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writing here kinda makes me feel worse and more insane so i’ve stopped

but things are really just insane lol. I bought her a dog and we had a fight over it all but worked it out

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i friendly fired her two times in helldivers and she fucking rage quit, infront of my friend too

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i actually just want to drive away but i’m too drunk

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im really out here quietly sobbing on the couch and she’s asleep in bed

she went to sleep without me

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maybe the empty wine bottles would signal that i need a hug or some kind ness but no pe

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she really doesn’t care how hurt i am

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i really can’t stand it how can i make it stop

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i am in like so much emotional pain right now i dont know what to do

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you probably wont notice though

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i’m sorry for crying on you and making your shirt wet while you were asleep

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just the thought of her waking up and rolling over to kiss me \\\\\\ would make me cry. instead she thinks its funny to rip all of my pillows away from me and laugh while i lay there

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i am probably gonna break down and drink lots of that wine today. then i can like nap and rest. ill wake up to make her dinner when she comes home from work around 10 and then go back to sleep

maybe ill take some gummies too. might as well

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i really want her to show more physical affection towards me. even just a kiss. she has only kissed me a handful of times

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we fell asleep without touching or saying a word or anything

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she can be so mean to me without realizing because i think of her so highly. so even the smallest little thing really does hurt. because i really find it hard to believe that someone as gorgeous as her would want to be with me. so like idk

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i really wish she liked me half as much as i love her

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ALSO i have not gotten this months period… im like…. where is… it… :/

then i imagine what it would be like if she knocked me up. i would be an awful parent so i hope not