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so i've got a couple more things to say about the squishmallows and stuff like from woolies etc now but i'll do that on instagram because of the couple of photos i took; so this is the last post (for now at least) for this blog, because it's like an ending... but it's not. a divergence. a little difference... and so on and so forth... nom de corndog or just corn or like that korn thing so nom de korn. and carnival name. but anyway. onto the next blog. also all the nonsense still with holmesglen - because i should really just suck it up and start back up at ect but i can't. can't deal with that confrontation and whatnot and whatever so i'll start again at holmesglen. like harry said he'd go to if it wasn't for his mum/his parents... on to eat hotdogs for dinner now.

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"Okay I saw a post on here about someone feeling a shift in energy a week or two ago and I am still on that same boat. I feel like there’s about to be this huge change and it’s going to be for the better? Twin and soulmate also feel it? Anyone else feeling like everything is in free fall but also feeling secure in it? Shit is about to happen but it’s okay? Am I making any sense? I know that CERN is potentially at play here but has anyone else been experiencing this feeling and then have something in their life change for the better?"

"Not sure if it’s Cern! We have a lions gate coming up 8/8 and in between a heavy energetic portal right now. This portal was the same transformative portal that brought separation and surrender to a lot of twin flames last year 8/8 cycle. There should be a post on my page about It, a lot of TF experiences heavy surrendering and tower moments of illusions during that time" hmmm. amy and jay coming back on the 8th. nick at some point during that stay... uhhhh i can't find the fricking thing now but there was a glossary or whatever about triads etc and like it talked about the letters V and N but then it really only explained what the V meant in terms of a polycule etc. but didn't then keep going on to explain and whatever the letter N. because the N is for that tiktok n and naps thing. for nick.

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which takes me back to the poly thing. three things that can be and are usually abbreviated to poly, but only one actually has a right to the term or whatever apparently. polysexual, polyamory, and polynesia/polynesian. the latter being the actual poly... polyamory being known as polyam. polysexual is kind of controversial anyway so it doesn't really have a proper abbrev. because it's just bi. bi+. but just bisexual. but these three things; the three guys... jake, nick, and dino.

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so henry. everything i said still stands. always. but he's not home yet. well; he is - because hong kong is his home... but to melbourne yet. henry pahl house. i remember he did say july 12th, but that must've changed or whatever but now he's there until the 26th. which i like better. given my period and no money and just the way things have been feeling right now, i'm glad he's not coming back yet. but then also last night in the end i felt okay about it. and about things he said. i don't feel so confused anymore. things are still a bit up in the hair but i feel okay about that itself anyway as well. because things are still standing. with what i said. and something about it now going forward feels more freeing; i'm still scared of being hurt (more) and so on... but it's like i've already said goodbye and gone through that, especially with this whole date thing and when he was coming back etc. so as of right now i feel okay. talking to him and going back through and to things felt okay.

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so there's five posts until 400, and i was going to leave it at 395 because of 315 following and stuff, it just seemed to fit, to move onto the polyhate blog, because of all the poly stuff i've been thinking of and somewhat, but then that's just continuing onto another thing and the next thing and so on which is not what i wanted and so on... so i'll make it to 400, then move on. because then it'll be like i'm not moving on at all. which is an ironic sentence. given things with henry... which we'll get to...

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that story thing that was originally on tumblr but then became a twitter post and then a reddit post or something. weird inception type thing but anyway; a love story with no specific gender pronouns but the names were fletcher and mia, and then the last line is about what's mia short for etc. and it's short for michael. so it's secretly a story about two gay guys. but with cari elise fletcher it could be about two girls aye but that's not the point, the point is the mia being short for michael thing. i told nick i had/have a sister who is about five years older than me or something and i'm sure he's seen the winona fraser thing on my laptop by now, and so we have different surnames. he also knows i have half siblings already too or whatever so why the different surname? being married. married to michael fraser. etc.

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"There's an emotional term for this, and it's called 'Martyr Complex'. You just want to treat everyone as positive and as good as possible, but you sacrifice yourself for it." i'm not naive to the idea now that jacob might actually, literally, die.

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"[...] I browsed through it the other day out of curiosity and there’s a lot of suffering in that sub."

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cord cutting? false flames? all the other stuff. the others. the one. whatever. so much. so many fucking connections. the fact that henry's mum is in to this shit? does this kind of thing? past lives and all the rest. his parents are soulmates and we're twinflames. https://www.reddit.com/r/twinflames/comments/vw8g6d/cord_cutting/.

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"the tv series Normal People on Hulu!" and the subreddit, even with all the main stuff being at max like three months ago, the subreddit itself was created in 2015. after richard ryan. i really don't know why i got so into him and obsessed with him. well, not completely obsessed - but whatever it was with him and so on and so forth. and the middle name patrick. jason really is the OSO.

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"So when they say the TF journey is about you not about you two?" the two. the one and the two. henry. fucking henry pahl.

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the twinflames subreddit glossary and everything having been posted 3 months ago??? okay then. henry. even there is a three month thing in that we matched or whatever in march, and then after june and this month... his birthday and going back home to hong kong... three months of something. today he comes back to the henry pahl house. and he's going to be living alone. he said it's for a while. but not sure exactly how long. his sister would be coming back on some weekends or whatever. september is in my head. probably because of school terms and whatnot.

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swolemate. all these people on tinder looking for a gym buddy for some reason. no thank you.

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3-month stands... like the 3 to 12 month thing. and june 29th to september 29th. last year. that's 3 months. from matching with harry, to matching with jaxson (for technically the second time, even though he didn't remember etc.) both of mum's pregnancies with dad were geriatric.

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"Some people have been hurt and rejected so much that it's hard to open up, and that doesn't make them bad" and yeah.

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we're going for three. 3. for that six musical. thought about it last time with the six thing, and then when the ad came on tonight and mentioning it to mum etc. so that's that. and i know i have definitely posted some kind of tinder screenshots on one of these blogs, but i can't find them... so maybe i didn't? i swear i did. but i had tinder instead of twitter. tinder for twitter. tinder as twitter. and that guy saying why not just get a twitter etc. not at me; at these dudes or whatever. but the dudes aren't real. so i guess the screenshots aren't either.