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Hey, hola

Afer all this fucking time, after previosly suffer like hell, after almost forget about you, you just send that like nothing. When i was suppsed to be interested in someone else you get waiting for what? You see, thats why i hate you. I will talk to you casual as you. Let see where all this is leading but dont try to break me again. 

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Nothing to say

Why this way, why i want to tell whats happening to me, why i want to share my emotions and feeling, why im so different?; Sometimes happier than ever sometimes sad as i never felt. Is this good for me?, my life is slowly turning into a love story and i dont wanna thing on things that i was concerned before. I met Summer yesterday, and i realize is something common in a lot of people, a lot of persons in this world had and have his Summer. Ive realized in someway that is not really a bad thing and eventually i will get over it. Perhaps im getting already over it, im kind of open in certain ways, meeting people, doing things for myself. Im exploring someone, finding new things on other persons. Days ago i could not believe that this will happen. After all i was right about what i said to her, we are losing the interest, and it seems that it doesnt affects you on any way. This is becoming our end? Or this didnt start never. 

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Is this the beggining of the end?

Nothing else than indifference

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The boring eternity

Ive been thinking about our thinks all over this days. Our think ths days have become so bored and empty that makes me really sick and it makes me think if it really woth it. under the perspective of my friends you are a totally waste of time and its driving me to the edge. At this moment im really realising that, and  evene im wondering how to et this thing done, get over it rigth now. but theres something that is always keepen me on doing that. Tonight, with a bit of enthusiast of sending you to the cliff, hang out with my friends in a kind of mood that i would call “hunting mood” yeah, i was pretending to find something in other person, and i dont even feel bad about it. But at the end i found a girl that treats to aproach me, in some way i like her, but just with i few words i knew that was nothing like you, and i can tell that special occation even make me more consious about our thing. I just want that our thing keep going, but sometimes you make me feel so bad with your indifference and all your boring shit. I dont know what to do, and i hope to find a solution this days. fuck.

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Nightcall Tonight, i  came from a long day of shooting with the small faith that she would text me to hang out, and suprisely there was, she even said it literrally. Thats strange, i  simply loved it. with certain amount of fatigue i obviusly accept it and have a not planned at all  chill night, and it became just wonderfull, simply but really tenderly .oh, we kissed on an Uber  and hold hands during WardiansoftheGalaxy.

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Complex situation

Here it goes again, the situation that started like 5 years ago, and its nothing more that the mixed feeling with this girls, that i would name like day and night by the opposite personality that they have. Day is a person that always want to be with me, just the funny thing, that she wants it just whe she feels lonely. Day has a great personality and sometime i really want to try something with her, but i have some distrust with all she says , i know she lies about something just for convinience, and a dont want that, but perhaps she kind of want something real. Night, when i think i really know her its when she really surprises me, sometimes in a bad way, sometimes in a good way. Just a days ago, ive been talking with Day so much and saying promessing things, but then i realise that night is always there, on her own way, and i like that strange way, because it gives me some space for myself. Im feeling really bad, perhaps im being a fucking jerk, but just tonight i told to Day that i want to be at this moment of my life with Night. that would leave things a bit clear for now.  

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Felipe, ya que ninguno de los dos dice nada, me parece pertinente entonces que hablemos de la situación ya que al parecer esto siempre será lo mismo. Para mí si es mejor aclarar las cosas ya que no me siento nada cómoda. Vos a mi enserio me gustas pero hay veces no estoy de acuerdo con tu actitud y también admito que la mía no es para nada la mejor por eso no quiero que las cosas terminen mal y también prefiero que encuentres a alguien que pueda apreciarte mejor.  Creo que es mejor darnos un tiempo para pensar mejor las cosas igual yo a vos te quiero demasiado y tampoco quiero que esto sea un adiós para siempre.

Aclaremos las cosas entonces. Carolina, tienes razón esto siempre ha sido lo mismo y parece que no cambia. Hemos quedado estancados en situaciones similares desde siempre. Entiendo cuando dices que no te gusta mi actitud en algunas ocasiones, pero como te lo he intentado explicar, nace de pensamientos irracionales que se evocan a partir de mis sentimientos hacia ti. Tú siempre te escudas bajo el manto de que eres una persona incomprensible y distante, pero créeme, sé que en el fondo no eres del todo así. Si yo quisiera encontrar otra persona  que pudiese apreciarme más que vos, lo habría hecho desde hace muchísimo tiempo atrás. Me cuesta entenderte, es cierto, pero te quiero a ti en esa forma que nunca antes había sentido por alguien jamás. 

Yo tampoco quiero que esto sea un adiós definitivo, y personalmente  no necesito tiempo pensar las cosas mejor. Creo que tú eres consciente de lo que se necesita para que esto no vuelva a lo mismo y no termine de esta manera. 

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Refusing to accept that i want to talk you and see you sooo bad.

#cl

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Somesick day

Here i am, still waiting for some signal, some light, something that show me and confirm that thing you say and ive always belived. But none of that, not a single thing, just misery. Im hating you so much. 

#cl

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Dont you see im dying inside?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-eohHwsplvY

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Us, in somewhere...