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He's the enthralling hero whom she loved with her whole being. The tranquility that she felt around him was something that made her feel safe.

The devoted hero that she would always want to know. Every moment with him that she would always cherish. He's anything she couldn't ask for.

Listening to his laugh's melody was something that made her gratified, but becoming the composer of it was something that she desired.

Perhaps, if the time could possibly stop, she would eagerly drive around Anaheim when the sun's down which gave her opportunity to learn. To put him first.

The thing is, the trembly soul knew that, she wouldn't able.

She wouldn't able of remembering these roads because she's lost, not in reverie, nor even in him.

She's lost herself.

This soul who unsparingly suffers—that she wish he wouldn't have to sought—can't even keep the promises. Can't even remember the route. And it hurts herself even more.

She wished that she could stop the time.

To be devoted to him.

But it hauntingly scraped her heart knowing that she hurt him soundless. And she's lost herself at the same time

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💚💙 PHONE WALLPAPERS 💗💜

In case you missed it, we wanted to also reshare our the cutest little ice cream themed wallpapers~! 🍨

They are completely free to use, and you can find all four Dokis here!

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sleepy

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killed the mood…

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ersummm.. he’s right behind me isn’t he

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Reviewing NIKI - Pandemonium

NIKI is an RnB-pop singer and I’ve been a fan of her since her YouTube days. The songs that she makes herself really touches the soul of anyone who hears it. Its not a surprise that most of her songs has successfully made me cry no matter how many times I hear it. 

But now I’ll be specifically writing about a song in her latest album. Although its been almost a year since NIKI’s Moonchild album has been released, but we still like to hear her songs from this album, especially Lose. Its probably the biggest hit song that NIKI has so far in her music career.

I’m not actually going to write about Lose. Today I’ll be sharing a song that really holds dear to my heart. Probably my favourite song from this album. Pandemonium.

The song Pandemonium is actually a phase that I’ve experienced before. How your mind and your heart is constantly in battle, then you start looking at the world through that situation, all you could see is darkness, how people are as heartless as you are.

Keep reading

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lyric parallel that rly cut me today

milk teeth - niki // good enough - maisie peters

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In a perfect world, I'd kill to love you the loudest. All I do is live to hurt you soundless.

This is a line from Anaheim by NIKI that reminds me of the concept of falling out of love. Sometimes we just want to love someone unconditionally and we absolutely want the best for them, but somehow it isn't that easy for us (and for them). People might not really talk about how painful it is when you suddenly stop loving someone although they're nice and caring to you. And you can't even pretend to love them when you don't feel the same way anymore, you wish that you wouldn't hurt them yet sadly, the last inevitable thing you could do is hurting them.

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— Anaïs Nin, from The Diary of Anais Nin, Vol. 6: 1955-1966

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august 15

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Happy truck day everyone !!!!

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old ddlc+ sketches

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I found The Picture of Dorian Gray old edition in library and it's so cool? there's annotation from the owner too

from this date, I can concluded that this book is from 1944

His annotations are so !! ~homosexuality~

VISITING LIBRARY IS SO FUN I LOVE FINDING HIDDEN GEMS

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aubrey,,,, the auby 💐

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belated secret santa gift from the event in @hazeremix 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️(for the epic @abitofkake!!)

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~☆🧸💕

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thank you here’s my late kagepro piece go kagepro