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Coffee Thoughts #2.

Hello. Welcome back to Coffee Thoughts. Number 2.

I woke up later than I wanted to today. I was going to post earlier, but I was already posting on @circamariam. So. Last time I mentioned I experienced Jesus about two years back. Let me explain.

So, about two years ago, me and my family went to Ventura in California. We went to this church, though I forgot which one. And we attended the mass with some of the friends of my parents. During the mass I couldn’t help but feel some sort of a weird annoying presence around me. My chest felt weird. And the mass just had a weird unsettling vibe for me. I didn’t know why.

So, after the mass, I walk up to this large statue of Jesus on the cross, right? I look at it. I stare at it for a minute or two. And then, the unsettling vibe around me disappeared and the feeling in my chest was gone. Then I don’t know why, but tears started to fill my eyes.

The presence of Jesus filled my heart.

I didn’t realize that though, because I’d never experienced this before. Sure, I went to mass every Sunday, confession every Saturday, and I did the rosary everyday, but I’d never experienced..

this.

I tried to conceal my tears, because I didn’t realize why I was crying. So I walk outside, trying to catch a breath of fresh air, hoping maybe that’ll help me. The rest of my family was already outside.

I walk around, and look around. Trying to distract myself from this unfamiliar feeling. But it’s no use. My mother notices that I’m acting odd. So she asks me what’s wrong. And then, before I could get a word in, I began crying. And I think my mother knew what was going on with me. She was more devout than I was.

After I’d explained what happened to her, we went to go grab a bite. Needless to say, that experience changed my life. And I did get a very large crucifix out of it. I keep it next to my bed to remind me every day of that experience two years ago.

This concludes Coffee Thoughts #2, I hope you enjoy.

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Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it.

~ Proverbs 4:23 🕊

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Mater Dolorosa, Ora Pro Nobis

I realize I never posted this one here, please enjoy

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Coffee Thoughts #1.

Welcome! This is my first post of my “Coffee Thoughts” series. Why am I doing this? What is this about? Well. On this page I go over explaining a lot of common Catholic misconceptions, or just some personal thoughts I’m having that day.

A little more about me:

roman catholic

owner of @circamariam

devoted to our lady of sorrows

So, with that out of the way, this is: Coffee Thoughts #1. This one’s gonna be just about my personal thoughts today.

Here in California where I currently am, it’s raining pretty hard outside. But you know, with the fires that have been happening it’s good to be grateful for that. I’m a pretty ill tempered person to be honest. I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s too much pent up anger? Because it feels like the moment someone slightly wrongs me, my head’s going to pop and I have the urge to smack someone upside the head.

Weird right? Maybe that’s just me though and maybe I need help. Recently I’ve been devoting myself more to Our Lady of Sorrows. I’m not sure why, but I, in a way, can somehow relate to her. Sure, I haven’t lost anyone super close to me, but we all feel sorrow in our life. We always will. As long as we live, there’s always gonna be pain, and somehow, someway, it’s gonna show up, and stab us right in the heart. We can’t avoid it. The least we can do is embrace it and push through. Right? Right. I think.

About two or so years ago, I think that was when I really decided to try and get familiar with the religion I was in. I don’t know why. Not sure what changed. But I think it was after I’d experienced Jesus on the cross. It’s kind of a long story. If you guys like this, I might delve deeper into that on my next Coffee Thoughts.

This concludes Coffee Thoughts #1.