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I can deal with the bad nights when I’m with my baby

& you’re making me feel like I’m loved by somebody 

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“She is crazy talented. Her and Adele are the two most talented writers. Taylor, Taylor is probably the, you know, probably the fastest lyricist. I mean, she just spits out lyrics like it’s just like she has them in the back of her head.”

— Ryan Tedder talking about Taylor Swift on KIIS 1065

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Holy Orange Bottles Each Night I Pray To You

So it’s been nearly a week since Taylor released Lover, and one song, in particular, has put words to emotions I’ve felt for most of my life. When listening to Soon You’ll Get Better I was already prepared to cry, I’d heard the stories from sessions and knew what it was about, what I wasn’t prepared for was the shock wave I felt when hearing the song. I’ve had two kidney transplants, spent most of high school and part of college living off a machine, and taken medication every single day of my life. I need those holy orange bottles to stay alive and keep my transplant. I’d spent years hearing from friends and family, “ soon you’ll get better” while waiting for a life-saving transplant. I’ve been in the shoes of the person people say the things Taylor is saying in the song. I’ve also been delusional and pretended what was happening to me and my life wasn’t real. My mom and I have had endless conversations about good vs bad nurses and what makes a good nurse. Like Taylor, I hid my fear from my parents, hid the anxiety and terror each doctor visit brought when I got nothing but bad news. I had lost my first transplant from my mom, which added another layer of guilt to everything I had been feeling. The last pre-chorus Taylor talks about life not going back to normal if life ever was normal. That’s exactly how I felt after transplant because growing up, sure I’d taken medication and done monthly blood draws, but after doing dialysis for almost three years I had changed immensely, in a way most people who’ve lived healthy normal lives don’t understand. I now live with the fact someone died which resulted in me getting live a “normal” life, I am more aware of the medication I take and their side effects on my body, I also developed some fun mental health issues that culminated from spending years on a machine and bullying in high school.            She also talks about spending years hoping and repeating her mantra to her mom, and I couldn’t help but think of those years on dialysis and those around me sending their thoughts and prayers and motivating mantras to me as well. 

I don’t expect  Taylor to ever see this post, but if you happen to come across this Taylor… I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you yet again for sawing your raw emotions and your story with the world in such a beautiful way. I want you to know that I’m sending you and your mom so much love and your family is in my prayers. I want you to know how much your music has helps me through those awful years, and help me now. You really are like a gift to the world. Thank you, Taylor.

Love,

Grace

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When Taylor said, “My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust. Trying to find a part of me that you didn’t take up,” I really felt that. 

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Honestly I feel like “chandelier still flickering here” is just a pretty way of saying yes my room light is still on at 2:00am because I’m writing about you in my journal

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Taylor Swift - United we stan

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my heart, my hips, my body, my love– tryna find a part of me that you didn’t touch, gave up on me like i was a bad drug… now i’m searching for signs in a haunted club. our songs, our films. united, we stand. our country, guess it was a lawless land. quiet my fears with the touch of your hand! papercut stings from our paper-thin plans. my time, my wine, my spirit, my trust– tryna find a part of me you didn’t take up. gave you so much! but it wasn’t enough… but i’ll be alright; it’s just a thousand cuts

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Asking the traffic lights if it’ll be okay, because you look to traffic lights for direction–can I keep going forward, do I need to slow down, should I stop here? Love iiiit.

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I know we’re all having fun with the traffic light memes, but for reals, I love that lyric so much…like god, haven’t we all been there??? driving home after some kind of breakup or heartbreak and you just look up out at the sky or the lights around you, looking for any kind of a sign things are happening the way they’re supposed to….but they’re just lights or sky or cars driving by, and they really don’t know??? 

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UGHHHHH <3<3<3

People are missing the point behind the line

“I ask the traffic lights if it’ll be alright they said “I don’t know”

When you’re so low and upset with something in your life, you’ll look to anything for reassurance. I believe this is what Taylor was doing here and I love it so so much.

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Everything about this snl skit absolutely slaughters me. The flawless directing, the acting, the music. God the fact that every shot looks like it came from the poignant ending scene in Arrival fuckign murders me

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Flaws and acceptance (it’s all me in my head, so many lines that I’ve crossed, I’ve got a hundred thrown out speeches I almost said to you, I know that I’m handful, I’m the only one of me, I’m the one who burned us down, daring you to leave me just so I can try and scare you, I blew things out of proportion, I’m to blame)

Moving forward (now I daylight, now I’m wide awake, it isn’t love it isn’t hate it’s just indifference, it’ll be alright, it’s gonna be alright, I’ve waited my whole life, I’ve learned a lesson, snakes and stones never broke my bones)

These two are my favorite. As I’m writing this I’m waiting for one of my bestest friends to reply to me so that we can resolve and argument. And I think that Taylors songs really help understand the concept of vulnerability.

Themes & Motifs I’ve noticed on Lover 💗💗💗💗

America (american glory faded before me, american stories burning before me, our country united we stand, american smile)

New York City (im new york city, back and forth from new york, cornelia street)

Religion (bless my soul, devils and angels, all of false god, breakable heaven, sacred new beginnings, that became my religion, church bells, I pray to you and Jesus too)

Cars & backseats (drunk in the back of the car, in the backseat drunk on something stronger, I say casually in the car, traffic lights, street lights, I’ll drive, the road gets hard, rainy cab ride)

Flaws and acceptance (it’s all me in my head, so many lines that I’ve crossed, I’ve got a hundred thrown out speeches I almost said to you, I know that I’m handful, I’m the only one of me, I’m the one who burned us down, daring you to leave me just so I can try and scare you, I blew things out of proportion, I’m to blame)

Moving forward (now I daylight, now I’m wide awake, it isn’t love it isn’t hate it’s just indifference, it’ll be alright, it’s gonna be alright, I’ve waited my whole life, I’ve learned a lesson, snakes and stones never broke my bones)

Childhood (laughed on the schoolyard, it’s like I’m 17, than I was at 16, school bell rings, sidewalk chalk, I never grew up, like a child when our eyes meet, reference to humpty dumpty and sticks and stones rhymes)

Blue (it’s blue the feeling I’ve got, even if it makes me blue, indigo eyes, we’re so sad we paint the town blue, now you’re blue, yours has been blue)

Chance (devils roll their dice, the whole school is rolling fake dice, I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this, then something happened one magical night)

Windows (windows flung right open, staring out the window, I look through the windows of this love, killing me slow out the window)

Weddings (my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue, I’d marry you with paper rings, rice on the ground looks like snow)

Drugs/alcohol (the wine is cold, I get drunk, drunk in the back, from the bar, high like your friends, gave me up like I was a bad drug, my wine, drinking in the afternoon)

Seasons (autumn air, cruel summer, every night that summer, loved you 3 summers, living in winter I am your summer, covered in snow)

Holding on and hope (help me hold on to you, I never wanna see you walk away, I don’t wanna lose this with you, I hope I never lose you, I’m so terrified of if you ever walk away, desperate people find faith, I’m feeling hopeless, blind faith, you’re the kind of guy the ladies want, I’m highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you)

Home (leading us home, I think you should come home, I take the long way home, feels like home, they say home is where the heart is, I love my hometown, coming home from the bar)

The number 20 (in a 20 year dark night, have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years, 20 questions)

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Themes & Motifs I’ve noticed on Lover 💗💗💗💗

America (american glory faded before me, american stories burning before me, our country united we stand, american smile)

New York City (im new york city, back and forth from new york, cornelia street)

Religion (bless my soul, devils and angels, all of false god, breakable heaven, sacred new beginnings, that became my religion, church bells, I pray to you and Jesus too)

Cars & backseats (drunk in the back of the car, in the backseat drunk on something stronger, I say casually in the car, traffic lights, street lights, I’ll drive, the road gets hard, rainy cab ride)

Flaws and acceptance (it’s all me in my head, so many lines that I’ve crossed, I’ve got a hundred thrown out speeches I almost said to you, I know that I’m handful, I’m the only one of me, I’m the one who burned us down, daring you to leave me just so I can try and scare you, I blew things out of proportion, I’m to blame)

Moving forward (now I daylight, now I’m wide awake, it isn’t love it isn’t hate it’s just indifference, it’ll be alright, it’s gonna be alright, I’ve waited my whole life, I’ve learned a lesson, snakes and stones never broke my bones)

Childhood (laughed on the schoolyard, it’s like I’m 17, than I was at 16, school bell rings, sidewalk chalk, I never grew up, like a child when our eyes meet, reference to humpty dumpty and sticks and stones rhymes)

Blue (it’s blue the feeling I’ve got, even if it makes me blue, indigo eyes, we’re so sad we paint the town blue, now you’re blue, yours has been blue)

Chance (devils roll their dice, the whole school is rolling fake dice, I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this, then something happened one magical night)

Windows (windows flung right open, staring out the window, I look through the windows of this love, killing me slow out the window)

Weddings (my heart’s been borrowed and yours has been blue, I’d marry you with paper rings, rice on the ground looks like snow)

Drugs/alcohol (the wine is cold, I get drunk, drunk in the back, from the bar, high like your friends, gave me up like I was a bad drug, my wine, drinking in the afternoon)

Seasons (autumn air, cruel summer, every night that summer, loved you 3 summers, living in winter I am your summer, covered in snow)

Holding on and hope (help me hold on to you, I never wanna see you walk away, I don’t wanna lose this with you, I hope I never lose you, I’m so terrified of if you ever walk away, desperate people find faith, I’m feeling hopeless, blind faith, you’re the kind of guy the ladies want, I’m highly suspicious that everyone who sees you wants you)

Home (leading us home, I think you should come home, I take the long way home, feels like home, they say home is where the heart is, I love my hometown, coming home from the bar)

The number 20 (in a 20 year dark night, have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years, 20 questions)

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as Taylor said...

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I’m pretty sure I’ve been having an anxiety attack since 8:30 and it’s fucking almost 10:20 rn. HALP!

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Hey @taylorswift,

First, I love you so much. Your heart is so many beautiful colors and warm. Thank you for making music that helps me get through the days since I was 10 and I heard Tear Drops on My Guitar on the radio as I was switching stations. I’m 23 now, and your music always helps, always. 

I know you wrote this song for your mother, and every time I listen to it I pray for her and your family, but I also had a really long day and feel like a super-duper failure and listening to this song gives me hope that I’ll feel better. I know that’s not why you wrote it, and it’s really dear to your heart, but I wanted to let you know that your music is magical and helps people in ways you might not have intended it to. This song and The Best Day and Never Grow Up are all songs I love to listen to when I’m feeling mellow and drained or feeling warm or like I need warmth. Because these songs are so so so warm. 

Thank you, <3, for your magic. 

I hope you see this <3 @taylornation

love, 

naeela dreamerswiftlover