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It drives me absolutely bananas and nuts when people hate on someone for shallow and even bigoted reasons when they have actually harmful behavior and stuff that deserves being a hater towards. Like I’ll see people hate on someone for doing OF(your garden variety misogyny) and being “””cringe”””(garden variety schoolyard bullying/vilifying autistic coded traits) meanwhile the same person is kinda mean and rude towards others to their face or vague posting on main, puts others down to lift themself up, and lacks the self reflection skills to make a meaningful change.

And to me (a professional hater)I think your hate can be more well placed on behaviors and attitudes you wanna reject from your life, and not just like ew I’m already primed to not like this eeewwww.

But I also figure it doesn’t really help to be a hater on main about it tho yknow? And that’s where I think about the whole being “real” or “professional” and like idk man sometimes you don’t need to be real about EVERYTHING. Especially if it’s another person, even famous people to an extent, because most of the time people don’t change by being called out or having someone publicly say something about them; even if it’s in good faith. Most people don’t always respond best to criticism and no matter how you phrase it it won’t be guaranteed that they’ll receive it positively. Which can suck if you mean well.

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God my brother’s cat is pissing me off so fucking much. First he fucking takes this cat even tho I told him “hey maybe not, he seems too friendly to be feral, wait at least a week” and what does he do?? Bring him tf home. And then that’s when it starts, he starts being a fucking little asshole to my elderly cat, who now lives every day in fear because of him. That’s not even the worst of it. I thought shit would be good because he was moving out; except he fucking leaves that cat but takes his other one. And a slew of excuses as to why 🙄🙄🙄no, Mom and Baban don’t really want him here that bad, you’re allowed to take him to your apartment, and frankly I don’t give a flying fuck if your (now ex) gf’s dogs don’t get along with him, you wanted him so fucking bad that’s now your cross to bear.

I feel like the only way to get me and my cat away from it is to move. I now have to move away from this stupid fucking cat, I never wanted because no one in the house has time for another cat!!! And it just makes me so fucking mad how selfish my brother is about it ugh and he knows how I feel about having his little prick ass hanging around here terrorizing my cat. And also just like the cat would have a better life at his house where he would have two other cats to play with. Like what’s the real reason you don’t want him at your place??

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It’s crazy how delusional dems/liberals are trying to say “stop calling for Biden to step down! He’s fine!” Like bitch are watching the same dude?? Be so fucking fr rn, he’s a malignant narcissist that only really cares about himself. Like broooo

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Wish I could block anti-vegan posts. Like I’m sorry I don’t wanna see you be a brain dead dumb fuck on main with you being sooo confidently wrong. Anti-vegans need to catch more smoke and we really do need to bully carnists more

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Seeing internet drama like… match up or I suppose mirror the subplot of a webcomic I’m reading is so so fascinating. I mean it’s like drama that we’ve seen a bazillion times if you’ve spent enough time in the right circles but idk seeing it playing out too with real people got me thinking again.

Waffles under cut

Ima keep it vague even tho im an absolute nobody, knowing my luck, this will breach containment and then my unorthodox new ways of thinking will ruffle feathers haha but yeah.

Essentially the comic is about the aftermath of a murder and how people are living their lives after that. One of the accomplices is free and living their life and they’re also online. People find out and bully them, someone even suggested deleting their accounts and going offline for a while, but they don’t want to. One thing that is brought up with it is everyone keeps telling them they got to take accountability, which is true. But that’s got me asking well what does that look like? Like it can really look a lot of different ways but watching irl drama play out it makes me wonder if anything will ever be good enough for people. Like I’ve even seen this same scenario play out many times and there’s usually always a vocal group who just want the guilty party to be forever guilty. Is it good enough for them to take accountability, apologize, and rectify their behavior? (I’m talking low stakes drama here not like heinous abuse lol) it just really feels like if you ever make a tiny misstep online that’s your cross to bear forever. I feel like it’s very reductive and doesn’t allow the person to grow and change, which, isn’t that what we want? For people to grow and change and better themselves? Like idk man at this point in time if you can’t show me examples of someone doing XYZ shitty thing within the last year, like yknow something recent, I really couldn’t give a flying sideways fuck. If someone said “hey I did XYZ at this time and that was fucked and shitty and I’ve worked to change myself” and they haven’t done XYZ and did work to change themself, then idk man you sound incredibly immature and like you gotta mind your own business. Like it’s perfectly fine to be like “I don’t like this person they’re icky to me” that’s fucking fine you don’t need a good reason to not like people they can just give you general ick, water and oil don’t mix and you won’t like everyone you meet. You don’t have to be a bully tho 🙄🙄

OMG lemme waffle about other silly drama I saw that’s just like oh myfuckingod you do not need to and also hey wait a minute. So this one car influencer who is a very mean girl that’s also mean to other women while trying to present as a ✨Girl’s Girl✨™️ has had this, I shit yall not, YEARS beef with this other gal. So two face (that’s what ima call her lol) years ago, like BC(before covid) times TF was doing modeling and mechanic work, wow femme model on car soooo original /s 🙃so at this point in time she was actually a ✨Girl’s Girl✨™️, or at least pretended like it well enough lol, and was friends with some other blue collar girlies. She said she’d help them start their own OFs if they wanted and one took her up on that offer. Idk what happened exactly but TF started accusing said girl that she was copying her and taking her business. And like this was all so funny to me because like this just gave me DeviantArt sparkledog furry drama circa. 2007, like legit “yOu CaNt PaInT yOuR cAr PuRpLe!!11 YoU cOpIeD!!!!2!11!” Like bro this is straight up “you copied my design because you also have stripes on your tail” like day one internet shit, get with it girl. But also this is funny too because I seen her at that time basically copy someone else’s video like cmon. So anyways that basically made their friendship implode on itself and she has since then had a vengeance on this poor girl lol so here’s the nutty part, TF will constantly say “this girl is always copying everything I do, I saw her doing XYZ” which like is kinda inconspicuous when you hear it but then it’s like wait, you say you do not like this person, you try and avoid them, so on and w/e so it’s like wait,,, HOW do you know that??🤨unless you’re checking out her page and following what she does 👀 sussy. And like the other gal she’s cool and nice, we’ll call her GG, but I NEVER see her saying SHIT about TF unless TF did something like get her page flagged or something, which I feel is normal. And like mind yall this has been going on for over the span of years. So being an outside spectator to this all I seriously think TF is projecting onto GG, at least with the “oooh you stalking my page waaah” like girl idk you the only one posting videos about someone else 👀and also I feel like TF feels like I wanna say attacked but not really, maybe more like GG makes TF feel inadequate? But like I feel like seeing GG’s journey it’s what TF have strived for, like GG was a dealer mechanic, and now has her own shop with her mans and their friend. Like TF has only ever worked at like quick lube places and I think very very briefly at a custom shop or something. Like a month or less. And while I can say TF can perform the work, she is not what I would consider a high level mechanic. Like you just realistically have not seen that many cars, you’re not going to see the normal stuff that comes into places you’re not going to have that experience. Yeah working on your own stuff gives you skills a dealer or shop won’t but there’s far more you’ll learn in a shop, and I feel like deep down she knows that and feels threatened by it. Cause like girl why the hell else would you be paying so close attention to this game that you’d clown on her miscarrying like brruuuuuhhhhh you did not have tooooooooo 🥴🥴🥴that VIDEO could’ve stayed in the drafts😶 the fact she made a video too is big YIKES. But wow yeah it’s nutty asf, reality is stranger than fiction

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Idk what it is, if I’m actually seeing something there, or if I’m becoming an old fart or whatever, but there’s just something about TikTok and tiktokers that seriously annoy me/give me major ick.

Idk if it’s the super predatory algorithm, that gives me ick from all social media sites (which is probably why I’ve reverted back here) and that there’s a bunch of kids there (ew get away) and really just a lot of trolls and immature people :1

Also the way someone can go viral so easily is very yikes too. I’ve seen some people that probably never really intended to have so many eyes on them have that happen and how some really can’t handle it, it can really hurt them. And I’ve seen people that did intend to be in the spotlight getting viral off it and how it changes them.

It’s crazy too because there was even someone I knew that it happened to. She was super cool and humble and chill before, she was even fairly popular too on insta and stuff (think like 10K-40K following) but after she started to gain more followers I started noticing a change in attitude…

before when she would talk about her accomplishments it would be in a “I’m so proud of myself for doing this!” “I worked really hard to complete this! I really know what im doing” in more words than that ofc, but then it started to change into a “I completed this, y’all could never” “I made X thing, no one is as good as I am” “I did X and totally changed the game, I am the greatest ever and everyone else sucks” again in more words I’m just capturing the vibes/undertones of the posts.

And with that the way she spoke started to be really misogynistic even tho she was also a woman??? Like wyd calling other women females, and degrading them then turning around and crying about how you hate it when men do that to you? Like make it make sense 🤦🤦 and honestly I think I saw that change happen after she blew up on TikTok.

She started to attack and bully other women that got sponsors when she wouldn’t, and when people would call out her behavior she would play the victim, and act like she’s so perfect and she’s just getting hate for no reason. 🙄 it’s really disappointing more than anything really, like don’t really get what happened, what caused the shift.

It’s crazy too because my room guy was actually childhood friends with her and still talks to her. He was even saying how she completely changed and is too far gone now. It’s sad really, he was super bummed by it understandably.

There’s a lot of people I wish would just be better but they just won’t, and honestly probably never will.

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Is it even possible to live a fulfilled life that you’re content with?? It feels like there’s always something bringing me down and I’m fighting to keep my head above water and I can’t live my life because I’m just constantly trying to survive. I feel like I have no one to talk to or vent to or anything I just have to keep it in and stay strong like nothing is wrong. I feel like I’m just living out of obligation to those around me

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Y’all ever feel like Life doesn’t give you what you NEEED to grow and excell at your best self?? Yeah me too. I feel like I NEED. TO. HAVE. TO. leave my house or else I’m going to die there. I’m going to waste away and actually fucking die. I literally can’t function there I need to get out but I can’t get out until I found a job and stay there long enough to make enough money to get out but then I’m like what if I can’t keep my job because i don’t seem to be very good at that and then while I’m trying my damnedest to get better and do better and be an actual functioning human being how can I do that without meeting inevitable failure??? I feel like I’m destined to become a mentally ill person on the street, or die on the way there. I feel like I could just waste away one day and no one except like maybe 3-4 people will notice that I’m even gone. I have no one to talk to about how I feel and I feel like I’m just screaming into the void writing here but I literally have no where else to vent these feelings and at least I don’t burden the void or whoever the fuck cares enough to even read this (no one lmao) with my shitty fucking feelings.

I wish I could be better, do better, but I feel so trapped and I feel like my two choices are to let myself rot or to become homeless because I can’t live in my house I can’t I can’t go back I fucking hate that place I can’t be there I can’t be there I can’t be there I can’t be there I can’t be there I can’t be there please please please release me from that prison please!!!! I bet of you!!!! I’ve been wanting to get out of that prison for years now!!! YEARS. I need to get out. I can no longer stay in the environment that I became so broken in. I can’t stand it I really can’t I feel my soul dying. I need help but there no help around me. I feel like I’m sinking but I’m trying to swim, I’m kicking my legs and tryin g to surface but I just can’t.

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Damn I wish I was neurotypical. I would literally have 0 problems if I was

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Fuck why can’t I have nice things, if it’s not my carelessness or klumsiness fucking up having nice shit for me it’s always someone else why??????? Whyyyyyyyyy???? Why can’t I have and enjoy nice thingssssss it’s always like if I do have something I can enjoy it’s like not so nice like my car. I mean I love it to bits don’t get me wrong but it leaks oil everywhere and the heater doesn’t work so then I can’t see very well out of my windows when it’s cold. It’s like I’ve got to be struggling with something no matter what it’s shitty I just want a break gosh. I don’t have high standards or anything either like for my other car as long as my swap works and it starts whenever I turn key and doesn’t leak I’ll be happy, idgaf if it had power steering at this point or even heat (even tho it does) basically I feel like I don’t ask for much why can’t I have nice shit every now and then

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Wow I wish people fucking listened to me. It’s one thing when it happens where I work and I end up just having to wait like 5-10 minutes for someone to figure out what I already said, but when it happens at the dentist it’s a little more than just an annoyance, it can end up with having your $200 tooth fucked up AFTER I SAID IT COMES OFF like do they just want to cost me money (yes) or what??? So fucking ridiculous I stg I’m ready to carry a fucking megaphone with me everywhere and yell what the fuck I’m saying. I’m ready to slap the next person that doesn’t fucking listen to what I have to say, I mean that’s not too much different than what I have to essentially verbally do.

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I wish i could’ve started pursuing my interests earlier, sometimes I wonder where I’d be in my pursuits if I had started earlier. What if I used my first 240 doing what I want to do now instead of being a taxi for mostly ungrateful people?? Maybe it wouldn’t matter what I did either way regardless.

Sometimes I wonder what would’ve happened if I was honest the last night I saw e.. but then I also wonder why do I care/does it matter?? And a part of me wants to know to know what it’s like being honest like that to people with your feelings, it seems like mostly people are jarred by it mostly and put you at arms length after but granted some people don’t. The other part of me feels like nothing would have changed if I was honest, if I decided to spill my guts then, if they did end up seeing me cry and seeing what was wrong. But at the time I felt like I was crying because I knew that that was going to be the last time I saw them, as a person a part of my life, not as a stranger, not a ghost.

I have these strange intuitions and sometimes I can’t decifer if it’s a legit intuition or if it’s paranoia, low self esteem etc. or what. Sometimes I see these things almost like choices I can make that create alternate timelines and these other times where I’m having my best life. I often joke about “I wonder in which alternate reality I’m having my best life” and people lol and get a kick out of it but I’m lowkey fr

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Y’all ever wonder how much easier your life would be if you were neurotypical??

Yeah me too.. there’s so many things I feel like I’ve missed out on because of my mental illness.. hobbies and things I once had a passion for I can’t even bring myself to do anymore and it’s very depressing tbh. Like I use to love to draw but I haven’t really drawn in months. I feel like I would be able to keep a job and have a good job, and not always be selling myself short. I feel like I would have my car done already if I wasn’t too depressed to get out of bed.

Is there ever an end?

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Am I the only one who feels like their whole life is Opposite Day?? Like I feel like whatever it is I want or am trying to accomplish the opposite happens! I hate it like it feels like I'm trying my damnedest out here and I have something that's like "nope! Nope! Nope!" And keeps putting obstacles in front of me trying to make me fail, or I feel like it dangles what I want in front of me, even letting me get a taste of it too sometimes, just to have it quickly taken away. What am I to do??? It absolutely makes me ever so fucking confused when I hear and see people say shit like "I want/want to be with this person. I'm going to make them mine" and I'm just sitting here like ?_? ?_? ?_? How???? And can you show me how 😹😹😹it kinda really pisses me off, like how in TF do these people constantly bag these awesome partners???? And Im over here can't even catch a cold😹😩idk I really do feel so undesirable at times really :1 I feel like I'm only really good for my body😒and people will tell me "oh no that's not true!" but like??? I'm not seeing proof otherwise??? Idk maybe it's something I'm doing??? Like I'm trying my best tho! I'm being super nice and caring, I make sure I don't say anything too sharp, maybe I'm too independent of a person?? And people are taken back by that??? Maybe it scares them?? Maybe I'm too cold??? But I also don't want to suffocate them either.. idk I just feel like my whole /lack of/love life is star crossed :1 like anytime im ever so close to finding happiness with another person it's snatched away... what really kinda irks me now is that my ex zucchini that some dumb bitch drove us apart so I left because I didn't deserve that is now like "I would be with you if I wasn't with her blahblahblah" like 😑😑😑you didn't do shit back then!! Now you're all "bleh I want you now" and tbh it's probably cause I don't let him hit it anymore 🙄🙄🙄but like bitch your faith sealed this bitch got you locked up for life now that she having spawn :p she sneaky she know what she's doing 🙄anyways it's just v annoying.. another thing that's annoying when people I have 0 interest in are fucking nuts about me 🙄like this dude that lives in a different state than me!! first!! and foremost!! Like I get you can do long distance but I ain't about that tbh I've gotta be able to see your goofy ass at least like once a week or w/e.. anyhow, this fool just sees what I post on social media and I'm like??? You don't even really know me??? Like wth 😑😑and people like that it's like once they ACTUALLY get to know me they end up going 😳😳😳and realizing there's actually far more to me lol idk I just hope that since I've had to go thru all this BS that I've accumulated enough suffer points™ to cash in for 1happy good time with another person lol I'm jk but I mean not really ahahaha I've been hanging out with this guy and he says he really likes me and stuff and it really seems like it too, but he wants to be single rn since he got out of a long relationship,, which is totally reasonable and I get that and respect that and everything but I'm like oh man what're the chances 🙄😹😹I just have very bad timing I've noticed tbh but regardless I just hope it goes well

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When boys show their emotions and not act closed off for no damn reason 😩😚😛😍😍😍👀😏😏💯💯🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽😚😍💯💯❤️❤️❤️❤️👄👅💦 need me a freak like that 😚😚😏😏😍😍💯💯💯🙌🏽🍆💦👅

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Ugh summer has kinda really so far,, actually 2017 has kinda really sucked 🙄and last December I was saying "2017 is going to be my year! I'm going to turn it around and do X, Y and Z!!" Then it actually became 2017 and no shit since the first day I had this feeling like something was out to get me.. which I feel it was since only 6 days into the fucking year I broke and dislocated my wrist 🙄🙄thanks you dumb old cunt that shouldn't have been driving, I hope your shitty ass rots in hell.. anyways it's just been one thing after another lately too. I finally quit my job, which is the best decision I've made this year,, I should've quit after they didn't want to give me the time off for my accident,, THAT HAPPENED ON COMPANY TIME!!! I'm still bitter for good reasons but yeah. Supposedly I have another job at valvoline but they've been lagging on setting up orientation and tbh it just feels like I'm getting ghosted by this company now 🙄🙄geeze what am I chopped liver?? Speaking of ghosting,, I've been talking to this guy that SAYS he likes me but hardly takes the time to message me anymore :1 I mean I suppose he could be busy but like, if you like someone you make the time for them right?? Idk I just feel like I keep choosing people that aren't there for me, every official relationship I've been in has been that way, only one relationship wasn't and it wasn't even official we were just close friends (maybe zucchinis??) but idk sometimes I feel like the reason I didn't want that one to be official was because he dumped his gf to be with me and I didn't what that to happen to me?? Which it did eventually 😹I s2fg I'm a negative psychic, I can ALWAYS predict when someone wrong or bad will happen lol. Anyways yeah every relationship I've had my partner has just been very distant, like my first relationship was this guy in HS, he NEVER texted me or tried to see me or ANYTHING, I was always the one making the effort which just got tiring after a while and it was like what's even the point??? I can't even remember if we officially broke up?? I think we did lol. The next wasn't too different, he did show interest in me and stuff and we'd hang out but then when we made it official he didn't hang out as much?? He'd always be studying and he'd almost never message me, although he'd at least make the effort unlike my last ex.. but then after two weeks he just stopped liking me I guess and broke up with me.. I think it's kinda stupid whyd you get with me if you was just gunna break up with me two weeks later??? My next relationship was kinda unconventional but I was actually happy at that point in life, like I didn't think about wanting to die constantly, and I looked forward to the coming days.. but some dumb cunt shoved herself between us, created a tension and I think she put thoughts in his head too because he started to be less supportive and yeah she basically broke us up. And I had also gotten fired from my job at that point too and I had enough and had to leave... idk it just makes me feel like I'm not suppose to have a significant other in my life, that I'm supposed to be alone.. that I'm going to be alone forever... idk that's okay I guess :1 people always getting me fucked up anyways, like why have people there if they just gunna leave me like everyone else? Like what's the point of me putting in all that time and effort if you just gunna do me dirty? Idk I think I should just come to terms with being alone and hated forever, okay maybe not hated but yeah lol