Hey, friends with poor memory. This is a sign to go ahead and learn anything you want, even if you're afraid you're going to forget it all. Read Wikipedia articles, watch documentaries, take free classes, and delve deep into books and lore. Maybe I'm the only one who has this fear, maybe not. But learning for pleasure is just as much--if not moreso-- about the joy of the experience as it is about memorization.
A job I was applying for mentioned I would be working with something called a “frosted flatwoods salamander”, which sounded positively delightful, so I looked them up and I could not be more pleased with what this beast looks like
she was initially formed out of pottery clay but came to life because it was her true hearts wish to be friends with everybody in the world and the princess of the faeries helped her
Did you grow up as a disabled person and think "man, I am shit at being a human being. How does everyone do it?" and then think you were just lazy or less motivated and start believeing everyones comments about how you have no motivation and are genuinely just lazy and then you still wonder why you're not good enough no matter how hard you try and then you get old enough to realize that not everyone experiences the same thing you do and you were just given a short straw or are you normal?