7 What makes me become the assistant cr is because we have game like amazing race but everything is education related to help us prepared for the exam. Lecturers been talking to each other tht the questions that will be asked during the game is actually a clue for the real exam which I mentioned the one I passed earlier. So I text the ex cr (he is now ex because we got new cr for the upcoming semester) basically saying I have something to announce to everyone tomorrow (about my strategy to get all the questions from the game for all of us to study for the exam) The next day came, he announce the method he have recieved by one of my classmate, but I don't think it was the best one because the flaws is too much, I raised my hand saying what is wrong with that idea and gave my idea instead. They tought about it and it become the main strategy. Lol. Another thing was brought up by my ex cr saying how to collect the question then? Again, I raised my hand saying that I have made up a google form yesterday and I will need the leaders from each group for the game to collect from their members and fill the form. The the whole class clapped their hands to me. IM LYING IF IF I SAY IM NOT HAPPY. IM SO HAPPY I COULD IDK lol but I was soo happy because everyone liked the idea. Then I was suggested to become the cr but the cr now didnt come to class so he doesnt know a thing about tht. When all the questions has collected, I gave to all my classmates, and so many of them said thank you and they are even people dm me privately saying thank you.❤ . . I guess that is all! If theres more I remember, I'll write it separately. BYE!

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#32; Team mates?!

2 days ago best offer is my life, I couldnot be happier than to be invited to bcome a team for the mobile legend to attent the tournament with the others. Im so happy tbh. I wish I could them them how much I want this to happen. They seem relaxed but Im sooo EXCITED!

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#30 ; My first youtube playlist

Today from Menara U to USB, we called Grab service and it is probably the best one so far. The driver play lots of fun music and very relaxing as well which fits the mood that night. As the music plays one to another one, I wrote them in my ws personal message. When I got back to my dorm, I create my very first youtube playlist which called "Grab 13/5/18" which indicates that day's date. I finally found a reason to create a playlist. The last music in the playlist was suppose to be "Talking to The Moon by Bruno Mars" but I replaced them with "Say Love by James TW" instead

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#29; I’m home

I got back home yesterday’s night after 3 months and this morning I feel sooo happy, just waking up early and trying to get my assignment done. I don’t really know how to express it, but I just feel relieved somehow. I wanted to change my tumblr music playlist to a better one. Because probably this feeling is coming from this music I’m listening to now  :D

Very happy to see my family this holiday break 

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#28;

If I was asked "What are you scared of?" before, My answer would be "growing old". In fact, It still has'nt changed. But I just come to realize that I'm more scared if my family start to change as we all grew older. Maybe I'm just being overly-sensitive about this. But I can't deny that is what making me scared and sad :( I just hope we will never change. I love all of them

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#27 ; New babe

I just gotta say that the ‘’new babe’’ I’ve mention above is actually is.....

my new phone, Nokia 5!!!!!!!!

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#26 ; Who’s Cute? Both.

I was in the cafe today and was about to wash my hands after eating my lunch together with my friend, Oon. While washing, there’s an uncle asking me ‘‘Who’s that the one wearing purple outfit?’‘ while washing his hands at the sink right next to me. On my left, there’s a senior that I work under him in this one and only club I joined. Then I answered that uncle ‘‘It’s the nurses’‘. I wasnt feeling very confident right after I answered him. Then I turn to my right I asked him, ‘‘It’s the nurses, right?’‘. Later he explained that the light purple outfit is for the nurses, dark purple are for the students and he point at me saying ‘‘ This is a student too’‘. I laughed and said ‘‘ A student who does’nt get the purple uniform yet’‘ then I walk back to my seat.

Right when I sat down, I said ‘‘Cute-lah’‘ and Oon asked me ‘‘Who’s cute?’‘. I said..

‘’Both. Ahahahaha’‘

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#25 ; What a HECTIC-TEROUS day!

Yoshh! Lets make it short n sweet. Start of with...

Yesterday’s night. (16/1/18 - 17/1/18)

I got a presentation slide to do, then I had to stay up to complete them & also prepare for the presentation. But do keep in mind, tht the presentation is not definitely me who’s going to present, instead, the lecturer will randomly choose either one member from the group. so lets say it’s like 1/10 x100% chance tht I’ll be choosen. Later when all of that is done, I slept around 2:00 + in the morning that night.

Then...

It’s tomorrow. (17/1/18)

I woke up at 7:30 am and my class is on 8:00 am sharp! I didnt take a shower, which is of course an optional in this kind of situation. Then I ran from my residential college (7:51am) to the faculty building (7:59am) which usually takes me about 10 mins to get there DAILY. Doesnt seem like much of a difference to you. But dannnnnng I was panting hard when I got there.

When I was about to leave my room, I looked at my ws and noticed that I had a job to do given by my lecturer through ws which is to let all my friends know that they need to print out something for the lab session later. After discussion with my lecturer though ws, she allowed me to take 15mins of the lab session to go print it for all the classmate. Since patho’s lecture finishes 30mins early, I got to print it earlier n give them to all my classmates. By the time the lab session started, all of them hve the handout tht they suppose to print out.

Dr: All of you got your handouts?

All: Yes!

Dr: Wow so fast. Thanks to Sharifah

I’m delighted to hear tht from her but I was’nt there when she said that. Cause I’m still running from the class to the lab after settling the handouts to all of my classmates.

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