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Proper Help

Feel the chill running down your spine?

They told you by this age you should start to feel fine.

But they didn’t face what you faced at age twelve.

A kid suppose to be playing outside

was turned into a desperate soul when her brother died

They didn’t tell you that time went on?

They didn’t tell you when they called on the phone?

That he was gone and you were about to face the one thing that you can’t erase?

I guess they didn’t think a kid would see

the bark missing in slashes right off of the tree.

And the glass embedded in the grass

No one told you you’d be the kid to get stares when you went back to class?

No one knew and no one cared

You were just a kid

and after all life wasn’t meant to be fair.

You have permanent scars

with every passing car

and you carry a boulder on your shoulder

you face pain that even the devil himself can’t contain

You lay low and you worry day after day

cause you never got the proper help that you needed

When he was taken away

Fast forward you are grown

you keep getting left all alone

you think it’s your fault

for the things that you were never taught?

You rely on others and it brings you pain

You don’t see the good in yourself

because they say your name in vain

They tell you they love you

but they distance themselves

and you wonder why you even try

because you’ve learned in this life

you either live or die

Or is it all just a lie?

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Well said!

Pieces of paper will often out live the people who left marks on them. So leave marks that you’ll be proud of in years to come.

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Resentment

Why do I have to repeat myself time after time just asking for attention?

Attention for love, things that don’t even cost a dime to give?

Am I not worth it to you?

Did I overstay my welcome?

Laced up my boots to through hell and high water for you.

What is love to a man that doesn’t love me for me?

Got me lookin’ in the mirror finding every insecurity just to feel secure in my flaws.

Sitting by the bed, eyes soaked in tears, and you are sleeping the night away.

I guess 9 months carrying your son ain’t enough for the man that you’ve become.

I promised myself I wouldn’t get this low trying to convince myself that the world really isn’t this cold.

Begging to God to let me know when it’s okay to let go.

I feel trapped, I’m not going to lie. 

I’m thinking I won’t live to see the next time I try..

try to find where I belong

try to find where I went so wrong

try to fix this all on my own

God knows I love you.

I’d let my heart stop time after time

Do NOT resuscitate with my name on the sign.

I’d lose it all if it meant I could keep you.

Love has no boundaries, I see that now.

I’ve been places with you where I didn’t know anybody

sit around hoping to be your somebody

learned that drugs and bad habits use to fill your body.

How do I compete where I’m already feeling defeat?

How do I get you high?

How do my hands feel..?

when all you’re really seeking is a needle to get your thrill.

man..

I thought I was really what you wanted.

man..

I really thought I was done being this exhausted.

You took my hand, promised me things

I saw it in your eyes all night long

even after the sun had risen.

You felt it too, I know you did.

2 months later and there’s this kid

It’s not hard to be a mom

women do it all the time

but how many women really care about the man in their home?

Sometimes I wish there were two of you

so I could smile with the good one and hold the bad one.

guide your feet my way

maybe then I’d be enough to make you stay.

You should have told me if you weren’t happy.

I won’t hold your choices against you.

It’s your life after all.

I just wanted to be a part of it

A part of the healing process..

A part of the bigger plan..

I just keep reaching out hoping you’ll take my hand.

I’m not that hard to read

really I am not.

I’m just waiting for the love to come to an abrupt stop. 

I know the future is unforeseen but I just wanna be seen

before it’s too late and all love is lost.