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[donna-1-3]

Tired. Tired of picking myself back up. Tired of having nowhere to go. Tired of fighting. Tired. Tired tired tired.

[donna-1-3]

[donna-1-3]

I can’t have hope anymore. It just breaks me. So no, don’t ask me to have hope. Nothing breaks one like false hope

[donna-1-3]

Too much pain to fall asleep

Too exhausted to stay awake

And too miserable to do anything about it

[donna-1-3]

there’s just so much pain and i’m alone with it all.

[donna-1-3]

I wish everything would stop

I just

Want everything to fucking stop

[donna-1-3]

Everything feels like rejection and it makes me sick

[donna-1-3]

[donna-1-3]

[donna-1-3]

I want to die. I really want to die. I’m so fucking tired. I just can’t do this anymore. I feel so lonely. I’m afraid of living. Please I want to die. Please…

[donna-1-3]

I feel. so. lonely.

Honestly not even a feeling.

I am. so. lonely.

[donna-1-3]

“I don’t know how to do this anymore. I don’t know how to get better. My head is a dark place and it only gets worse, day by day. and I have no idea how to stop the darkness from coming in. I have no idea how to save myself anymore.”

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[donna-1-3]

Everything about myself feels so disgusting.

[donna-1-3]

[donna-1-3]

I don't know how to live like this anymore

[donna-1-3]

I’m jealous of those who can function like a normal human being. They don’t have anxiety holding them back from everything, they don’t struggle to get out of bed or have to put on an act that everything is fine when its not. They don’t struggle to hold friendships and relationships… they don’t feel sad for no fucking reason everyday. Those that can hold jobs and work towards their dreams, the ones who have self esteem and see the beauty in themselves. Those that know what its like to feel safe and secure, not insecure and fearful of it all. 

[donna-1-3]

When people think you’re getting better but you’re just getting better at hiding it.