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[divinetenebris]

i owe many things, of this I know. My show is done and now I'm moving on Saturday (what a full week yay [not to mention my partner's bday is tomorrow]) So replies will come hopefully very soon after but it'll be at least until Sunday, if not Monday before they do.

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( a collection of drunken confessions dialogue prompts. adjust phrasing as necessary.) feel free to make edits to better suit your muse, but please don’t edit or add on to the original post <3 if you like, please consider supporting me through tips

(mix of silly, emotional, messy, sweet, and chaotic)

"you ever think maybe we were meant to meet... like, cosmically?"

"i shouldn't say this... but i've been in love with you for forever."

"shhh. don’t tell anyone i said this but... you’re my favorite person."

"you’re so pretty. it’s actually unfair. i’m mad at you now."

"i miss you. even when you're here, i miss you."

"if you asked me right now, i’d run away with you."

"i told myself i wouldn’t cry and now look at me—i'm soggy."

"can i tell you a secret? no one knows this. not even me."

"i don't want to go home. it’s not warm there like you are."

"you smell like safety. that’s weird, right?"

"you always leave the party too early. stay longer this time. stay with me."

"i don't like them. i never did. i only said yes to make you jealous."

"you were my first love. not that you needed to know that."

"you always knew me better than anyone. it’s scary sometimes."

"every time you smile at someone else i feel sick. it’s pathetic, i know."

"i think you're the only person who's ever actually seen me."

"you promised me you’d stay. why did you lie?"

"remember when we used to dream together? god, we were so young."

"don’t laugh but... i wrote poems about you. they were bad."

"you’re everything to me. but it’s fine. you don’t have to feel the same."

"your hands are so warm. i could live here, holding you."

"you were my favorite chapter. i keep rereading you."

"i’m not drunk. okay i am. but the feelings? those are real."

"i wish i was braver when it counted."

"it’s you. it’s always been you."

"do you think we missed our chance?"

"they don’t deserve you. but i was too scared to try to be someone who did."

"stop looking at me like that. i’ll fall in love all over again."

"you said you didn’t want anything serious... but i did. i wanted you."

"i’m scared. and it’s not the booze—it’s the idea of losing you."

"i tell everyone i’m over you but then you look at me and i fall apart."

"you were the only one who stayed when everything else fell apart."

"if i tell you i love you, will you leave? please don’t."

"the world feels quieter when you're near. like everything makes sense."

"you taste like trouble and i’d still kiss you again."

"god, i hate you. i hate how much i still love you."

"every version of me has wanted every version of you."

"you were my home. i didn’t realize until i lost the key."

"don’t leave yet. just one more moment like this. please."

"i think i messed up. i picked everyone else before you."

"if i asked you to kiss me, would you?"

"remember when you held my hand like you meant it?"

"you’re my what-if. and it kills me."

"can we just stay like this? pretend it’s still us?"

"i forgive you. even though it still hurts."

"i lied. when i said i didn’t care. i always did."

"you look so good right now. it's annoying. stop it."

"you make the world feel a little less heavy."

"i saved every text. is that weird?"

"i love you. even if i forget this in the morning, i mean it right now."

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When I am feminine it is in a masculine way and when I am masculine it is in a feminine way. What’s not clicking.

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"lenny? can do. that all totally tracks. not comparable, but charlie will always be me. never charles." not a single look of him had the energy of a charles. that was weird. "i respect it. not to disrupt the flow, but did you have some ones you'd like me to use for you? pronouns, i mean."

oh, it's so nice for someone to not immediately jump down their throat because of the nonsensical ( that's their opinion! ) shit that comes out of her mouth. "yeah, i guess! like, obviously. kind of like how i prefer to be called lenny instead of lennon. john lennon was a bit of a piece of shit,"

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"exactly. who needs more boring things in their lives? besides like, an accountant or something. i'm sure they think they wanted excitement. but those numbers? they got them conked out of excitement i'm betting." charlie stretched his arms above his head and let the hoodie on his shoulders slump down. the band shirt ripped free of its sleeves and said hoodie hung on his elbows like some sort of punk version of a shrug.

"speaking of not boring. let's go find a hitherto unknown diner with some dark past and some good fucking burgers, huh? i'm starving. i'll buy you a shake if you're nice to me too. pinkie promise." of course, charlie followed it up with his actual pinkie up and out.

"well, yeah—" okay, yes, it was definitely funny — she can't exactly lie about that. at least, not well. but that doesn't mean he needs to be injuring himself to get a laugh! whether he can handle it or not, whether it's his normal or not. she's laughing as she shakes her head at him, gently batting at his hand.

soraya isn't sure she gets it, really — but all of this is about the most dangerous life experience she's got (and she doesn't even have all the details!). she doesn't know how to keep things exciting outside of the mundane i jumped off the second floor onto a trampoline stuff. there's a pause as that thought runs through her head. "yeah. yeah, i guess. gotta keep things from getting too boring no matter where you are."

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"no, yeah-...i m-mean, same. on the age and the...the attempts." aurelia's consciousness was not to the same level as the vampire though. juliette had fully experienced it. there were nebulous times in the pit for aurelia most assuredly. "i-...i know he was," he said with a sullen sort of tone. like a kid being caught doing what they weren't supposed to be. "hard for me to resist my nature, jules. i feel like my...my only value is in doing these sorts of things. c-can't really help myself."

“he  said  that?”  she  raised  a  brow  before  shaking  her  head,  “sounds  like  the  bare  minimum  to  me.  i've  lived  centuries  long  and  i've  heard  men  try  harder  for  less.”  she's  gone  through  so  many  lives  and  the  downfall  of  effort  has  been  incredibly  disappointing.  why  should  the  bare  minimum  be  praised  when  men  back  then  would  write  letters?  serenade  outside  a  window?  try.  "you  can  do  whatever  you  want,  but  just  know,  he  sounds  like  he  just  wants  to  get  in  your  pants  and  doing  very  little  work  to  grab  your  attention."

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"please do. you know the best way to my heart is constant flattery and a pretty smile." which soraya had in spades most certainly. the dark haired witch smiled wider and wider, the grin perfectly balanced between excitement and something mischievous.

"so demanding of me. you're lucky i think it's hot when a woman tells me what to do-" she teased one last time before sliding down to press her lips gently to soraya's as her arms slid further onto the shorter woman's neck.

she grins. "i'll tell you every day if that's what you want, and it'll like, never be any less true." and honestly? there are worse things that soraya can think of than reminding an attractive woman that she's hot as all hell on a daily basis — especially if the woman in question is thorn. the smirk thorn is currently wearing? really cements that for her.

soraya shakes her head a little, leans in closer. "you can have a real kiss, too," she says easily. "you just kinda gotta meet me halfway with that one. i don't have platforms on today."

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scared. right. that was an understatement. but jackie let her have it. they didn't need more of the overblown realizations and revelations. she could deal with just a simple observation for this one. her foot twisted at the gnarled ground beneath her,, something idle and useless. a fitting movement for jackie who had been basically both of those this entire fucking time.

"i think even confronting shit out here would just leave us with nothing but annoyance and burn out." there would be no way to move on from it. grudges could linger in the trees like the soft autumn winds. "no- yeah, totally get that. i'm right there with you. i'm just pissed at everything right now. didn't mean to take it out on you in particular."

she had actually meant to a little bit. laura lee had always been an easy target at practices and games and in school. jackie had to try and be better. for no one else but herself. try being the operative word there.

❝  i  think  everyone's  just  scared,  ❞   comes  laura  lee's  response,   voice  gentle  as  she  carefully  picks  her  words.   her  free  hand  fidgets  from  its  spot  at  her  side  and  brows  furrow.   she's  never  been  the  type  to  quite  find  her  words  in  just  the  way  she  wants  them,   stumbling  over  half  -  baked  pep  talks  and  clumsy  forms  of  encouragement  during  practices  and  after  games.   and  yet  still  she  tries,   even  more  so  since  the  crash.   knows  that  if  she  needs  the  comfort  through  this  nightmare,   then  so  do  all  the  others.   laura  lee  figures  they  all  owe  it  to  each  other  to  at  least  try  to  look  out  for  one  another.   a  sigh,   and  then  she  continues.   ❝  we're  all  just  not  really  in  our  right  minds.   it's  just  easier  to  snap  than  it  is  to  confront  our  fears.   that's  what  my  mom  always  says.  ❞   she  smiles,   hopes  that  jackie  takes  it  to  heart.   she's  always  been  such  a  good  captain  and  a  far  better  pep  -  talker  than  laura  lee  could  ever  hope  to  be,   and  she  hates  to  see  the  way  she's  broken  down  slowly.   she  squeezes  jackie's  shoulder  lightly  before  letting  her  hand  drop,   and  she  smiles  wide.   ❝  aw,   that's  really  sweet  of  you  to  say   ...   i  just  want  us  all  to  make  it  through  this  okay,   that's  all.  ❞

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"That's okay," He replied simply. Charlie was not one of beautiful words or sentiment- poetics usually were lacking in punk music. Everything was a little more than just on the nose. "There's plenty about people I love that I don't know. Doesn't mean I love them less. Just gives a bit of a mystery to our relationships is all."

And she wants to believe him so bad. Her blue eyes searching his brown and trying to see the good in Charlie’s words. Of course, there was a lot. He was being honest and that meant a lot. He was telling her she could still be saved. She could still be herself after years of using her trauma as a crutch it felt like she wasn’t really living at all. Then Charlie somehow found her and made things better. But it was hard for her to trust.

“You don’t know the things I’ve done Charlie.” She murmurs looking back at him with tear streaked vision.

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none of this is as bad as she made it sound. god, didn't she wish. some of them ended up on the proper side of things. cindy alone had been a massive help to jackie getting readjusted all things considered. charlie had been an old acquaintance of sorts so that pushed things along as well. there was a darkness to the place though. faust alone being one of them.

"i've got a-a...-'i survived fucking cannibals' thing so maybe i'm just locked into a survival mode you don't understand." it was less anger now and more exasperation. how did she accurately explain without just outright saying it? it wasn't as though it was entirely a secret, but cindy had advised her not to freak out every visitor.

"how do you feel about...about spooky shit?"

soraya doesn't even have the good grace to pretend to be sheepish in the face of jackie's visible incredulity. "yeah, a fucking taser. most people don't really carry like, an arsenal, princess." and that taser has served her well when needed! it's totally like, trusty. handy-dandy. whatever people were saying now. she can't keep up. it feels like every single time she's online someone is saying something new — and listen, she loves some slang as much as the next guy! but it can be so hard to keep track.

"i feel like none of this is as bad as you're making it sound." she's not saying there's no reason to worry, but, well, if it's that bad, jackie shouldn't even be agreeing to give her a tour, right? she should be like... knocking her out and dragging her out of here or something. "do you have an anxiety thing or something."

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'sweetheart' had his face turning up the heat. and fast. but that was just aurelia when it came to romance. sometimes he had to take breaks from his trashy romance novels from how cute they found the couple to be. vic was infinitely more cute than any romance book they had found so far. her eyes widened slightly and the succubus leaned into the touch just slightly. "oh. oh, well if y-you're offering. i d-don't see why i should turn that down."

the grin was not helping the blush. then again, what wasn't it that vic did that aurelia wouldn't find endearing at this point? she was like putty. "good news. i like both me being s-stuck with you and then, you know, saying c-cute stuff about you. cheesy and cute. i've got you, babe."

she's breathing out a laugh before she can stop herself, shaking her head. "not my vibe, sweetheart, sorry." all her lies are about herself, an insistence that she's fine and will be fine when she's not — a need to make people not worry about her, to not be a burden. that isn't something that she needs to say in the here and now, though, especially not with the current, somewhat nebulous state of their... whatever the hell this is. they'll figure it out. "i mean, if you want me to hurt you—"

vic grins at him. "or whatever." she's scooting closer to them a moment later, reaching out a hand to pat her thigh affectionately. "the point is that you're kinda like, stuck with me. even if you say cheesy shit. especially if you say cheesy shit." there's another laugh. "it's kinda cute."

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"suppose. not really one to be making those sort of calls though. think the deserving parts of words and worlds are better left to the ones who aren't literal monsters." stza found it hard to be light. there was always a heaviness with him. he knew it. it was a difficult hurdle. even as he tried (like with vic currently), he couldn't help but think of his words like they were going to be chiseled in stone somewhere. like so many of the headstones in front of them.

there's a shrug of his own in response to hers. "could have been. never know where my kind are lurking. plus fantasy doesn't always translate to reality. there's surely people who dream of, you know, sex stuff, but it doesn't mean they want it in reality. same thing with the spooky stuff."

she very kindly does not argue with whether or not bitch is the appropriate term for her specifically (it is, she's pretty sure — at least, most days). instead, all she does is give him a fond look, eyes crinkling at the corners. "some people deserve it, y'know." it's not an odd word to use, not to her — but she's been raised with no such views (and she's heard worse things directed at her, besides). this one? this is all just fun and games.

there's no hiding the ugly snort of laughter that she lets out, and she doesn't even try. "okay, but... why would that be where it stops, y'know?" a little shrug. "it's not like — look, it's not people like you that have fucked my life six ways from sunday." another shrug. "so what if you gotta use people as juice boxes."

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Jasmin and courtney coming to a con near me

Photo op gonna happen for sure now

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@killer-cinnamon said: here. take this gun. don't pull the trigger unless it's absolutely necessary. @ Thorn ♡

thorn didn't take it. instead, she spent a long moment staring at the weapon before turning her eyes back up to him. the change in her face was evident, confusion mixed with concern. "i have no doubts that you know what you're doing with this. and with giving it to me. but i can i just say that you keep it and i'll trust my safety with just you instead of a weapon? is that something that you'll hear me out on?"

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a kiss to convince them not to leave bed in the morning. @ cindy

❤︎‬ ˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 & 𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋 !

not everyone had the beauty of working in a cemetery. nor did many have the advantage of 'working' somewhere that observed the supernatural world rather than the regularly reality of everything. cyrus had been gone from it for so long, he would likely not be as understanding. cindy, though, had been fully involved in the 'normal' when she had been alive before. so she knew that vic had to go. she knew it in her brain.

but the rest of her? she was not giving up so easily. arms around the barely clothed other, cindy drew the other woman closer to her with a pout saved for just these intimate moments. it was far too vulnerable of an expression normally by her standards. "stay baby. call out. for me. i'll make you breakfast. take you to the record store or something," she whispered to the woman's ear before kissing her gently.

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lazy kisses on the sofa while the television runs. @ aurelia

❤︎‬ ˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 & 𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋 !

whatever was happening in front of them had long since been ignored. the two of them had gone from half paying attention to not at all. aurelia's fingers had drawn lazy circles on vic's legs while her hands had moved through their hair. each movement gentle and absent-minded. at first. as it always seemed with them, the casualness of their existence around one another just spurred feelings of wanting.

aurelia initiated the first kiss. it had been short, just leaned over her to press a quick peck. but he lingered and vic had given her a look when she had. "don't look at me like that-" aurelia managed out with a breathless giggle. now they were in deep quite a few more kisses and not a single one showed a sign of either of them wanting to stop. instead aurelia moved to slid himself fully on top of her and press themselves closer together.