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This post is simply a notification that I am leaving Jiraiblr. I have decided to recover for my best friend and myself.

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stupid fucking sc@r check bc i had less when i first joined jiraiblr and u can really only see them best in the sun

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she blocked me again :) im free

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this is so silly bruh she blocked my alt but left my main unblocked?? what does she want from me?

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nah she's def trying to catch me looking at her profile. nuh uh! im grown! <- lying but i kinda dont want a restraining order haha....

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WTF SHE UNBLOCKED MY MAIN? AM I TRIPPING?

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idk why im stalking my toxic ex who literally blackmailed me after we broke up n turned ppl against me like- idk its just hot that she can hate me so much?? but also she added my alt account to her close friends- what? idk if she's testing me or what its so weird

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jealously makes me feel sick to my stomach. why do i hate that youre happy? why does this infuriate me??

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no!! no! i dont want you to have other friends!! because then that means there's competition and im automatically the worse friend!! and that means ur gonna leave me!

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me when something finally triggers me again and i realize nothing is ever going to change, and im always going to have issues.

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Hope ur ok ^_^ also happy pride hehe

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nothing hurts anymore. :3

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self destructing on purpose to feel something again.

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im so empty. i wanna feel something. break me

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we love you dg, dahlia, or whoever you are now!! /gen

its fine to keep referring to me or this account as names ive assigned to it, since i think "Dahlia" was the only ever um. mental state??? that had a name, like ever.

honestly knowing myself, ill probably get triggered into another episode and be able to feel something again.

i dont even feel love for my best friend, i kinda hate it-?

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im sorry, i wish i could make this make sense. i know how much running this blog means to people, but im not sure what to do.

the pain ...she felt, the turmoil, the need to be loved. i dont feel that, it doesnt feel like something i ever felt- i dont feel like what she was.

i cant post something i dont feel.

maybe you'll see me again if she comes back?

i got us to graduation though!! isnt that so great? Im so tired but i did it for us! our cvts even healed days before!

ive been reading our inbox for her and i appreciate all of the kind words.

youre loved, and cherished, and will forever be in my heart.

no matter who i am.

youre loved here.

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the part of me that ran this blog is dead. I think. (^..^)ﾉ

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Um! I dont feel anything anymore! i can only be numb and joyful! the dread will never reach me!