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and for Amy Polehler’s next trick she should bring Kathryn and Aubrey on together and make them do an in depth analysis of why they kissed so hard the sound people had to turn their shit down

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The meltdown Tumblr is about to have when this movie comes out lol.

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Need to feel skin on skin, need to be somebody’s person, need to be needed.

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OUCH

And i’ll kiss every scar on your body & soul to remind you that love doesn’t have to hurt.

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agathario + text posts

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i have so many thoughts about this so i apologize if this is scattered.

i saw this originally on TORRES’ story yesterday and it honestly made me sick. this disheartening. and something about the way people have been reacting to julien’s new upcoming project as opposed to how they’re reacting to lucy’s is making my heart hurt

like, idk, they’re both essentially at the same level of fame since they were both in boygenius, and yet lucy is getting article after article and interviews upon interviews about her and julien’s press has been relatively quiet beyond the one podcast and the one magazine. while lucy is doing radio, she is getting written about in multiple articles, her music was used for a fashion show. idk, i just feel like people are reacting so differently to each of them and it’s frustrating.

like people like to act like julien is less talented or something when she’s not! i’d even argue more talented but that’s a whole other conversation.

it’s like when the whole summer boygenius was touring everyone only ever talked about phoebe. idk, it rubs me the wrong way.

connected but unrelated thought,

people’s reactions to lucy’s video yesterday also piss me off quite a bit

like, i keep seeing a lot of the same arguments, some that i agree with and some that i dont.

for one, complaining about a lack of representation. ie, they’re all skinny, they’re all white etc.

to that i think there were a couple of reasons. one, she was looking at the submissions for the video the day of the tiktok ban. now i don’t know how it all went down but i’m assuming she probably wanted to reach out to more people but had trouble.

also! as much as i love boygenius and their solo stuff as poc, i’m aware that most of their fans are not poc. those concerts are white asf and that’s fine. but she can’t pull poc out of her ass. she was casting from her fan base. if it’s mostly white, that’s what you’re gonna get in the video.

and another complaint i saw a lot was that it was mostly people who were her friends or were influencers. ie, mattie, naomi, elio idk how to spell his name. and again, i think this was just cause of the tiktok ban, she probably saw mostly people who got the most views in that short window of time she was looking.

another thing i saw was that these people weren’t masc enough or butch enough. and to that i say, shut your mouth. these are real people. you can be frustrated with the way the casting ended up happening and you can recognize that it wasn’t a full view of the whole spectrum of mascs/ butches in the community but attacking the individual people she put in the video is wrong.

i also saw some people complaining that she had elio in the vid and hes a trans man. if he calls himself masc and he auditioned and she casted him that is between them, not us and them. being masc isn’t inherently lesbian. being butch is. if he called himself butch that would be a different story but he didnt.

i also saw people complaining about cara being in it. i personally don’t care for her, but who cares…? she may not be masc presenting in her public appearances but we don’t know her. so get over it…

i also saw people that it was only influencers and her friends in the vid… i get this one, but again. i blame the tiktok ban. we in america thought it was going to be gone gone for a while leading up and a good chunk of time as it was banned. yes that wasn’t the case but i do think she just picked people with the most views, ie, the influencers. i do wish she would’ve been upfront that it’s gonna be a bunch of her friends but whatever. (sorry if i’m repeating myself i have a lot of thoughts.)

i also keep seeing people in the community being rude to lucy and saying she’s just an annoying bisexual. she’s not bi i dont think. and she is quite publicly unlabeled or pan. you can recognize the very white view she has of the community and recognize that she could’ve been more diverse without mislabeling her or bringing up her label at all.

and idk, it’s also so baffling to me that both of these people are getting attacked for just existing but like, julien is dealing with real homophobia and lucy is dealing with very chronically online biphobic assholes. it just baffles me how no one is talking about the real and scary homophobia that julien is experiencing but i swear i’m seeing everyone and their mom jump to attack or defend lucy.

and another thing. i think the general lack of public support for julien is because she’s masc, everyone wants a masc or a butch until you actually have protect them. idk

i’m thinking to much and if none of this made sense i’m sorry.

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Julien Baker at Thalia Hall in Chicago 09/24/24 via stefano.todaro on instagram!

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julien baker at thalia hall in chicago, 9/25/24 – shot by midwestrapp

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sour breath - julien baker

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I think this issue would be fixed if Liv and Rhea kissed on the mouth

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Holding onto you… (pt. 2)

Summary: following part one… “let’s have a baby”…Callie and Y/N start their pregnancy journey.

Pairing: Callie Torres x reader

TW: mentions of miscarriage and loss!!

please, please skip this part if it is a trigger for you… the other part will flow semi seamlessly if you can’t read this part.

******************************************************** You stood there frozen, two pink lines staring back at you. “Oh my God, I’m pregnant.” You whispered to yourself in the empty locker room the seeing the test in your hand, you heard a door open and quickly shoved the positive pregnancy test in your pocket.

“Dr. Torres?” A gentle voice taunted with fear whispered.

“Yes?” You turned seeing Jo standing there.

“Your wife… Err… the other Dr. Torres is requesting a consult.”

“oh okay, um…” you grabbed your stethoscope hanging it around your neck, “let’s go.”

“wait I can come?” She asked shocked that you would let her tag in on a surgery instead of doing scut.

“Your my intern aren’t you?”

“yea, but…”

“well I don’t know about everyone else but my goal is to make you a world class surgeon, which means surgeries…” you trailed.

“thank you.” She grinned.

“yea, yea don’t get used to it.” You chuckled seeing her excitement.

a few moments later you found yourself in a reading room looking at the scans on the walls, the only thing pulling you from the trance is Wilson’s pager going off.

“Oh sorry gotta go…”

“your fine.” You said as she scurried out of the room.

“So Dr. Devine, who did you intimidate today?” Callie said teasingly.

“Ugh intimidate you know I hate that people say that.”

“Yea well Ortho Goddess marries Trauma Goddess, they should be intimidated.” She leaned in pulling you close by your hips, placing a quick kiss to your lips with a mischievous grin.

“haha very funny.” You giggled against her lips. “I do have some news for you though…” you said.

“oh? And what is that?”

“here…” you handed her the test that you had shoved in your pocket.

“what is… oh my God, Y/N are you?” She gasped.

“yea.” You shook your head tears coming to your eyes, hugging her.

“your pregnant, we’re gonna have a baby.”

the next few weeks flew by, you were waiting to tell to many people but of course Jo found out bc she walked in on you and Callie talking about it. It didn’t matter much though over the last few weeks she had become like family, the little sister you never had, Meredith and Bailey knew because Callie told them and of course you told Addison. Everyone was so excited for you both, that was until one night.

You were laying in bed, Callie behind you one hand protectively around your stomach as you both slept, you started to stir next to her feeling nauseous. You sat up slow letting your sense come to and that when you felt it wetness on the sheets, your body felt sore and cramps were slowly intensifying as you came to.

“Callie?” You called, letting your eyes adjust, “Hey baby?” You shook her shoulder gently. You reached a hand down feeling between your thighs, that’s when terror set in, you could see the deep crimson staining your finger tips, “Callie, Callie wake up!!” You yelled.

“Y/N what’s going on?!” She shot up, wide awake.

“The baby, Callie, I’m bleeding.”

“no, no…” she quickly got out of bed and helped you, you don’t bother changing as she rushed you to the hospital, cramps turning into contractions, every gasp tearing through your wife. She called Addison and told her to be ready.

she pulled up into the ambulance bay, Kepner and Hunt running out alongside Addison and Arizona who quickly barked orders.

“I want as much O neg as we can get and get me monitors for mom and baby, we’re going right to OB… let’s move people.”

Before you new it you had every monitor you could imagine hooked to you, nurses rushing around the room, “Callie?”

“right, I’m right here.”

“I’m scared, what if?…”

“no… no.” She said trying to calm you down.

A few moments later and everything went quiet, you held your breath waiting for relief to come. Addison came into the room, the door slowly closing behind her.

“What? What’s wrong, what happened?” You asked.

“um… well, it seems that…” she stopped taking a breath and letting a tear fall while trying to compose herself.

“No… No!” You cried out, sobs overtaking your body as you pulled Callie closer.

“I’m so sorry.” Addison let tears fall, how do you tell your best friend that she just lost one of the only things she’s ever wanted.

Callie climbed into the bed with you pulling you to her chest as she let tears fall into your hair, you sobbed into her chest your entire body shaking. Addison quickly left the room, going to inform Webber that you and Callie would both be needing time alone to grieve.

Returning to work weeks later was no different, not many knew about the pregnancy, those that did know were solemn but admired the way that you kept pulling through. Though many could see the open wound that still haunted you, Callie was by your side for all of it, grieving with you and helping you as you processed everything.

though the first time didn’t work you tried again, the second time didn’t take so you tried a third, so far nothing but you were hopeful.

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forever and a day

ruby soho x reader

psa::: this is my first fic so please take it easy on me!

Sweat trickled down my face. “God i’m so nervous” i thought to myself. my head was running at a million miles a minute. “is she okay? did she change her mind? oh god, was my mother right about me?” my mind wouldn’t slow down. suddenly a hand was placed on my shoulder. “calm down, everything is gonna be just fine y/n” my best friend whispered in my ear. i breathed out. before i could respond, her music hit. not her typical rancid them, oh no. this was a different kind of day. this song was the song i fell in love with her to. this was the song that played in my truck the night she kissed me for the first time. memories filled my mind of everything we have been through. Sarah guided Cash down the isles, he was our ring bearer. not for behind him was my niece throwing flowers. and as soon as everyone was in place. here she came. in that beautiful white dress that fit her perfectly. god she’s beautiful. the tears start to trickle from my eyes. i try to fight them but i know i cannot. all the memories of us flashing though my mind. god, i can’t believe im marrying her. once she gets to the end of the isle her father places her hand in mine. “you take care of my little girl. okay?” he said to me. “ you know i sure will” i told him. he walked off and she turned to look at me. “oh baby, don’t cry my love!” she said as she wiped my tears. i grinned as my cheeks heated up. “you just look so beautiful” i whispered as she wiped my cheeks with her surprisingly soft hands. as our song came to an end. we turned to listen to the reverend. after a long string of words and agreements that could never fully express the love i held in my heart for her. we were officially woman and wife, and i kissed the love of my life. then her song hit, yes her wrestling theme. because it was more than just an intro to her. plus it made a bomb ass walk out song. i picked her up bridal style and i ran out that room. once those barn doors closed behind us. i sat her in her two feet. i looked her in the eyes as she looked in mine. “i love you dori. i love you as long as the sun burns bright. hell, i’ll love you forever and a day.” i said to her. tears streaming down both our faces. the look in her truly sincere eyes told me everything. i kissed her. and i began to ponder our future. damn, im excited for this forever.

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Wisteria tree.

Aichi, Japan.

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take no chances

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