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my moth collection

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✨💗 Funshine Jill! 💗✨

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Aim for the raspberry, mister--

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An update on Apples to Ashes

Hi, it's Prima, the creator and sole developer of Apples to Ashes.

Wow, it's been two years since I conceptualized Douglas and the idea for a visual novel. I think about how much has changed for me personally since March 2022, the different things that have happened to and for me. It's hard to sum it all up into a few words, but to put it plainly, there's been a lot of hardships I've encountered in my personal and professional life since starting this journey, along with some blessings that kept me going along the way.

When I first dreamed up this concept, I was experiencing a lot of new things. I was participating in fandoms for other indie "yandere" VNs, I was drawing a shit ton and garnering a following. I was actually becoming the active, well known artist I'd been striving to become since around 2015. I was so inspired and, somehow along the way, I gained the attention and respect from a lot of other creators. It was so insane to think so many talented people cared about what I was making, considered me worth following, etc.

That only grew as time went on, especially when I started the A2A project. From that point, I watched in absolute shock as people engaged with my own ideas, drew my own characters. They were hyped for this visual novel, they wanted to know more. Douglas started to get associated and drawn with other indie VN characters. This feeling of being put beside all these other amazing creators was disorienting to say the least.

Due to a lot of things I've been through, it feels like the magic wore off a bit. A lot of the drive I experienced at the peak of 2022 kind of plateaued, and... lots of things changed for me. I started taking commissions, I started doing more than just art, like getting back into video editing and voice acting. I got hired by a studio, I got a lead role in another visual novel. I told myself that I can do all these things that I want to, despite the additional need to work a regular job, and the fact that ADHD VERY much has hands. Financial hardship and mental illness... double homicide

A lot can change in two years. My inspirations for the setting in A2A came from my experiences with a job I had at the time. Well, needless to say I've had a few jobs since then, and been through a few very... jading experiences. The person I was when I conceptualized Apple to Ashes and the person I am now are two different people. I was very bright-eyed and inspired, especially by my peers. I wanted to attempt to do something I'd dreamed of for a long time: make a visual novel, and it felt possible, tangible.

I've learned a lot since then. There's a lot that goes into making a game, especially considering I'm largely pursuing it alone. Due to that, and the choices I've made, the things I've been through, Apple to Ashes progress has largely been halted. I feel a lot of pressure to make it something satisfying for everyone that's given love to this project. I feel a lot of guilt about the lack of progress, and feel like I'm earning the ire of people who are tired of waiting, or perhaps losing any momentum or interest I had originally garnered.

All that being said, I'm not saying all this to come to the conclusion that this project is canceled. It's not. I want this story to come to fruition. I want to give everyone waiting the experience they deserve. I want to reach the full potential this concept offers. I want to explore the themes I've attached, use the experiences I've had and witnessed. I want to bring light to these issues using this medium.

The TLDR of this is... Apples to Ashes will happen when it happens, but it is going to happen. To those of you who have offered your patience, I really appreciate it more than I can put into words.

Thank you for reading.

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masterpost of some commissions I've done over the past year!

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Source: https://pin.it/5bKDbm8 & https://pin.it/ivYwroe

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GOTHIC BEAUTY: ISSUE 69 Into the Mind of a Twisted Genius

Come and read an EXCLUSIVE interview with the man behind such deliciously horrific films such as "Dearest Departed"!

Interviewer: "So how is a guy like you single?"

Shaun: "Ha ha well, I'm focusing on my work right now. …and I'm pretty happy where I am, I mean I've got a cute cat and a really great roommate."

Interviewer: "See? That's just the sort of thing people are into! A down to earth kind of guy like you MUST have someone special in mind!" Shaun: [visibly nervous] "I don't-" Interviewer: [interrupts] "Your work touches the souls of the living and the dead. And many speculate your inspiration has a 'source'..." Shaun: [flustered] "I mean I get inspiration from lots of things, not just from a silly little crush!" interviewer: "A crush?" Shaun: [sweating profusely] "OH HA HA I THINK I HEAR MY MANAGER CALLING ME SORRY GOTTA GO BYYYEEEEE!!"

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The drama! The mystery? Is our dear little director crushing on someone?? Find out in our next volume!!

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Jack my beloved...

Wavy haired Jack hits different...

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AU where Shaun and Clover have polar opposite twins!! Stella's an outspoken animal lover with an adventurous mind! Orion's a quiet book nerd who prefers the company of stories rather than people.

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This AU would follow after the "death" of Sunny Day Jack. An event that left Clover and Shaun a little more scarred than they'd like to admit. Can these two overcome the past? Or will it come back to haunt their somewhat peaceful family life?

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Papyrus is [mostly] proud of you!

...mostly.

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Im very normal about Jack, I promise.

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He finally got his (uninterrupted) smooch

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ratatooie...

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SDJ- Don't look behind Taylor...

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