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Was waiting for a reply the whole time, only to be told bumaba lang

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"how can you be so calm, like nothing bad is happening around you?"

I answered, "because everything I was scared of happening, happened."

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Forever a "I understand" with a constant heavy heart.

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No revenge, because one day you'll look back and realize that unlike everyone else, i genuinely had the purest intentions with you and just wanted to love you.

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— Captain Flint (via letsbeloneytogetherr)

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“you will never be too much for someone who can’t get enough of you”

— Unknown

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Cause I’m gonna be free and I’m gonna be fine… maybe not tonight.

Florence + the Machine; Delilah

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You cried while you were sleeping, maybe you feel my pain. But we’re both here for each other, our presence should be stronger than the negative thoughts, kakayanin natin to bebi.

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Your hug feels warm. My mind is not at peace pa but your presence makes a big difference, thank you bebi, I love you. Sana maovercome na natin lahat ng hindi maganda. Mahal kita.

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I’m literally shaking right now, and I remember. Two days na tayo di naggamot. Maybe that’s why my emotion is all over the place

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I can’t say it. I don’t want to ruin everything, the peace we have right now. But I’m not gonna lie, it hurts. When they said na nakakasama mo magkape na maganda, you said her name and the fact na after that sinabi mo bigla na hindi mo natatandaan, I know there’s simething wrong. I know hindi ka magkukwento sa kanila ng someone irrelevant. I don’t know if you’re physically attracted to her, or crush mo sya, before man o ngayon na hindi mo na kaya sabihin kasi tayo na. But that keeps me awake. Crying. Maybe Doc Rhyan is right - “siguro ganun kalaki yung takot mo na mawala yung partner mo” - yes. Kasi sa ganun ka nagstart sakin di ba? Crush lang, kaibigan lang. And it still lingers, the fact na mas pinili mong masaktan ako para sa “quick catchup” nyo. The pain is still here, and it adds up. Ginagawa ko lahat para malibang, sinesecure ko yung sarili ko, but my mind won’t stop asking what ifs. What if di na lang kayo magchat sa teams pero pinupuntahan ka nya para magyosi kayo, what if magkasalubong kayo at ayain ka nya then your reason will be “biglaan lang”, what if you got closer kasi may mga bagay na ayaw mo na ikwento sakin at sa kanya mo na kinukwento, what if mas makuha mo yung confort na gusto mo sa kanya kase magulo na tayo, and many more. Masakit sakin pag sinasabi mong di naman na tayo bestfriends, kase kung hindi na ako, sino na di ba? Random shits lang yung nakukwento mo sa kanya? Eh ganun din naman tayo dati. That’s how we started di ba? Bebi I love you so much. But please don’t let my what ifs happen. The day you committed that you want to marry me should also be the same day that you prioritize my peace of mind than keeping up with some random girls that I’m not comfortable with. I’m not mad at you, I’m just hurt, and I’m just scared. I’m sorry bebi, it doesn’t mean that I don’t trust you. I do. I’m just scared to lose you, and my thoughts isn’t cooperating. I love you.

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Please let us win this time, I treasure this girl so much