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[ID: 3 green leaves with text stamped on them. They say "It's so hot and the sky's so blue", "I want people to know me", "but it's so hard to tell them". ]

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Yeah i have a dark past (being 13). Just an absolutely horrible backstory (being 13). It would keep you up at night if i told you about it (i was 13 one time)

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“u can suck in ur stomach but ur arms and thighs will tell the truth”

GET OUT OF MY SKINNNNN

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my life is only for your consumption // 1.31.20

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saw my own face and now i wanna fucking shoot it

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i feel like nobody knows me the way i’d like to be known

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filled with hatred and distrust

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sorry for eating that wasn't very 'i’m willing to do whatever it takes to reach my ugw' of me

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for @the-colors-system

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I fell off the wagon a bit, stopped focusing on restricting just focusing on surviving. I’ve been eating one meal a day not really on purpose it’s just how it’s been. I’ve had 3 people tell me “wow you’ve lost weight”

It’s been messing with my head.

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if alcohol didn't have calories id be getting so fucked up right now

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Each and every day feels unbearable

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Could you love me while I hate myself?