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no other social media site gives me what tumblr has given me . i love this place . it’s awful here. i’ll never leave .

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you can go back to the past but nobody’s there

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And she uses what she does for me to manipulate me. She ALWAYS brings up how she cooks for me whenever I complain about anything. Like okay… you cook MAYBE one meal a day sometimes not even that. You wash ONE sink of dishes every day or two. Otherwise, I do everything. I sweep, wash the floors, deal with the litter box, and the dog waste. I do the laundry, wash it, fold it, put it away, and clean the mirrors and do most of the taking out the trash and recycling with her sometimes helping if I have to take both out at once. I wash the dishes and the counters that she makes a massive mess of btw. I pick up her clothes off the floor. I throw away her trash. But I’ve never used it against her!! NEVER! I’ve never said I do more then you so suck it up, I’ve never said well I do this this and this to get out of something.

Plus, if I won’t eat when she’s offering to cook, then she 99% of the time just won’t eat herself, so she guilts me into taking the food so she’ll eat too and then guilts me with the fact I eat what she cooks. She’ll go down to the gas station to get smokes and grab me a Diet Coke and chocolate for us to share and then say I should be grateful because she went out in this heat on that long walk (which usually she catches a bus one way anyways and she skateboards so most times she does maybe ten minutes of walking) AS IF she wasn’t already going!! She was going either way!! I didn’t make her go! Didn’t ask her to go! And ofc I always say thank you, because I still appreciate it she’s still doing something hard and getting me something but seriously she’s just using it against me. And I hate picking it apart I want to just be able to be grateful that she even does cook as much as she does or goes to the store even if for her own reasons and just happens to get me something I appreciate it really I do it’s still something I just wish she didn’t use it against me 😭

No fuck that. I won’t let her make me feel guilty. Damnit. I forget just how terrible she can be, and just how recently. She’s good at convincing me she’s better now, and that may be somewhat true, but not really. Only thing is is she isn’t full blown sa’ing me anymore but she still forces/coerces me to kiss her and let her touch my ass and thighs soooo that’s still under the sa umbrella ain’t it so technically she isn’t even really doing anything better. SHE’s better as in she sh’s less and eats but she doesn’t treat ME better. She’s just sneakier about the abuse.

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She has this way of making me feel terrible and sick and guilty and like IM ruining everything. But our relationship wouldn’t be like this if she would just. Fucking stop 😭 I want to ball sometimes. I haven’t had a good cry in a while. I wanna cry like how I used to, unable to breathe, but now I can barely let one or two out before my brain shuts down and stops it.

No fuck that. I won’t let her make me feel guilty. Damnit. I forget just how terrible she can be, and just how recently. She’s good at convincing me she’s better now, and that may be somewhat true, but not really. Only thing is is she isn’t full blown sa’ing me anymore but she still forces/coerces me to kiss her and let her touch my ass and thighs soooo that’s still under the sa umbrella ain’t it so technically she isn’t even really doing anything better. SHE’s better as in she sh’s less and eats but she doesn’t treat ME better. She’s just sneakier about the abuse.

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No fuck that. I won’t let her make me feel guilty. Damnit. I forget just how terrible she can be, and just how recently. She’s good at convincing me she’s better now, and that may be somewhat true, but not really. Only thing is is she isn’t full blown sa’ing me anymore but she still forces/coerces me to kiss her and let her touch my ass and thighs soooo that’s still under the sa umbrella ain’t it so technically she isn’t even really doing anything better. SHE’s better as in she sh’s less and eats but she doesn’t treat ME better. She’s just sneakier about the abuse.

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“I have to accommodate your autism and you have to my Allism” WXCUSE ME?

She just said to me “sometimes I really wish you weren’t autistic” like okay thanks. So do I. Thanks. Gonna cry about this tonight. Maybe now but I don’t want her to see so guess I’m gonna distract myself with something

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Y’all 😔 I forgot to update you sorry. Soooo it was one of those scams where they try to fake rent out a place. But we called the realtor and confirmed it was a scam! Unfortunately. But we uhhh kinda broke into the place before we knew lmao the door was open! In my Defense!

Might’ve found a house! Going to view it todayyyy

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Might’ve found a house! Going to view it todayyyy

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Not my sister saying she’s struggling because she’s surviving on 1200 a month for a couple months meanwhile her col is way less then mine and I’ve been living on 1500 (was 150 less like a year or two ago) for three years.

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She just said to me “sometimes I really wish you weren’t autistic” like okay thanks. So do I. Thanks. Gonna cry about this tonight. Maybe now but I don’t want her to see so guess I’m gonna distract myself with something

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HALLELUJAH BTW this is a gift from the gods and I will treasure it and do my best 🙏 I am steps closer to becoming a free human. The fact I’m HAPPY about her words instead of breaking down, terrified I’ll be alone and die sad and lonely, is huge progress for me

I think I’m single bro

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so what if I want to have total control over every single thing at all times. just let me lol

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Like she was like we’re more like close friends who do other stuff and more like sisters then anything and agreed if anyone asks we can say we’re single and stop doing stuff together if our new partner says they don’t like it soooo

I think I’m single bro

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I think I’m single bro